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The press room at the Monaco Grand Prix was buzzing—humid with energy, bright with the kind of camera flashes that never quite let anyone relax. It always felt too white in here. Too loud. A strange kind of overstimulation that lingered even after the engines went quiet. But today… today, Lando didn’t feel any of that.
Today, everything felt warm.
His racing suit still clung to him, unzipped halfway, collar turned down just enough to reveal the edge of sweat-dampened Nomex. His curls were a little flattened under the headset, cheeks slightly flushed, his smile refusing to fade. The adrenaline still pulsed faintly in his limbs like music playing far off in another room.
He’d won. Monaco.
He’d done it.
The trophy sat just out of frame on the table beside him, gleaming under the lights, but Lando didn’t need to look at it. He could feel it—etched into his skin, lodged in the corners of his grin.
To his left, Charles shifted in his seat, sunglasses pushed into his hair, always a little more charming than necessary. The table vibrated faintly from his tapping fingers.
Across the room, reporters raised their hands, pens poised, ready to extract the emotion, the drama, the story.
“Where do you think mastering Monaco will rank in the list of all the things you’ve achieved?” a voice asked. Soft but expectant, trained to sound friendly but dig deep.
Lando blinked, head tilting slightly. A beat of thought. The smile on his lips didn’t change, but his eyes flickered—just for a moment—as if reaching inward to something no one else could see.
And then, casually, lightly, like tossing a pebble into still water, he said—
“Well, I think the best bit is my kids one day will be able to tell everyone that I won in Monaco.”
He could feel it the moment it hit the air—room temperature, maybe even colder. Light laughter bubbled up, scattered and safe. People assumed it was a joke. Just a sentimental, tongue-in-cheek future thought from a newly crowned winner. Nothing real. Nothing sharp enough to stop and examine.
He kept his smile steady, but inside his chest, something trembled. A deep breath didn’t help. It just swirled the feeling around.
“That’s probably the thing I’m most proud about, you know,” he added, tone still nonchalant. “Yeah, I’m thinking of the future.”
His fingers brushed against his knee under the table, a subtle grounding gesture. The fabric was damp from the sea air and sweat and nerves. He was trying to sound casual, trying not to choke on how much weight those words actually held.
Charles turned to him, grinning with mischief, brows lifted.
“You’re actually just telling me—” he laughed, then caught himself. “I'm not gonna say it.”
Lando laughed too, shrugging lightly, eyes dancing with fake innocence.
“Oh, um,” he smirked, “I think it would be up there for sure. But I think it’s a cooler thing to say.”
The room laughed again. Cameras clicked. The moment passed.
Almost.
Because not everyone brushed it off.
The apartment was quiet. Almost too quiet.
Outside, Monaco buzzed in its usual low-frequency hum—yachts groaning gently against their moorings, laughter echoing up the cliffs, a Vespa engine whining somewhere distant. The city never really slept, not during race week. But inside Lando’s flat, the world was a different shape. The walls muffled it all, softening the edges of a life that usually raced at 300 kilometers an hour.
He sat on the edge of the bathtub, knees drawn up, head bowed.
The stick lay on the tile floor like a dropped match.
He hadn’t meant for it to be serious. Not at first.
He'd laughed at himself as he bought the test that afternoon. Worn sunglasses. Kept his head down in the pharmacy. Told himself it was just to rule out the crazy thought. It wasn’t even a possibility, not really. He was just… tired. Sensitive. Nauseous in the mornings. That didn’t mean anything.
Except he hadn’t been sleeping properly for weeks. The smell of engine oil made him gag. And last night, Oscar’s hand on his stomach made something ache—not physically, not exactly, but… deeply.
So he'd bought the test. As a joke, really. A way to reassure himself that he was just being ridiculous.
But now the line was there.
Solid. Pink. Blinking at him like a lighthouse in fog.
He didn’t touch it. Not right away.
He just stared, hands clenched in the sleeves of the hoodie he hadn’t even realized he was still wearing.
His breathing had gone quiet. Shallow.
This wasn't supposed to be possible.
And yet—
There was no denying it now.
Tears welled up slowly, hesitantly, like they were trying to be polite. He didn’t sob. There wasn’t even a sound. Just a breath that hitched once, and then he was crying—wet cheek against his knuckles, chest trembling softly. The kind of crying that came not from sadness, but from the impossible size of something too beautiful to hold.
He was pregnant.
He was actually—
He laughed through the tears, hand over his mouth. The sound was quiet and disbelieving, shaky at the edges. Like he couldn’t trust it.
This wasn’t supposed to happen.
This doesn’t happen.
Male pregnancy was… a footnote in medical journals. A whispered theory. Something about advanced uterine grafts, experimental treatments, the kind of thing you only heard about in deep corners of academia—or science fiction. He’d undergone a surgery two years ago for a ruptured appendix and severe scarring in his abdominal cavity. Part of the experimental treatment included stem-cell tissue regeneration, a risk he agreed to out of desperation, not ambition.
No one ever told him it could lead to this. No one thought it would.
And even if they had—he would have laughed. Shaken his head. Said something sarcastic about not exactly being cut out for fatherhood.
But here he was. One in millions. Maybe less.
And the truth was… he didn’t want to undo it.
He didn’t want to wake up tomorrow and find out it had all been a mistake.
Because now that it was real, now that the possibility was sitting quietly in his bathroom tiles and thumping against the inside of his chest—he wanted it.
He wanted this tiny, impossible thing growing inside him. He wanted to protect it. To hold it.
And more than anything, he wanted to tell Oscar.
Oscar, who had kissed his shoulders in the dark and traced his ribs with fingertips like they were poetry. Oscar, who had stayed. Who never once asked him to hide but understood anyway. Who whispered goodnight into his hair like it was a prayer.
The thought of him made the tears return in a different way. Softer. Brighter.
Oscar had told him once, during a layover in Japan, that he wanted to be a dad someday. That it scared him how much he wanted a family—not a perfect one, just a real one. A quiet, true one.
And now…
Now, that future was closer than either of them had ever dared to hope.
Lando picked up the test finally. Held it in both hands like it might break. His thumbs trembled against the plastic. He looked at his reflection in the mirror. Puffy eyes. Red nose. And a smile—barely there, but real.
He had no idea how to say it.
He had no idea how to tell Oscar something this enormous, this surreal.
So he made a deal with himself—because Lando always needed the game, the edge, the if I do this, then I’ll do that.
If he won tomorrow, he’d say something.
Not directly. Just… a nudge. A tease. A breadcrumb.
Because Oscar would know.
He always knew.
The room was filled with that usual buzz—camera shutters clicking like cicadas, soft murmurs from reporters waiting for their turn, the low hum of air conditioning keeping the heat at bay after the sweltering Monaco afternoon. Lando was still talking, a smile tugging lazily at the corner of his mouth, Charles laughing beside him, ever the golden boy with his easy charm.
But Oscar couldn’t hear any of it anymore.
Not really.
His ears were ringing faintly, like someone had snapped a rubber band inside his head.
The words replayed over and over again in his mind—“The best bit is my kids one day will be able to tell everyone I won in Monaco.”
A joke. Clearly, obviously, a joke.
But then Lando had added that tiny, offhand “I’m pregnant!” with a grin like a dare.
Everyone laughed. Charles raised his eyebrows and grinned. The press chuckled politely. It was the kind of thing Lando would say—silly, flirty, just a bit outrageous, always performing.
But Oscar saw it.
He saw the way Lando’s fingers twitched where they rested on the table. He saw how his eyes flickered sideways, just for a second, looking for a reaction. Not from the room. From him.
That wasn’t a punchline. That wasn’t for show.
That glint in Lando’s eyes—sharp and wet and scared beneath the surface—that was real.
Oscar’s heart skipped so violently he thought for a second something had gone wrong. He could feel it in his throat, pounding like he’d just stepped out of the cockpit. His palms were damp. His knees had gone soft.
He looked down at his hands on the table.
Breathe, he told himself. Don’t stare.
But he was staring. Not obviously—he was good at this. They’d both learned to be. A whole year of secret glances and coded messages, of brushing shoulders backstage and pretending they weren’t sharing hotel rooms. It was almost funny how normal it had become to pretend they weren’t everything to each other.
But now…
Now Lando had said that.
And the world kept turning like it hadn’t shifted, like the ground hadn’t just cracked open in the most beautiful, terrifying way.
Oscar couldn’t stop thinking about all the small things.
The nights when they curled into each other on too-small beds. The whispered talks about “someday,” about what came after racing—when the cameras stopped, when the noise faded. A quiet house. A kitchen light left on late. Maybe even a dog.
Maybe kids. Maybe.
But it had always been a distant dream, something tender they both held like glass between them. Neither of them had reached for it too hard. The world wasn’t exactly built for them—not yet. And Oscar had never dared to ask for more than what they had.
Just Lando had always been enough.
But this?
This was everything.
And he knew it wasn’t just fantasy. Not now.
Lando wouldn’t have said it like that if it wasn’t real. Not to him.
Not after the year they’d shared—the sacred, secret months of becoming something neither of them could name but both of them knew. A shared toothbrush. A familiar hoodie in a suitcase. The way Lando clutched his hand too tightly before qualifying and pretended it didn’t mean anything.
Oscar blinked hard, willing his expression to stay neutral. He was probably being filmed. He didn’t care.
His throat was tight. His ribs were shaking.
Lando was pregnant.
And he hadn’t told him in the dark, or with shaking hands, or even in the quiet safety of their bed.
He’d told him like this—on stage, through a joke, a smile, a challenge.
Oscar wanted to laugh. He wanted to cry.
Instead, he just looked at Lando.
And Lando looked back.
Just for a heartbeat.
And in that moment, Oscar didn’t need words.
He knew.
And Lando knew he knew.
They didn’t say much as they left the paddock.
No words. No need.
It was muscle memory by now—ducking out past the cameras, slipping into the shadows, letting the sound of applause and flashing lights fade behind them. Lando moved first, Oscar close behind, a few paces apart but still drawn together like a tide pulling toward shore.
By the time the door of the black car closed with a gentle thunk behind them, the world had gone still.
No interviews. No noise.
Just the hush of the engine purring to life. The soft swish of tyres over Monaco’s moonlit streets. The scent of leather and sunscreen. Lando sat with one hand resting on his thigh, the other curled loosely near the center console. Oscar beside him—too quiet, too still.
Their hands brushed once. Light. Accidental. Oscar flinched like he’d been caught reaching for something too sacred.
Lando didn’t move. He just breathed.
The silence was heavy, not awkward, but dense—full of everything unsaid. The weight of a thousand memories. The fragile hope of something new and unnamed.
Oscar stared out the window, jaw tight, fingers twitching against his knee. He didn’t know where to start. Or maybe he did, but the words didn’t know how to form yet. His throat felt too tight for it anyway.
The car slid through the familiar turns of the city. Golden streetlamps blinked past like stars falling sideways. The sea glittered in glimpses, but neither of them looked out at it. They had all the vastness they needed inside this quiet space between them.
Then the light turned red.
And they stopped.
Oscar’s voice was barely there—thin, trembling, more breath than sound.
“Was it true?”
He didn’t look at Lando when he asked. Couldn’t. His hands were clenched tight in his lap, and he felt like the world might stop spinning if he looked too closely.
Lando turned to him, gentle. Unafraid. There was no hiding in his eyes now.
A soft smile, barely visible in the dim light, and a small nod.
“Yeah,” he whispered. “I found out last night.”
Oscar sucked in a breath like he’d just surfaced from deep water.
It hit him all at once—raw and unstoppable. His face crumpled, eyes stinging, and the first tear slipped out before he could stop it.
Then another.
He laughed—broken, breathless—as more followed.
“I can’t believe it...” he said, or maybe mouthed, or maybe just thought. “I can’t believe it’s real...”
He didn’t know if he was crying because he was happy, or because he was scared, or because everything he’d never let himself dream about was now sitting beside him with soft brown eyes and a secret heartbeat inside.
He didn’t need to know.
Lando leaned in without a word. Pressed a soft kiss to his cheek—warm, grounding, real.
Then one to his lips, slow and sweet and trembling with the same quiet joy.
When he pulled back, his voice was low with fondness and something like wonder.
“Didn’t think the dad of my kid would cry more than I did.”
Oscar laughed again, choked and bright, his tears still spilling.
The light turned green.
The car rolled forward.
And so did they.
Later, when the city blurred past and the silence turned comfortable again, Lando let his hand drift to rest on his stomach—almost without thinking, like his body already knew to protect something precious. Oscar noticed. Of course he did. He couldn’t stop looking at him, eyes full of awe like he was seeing Lando for the first time and every time all at once. There was still so much unknown, so much waiting ahead. But here, in this shared breath between traffic lights and turning pages, everything felt steady. Safe. Like home. Their new beginning had already begun.