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Shadow milk cookie can't help but feel like an idiot. How could the Beast of Deceit be deceited? How did he get fooled by that idiot Pure vanilla cookie?
These thoughts plagued his mind ever since he fleed his very own realm, along with Caramel apple cookie and Black sapphire cookie. At least he had company. But their pressence wasn't good enough. He needed someone that could truly understand him, not just serve his orders. Shadow milk sighs at the thought of Truthless recluse. He had really thought that Pure vanilla had given up and given into lies. The time they spent together was perfect.
Shadow milk has never felt happier with his company.
And yet, it just had to turn out to be a lie. A beautiful lie. Shadow milk groans again at the thought, how could he had been so stupid. No, how could Pure vanilla be so stupid? If he really wanted to be his "friend", which just feels like a dumb ask in the first place, he would have stayed as Truthless recluse. He SHOULD just be Truthless recluse. But it's in the past. He is back to normal, as positive as ever, and Shadow milk is the one suffering at the loss. He is lost. Again.
He sits alone in the forest, all alone, in the shadows as usual. Despite feeling hatred for Pure vanilla, he can't help but shed a tear. Tears? For that guy? Ridiculous, never in a million years. He slaps his face in a fuel of anger. Why would he be crying over some pathetic, naive cookie? He has truly lost it.
But despite it all, he can't help but replay the scene in his head: "Let me be your friend". Hah. Friend. Just so he could fool him again? So he could try to "fix" him with that saviour complex of his? How pathetic. How dumb. How... weird. Why would he even consider being friends with a beast? Someone who tortured and hurt his weak little friends no less. Why would he even think he could "fix" him? Thats just a hopeless thought. But what would have happend if he said yes? Would he actually accept him as he is? Of course not, he would have been surprised that his dumb little idea actually worked, and take it all back. But he can't run away from Shadow milk forever, they are afterall souldbound. Urgh, another problem involving Pure vanilla.
At this point it feels like everything in his life all leads up to him. It's so frustrating, and yet... Slightly relieving. He hates to admit it, but Pure vanilla was correct in calling him lonely. He hates to admit it so much, he has his minions, why would he feel lonely? Why would he? It's a question he also has been pondering about. Maybe it's cause they aren't immortal beasts like him, or maybe it's because they don't understand him on a deeper level. Only Pure vanilla does, because of that stupid, stupid souljam.
All these thought piling up make Shadow milk exhausted. He slowly closes his eyes and forces himself to sleep. It dosen't matter if Caramel apple cookie and Black sapphire cookie don't know where he currently is. He just needs to rest for now. Escape all the weird thoughts, and drift into a world of darkness.