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Blue Rose: The saddest part of me.
[Static crackles. Mic clicks on. A shaky breath.]
Haahh,
So, guess who ran away again?
Yours Truly.
Hehehahahhhhhhhhhhhh
He was right there.
But I am a coward.
I couldn’t even defend it.
I am such a fucking coward.
[Short silence. A thud—maybe his head hitting the desk.]
Who knows?
It hurts.
My neck.
My head.
My soul.
[He sighs. Deep. As if it’s trying to hold in a scream.]
I wish I could just disappear.
Hop into some dimension,
Where they don’t judge me for the way I am.
Being ME is so hard here.
I didn’t ask to be born, neither did i ask for your fucking help–
I was here unwanted.
A mistake.
That’s what I am.
Yet I am shameless.
I thank the lords for creating a piece of shit like me.
I thank the lords for giving me shitass emotions.
I thank the lords for giving me hope…
That I can be loved.
I can’t be loved.
I am just too much.
[voice cracks]
Whateverrrr~
I will sing the pain away, and I will be back to my shenanigans.
Here for you,
Guess another day I am alive.
Drunken monologues, confused because
It's not like I'm falling in love, I just want ya
To do me no good
And you look like you could
Come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, come on
Number one party anthem
Come on, come on, come on
Before the moment's gone
Number one party anthem, yeah, yeah
The look of love, the rush of blood
The "She's with me" is the Gallic shrug
The shutterbugs, the Camera Plus
The black and white and the colour dodge
The good time girls, the cubicles
The house of fun, the number one
Party anthem, oh
faint whisper
I couldn’t,
I can’t thank you....
for staying by.
He was soaked in rain.
Drowning in the memory of the eyes—
Of a man he shouldn’t love.
Isagi slumped down on the floor.
Covering his face, he breathed heavily.
The moments.
The letters they exchanged.
The fan art he made.
The collab– the DMs.
The voice he fell in love with.
That damn voice.
No way.
No fucking way.
Isagi was packing his books quickly as he heard the bells ring.
Gathering his stray doodles and stacking them up.
He put all those in his sketchbook.
“All set, let’s go”, Isagi mumbled with a small grin.
As he got out of the school, he made a run to his home.
He was excited about two things.
Number one: Declaration of acceptance into the college he had applied to.
The college he applied to was in Germany and was very prestigious.
Number two: New episode of Blue Rose.
He discovered a YouTube podcast when he was fifteen.
And from the very beginning, he has been in love with it.
He still remembers the first day he listened to it.
It was a terrible day.
He lost a match on top of that; his teammates snickered over him being a striker.
Isagi was coming home, and the feeling was so overwhelming that he overlooked the rainclouds hovering over him.
Halfway through the road to home, it rained heavily.
Isagi cycled fast to avoid the raindrops falling on him.
But the universe collectively decided to make this one of the worst days for Isagi,
His cycle slipped and he fell flat on his back.
Luckily, it wasn’t an injury-type fall, but it was enough to make Isagi cry and scream over his luck.
He cried there for a while, letting out his pain.
He got up, wiped his tears and cycled to his home.
His mother was worried about him, but he brushed it off.
Isagi wanted to be alone for now.
He went for a bath and locked himself in his room.
Isagi opened YouTube, trying to get his mind off.
Scrolling and scrolling.
Playing one song and immediately changing it back.
Just staring at the screen.
Then he found it.
BLUE ROSE: Oh, it works, okay.
Blue Rose
3.5k views . 6 months ago
It was the thumbnail that attracted him.
The night engulfed a blue rose, which is carefully kept in a glass case.
With stars roughly drawn all over it.
Without any thought, he clicked on it.
The screen repeated a small, pixelated GIF of the same illustration in the thumbnail.
…..
Hello?
Uhhhhhh Is this thing working?
Umm…
Isagi blinked.
That was one of the beautiful voices he had heard.
It was almost soft, like, like— Someone who is pouring their heart out.
* Starts singing Feel Good Inc*
Feel good
Sha, sha-ba-da, sha-ba-da-ca (feel good)
Sha, sha-ba-da, sha-ba-da-ca (feel good)
Sha, sha-ba-da, sha-ba-da-ca, feel good
Sha, sha-ba-da, sha-ba-da-ca (feel good)
Sha, sha-ba-da Hahahahhaha
*Laughter*
And he SINGS too??
Isagi’s heart almost skipped a beat.
Hahaha, ok, that was weird.
I'm not sure if it's recording or not.
I will check that at the end, so hear me ramble.
I am Blue.
Blue Rose.
Weird name, but they named me this.
This is weird, definitely weird.
Yet he listened to it regardless.
I can't change it. lol.
Currently, I am in a dimension where everything is in disarray.
How did I get here?
Well, I woke up from my bed one day,
And there was this manhwa-style portal right outside my bedroom,
And I accidentally stumbled into it.
The good thing is that my phone and my wired earphones got stuck with me.
And another good thing…
I HAVE MY PLAYLIST DOWNLOADED YIPPEEE!
As Isagi listened to it, he sank into the softness of his bed.
It was as if listening to someone you have known for ages.
And would forever listen to them.
He chuckled when Blue said “Yippee”
That was cute.
…..
That was so cringe, oh my god.
Please ignore that while I run and dig a hole for myself.
But seriously, I love music.
“Who doesn’t?” Isagi hummed.
Another question might be popping up in your head.
How am I getting access to this platform called YouTube?
Or maybe the most important one.
Where did I charge my phone?
As you know… Well, you don't know what I'm even talking about?
I can travel dimensions ever since I got sucked by the manhwa-style portal.
Isagi laughed under his breath.
“He sounds so stupid”, he curled himself.
Sinking further into it.
* Says in a low voice*
Don't say this to anyone but I love those types of manhwa and manga…
Yep, them,
where two men fight alongside each other while also fighting with one another,
and have the romantic tension of a long-lost classical romance novel.
*Clears throat*
Ahem yeah
“Yes, sir, your secret is safe, as if you didn’t share it with strangers like me," he grinned.
So while travelling through dimensions, when my phone was on the verge of dying,
I got into this certain dimension,
where they had power banks and small internet routers which worked throughout the dimensions.
Apparently, the people of this dimension were too smart
and travelled in those dimensions even before the netizens of other dimensions knew, so yeah.
I brought one of these, and I thank the lord for giving me this opportunity.
(I needed the internet to download more music)
*More laughter*
That dimension name was funny,
Like, who names their dimension “Sparkling Water?” Heheheh.
I love sparkling water, LOL.
They named the power banks as e-t.t.u. If you speak it verbally, it's ettu,
like wow, and the internet routers are called Dumbo.
That dimension was just… something else.
But I owe that dimension for giving me internet access heheh.
…..
Woah, it's actually recording.
Well whateverrr.
I am going to plug in my phone now.
But before that, guess another day I’m alive.
And no, don't jinx it.
“I wouldn’t even jinx it” Isagi muttered under his breath.
Something was incredibly raw about this person.
They weren’t entertaining an audience.
They were just there.
Floating, existing while being lonely.
None of the logic they gave made sense, but it was believable and real.
*Plays some instrumental*
Windmill, windmill for the land
Turn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is ticking, fallin' down
Love forever, love is free
Let's turn forever, you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?
Hahaha
Laughter fades into nothing.
A faint whisper
Thank you for staying by.
By the time the episode ended.
Isagi found himself humming along with Blue.
He didn’t know them.
Neither did they know him.
But there was some sort of familiarity between them.
He clicked on the channel, and there were a couple more episodes there.
BLUE ROSE: New school, New hatred.
Blue Rose
2.5k views . 6 months ago
BLUE ROSE: I love Cola and Pepsi.
Blue Rose
2k views . 5 months ago
BLUE ROSE: When the Sun goes DOWN.
Blue Rose
2k views . 5 months ago
He scrolled and found 12 episodes.
All of them with some bizarre names.
Like “damn this dimenison is on Steriods.”
It felt like it was just them and their weird little shenanigans against the world.
Isagi played all of them one by one.
Listening to it keenly.
He loved Blue’s voice.
He loved the little GIFS.
He loved how Blue would sing in the end.
He loved how silly it was.
He loved Blue Rose.
Sinking into the stranger’s comfort.
Sleeping in that warmth.
The screen dimmed.
The song ending.
Isagi slept peacefully on the worst day.
Isagi reached home.
His mother was waiting for him in the living room.
She looked up as he flopped next to her on the couch.
“Mum!” Isagi pulled his mother into a hug.
“Excited for the results, Yocchan?” She asked, patting his back.
“I am more nervous about it”, he chuckled into her shoulder.
Isagi’s mum looked him in the eyes and said,
“Whatever it may be, just know I am proud of you”
Isagi smiled, “I don’t know what I will do without you, like seriously”
“I am always here for you.” She laughed.
The notification rang.
His heart was beating.
His finger hovered over the Gmail icon.
He clicked it.
Mr. Isagi Yoichi
Roll number: 101 B
Department of Visual Design.
Subject: Admission Offer – Bachelor of Visual Design (Fall Intake)
Dear Isagi Yoichi,
We are delighted to inform you that, following a thorough evaluation of your application and submitted portfolio, the Admissions Committee has recommended your acceptance into the Bachelor of Visual Design program at Seriyu Institute, Munich, Germany, for the upcoming Fall Semester.
His heart skipped a beat.
He read it once. Twice. Thrice.
And finally believed it
His eyes glittered.
“I got in”, he said in a silent whisper.
His mother leaned in. “What?”
“I got in, Mum” He announced with a big grin.
“I knew it!” she shrieked, pulling him into a tight hug. “I knew you would get in!!”
She ruffled his hair, laughing, while Isagi clung to her just as tightly—
doubt, and quiet hope dissolving in that single, perfect second.
Isagi flopped on his bed.
He can’t stop smiling.
Germany…
It’s not a dream anymore.
If he is lucky, he might see Noel Noa.
He still liked football.
It was just— he didn’t believe himself.
Another ping echoed in the room.
Isagi immediately jotted up, sitting straight up as the notification popped up.
BLUE ROSE: I may be delulu, but at least I am slaying.
Blue Rose
1 view . 1 min ago
Without any second thought, he plugged in his earphones and listened to the voice that gave him peace.
-TBC
(Isagi can't wait to listen)