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THE DOCTOR
I know you have no idea who she is, or what she’ll come to
mean to you, but you’re a clever one, at least you think
you are, so...come on, Doctor...figure it out. You have to.
Please. Save her.
(Beat)
You don't know it now, but one day, one day you'll understand.
She loves you. She loves you completely, fearlessly. She'll risk
tearing time apart just to show you how much. She'll try to kill
you a couple of times (and who hasn’t really), but it's not her
fault, it all gets straightened out, water under the bridge.
Time and again, she'll show you the strength of her hearts, her
courage, her intelligence. She'll stand beside you. And she'll
stand up to you when you need someone to, when you’re being
moody and unreasonable. And she'll comfort you when you
need that, too. She'll baffle and infuriate you. She'll come at you
like a supernova. She'll bedevil and beguile you, and she’ll stir
desire in you. She'll challenge you to always be better because
she believes in you. And she'll know you, really know you,
sometimes better than you know yourself, even as she keeps a
mystery about her. She'll never hesitate in the face of danger,
because she has faith in you. So you must always be there to
catch her. Because she'll always be there just when you need her.
And she'll run with you. Oh how you'll run! And one day, you'll
realize you've always known there was something extraordinary
between you, something stronger and more powerful than anything
in all of time and space, yet something so simple, so wonderful.
And because you're an idiot you'll fight it and resist it because
you know the end already and you're afraid of what that means.
But you look at her, and you can't help it. Why would you want to?
Because... you love her. Oh god do you love her. Like you never
knew you could. And believe it or not, you'll marry her. She'll be
your wife. All those times you'll ask who she is...some part of you
will know the answer. It's inevitable. And with her, for a time,
you'll have something you never thought could be yours. Something
you didn't know you were missing, didn't know you needed, and
once you have it, you won't want to let it go. But you'll have to.
You'll have to because if you don't, it'll mean you've never met at all.
And you can't do that to her. You can't take that away from her...
Because she'd rather die than lose those times.
(Beat)
You'll wonder, I know you will, whether it was all worth it, knowing
the end before the beginning. And the answer is...of course it is.
Love, real love, is worth any price. Amelia knew that. You'll meet
her soon, too. So Scottish....
(Beat)
So be brave, Doctor. Don’t run from this. You'll be thick for a
while, but that'll pass. And you'll come to recognize what an
amazing being has dropped into your life, and what a lucky fool
you are, and how much worse off you'd have been without her,
and how much it's going to hurt when you lose her. Just do your
best to deserve her. And save her now. Because when you get to
where I am, after having centuries to think about it, you won't want
to say goodbye. How can you? You'll want to hold on to her any way
you can. Because you’ll know where she’s heading. She’ll be looking
for you, but when she finds you, you won’t know who she is and that...
that’s the worst of all: the pain you’ll cause her, unintentionally of
course, but still...after all you’ve been through together, you’ll break
her heart. She’ll think she’s hiding it, that you can’t see how it hurts her.
And she’ll still save your life, again, and thousands of others, by giving
her own. Because that’s who she is. And that’s why you love her.
And why I always will.