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1. it was night when you died, my firefly by achillessangel

   Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   06 Jul 2025

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr./Paul Holden
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. & Ponyboy Curtis & Sodapop Curtis
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
   • Paul Holden
   • Song: Fourth of July (Sufjan Stevens)
   • Suicide
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr. Needs a Hug
   • Gay Darrel "Darry" Curtis Jr.
   • Talking To Dead People
   • Except it's only Paul holden
   • darry really needs a hug
   • The Author Regrets Nothing
   • The Author Regrets Everything
   • I will not be paying for therapy after reading this fic
   • One Shot
   • Sad Ending
   • Title from a Sufjan Stevens Song
   • Alternate Universe - Modern Setting
   • Paul Holden is Dead
   • no beta reader we die like Dallas Winston

   Summary

   "let me go hun. I'm not here anymore."

   Darry looked up twoards the foot of his bed. Paul looked tired.

   "I can't."

   Or

   Paul Holden committed suicide 436 days ago. Darry Curtis knows because he marked every single day into his skin. CPS came and took his kid brothers 325 days ago. Darry knows because he bashed his head into the wall every day they were gone.

   Or

   A look into Darry Curtis' mind after everything falls apart

   Series

   • Part 1 of The Outsiders

   Language:

   English

   Words:

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   Comments:

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