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I lay on the dirt of the battlefield, my stomach pumping out every last drop of blood in my body. I can hear faintly hear Toga breathing beside me, but it's all a blur. I don't know what's happening because I'm fighting unconsciousness, I've lost too much blood. I can feel my breath coming in slowly, my exhales and inhales are weak. My body is growing cold from the lack of blood flow and all I can think is, This is it. I'm going to die without being able to help my parents, without being able to see Deku or my class. I'm going to die here. I can feel Togas hand slip to my cheek and her lips creep towards my ear so I can hear her clearly.
"I'll give you as much blood as you need..." She says in a hushed tone. I nearly choke, I don't want her to die too. Himiko means something more to me than I've ever been able to comprehend. We understand each other, we love the same way too. I wanted to come to her for the rest of her life and give her every last drop of my blood, to make her happy. I can feel her stick needles into my skin, the soft pricks didn't feel like anything to my numbing body. I can feel my eyes growing warm as Toga lies beside me.
"You can't... Please, Toga." My voice is raspy, I sound pathetic.
"This is what I want." She thinks she's comforting me, when in reality, she's the last thing I want to lose right now.
I can feel pressure on my stomach, Togas soft and pale hands were covered in my blood. I wanted her to stay with me. My beautiful girl... The soft pink hues that fluttered around us from my quirk were fading into just the background. I only wanted to stare at her, just until one of us was gone. I knew that one of us would die, but I really didn't want it to be her. I feared death, I didn't know when it would come and take me. When the grim reaper would slash it's scythe through my body-- and I would close my eyes to rest for eternity. Toga laid beside me, her arms wrapping around me. I can feel her naked body slowly growing cold as she pumped her blood into me.
"You can't leave me, Toga... I need you. We still need to talk about love together." I begged, tears streaming down my bloody cheeks.
"It's okay... Just hold on tight." Her voice was like a soothing balm to me. But it hurts, the thought of losing someone so precious to me was suffocating.
Toga is muttering to me, I can feel her voice growing weaker and softer until it's nothing. I feel myself breaking down, My sweet girl was closing her eyes.
"Himiko, no." I began to weep. Soft and steady tears flowed down my cheeks and it seemed to have no ending. My signs of distress were audible to other heroes laying injured around us, and I couldn't process the fact I was losing her Himiko. I loved her so much and she didn't even realize it until I was far too late. But now that I was staring at her empty body, conscious enough to feel it go frigid. I could feel my breathing quicken, as well as my heart.
"Himiko I love you... Please wake up, don't leave me." I pleaded, only to no avail.
I felt myself losing my mind, spiraling into something that I've never felt before. It wasn't exactly sadness but it wasn't exactly anger either. It was something far more complex. My regrets of not being able to save Himiko filled me with grief. I held onto her body and made a pitiful attempt to stand up. This wasn't happening, I couldn't lose her. Tears still bursted from my eyes, my lashes feeling heavy from the salty water droplets. My hands were shaking around her body as I lifted her up into my grasp, I had a limp. It was hard to walk, it was hard to think. All I could do was try to search for someone who wasn't horribly injured from the Sad Man's Parade, but to my luck, mostly everyone had been trampled by the thousands of clones and were beaten badly. I felt my body collapse. I was putting too much tension on my weak and harmed stomach and legs. I made sure to keep Himikos body from touching the ground, I wanted to make sure she could rest clean from grim caking onto her skin. I lay on the ground once more, her dead body pressed against mine. I cradled her head with my hands and whimpered. My chest stuttering with rampant gasps. I couldn't calm my panic, my fear and grief.
"Someone please!.." I used all my strength to call out for help. I didn't want to comprehend the thought of losing her. I couldn't bear a world without someone as precious as her in it. Between us, I truly did love her. I missed that beautiful smile, I missed her cute little giggle. I missed the way she would look at me with pure admiration. I could feel the stress and the seriousness of my injury catch up to me. I felt a loud ringing in my ears. No... I thought. If I passed out, they would take her away from me. I wouldn't be able to feel her skin on mine ever again. I made sure to press a soft kiss on her cold cheek before succumbing to unconsciousness.