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Everyday can be the worst day of his life. Well It's not like he can try to make it any better by overthinking what he can do, cause it doesn't solve a problem he want's to solve. Desperately, all he wants was to destroy Isagi Yoichi.
Violence, violence.
Destroy.
Will violence work?
He wants to meet his expectations that were placed on him. But now he wants to live in another world where he doesn't have to follow his. He even left him and abandoned their dream.
What can he do now?
Maybe try to improve and show Sae that he can be the best and teach Isagi a lesson and that he'll never surpass him.
Yeah maybe that.
Will that even work?
...
He did think about how his plan will work and how this will lead to him.
But there was nothing popping in his head, because Isagi is already loved by everyone is Japan. Rin isn't loved.
And if he would come up with a plan, Isagi will probably still be loved by everyone and not Rin.
Not even Sae will love him. He's just a stranger that glitched into his life, and only shows a little kindness during their childhood.
There's absolutely nothing.
All he can do is forget about it.
Forget about his plan
And not forget about the timelines in his life.
Where Sae left him
Where Isagi stole his spotlight
Where everyone in the world admires his biggest rival in his entire life that he wants to murder.
Those events that ruined his life, and downgrading his mental health.
Something he'll never get used to.
The only thing that Rin truly felt was defeat, and it's embarrassing to go out in public cause everyone knows him and Isagi as well.
What's the point? Imagine having your brother just randomly left you without a word, someone stealing your spotlight and that person is more loved than you, and your brother also compliments him but not you cause what are you?
So now what? What are you?
You're just a lukewarm bacteria.
Nobody will ever love you Rin. No one will compliment you. Your brother will never acknowledge you.
Why?
Why am I even alive right now?
I hate everything.
I hate Isagi Yoichi.
Maybe someday nii-chan will notice me.
Instead of trying,
Question 1: What is your future aspiration?
I don't know.
But he has already fallen apart into pieces, he's completely empty.
There are many more questions he would not want to answer, but the questions are about life experience, and his peers.
I don't know
I don't know okay?
I don't fucking know.
Stop asking me these fucking lukewarm questions.
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Rin is trapped by loneliness currently.
He doesn't want to show his appearance outside of the world.
He doesn't mind that it's cold.
It's really cold outside.
Just like how he truly feels.
All he can do is do a random activity that will distract him from everything he did not want to hear, feel, and experienced.
However, none of them will help.
His heart was already stabbed in poison. It was so poisonous, that there isn't a single cure for it. If there was, it would cure very slowly.
...
What now?
Rin is walking out of his house, maybe a small walk would help.
Ah, it feels fine being out in the cold temperatures.
The temperature can connect to his emotions.
...
He felt so defeated.
It hurts.
...
The streets are empty, no one is around.
He can probably hear some chatting from distance.
No one sees him, so it felt nice.
As he was walking, he noticed the beauty and how the light reflects in the ocean.
He thought of something.
...
Y'know
Does jumping in the ocean sound like a bad idea?
The freezing water does feel super cold
but
Does Rin want to escape this reality he's facing right now?
I mean...
It hurts right now and they pain is never gonna go away.
Would it be nice to just end it like that? Would anyone see him doing that, but they won't give him a single glance.
Would anyone save him?
Would anyone find him?
Would anyone care?
Would anyone cry?
...
Would
Sae save him? If he did care?
...
That'd be nice.
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Rin
This is a good opportunity to just jump in there.
There's nothing else in life you want to accomplish. Just die right here, right now.
Was he being schizophrenic or something?
Or was it his own voice?
Yeah, maybe it was his own voice
...
He approaches to the deck, and looks back.
Ah
No one is looking at him.
No one is watching him.
Might as well just do it.
Do it.
Do it Rin, just do it. Fucking do it.
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And so
He did
He jumps in the water, and there were no emotions, but just pure emptiness around him and inside.
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His eyes were still opened, but each one is about to shut down in a few seconds if his lungs are fully flooded with water.
Right now, he can't do anyth8ng about it. He can swim, But he doesn't want to save himself.
He doesn't want anyone to save him.
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Goodbye Rin.
He said to himself
Goodbye shitty world.
Again.
Goodbye to you too nii-chan.
Again.
Farewell to everyone, or maybe not
Farewell Blue Lock, unless Isagi Yoichi is already the best.
I hate you Isagi Yoichi.
I just want to be loved, I want to be loved...
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As his eyes were about to stop functioning, he see's a mysterious figure reaching for his hand.
Maybe it was mom.
His mom wouldn't let him just do this.
Maybe it was dad.
His dad would do anything to save him.
Maybe it was nii-chan.
No
Sae wouldn't.
He thought he saw him for a second.
Maybe it was him.
But he glitched out.
Rin swore that he saw someone similar to Sae
But he suddenly malfunctioned.
It was probably a glitch anyways.
Sae wouldn't even try to save him.
That's what Rin thought.
...
Now his eyes were closed.
But he can still feel someone reaching for his hand.
Who was it?