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Jisung told me he was going to be at his parents’ house for his break but that he wasn’t doing too well. I told him it was okay and that he should rest but I started to think about how to cheer him up or well cheer us both up since I was currently in a rough spot too. I thought about him and smiled at some memories we had together, like when I visited him and Minho at their dorm on my last break. ‘Take care of him, he’s pretty down,’ Minho texted me, ‘I will, I promise,’ I texted back. I had known Jisung since he came back from Malaysia and we were pretty close. I was in love with the music he wrote with his group and I had met all the members though out of the ones that wasn’t Jisung I was closest to Minho and Felix. I knew he’d be at his parents’ place tomorrow so I started to make his favorite cake so I could bring that over there tomorrow evening. I looked at a recent selfie he had posted on his socials and while he smiled I could see the pain hidden behind that smile. I saw STAYs swooning over him in the comments and sighed in relief as I saw no one talking about the pain his smile hid. I knew that for him there was nothing he hated more than to worry STAYs. I sent a photo of the cake to Felix and Minho and they both wished that they could come too but I forbade that and also made them promise not to tell Jisung. I went to bed that night and thought about the next day. For once my usual overthinking was very quiet as I just thought about Jisung while listening to his solo songs and soon I fell into a peaceful sleep. The next day I woke up and went to work out a little before I went home to shower and chill until I had to go. Jisung texted me around lunch and said that he was home and sent a video of himself resting while he watched the leaves fall outside his window. I told him to rest well and said that maybe we could meet up during his break. I was careful not to give hints that he would see me in about an hour. He sent a smiley face back and I went to change clothes and pack the cake. About an hour later I rang the doorbell at Jisungs’ parents’ house and instantly heard Bbama bark. Jisung was home alone with the dog as his parents had gone to the store and his brother didn’t live at home now. He soon opened the door and his face was one of pure shock as he saw me, “Hi Ji,” I said and his face changed to a bright but teary smile, “You’re here now?” he asked and I nodded. “I made something for you,” I said and handed him the box with the cake before I picked up Bbama who attacked my face with dog kisses. “Come in,” Jisung said as he finally overcame the shock fully. We walked inside and I put Bbama down so I could pull off my boots and my coat. “Did I come at a bad time?” I asked carefully, “No absolutely not, I would’ve asked you to come over if you hadn’t seemed so busy while we texted,” he said and I felt a bit bad. “Sorry,” I whispered and he put the cake on the counter before he turned to me, “Don’t be sorry I love surprises and this is the best one,” he said and pulled me into his chest for a tight hug. When he released me he opened the cake and his smile brightened even more, “Thank you,” he said and hugged me again. He cut two pieces of the cake and served one to me, “Let’s sit on the porch in the back so Bbama can run in the garden while we have cake,” he said and I agreed. We let Bbama out in the garden before we sat on the porch and ate our cake. Jisung suddenly put a blanket over my shoulders, “Thanks Ji,” I whispered and smiled, “You could say you're cold you know,” he said with a small smile and I looked down at my cake. “I… I don't want to be a burden to you and you're going through a rough patch so…” I said and he put my now empty plate away before he took my hands. “You're never a burden to me and you could never be,” he said and looked into my eyes as if he looked into my soul. “You're going through something too aren't you?” he asked and gently moved some hair from my face, I sighed and nodded. He pulled me into a hug so my face was buried in his chest, “I want to tell you something,” he whispered against my hair. “You can tell me anything,” I said and he pulled back from the hug and looked into my eyes again, “I love you,” he said. I stared at him, I tried to say something but I couldn't. I saw his expression turn mellow and I panicked so I quickly leaned up and pressed my lips to his which caused a relieved noise to escape him. He pulled me onto his lap and kissed back as he held me tight, “I take that as you love me too,” he whispered as we pulled back, I simply nodded, my cheeks tinted a deep red. He changed our positions so I sat between his legs and leaned back against his chest and then he wrapped the blanket tight around us both. We sat there and watched Bbama chase the falling leaves, “So what has been bothering you?” he asked and I sighed. “I got fired because the boss’ wife made up a story about me doing something bad, which I of course didn’t but she never liked me so she wanted me gone,” I said and he growled. “Now that’s just wrong…” he said, anger shining through his voice, “It’s okay but I’ve been struggling to find something new and if I don’t find one soon I’ll lose my apartment because the landlord is strict with income. “You could start selling your designs,” he said but I shook my head, “They’re too personal for that,” I said and played with the bracelet I had made for him. “Well, stay here tonight and I’ll help you look for jobs tomorrow,” he whispered, “But you have a break…” I whispered back but he turned me around and caressed my cheek. “When it comes to you that doesn’t matter, it means I get to spend time with my princess,” he said as he looked into my eyes. “You can spend time with me anyway and also you need to rest since you’ve been struggling and anxious recently,” I whispered and he sighed, “Alright princess but at least stay here tonight,” he pleaded and I nodded. “Sorry to ruin your calm moment but do you want something warm to drink?” Jisungs’ mother asked and Bbama came running as he noticed her. “Yes, that sounds good,” Jisung said and got up before he pulled me up. “It’s good to see a proper smile on you,” his mother said and rubbed his back as we walked inside, “Well, it’s hard not to smile with this one,” he said and I blushed as he pulled me close. “You finally admitted?” she asked and we nodded at which she pulled me into her arms, “I’m so happy, welcome to the family properly,” she said and I hugged her back. “Also thank you for cheering him up, if you need anything don’t hesitate to ask,” she said more quietly so only I could hear, “Thank you I’ll keep that in mind,” I whispered back and she released me. She made hot chocolate for us and then we sat in the living room and watched a movie with both of his parents before we went to his room and spent some time until dinner. “Was it a stressful time with the group?” I asked and he sighed, “That and just normal anxiety,” he said and laid down so his head was on my chest. “Admittedly, I was also stressed and overthinking about confessing to you and thought of the risk you didn’t feel the same,” he admitted as I played with his hair. “I mean, same. I was really anxious about that too and I mean you know I overthink everything,” I whispered, he sat up and kissed me. “I’ll be here to calm your overthinking all the time, I love you,” he whispered and I nodded and leaned into his arms. After we had dinner we took Bbama for a walk. Jisung was holding the leash with one hand and with the other he was holding mine. We took a break at a park by a river and just sat in a pile of leaves with Bbama on the long leash. “Thank you for coming over today,” Jisung whispered and kissed the top of my head. “I mean I couldn’t just leave you alone when you felt anxious and stressed,” I whispered and looked up at him at which he kissed my lips. I looked over at Bbama who was getting tired and had laid down in a smaller leaf pile, “Maybe we should go back,” I said and Jisung looked at his dog and nodded. When we got back his mother prepared pieces for all of us from the cake I brought and we sat down and talked while eating it. Later I walked into Jisungs’ bedroom after washing off and he sat on his bed and looked at me, “Come here,” he said and I closed the door and walked over to him. He pulled me into his arms and laid down with me close to his chest, “You’re my dream,” he whispered and I looked up at him, “And you’re mine,” I whispered back and we shared a sweet kiss. He pulled his weighted blanket over us and continued to hold me as if he was scared I would leave, “I love you Ji,” I whispered and fell asleep in his arms. I woke up in the middle of the night from the sound of crying and the fact that Jisung was moving around a lot. I listened and heard whimpers and pleading, “Ji… Baby,” I whispered while I gently shook him, with a jolt he woke up and threw himself into my arms. I held him tight to my chest, “You’re okay it was just a nightmare, you’re safe,” I whispered and soon his breathing stabilized. I dried away the tears on his cheeks and kissed his forehead, “Do you wanna talk about it?” I asked him but he shook his head before he leaned in and kissed my lips. “Thank you for waking me up princess,” he whispered and I smiled, “I couldn’t let you get stuck in a nightmare,” I whispered and kissed his lips again before I laid us back down. In the morning I woke up to find him looking at me, “Are you feeling better?” I asked and he nodded before he pulled me close and kissed me. “I don’t want to be without you ever again…” he whispered as he held me incredibly close, “Well you have a career with a lot of traveling so it’s only natural that we will be apart,” I whispered back even though I also hated the idea. “I will talk to Channie hyung and see if he has any ideas,” he said and I nodded. We snuggled a bit more before we got up and left the room after he gave me one of his oversized hoodies so I didn’t have to use the same clothes as yesterday, at least for the morning. We found the house calm and when we got downstairs it was only his mother there, “Is dad out with Bbama?” Jisung asked and she nodded, “Here eat some breakfast,” she said and gave us a nice noodle soup she usually made when we had sleepovers. We snuggled close on the sofa and half drank the soup while we watched an anime we both loved. After breakfast and another episode and a little playtime with Bbama as he came back from the walk with Jisungs’ father we went up to his room and he called Chan on his laptop so I could talk to him as well. “Hi there you two, how comfy you look,” Chan said with a smile as he saw us huddled together, “Hyung I have a question,” Jisung said and Chan tilted his head and looked at him. “Do you have any idea about something she could work as at JYPE so we don’t have to be apart more?” Jisung asked and Chans’ eyes lit up, “Seems like someone finally confessed,” he said and we both nodded. “Well there are a lot of things but one that ensures she works close to you is the now open position as your manager,” Chan said and we both stared at him with wide eyes. “I don’t know if I could be a manager,” I said and Chan chuckled, “You can it’s not that hard and other than Ji you’re extremely good at handling Lino and Lix as well,” he said and I blushed. “Contact one of the other managers and ask about it if you wanna know more,” he continued and I nodded. “Then towards the end of the break you can talk to the boss himself and suggest it to him,” Chan said and we both nodded and then we hung up because his mother called for him. “You wanna stay with me in my apartment tonight?” I asked and Jisung smiled and nodded, “We can go after lunch as mom is making my fave today,” he said and I smiled back at him and nodded. I laid down so my head was resting on his lap as he put his laptop on the bedside table, “I wish I had confessed sooner,” he said as he played with my hair. “Don’t think like that Ji, we’re together now and that’s what matters,” I told him as I closed my eyes and relaxed into his touch, “But I’ve loved you for so long…” he said, his voice lowering to a whisper. I sat up so I could properly look into his eyes, “It’s the same for me Ji but I think this is for the best since you’ve now been in the group for a while and since you took the step to confess to me that means you’re ready to commit to this,” I said and he met my gaze. “If you had confessed earlier then maybe it wouldn’t have lasted,” I said and his eyes went wide, “But…” I cut his words with a kiss, “Everything happens for a reason and we just have to accept it, I’m with you now and I’m never leaving you,” I whispered and kissed him again and he laid me down on the bed and hovered over me continuing the kiss. When he pulled back he moved down so he rested his head right over my heart, “I love you,” he whispered as I played with his hair, “I love you too,” I whispered back and we stayed there for a while. Soon his mother called us and asked if we wanted to take Bbama for a walk before we had lunch as she fed him about 30 minutes ago, “Sure mom,” Jisung said and we got up and I changed from the oversized hoodie to the clothes I had when I got there the day before. We took a little walk with Bbama while Jisungs’ mother prepared his favorite for lunch and when we got back and ate he told his parents that he would stay with me tonight at which they just smiled but told us to come back to them for dinner the next day which we agreed to. After lunch Jisung packed a small backpack and then we walked to my apartment. “What are you thinking about?” he asked as we sat in my living room watching some youtube on the TV, “Huh?” I asked as I seemingly was zoning out and as he spoke he pulled me back to reality. “Your mind, it’s wandering so I’m asking what you’re thinking about,” he said and pulled me so I leaned on his shoulder, “I’m thinking if I could really be a good manager for you,” I whispered and he smiled. “You want to call my former manager, he didn’t get fired or quit because of anything bad but his wife was pregnant and the baby was born,” he said and showed me a photo his former manager had sent him with the wife and baby. “They’re so cute,” I said and managed a smile, “He wouldn’t mind?” I asked, scared to disturb, he looked at me and shook his head. “He even said that anyone thinking of taking the position could call him,” he said and I nodded, “Let’s call him together on your laptop,” I nodded and went to get my laptop from my bedroom. “Hi Jisung, how are you?” the man asked as he replied to the call, “I’m alright, having a break now which was good cause I was a bit anxious and stressed,” Jisung said and the man nodded in understanding. “Anyway we called you for a reason,” Jisung said and pulled me into view as I was hiding because I was a bit shy. “Well now, I’m guessing this is the girl you talked about,” the man said and Jisung nodded, “She’s now my girlfriend and since I don’t want to be apart from her anymore Channie hyung suggested she applies for the position you had since she’s my biggest comfort,” he said and the man smiled widely. “That’s a great idea,” he said and I smiled shyly, “Is it hard?” I asked carefully and the man chuckled, “No just help him keep track of schedules and if you’re together that means you can be with him more than I could. Also, just take care of him if he’s anxious and in crowds,” he said and I nodded. “I’ve seen it in my wife. She's usually very shy but when her mother instincts or caring instincts kick in, then she’s the most attentive and safe person I’ve met,” he said and I smiled. “That sounds like you,” Jisung said and looked at me, “I do kind of get like that with you,” I admitted and the man smiled, “Then you have nothing to worry about, if you need it I’ll put in a word for you to JYP,” he said, “We’ll call again if so,” Jisung said and he nodded and we hung up. “What do you say?” Jisung asked and I nodded, “I would love to see if I can get that position,” I said and he smiled brightly. “As Channie hyung said we can call JYP towards the end of the break and talk to him about it,” he said and I nodded. The rest of our time together was spent at my apartment and his parents' house. Two days before he had to go back to the dorm we called JYP who at first seemed a bit skeptical but when he heard about some situations we had been through in the past, he agreed. While he made me primarily Jisungs’ manager and safety person he told me to keep an eye on Minho too which I agreed to and he also told me I could live with them at their dorm. Jisungs’ parents told me I could sell my apartment and live with them during breaks, which both me and Jisung thought was a good idea. We spent the day at my apartment packing my stuff as we were leaving the next day. We also called the other boys and told them, they loved it, especially Minho and Felix. Minho jokingly groaned which made everyone else laugh. I was excited but also a bit nervous although I swallowed my nervousness since now my job was to protect and take care of the love of my life.
As my life at the dorm started it also turned completely crazy in ways I had never imagined. Despite being the same age as Jisung, well a few months older, I felt like I became the noona of the whole group. I saw a lot of articles about me as I did my job at airports and such, people were curious and some were suspicious but I ignored them. JYP knew about my relationship with Jisung and he made sure we always got to stay together at hotels and such which was enjoyable. The time that made people respect me happened as I was walking with them at the airport and we got mobbed, security had a hard time holding the mob back. One guy slipped through, he was about the level of body that Chan has and he was moving fast towards me, Jisung and Minho. “Min take Ji,” I said and decided to test out what I learned in my last self defense class, I grabbed the guys’ arm and ended up behind him. I then pressed my foot to his lower back and soon enough I had him on the floor with his hands behind his back. As more security came with cops they took the guy and I stood up and brushed off before I went back to the boys who had been moved away a bit from the mob. Jisung pulled me into his arms, “Are you okay?” he asked and I smiled, “Are you?” I asked back and he nodded slowly, “Then yes I'm okay,” I said and caressed his cheek and he leaned into my touch. Jisung walked between me and Minho and he was holding onto my sleeve, I caressed his hand as he seemed a bit shaken. Soon we had all checked in which made it calmer, “Ji stay here with Min I'll go and get you something to drink,” I said but he held onto my arm tightly. “I'll go,” Minho then said as I pulled Jisung with me onto a bench, “Lay down,” I said, he obeyed and laid with his head on my lap and his face into my belly. “It's okay now baby,” I whispered as I felt him shake slightly, the other boys and security kept the reporters and sneaky cameras away. Minho soon came back with drinks and a small snack for both me and Jisung who sat back up as he heard Minhos’ voice. We got him to eat and drink a little and when we got on the plane for the long flight to the US he asked me to join him in the sleep bunk he got. I laid with him and he rested his head on my chest right over my heart, “You're okay now, I'll always be here with you,” I whispered and he looked up at me. “It was scary… It reminded me of the time fans caused me to fall…” he whimpered and I played with his hair, “That won't happen again,” I whispered and he nodded. Soon enough he fell asleep and Minho looked into the sleep bunk, “What you did was so cool,” he said and I smiled, “Thanks Min” I whispered. He looked at Jisungs’ now peaceful face and went back to his own sleep bunk. After that incident there were a lot of articles both that praised me and also some that talked about me and Jisung, him pulling me into a hug had been caught on quite a few pics and videos. We traveled the states for a month and the boys performed a lot but there was also some content being shot with creators and such. The trip home went a lot better since nothing happened then.
The months passed and I felt something in Jisung, it was a nervousness unlike any before, “Ji are you okay?” I asked as we were cuddling in bed one evening, “I… There’s something I want to ask you but it’s such a big thing and I don’t know how to ask…” he admitted. “Ji… Baby, you know you can ask me anything,” I whispered and he looked into my eyes and caressed my cheek, it was quiet for several minutes and I could almost hear both our hearts beating. “I want a baby,” he said before he could stop the words. For a moment, the world stopped and my heart was pounding against my ribs, “Are you sure?” I asked and he nodded slowly, “I know it might not be easy with me being in the group and I understand if you don’t want to because of your job and…” I cut him off with a kiss. “I’ve been thinking about how to ask you for the same thing,” I admitted and he looked at me with wide eyes. No more words were said, in an instant his lips were back on mine and we both lost ourselves in the feeling of each other. Afterwards he held me so tight as we fell asleep together. After about two months I got a test that confirmed that I was in fact pregnant, I told Jisung on an evening when Minho was at Chan and Jeongins’ dorm so we were alone. Jisung smiled while tears streamed down his face as he saw the positive test and he hugged me so tight and spun me around. “I can’t believe it,” he whispered as he buried his face in my neck while still holding me tight, “Well Ji it’s real and I’m happy I get to share this with you and no one else,” I whispered as we stood there in each others’ embrace for a while. “I will do my absolute best for you during this princess,” he whispered as we cuddled on the sofa once we had both calmed down. “I know but don’t worry about me,” I whispered and he laid me down and hovered over me. “Princess I know you’re my manager and you take the best care of me but now I hope you don’t mind me taking care of you as well,” he said before he leaned down and kissed me deeply. During the coming days we thought about who to tell first, the most natural might be to tell parents but we wanted to tell Jisungs’ parents in person and I don’t have any parents as of a few years. After a bit of consideration the answer was obvious, Minho, the person who would always be there for us both and took on the older brother/ best friend role his age gave him. While I was the one taking care of them when we were out, at the dorm Minho was the one to make sure we were well cared for. He was at the company with Felix and Hyunjin, “How do we tell him?” Jisung asked and I smiled, “I still have the test we could tell him with a package like I did for you but we could write that he’ll be an uncle,” I said and we both burst out laughing at the thought of Minhos’ face if we would call him an uncle. Jisung wrote a card for Minho while I went and got the box and my positive pregnancy test. I read the card and it made me giggle, it was funny and cute and I was excited to see Minhos’ reaction. We put the test in the box, covered it with paper before we put the card on it, closed the box and watched a movie while we waited for him. Minho came home as our movie finished and then he had brought food for us, “Hi Min,” I called out from the sofa as Jisung went to help distribute the food and get chopsticks and spoons. “How was the session?” I asked as Minho sat in the armchair, “It was good, but tiring, and now I’m starving,” he said and both me and Jisung laughed. We ate and after the food we just sat in the living room talking, “We have something for you Min,” I said and handed him the box which I had hidden by my feet. He looked at it confused, “What’s this for?” he asked and we both just smiled. “Open and you’ll see,” Jisung said and Minho opened the box. We watched as he read the card and his eyes grew wide as he removed the paper and saw the test at the bottom. “Wow…” was all he managed as we walked over and hugged him. “Will you be the babys’ uncle?” I asked carefully and he hugged us back, “Of course,” he said and read the card again this time he laughed at the words. “Does anyone else know?” he asked but we shook our heads, “You’re the first to know,” Jisung said and Minho looked once again shocked. We told him our thought process and he smiled, “Fair it makes sense, go home for a weekend when we have nothing and then tell them then,” he said and we nodded.
Months passed, somewhere along the time we let the other boys know as well as JYP and the other managers for the group and of course Jisungs’ parents whom we went home and told over a weekend just like Minho told us to. One day I was hanging with 3racha in the studio when suddenly I felt really tired and slightly sick, I didn’t have my morning sickness so I guessed it was that. “Are you okay princess?” Jisung asked as he looked over at me, “I… I feel a bit sick…” I admitted, “You didn’t have morning sickness today so… Hm… I still need to work a bit more,” he said as he went over to my side. “It’s okay I’ll just rest here,” I said but he shook his head and took out his phone. Soon Minho rushed into the studio, “Take her home and make sure she rests, heck hold her still in bed if needed to,” Jisung said and I stared at him. “But…” I started but he looked at me with a stern but pleading gaze and I sighed and let Minho take me home after a stop to a bathroom so I could throw up for which Minho held my hair and rubbed my back. As we got home to the dorm he picked me up and carried me to mine and Jisungs’ bed, “I can walk by myself Min,” I whined. “Maybe but I have a feeling you would try to go back to the studio and also give me your phone,” he said once he placed me on the bed. I sighed, gave him my phone and crawled under the blanket with my pregnancy pillow that Jisung got me. My eyes widened as Minho actually did exactly what Jisung said as he got into the bed with me and held me. I whined and squirmed but soon I finally fell asleep. I woke up later by a slightly cold hand on my cheek and voices talking quietly, “Oh, sorry did I wake you up princess?” Jisung asked as he sat on the bed caressing my face, “Ye but it’s okay,” I whispered and he smiled at me while Minho got up from the bed. “Thanks for taking care of her Min,” Jisung said and Minho smiled and left the room. “Let’s take a shower and then you can enjoy a berry salad,” Jisung said and I smiled. Berries was my craving but not frozen, they had to be fresh and it sometimes put the boys in panic since it was fall boarding on winter. Jisung lifted me from the bed and carried me to the bathroom, “6 months along it’s crazy,” he whispered as he undressed me and caressed my belly. “It is crazy, it seems to be a February baby if everything goes to plan,” I said and he nodded, “Innie will be happy about that,” he said and I giggled. We got in the shower and he washed me and cared for me and afterwards he made my berry salad which I ate while we watched some TV, Minho made some food for them and Jisung let me eat some of his but only a little so I managed to keep it in my system. A couple days later Minho went to Chan and Jeongins’ dorm in the morning and after lunch he texted us to come over there. We walked there and when we got there we were surprised by the boys as well as Jisungs’ parents as they had made a baby shower for us. “Guys…” I sniffled since I was too stunned to speak and everyone came over for hugs. We talked and had some drinks that Minho had made and after a while Felix started whining that he wanted to know the gender of the baby. I smiled at him and looked at Jisung who was eyeing the cake moments from running over and just checking. “Well, I guess it is time,” I said, Jisung quickly pulled me over to the cake and everyone gathered closer, Minho gave everyone confetti pops with the color covered so no one knew. We cut into the cake a clear blue was visible, “It’s a boy,” Jisung announced and everyone popped the blue confetti. We then got to open gifts and Jisungs’ parents had a hotel booked so we simply told them to come to the dorm and have breakfast with us before they drove home tomorrow. The coming months felt so surreal, we hadn’t told the public although since people had figured out that me and Jisung were together it was less stressful. Thankfully since it was winter I could go out and hide my belly because I could wear baggier clothes and people would just assume I was having layers. Jisung and JYP did forbid me to work or exert myself during these last few months to ensure I rested and just took care of myself. The boys stayed in Korea and worked on a Korean comeback so they didn’t have to travel other than for solo schedules like fashion shows. During these last few months we asked Minho if he wanted to be the godfather to our baby boy. “No, I know I will already be a big part of that babys’ life so someone else should get that honor,” he said and I looked at Jisung who seemed to have someone in mind. “Channie hyung,” was all he said and both me and Minho smiled and nodded. We called him and asked if he wanted to go to a cafe with us, “Sure the usual?” he asked and we agreed to that. We said bye to Minho and then we left for the cafe, we sat down and Jisung took care of my coat and soon Chan walked in and sat with us. “How are you holding up?” he asked me, “I’m good, just a bit tired and morning sickness is annoying but it’s all good,” I said and he chuckled. “So we actually had a reason for inviting you here,” I said while Jisung ordered, “Oh and what might that be?” Chan asked. I waited until we got our stuff and Jisung was sitting down beside me, “We wanted to ask if you… wanted to be the godfather to our baby,” I said in a quiet voice so as not to alert the whole cafe. “But Min?” Chan started but we shook our heads, “We did ask him but he said he will already be a big part of the babys’ life and that we should ask someone else and I wanted to ask you,” Jisung said and Chan smiled brightly and accepted. Christmas passed, new years passed, Jeongins’ birthday where we told him the baby would be a late February baby which brought the biggest smile to his face.
On the day which was exactly a month before their debut anniversary 25 of February the baby was born. The first two boys that Jisung let into the room where I was in bed holding the baby were Minho and Chan both of whom were stunned and speechless. “He’s beautiful,” Chan finally managed to say, “You wanna hold him?” I asked and Chan looked at me with wide eyes, “M- Min you can hold him first,” Chan stuttered and Minho chuckled. I looked at Minho who sat on a chair beside the bed, Jisung came and took the baby from me and put him in Minhos’ arms. “He’s so small,” Minho said in awe as he looked at the bundle he was holding, the baby opened his dark eyes and smiled at Minho who looked like he would melt. “Tough Minho beaten by a babys’ smile,” I said and took a picture of them, “Chan sit,” Jisung said and patted the bed by my feet. Chan finally sat down and Minho stood up and placed the baby in his arms, “I haven’t held a newborn since I was younger and Lucas was born,” Chan said as he held my son. I gave my phone to Jisung who took a picture of Chan with the baby and soon Chan and Minho left. “You wanna do someone else before you rest a little?” Jisung asked and I thought, “Innie,” I said and he smiled before he went to get the youngest. Jeongins’ eyes sparkled as he laid eyes on the baby, “Can I hold him?” he asked and I smiled, “Come then,” I said and he sat on the chair beside the bed and I handed him the baby. “He’s so beautiful,” he whispered as he looked at the small boy in his arms, I smiled as Jeongin gave him back to me and then we talked a little before Jeongin left. “You want something to eat?” Jisung asked and I nodded, “Something light,” I said and he nodded before he went and bought something at the hospitals’ cafe for me. After I ate I fed the baby and then we finally let Changbin and Hyunjin into the room after they had also promised Jisung to be gentle and calm. Changbin looked scared he would break the baby as Jisung placed the small bundle gently in his arms. “He’s so tiny,” Changbin said and we laughed, “He’s barely a day old Binnie of course he’s small, also you look great as an uncle,” I said and Jisung again took a picture with my phone. It was then Hyunjins’ turn and he looked both excited and scared and also like he was about to cry as the baby was placed in his arms, the baby then opened his eyes as he had been sleeping and like with Minho he smiled as he saw Hyunjin. The picture I took showed the tear that actually escaped Hyunjins’ eye, “Jinnie?” I asked carefully, “I’m just overwhelmed by tender feelings,” he whispered with a shaky voice. Hyunjin then placed the baby back on my chest, “Does he have a name yet?” he asked and I smiled, “He does but we’ll tell it to the whole group later,” I said and he nodded and left the room with Changbin. Finally it was time for the last pair, Seungmin entered the room but Felix hesitated until Seungmin and Jisung literally dragged him inside. “Oh my god…” was all Felix managed to say when he saw the baby. “You okay Lix?” I asked as he sat down by my feet, “Yes… Or well I think so,” he said, “Come closer,” I said and moved a bit to the side. Felix moved so he sat closer to me. “Ready?” I asked and he nodded slowly, I then placed my son in his arms, “Wow,” was all he said and I smiled and Jisung took the picture. “See, you’re fine Lix,” I said and he nodded with that bright sunshine smile he smiled when he was at his happiest. “Minnie, your turn,” I said and Seungmin looked at the baby before he nodded and sat on the chair by the bed. Felix then gave him the baby and we saw the softest version of Seungmin we had ever seen. When I got the baby back Felix looked at me, “When will you get to go home?” he asked, “Tomorrow,” I said and he smiled. “We’ll call you both and the others when we’re home,” Jisung said as he followed the two out of the room. I put the baby in the crib before I laid down, “Are you tired?” Jisung asked as he walked back into the room, “A bit,” I said and he smiled. “Sleep then princess, I’ll wake you up if needed,” he said, “You need sleep too though,” I said and he smiled, “I’m fine, I’ll sleep when you wake up,” he said and I nodded. He kissed me on the lips and forehead before he sat on a chair that was by both me and the crib and then he sang a lullaby partly for me but mostly for the baby, it didn’t take long until both me and the baby were asleep. When we got home the next day Minho made us food and then we called everyone over to our dorm. “Do we get to know the name now?” Hyunjin asked and I nodded, “His name is Nari,” I said and they all loved it. We spent a calm and nice day together with everyone and in the evening after the others had left and we were about to go to bed we video called Jisungs’ parents and showed Nari to them. The coming month was a wonderful mess, thankfully Jisung could stay home with me and Nari and also Nari actually got a pretty good sleep schedule which I was happy about. On the boys’ debut anniversary which was also the day Nari turned 1 month, we joined Jisung and the others at the company. JYP then called me to the office so I brought Nari with me and went there while the boys filmed some content. “What a cute boy you got,” JYP said as he saw Nari, “Thank you sir,” I smiled, “I was just wondering how you’re feeling now,” he said and I thought, “I feel quite good, it helps that this little one sleeps most of the nights,” I said and we laughed. “How do you want to do things now?” he asked as we sat down at his sofa area, “I can work or at least go with them, I just have to get Nari his shots at the hospital and a passport and we can go anywhere,” I said and he nodded. “I can still be Jisungs’ manager and Minhos’ if so,” I said and he smiled. “Well then let me fix some documents for you and the baby,” he said and I nodded and he walked back to his desk and printed some stuff. He handed me some documents, “It’s about time for Japanese promotions for the boys in about 2 months. Does that work for you?” he asked and I nodded. “Wonderful, also how you handle public attention is all up to you and Jisung, but make sure to take care and be safe,” he said and I bowed and left with Nari in his carrier. On my way back to the boys some people I had befriended here wanted to see my baby. “Oh my god he’s so precious,” Lia squealed as she saw him, “You wanna hold him?” I asked and she nodded, “Let’s go and sit somewhere,” I said. She and Yeji took me to the dance room where they were practicing a bit. Lia sat down on the sofa and I put the carrier on the floor before I picked Nari up and placed him in her arms, Yeji was smiling and taking pictures. My phone rang so I picked up, “Hi Ji,” I said, “Where are you?” he asked, “I’m in a dance room with Lia and Yeji as they wanted to see Nari. Lia is holding him right now,” I said and Jisung chuckled, “Alright, but let’s go and eat something,” he said and I agreed to that. “I’ll be waiting, I love you,” he said, “I’ll be right there, I love you too,” I said and we hung up. “Well, I have to go for lunch,” I said and Lia put Nari back in his carrier, “We’ll talk to you later,” they said and I nodded and left. When I found Jisung he was talking to Young K from Day6, “There you are,” he said, Young K instantly looked my way at Jisungs’ words, “Let me see the baby,” he pleaded which made me laugh but nod and let Jisung take Nari from the carrier. “Wow, how old is he?” Young K asked, “Only 1 month today exactly,” I said, “So small,” he said and we nodded, “We can meet up later and the others can see him too,” I said and Young K nodded. We went out for lunch and thankfully Nari was sleeping the whole time. I showed Jisung a photo of Lia holding Nari and he smiled, “That’s cute,” he said and I nodded. As we got back to the company I found a calm room where I could feed Nari who woke up as we were about to enter the room where the others were. Once he was fed and happy I went back to the boys, “I have something to ask,” Jisung said and pulled me to the side, “What is it?” I asked, “Do you want to show him on the live?” he asked and nodded towards Nari who was falling back asleep in Chans’ arms. I shook my head, “I feel that if we really want to show him to STAYs we should do that on a private live,” I said and he nodded, “I was planning to rest and maybe meet Day6 while you guys do the live,” I said and he smiled and nodded. When the boys prepared to go live I texted Young K and asked where he was, ‘I’m in the studio come and hang here,’ he texted back and I signaled to Jisung that I would go and he nodded. I took the carrier where Chan had put Nari and walked to the studio where I found Young K and Dowoon. “Oh hi Dowoon,” I said and he turned his head and saw me, “Hi,” he said and then he noticed the carrier. “Is that?” he asked but stopped and his eyes grew wide as I put it down and took Nari from it. “This is Nari,” I said and both Young K and Dowoon came over and looked closer at him, “Where are the others?” I asked, “They’re practicing but they should arrive soon,” Young K said. “You wanna stay while we record?” Dowoon asked, “As long as I’m not filmed, we haven’t shown Nari to the public yet,” I said and they nodded. Soon Wonpil and Sungjin came as well and after the ones that wanted to hold Nari had done so their recording session started. It was a nice rock ballad and Nari fell asleep during the session. I smiled as I cradled my son in my arms while I listened to them record, “It’s nice having so many older brothers,” I said and they laughed. “I need some rest so I’ll go now,” I said and they hugged me after I had put Nari in the carrier and then I took my son and left. I went to a resting room and laid on the bed there when Sana called, “Hello?” I asked sleepily as I had just been about to fall asleep, “Are you okay?” she asked, “Sana, oh, I’m fine just in a resting room about to rest,” I said. “I won’t disturb you if you need to rest,” she said, “Oh, don’t worry it’s fine, did Chan tell you I was here?” I asked, “Yeah, he knows I love babies and said I could see one if I found you,” she said and laughed. “Did he mean me or the actual baby?” I asked with a laugh, “Both,” she said, “Then come here,” I said and told her what resting room I was at and then we hung up. Soon there was a gentle knock on the door so I went and unlocked it and Sana entered, “You look exhausted,” she said and hugged me, “I kinda am but it’s okay,” I said and sat back on the bed as she locked the door and came over to me. “At least I get to sleep at night for the most part,” I said and she smiled and then she finally noticed the carrier, I moved the blanket I had put over it. “Oh my…” she lost her words as Nari woke up and stared at her with his big dark eyes. I picked him up, “Can I?” she asked slowly and I nodded and handed him to her. When she held him her eyes sparkled, I snapped a photo of her and she asked if she could get it so I instantly sent it to her. “He’s beautiful, how long has he been in the world?” she asked, “Only a month today,” I said and she smiled brightly. Jisung texted me and asked where I was since they were done with the live, I texted where I was and soon he appeared with Chan. “Oh hi Sana,” Jisung said, “Hi Hannie, what a beautiful baby you made,” she said to him and he smiled and nodded. “Come Sana let’s have something to eat,” Chan said, she instantly gave Nari back to me before she hugged me, told me to make sure I got some rest and then she left with Chan. Jisung sat down with me, “Let’s go home and then you can feed him but then you should rest a little,” he said and I sighed but nodded.
A few days later as Jisung, me and Nari were alone at the dorm while Minho was dancing with Felix and Hyunjin we finally decided to do the live where we showed Nari to STAYs. Jisung set up for the live while I fed our son so he would be happy during the live. Jisung looked over at me and asked if he could start the live and I nodded. I was still away from the camera fixing my clothes. “Hi STAY,” Jisung said as he started the live, it didn’t take long before he laughed, “They’re asking for you,” he said and I smiled, “I’ll be right there,” I said loud enough for them to hear. “So before she comes into view I want to tell you guys to be nice and respectful because we want to introduce someone to you,” Jisung said and then he turned quiet while reading the comments. “Let’s see how much you all will freak out,” he said and nodded for me to come and I went into view and sat beside him with Nari in my arms. The comments went wild, ‘Oh my god is that a real baby?’, ‘Are you babysitting?’, ‘That baby is so cute,’. “To answer some of your questions, no we’re not babysitting, this is actually our baby,” Jisung said and the comment section turned into STAYs processing his words. “His name is Nari and he’s just over a month old,” I said and the comments finally left processing mode. ‘You’ve become parents?’ some asked and we confirmed that. ‘How will that work with your jobs?’, “I see you are all worried about how this will affect the group and such. Don’t worry about that, I’m not stopping and I won’t until I physically can’t perform anymore,” Jisung said and I nodded. The comment section calmed down and asked to see Nari better so Jisung took him and held him up so he was more visible. We talked a bit more and I went and put Nari in his crib as he fell asleep. “Alright, I hope this was a fun live and that you enjoyed getting introduced to our son see ya,” Jisung ended the live. “Well, let’s hope they’re going to behave,” he said and walked over to me as I exited the bedroom. “Yes, let’s hope,” I whispered and giggled as he pulled me close by the waist and kissed me with all the love he felt. I admit I was a bit nervous but I hoped I didn’t have anything to worry about. Well, turns out our live was about to spark something. A couple of months passed and Nari was growing, when he was about 4 months old it happened, well it had already started after the live but it was about to get worse. As I lived with both Minho and Jisung people were speculating that the baby could belong to Minho and not to Jisung since I had been seen with Minho while Jisung was at the company. They were saying that there’s no way of knowing who the baby belonged to which was stupid. The moment it got worse was one day when we were at the airport, as we were going to Japan for a fan-meeting. The one carrying Nari wasn’t me or Jisung but he was in Minhos’ arms at that moment. Cameras captured this and once we had checked in our stuff and gotten away from the cameras we already saw a few posts about it. ‘Wow look at the baby when he’s with Lino, look how similar they are,’ that was what they said, “Are these people blind?” Minho asked, he was clearly annoyed. Minho, me and Jisung had found a private spot so I could feed Nari without too many curious eyes and now Minho was looking through what people wrote about it. People were calling me a cheater as well as other horrible stuff, “Are you okay princess?” Jisung asked as he saw me turn away from Minhos’ phone as I was looking there while I fed Nari, I truthfully shook my head. “Finish the feeding and I’ll take him for a bit,” Minho said and I nodded. Once Nari had eaten Minho took him and walked back to the others and after I had fixed my clothes Jisung pulled me into his arms as I broke down in tears. “I would never…” I cried, “I know baby, they just want something to start drama about, we all know that Nari is mine and not Minhos’” he whispered as he held me close. Once I calmed down he led me back to the others where Chan handed me some water. Our phones were going crazy as our friends told us they took on the fight against the rumors. When we finally got to Japan Jisung pampered me endlessly in our hotel room and we just had some quality family time with each other and our sweet son. I realized that Jisung was right about people just wanting to have something to start drama with ‘cause one moment when our now 4 month old Nari smiled at me all I could see in that smile was Jisung. “His smile… It looked just like a mini you,” I whispered and Jisung kissed my forehead, “And the way he looks satisfied after eating is just like you baby,” he whispered back to me. The next day it was time for day one of the fan-meeting and what I didn’t know at the time was that both days would be unlike any experience I had before. I was with Nari backstage watching the boys have all their fun, it made me smile as I saw my 4 month old son react every time Jisung came on screen. “You recognize your papa,” I sighed happily as it warmed my heart. The first experience for me happened when Minho had his ending ment, “Okay I just want to make one thing extremely clear, I know STAYs outside of Japan are watching this too so to all of you I want to say this… I would never ever do anything to hurt my best friend and that includes making his girlfriend cheat. That child isn’t mine it’s 100 percent Hannies’ seriously anyone who says otherwise is blind,” he said and as he said that a picture of Nari smiling brightly came on the big screen. It was the smile I had commented on that looked just like Jisungs’ and then another where he looked up with the boba stare. “Anyone who looks at him through their eyes and not their will to only start drama can clearly see that Nari has no feature from me, I’m so tired of you all trying to ruin their smiles and happiness,” he said and then he sent the word over to Jisung who proceeded to thank him and talk more about it from his point of view. “It hurts, is that what you want? I have my comfort and she gives me a son and all you people do is trying to say the baby isn’t mine, it’s such childish and disgusting behavior and I can’t believe STAYs would be like that… I… don’t want to believe that,” he said and I could feel he was getting emotional so Jeongin took to speaking while Minho comforted Jisung. I put my now sleeping son in the carrier before I sat down on a sofa and processed what just happened. The boys soon finished and came backstage as I was still sitting on the sofa and Nari was still sleeping. “Are you okay baby?” Jisung asked and walked over to me, “I’m fine… I think, how about you?” I asked back and pulled him down with me on the sofa and we leaned into each other. “I’m okay it’s been a while since I got that emotional on stage but let’s hope it left an impact,” he said and kissed the top of my head before he went to change and remove his make-up. When he came back he picked up Nari and held him so close, “I will protect you from everything,” he whispered and I smiled. “Let’s go and eat some now and then we’ll go back to the hotel,” Chan said and we nodded. Later at the hotel as I had fed Nari and he was sleeping in the crib Jisung pulled me as close as he could and kissed me deeply. “I will protect both of you,” he whispered against my lips before he kissed me again. “I love you,” I whispered out of breath after his kisses, “I love you too princess,” he whispered back and we laid in bed and snuggled close and shared a few more sweet kisses before we fell asleep. The next day I got to spend some time with the others as Jisung had an errand for which he brought Felix and Hyunjin, I didn’t mind of course. I went to eat lunch with Jeongin and Seungmin before we went to the arena and met the others. When Jisung, Felix and Hyunjin came there Chan was holding Nari who was making small noises while Jeongin was taking pictures of them. “What a sweet atmosphere,” Jisung said as we hadn’t noticed them, “Ji!” I squealed and jumped up and into his arms. “Hi baby, I’m back,” he whispered against my cheek as he kissed it. We chilled for a while, I tried to get him to tell me what he did but he wouldn’t tell and neither would Hyunjin or Felix. Soon it was time for fan-meeting day 2 and while last time was special I had no idea how special this one would be. The boys were about to finish off and say their goodbyes to the crowd when Jisung called me on stage. I let the other staff watch Nari as I carefully walked to him. “There’s something I want to do here in front of STAYs, I’ve seen the mean comments die down and I’m so happy. My greatest happiness other than STAY and the group is my incredible family,” he said and took my hand as I walked over to him. The STAYs cheered, I was blushing and the other boys had moved away a little. Jisung then stunned me completely by proposing to me then and there on stage in Japan. “I love you Ji,” I whispered once we were enveloped in a hug from the others, STAYs were cheering loudly, I was sobbing softly and Jisung was teary-eyed but fine. We said a proper goodbye to STAYs and then we went off stage where the staff proceeded to congratulate us too. When we went out to eat that evening the others treated me and Jisung to food and drinks and when we were back at the hotel Minho took Nari after I had fed him so me and Jisung could have some alone time. Later Jisung went to get Nari from Minho and when he came back I looked at them from where I was laying in bed. Jisung smiled and walked over, he placed Nari on my chest before he laid beside me and laid his arm over my waist. “You both are my greatest treasure,” he whispered before he placed a sweet kiss on my lips, “I’m happier than I ever thought I would be,” I whispered and he kissed me again. Life is funny isn’t it, it can be incredibly gloomy and then the next moment it can be incredibly bright. Jisung was the one who brought light to me. Well, we had a tendency to bring light to each other and now with our beautiful son my life feels more fulfilled than ever before. I continued my job as Jisungs’ manager but I also managed the others a lot since no matter what, I was with them on schedules. When Nari was 3 years old I gave us more happiness as I gave birth to a beautiful girl. “Through highs and lows I will always stay by your side. I will carry you if needed, I will never leave and I will always love you,” Jisung said in his vows and he stays true to them and I follow them as well. “I love you forever,” I whispered every night, “I love you forever,” he replied.