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The beef between Adam and Cherry had left Miya particularly scarred, he often woke up drenched in sweat after nightmares and couldn't quite ask for help with them, he knew Kojiro and Kaoru wouldn't mind the boy asking for any specific help with these problems but he couldn't bring himself to ask. He also realised that there were 2 things that were wrong with him:
- His nightmares would make him have panic attacks
- He would often feel quite fuzzy and small after these panic attacks
He couldn't really explain the last problem, it was like his body felt all floaty and he often found his speech to be slurred and he struggled to think straight. He did all the research he could but he never found anything that could explain his situation, so he just assumed it was the aftermath of the panic attack.
On the 24th of November 2018, Miya found himself drenched in sweat like every other night, but instead of vivid dreams with Kaoru being hit head first by a skateboard, the image of the older man was replaced by Langa, why you may ask? Because that same day in 22 hours Langa was going up against Adam.
Miya didn't fall asleep that night, but for once he found himself not having a panic attack! To say he was happy was an understatement, he wouldn’t be exhausted that day at school, and he would be able to stay focused in class since today he had 3 math lessons(take it from someone who is good at math, the only way to pass is to listen, also i gave him my Monday timetable).
At 7:00am Miya woke up and started to get ready for school, since at 7:35 he would have to be out of the house and go to school, entering the kitchen, he noticed a bowl with some leftover spanish food that they ate last night, his mom probably left it for him so he could have something to eat once he gets home from school at 14:00.
Realising he was running a little late, he quickly brushed his teeth and put his uniform and shoes on, and walked out the door.
Once arrived at school, he mentally prepared for the first 2 hours of math, knowing that he would be fighting for his life the moment his teacher called him to the board to solve equations, he was definitely more of a geometry kid.
After a grueling 2 hours, he had an hour of history, (curse these people for making him have to study world war II), because he definitely was not enjoying those history lessons.
At break he decided to go to the library to study Japanese, he was not good at the subject at all, he was always one to struggle with grammar, in any language, and this year he really could not afford to fail, since he would need high grades to get into a good high school.
Mondays were always chill days, although the 3 hours of math don’t seem to give it much justice, Miya liked math, so it was fine. After 1 hour of computer science, one of math and one of art theory, Miya made his way back home, were he later ate lunch and did his japanese grammar homework, which he struggled on so much, he knew he would have to study so much if he wanted to even try and pass japanese(although literature saved him).
At 18:00 his mom came home, slowly followed by his dad half an hour later, and they were both exhausted to say the least, his mom made japanese curry ramen that night(Miya’s favourite) and he was so happy, but wen 22:00 came around, he soon realised that the beef with Adam and Langa was tonight and he was suddenly tense and so on guard about everything. He was mad about it, he was having such a wonderful day even though that stupid equation during math was making him want to rip someone's head off because of the difficulty of it.
At 23:30 he went out of the house from his window and skated his way to S, while having his hood up so no one from the paparazzi and school would notice him.
Arriving at S he went to find his little group of friends, and when he found them, he froze on the spot realising that Adam was with them and was taunting Langa. He quickly ran up to the group and turned on his overconfident facade so no one in the group would be concerned about his anxious fiddling with the sleeves of his cat hoodie.
Adam left after Kojiro nicely threatened him… and Miya finally felt himself relax a little more, and started to act like he always would, he bullied Shadow for his age and he called Joe dad to annoy him.
Suddenly, the crowd started roaring, the beef between Langa and Adam about to start, Miya didn’t even realise when Langa left them, but suddenly Miya tensed up, noticing the track that they were on, it had a really steep fall and it was scary to say the least. Miya didn’t even remember the first half of the race, but the moment he saw Langa falling, he gripped onto Cherry so hard and he started hyperventilating. Cherry noticed and shot a glance at Joe, who signaled him to get him out of the scene.
After taking Miya to a quiet place, Kaoru realised just how much distress the boy was in, and quickly settled him in his lap. “Miya honey can you look at me?” asked the elder, trying to get the younger to calm down since without his help he clearly wasn’t going to. Miya looked up at Cherry and started feeling really fuzzy, just like he would after his panic attacks because of his nightmares. He decided to focus on what Cherry was saying instead of the fuzzy feeling. “Can you copy my breathing, little one?”
Asked Cherry as he started taking exaggerated breaths, Miya started to follow Cherry’s breathing, slowly calming down, but then he realised just how fuzzy he felt, and he was so frustrated with it he had to tell Cherry.
“Cherry, feel ‘mall an fuzzy, no wike it” he startled realising how slurred he sounded, as if he talked as a baby. Cherry catched on surprisingly quickly, knowing a fair share of things about age regression. “Miya do you want me to go get Joe?” asked Cherry to which Miya replied “yes wan papa!” getting more frustrated at the feeling that was becoming slightly more prominent. “Ok, little kitten, I’ll call him so I don’t have to leave” said the older “ye no wan mama to weave” said the little. Kaoru would be lying if he said that he wasn’t internally screaming at the cute little nicknames Miya came up with for him and Kojiro.
After dialing Kojiro’s number his phone was swiftly answered ‘Is Miya ok?’ said Kojiro from the other line ‘yeah he is, I calmed him down quite a bit, but I think he’s in a headspace’ said the pink haired man. ‘Shit, like good or bad headspace?’ ‘Good, I think he might be regressed from all the stress and he wants you here with us, can you come to the entrance to S?’ ‘Sure, be there in 5’ and then the green haired hung up.
“Ok Miya, papa’s coming over here in 5 minutes” to which Miya excitedly squealed of happiness, knowing his papa was going to come over and they could cuddle!
After Kojiro showed up he quietly joined Kaoru’s and Miya’s cuddle pile, trying not to be noisy since in the middle of the wait, Miya started to drift off to sleep.
“He’s so precious” said the green haired man as he saw the younger man starting to place his thumb in his mouth, sucking happily. “I wish I had the guts to stop him from doing that, but he’s about to fall asleep and he’s exhausted, waking him up disturbs him ” said Kaoru.
“Should I start the car and get him to Sia? I’ll drop him off at home tomorrow since tonight he said his parents are leaving for a business trip.” said Kojiro, Kaoru nodded.
After getting Miya to Sia la luce and taking him to bed, Kojiro slipped under the covers with him and hugged Miya in a tight embrace, letting him know that he will never leave him.
The next morning Miya woke up big and was way too embarrassed when he found out what happened last night. Kojiro told him that it will probably happen many more times and that Kaoru was very supportive and that they will be his mama and papa with no problem.
Hearing that Miya dropped quite quickly and snuggled up with his papa for a well-deserved cuddle session.