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Freminet is at the kitchen table sitting surrounded by a lot of plates of food. Freminet had gotten bored as he didn't have any supplies for tinkering and would have to wait some time before he can buy more, so he just cooked a bunch of stuff to fill the time. Ultimately it's mainly sea food but he knows Gaming, his husband, isn't a picky eater and would be happy with most food to be honest.
Pers waddles around on the table as Freminet wonders what Gaming is doing as he should've arrived home about 30 minutes ago. After getting married Gaming's life had gone on as normal still escorting people and stuff and doing wushou dancing, Freminet's life changed a lot having to move away from Fontaine, but Lyney, Lynette and Charlotte visit often and with Gaming there it wasn't the worst change. While reminiscing Freminet finally hears the lock on the front door open and he sits straight happy to see his husband.
However unlike the norm where Gaming walks in like a ball of sunshine and greets Freminet today he slowly makes his way in the house after locking the door and collapses onto the couch. This causes Freminet concern especially since in the small amount of time he could see Gaming's face he saw signs of him having cried.
Slowly Freminet approaches the couch and sits down on the part not occupied by Gaming. He sees Man Chai float next to Gaming showing an equal amount of concern as Freminet. Trying to coax Gaming into to talking Freminet cards his fingers through his hair and asks, "Dear are you ok? Did something happen." Carefully watching Freminet sees Gaming's body begin to shake making him worry even more.
Gaming looks towards Freminet and now he can see Gaming's tear stroked face more clearly as he says, "I didn't mean to."
This confuses the blonde so he presses a bit more, "Didn't mean to what? Gaming what happened?" The worry is clear in his voice but It turns into a surprised yelp as suddenly Gaming sits up and clings onto Freminet, tears falling down his face again.
Through his tears Gaming says, "I-I accidentally killed someone." This catches Freminet off guard but before he can provide more comfort Gaming continues, "I didn't mean to they tried to attack the person I was guarding so I just tried to knock them out or make them stop chasing us but I used too much force and-and I." His voice breaks into cries again as Freminet continues to card fingers through his hair and listen.
Even though he feels some what bad for the person he can't help but worry for Gaming, "What is gonna happen to you? Are you gonna be taken away?" At his words Gaming clings a bit tighter but shakes his head.
"No any death that happens on the job isn't illegal in liyue as long as it's in defense of the client or myself," Gaming says this as if he knows this by heart. "This has happened before I know I should be used to it by now but-"
"It's fine to feel bad, but you can't beat yourself up forever. It was an accident you did it for a good reason too to save someone's life." Freminet's words don't do much to comfort Gaming but it's clear he's already calming down on his own. Thinking of something else to calm him down Freminet remembers all the food on the dinner table, "Come let's eat it'll help you calm down."
Freminet leads Gaming to stand, but he still leans his head on Freminet's shoulder, and walks them both to the diner table. After seating Gaming Freminet moves to sit in his seat across from Gaming but before he can Gaming asks, "Can you sit next to me, Please?" And Freminet simple nods and moves his chair to Gaming. Finally Gaming's eyes land on all the food and he asks another question, "Why did you make so much food? Is there something to celebrate?"
With a shy chuckle Freminet responds, "I didn't have any supplies for my projects, and most people were busy, so I tried cooking, I got carried away."
Gaming's expression softens slightly and he says, "Thank you for the food and comforting me, I'll get supplies for you to pay ya back."
"I'm fine with making food, and you don't have to pay me back for comforting you, seeing you happy is enough." Freminet tries to reason but Gaming's past behavior and current expression tells him he'll get the supplies anyways.
Gaming doesn't say any more so the two begin to eat. Unlike the usual where diner would be spent with Gaming and Freminet recounting their day Freminet basically already shared his and neither of them want Gaming to think about his day right now. So the meal is spent in what Freminet can only hope to be comfortable silence.
Once their meal is done Gaming once again leans against Freminet but now he seems calmer, not his usual demeanor but Freminet doesn't think he'll see that for some time. Freminet tries to think of something to say but stops when he hears faint snoring from Gaming and when he looks over just as he thought Gaming has fallen asleep. He sits still for a bit before deciding to carry Gaming to their bedroom. Once inside he carefully lays Gaming on the bed and then joins him laying down next to him.
Freminet moves the hair out of Gaming's face and seeing his expression so calm brings him a bit of joy knowing he could help him and his mind stays on this as he too falls asleep.
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Gaming wakes up in a cold sweat he panics but soon calms registering his surroundings. Feeling Freminet's arms around him he can't help but think of he went through this too. He doesn't often think about Freminet's time in the fatui, but he can't help wondering if he acted like this when he first has to kill someone, or even how he felt when he killed someone for the last time. Would he kill to protect Gaming? And suddenly a much more pressing question enters Gaming's mind.
Would he be willing to kill someone to protect Freminet? He's sure most people think he would say no, Freminet would probably think that too, but without a doubt he knows he would. Of course it would be an absolute last resort if nothing else works, but if it reaches that point he knows he'll hesitate but he also knows he will. He's willing to deal with the guilt, the nightmares, all of it if Freminet is safe.
After everything Freminet has done for him? To be with him? He knows he would.