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1. I'm not afraid of God, I am afraid of man. by Anonymous

   Fandoms: Thunderbolts (Movie 2025), Marvel Cinematic Universe, Hawkeye (TV 2021), Black Widow (Movie 2021)  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • No category
   • Work in Progress

   16 May 2025

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Yelena Belova & Alexei Shostakov
   • Yelena Belova & Natasha Romanov
   • Yelena Belova & Natasha Romanov & Alexei Shostakov & Melina Vostokoff
   • Yelena Belova & Melina Vostokoff
   • No Romantic Relationship(s)
   • Yelena Belova
   • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • Alexei Shostakov
   • Melina Vostokoff
   • General Dreykov (Marvel Cinematic Universe)
   • Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Yelena Belova Needs a Hug
   • Young Yelena Belova
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Angst
   • Heavy Angst
   • Yelena Belova Has Issues
   • Red Room (Marvel)
   • Dreykov Being an Asshole (Avengers Marvel Movies)
   • How Do I Tag
   • My First AO3 Post
   • My First Fanfic
   • No beta we die like every minor character in this fic
   • why did I do this?
   • making my favorite character suffer
   • Because I can
   • really crappy writing
   • Suicide Attempt
   • No Smut
   • Asexual Yelena Belova
   • but its not explicitly mentioned

   Summary

   Yelena has encountered death many times throughout her life, whether she is causing it, begging for it, or grieving, the effects on her mind will last forever. Will she ever escape the looming mortality of all living things?

   Be warned! This is mostly just Yelena suffering. Also, this is my first time writing so please be nice :,)

   Constructive criticism is welcome!

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