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Evan had always craved the feeling of being with his soulmate. Even though he may not look like the guy to care about deeper feelings a lot, with his tattoos, bleached locks, multiple ear piercings and his facade of acting like he didn't care about anything in the world.
His inner monologue was different from his appearance, he wanted nothing more than to find his soulmate. Even the thought of one day finding someone who just understood his soul made Evan giggly.
Which made Evan wonder how other people felt about this, people who didn't have a twin, like he did. Who didn't have people that came close to a soulmate.
Evan opened the door to his flat that he shared with his twin sister Pandora and another friend of theirs, Emmeline, while he thought about his soulmate.
Emmeline wasn’t home yet, still working in her arts studio where she would sometimes spend nights and stay so long that Pandorea and Evan had to drag her out.
His sister was home, unmistakingly since girl in red's newest single blasted through the speakers.
‘’I’m home.’’ he announced, not sure if Pandora would even hear him. Sometimes she would disconnect from the real world when listening to music, good for her.
Evan felt that on a deep level, music was something so precious.
In his opinion, someone's favorite song said a lot about the person. Not if he liked the person or not, more like what the person had gone through.
Today was not a day where Pandora had spaced out. ‘’ HI Ev, I’m on the couch.’’ she announced and with that Evan took off his shoes and walked into the living room. Finding Pandora on the couch he joined her laying on the other end of the couch. Taking up space that had belonged to Pandora a few seconds ago.
‘’Hey, get your legs off my legs. They're heavy.’’ Pandora complained.
‘’And where am i supposed to put them ?’’ He asked raising a brow at his sister.
Pandora stuck her tongue out, acting like a toddler.‘’In your ass.’’
Evan had to giggle at the absurdity of this conversation.
‘’You know that my legs are too long for that.’’ He argued back, Pandora began grinning and Evan already prepared himself for the next comeback.
‘’No Ev, I don't, you're the gay one. You surely know better what fits into an arse and what doesn’t.’’
Now Evan looked at his twin in utter shock. ‘’Says the one who eats random pussy’s for beakfast, lunch and dinner.’’ Now Pandora was the one to look at him in shock. Evan wanted to look like he was pissed at her, he really did. But this was so getting out of hand that it was funny.
"That's homophobic, I will fill a complaint against you.’’ His sister barely managed to get the last bits of her sentence out before breaking out into laughter.
Evan was still offended and wouldn’t let this go. ‘’I’m literally gay, as you just said. How the fuck would I be homophobic ?’’ He looked at his sister genuinely curious about what she would respond to that.
‘’That must be our parents' internalized homophobia talking, they got to you.’’ She faked a sad look on her face, which quickly turned into an actual sad look.
Their parents were a sad topic overall.
‘’Oh, would you shut up about our parents already.’’ He groaned, letting his head fall against the wall.
Pandora continued staring at him, for a long time so eventually Evan stared back.
A smile crept to Pandora's lips and her smile was the most contagious thing in the world, so Evans' lips did the same.
He wasn't really sure what his sister would say next, but he was pretty sure that it wasn't going to be about their parents. Otherwise she wouldn’t have smiled.
‘’Just saying, you forgot that I eat pussy for dessert too.’’ She said looking fairly proud of herself.
Evan broke out into laughter at the same time his sister did.
It took minutes for them to calm down and when they did, Evans' head was laying in Pandora's lap.
Suddenly Evans mind switched to overthinker mood, which sent him into a spiral of thoughts.
And he wondered why he felt so empty.
Evans' heart should be full; he had Pandora and she was the best sister he could ever ask for.
He had Emmeline, who sure as hell was the best friend in the whole world.
Something was lacking though, most likely someone and he could never shake this feeling off. It was present in most of Evans' waking thoughts and definitely every thought he had when he tried to fall asleep.
Pandora snapped him out of his thoughts. ‘’What you're thinking about.’’ Evan looked up at his sister, at her eyes that looked eerily like his own and sighed.
‘’You know the usual. I’m just sick of fucking around with random man, but i cant stop either because the only time that void is even remotely gone is when im acting like i love someone like that.’’ Now Pandora was the one sighing.
‘’I told you to stop doing that its not healthy for you.’’
Evan snorted in a defensive way. ‘’Says the right one.’’
Pandora only smiles at him with a deep understanding. ‘’Because I can clearly handle it, besides this is not about me. It's about you Ev.’’
Evan wanted to argue, to tell Pandora that it wasn't that deep. That the ache in his heart wasn't that deep, but it would've been a lie.
A lie that the blonde would spot easily, so he didn't bother.
Pandora takes out her phone and starts scrolling and Evan felt kind of offended, because he was just talking about his heart and now his sister is acting like he is some side chick ?
He snapped his fingers in front of her face. ‘’Errr Pandora we weren't exactly done with this conversation, I haven't even gotten to the part where I would tell you about the love I have to give.’’
Evan was now whining in his sister's lap about a person he doesn't know.
He was fucking emberassing.
Pandora didn’t make a sound, still too busy with scrolling. Evan poked his sister in her belly to get her attention..
‘’Yes, Evan i'm listening I'm just looking for a solution to your problem.’’
Evan wanted to laugh at her, because this was absurd, she couldn’t just search his soulmate up on the internet.
That's certainly not how this whole system worked.
‘’A solution ?’’ He asked, confused, but he didn't get an answer out of his sister.
He rolled his eyes and then closed them and decided to just wait.
So he waited, since that was all you could really do when Pandora got focused on something.
The frustrating part about this was that Evan was sure that he was just waiting for something ridiculous that certainly wasn't worth his wait or his hopes.
He was back in his spiral, thinking about the words on his inner left arm, the words that he had never heard.
Right now he wasn't even sure if he would ever find out.
If he had the strength and patience to search his whole life for this person.
That was mostly the reason why he fucked around, that was as close as he could get to someone souls.
Most of the time it left him even more depressed than before, but for a short moment it all felt better.
Pandora let out a triumphing sound and smiled down at Evan. ‘’I've got a solution.’’ She exclaimed excitedly and held her phone in front of Evans face.
‘’Jesus Christ, Panda, why the fuck is your screen so bright.’’ Pandora looked at him with an annoyed expression. ‘’Cause i want to, now look.’’
Evans' eyes adjust slowly to the light, his eyes scanning the phone. It was an instagram feed.
The instagram feed of a tattoo and piercing studio. Evan knew where Pandora was going with this.
‘’I should get another tattoo?’’
Evan asked his sister with a raised eyebrow. ‘’Yeah or a piercing, I don't care. Something new that you only do for yourself will be good for you.’’ She mustered him with knowing eyes.
Evan wanted to protest, he didn't have any particular reason for why he could not go.
Just that he didn't want to, because he may not like social interactions as much as he always said he did.
‘’Don't even try to shrug me off Evan, I booked you an appointment while you were mopping.You have four days to decide what you want to get. Thank me later.’’
*
Four days later, and in the tube on his way to the studio Evan still didn't want to do this. It wasn't because he didn't want to get a tattoo or piercing, because he had looked up the guy's work on instagram himself and it was good.
Like seriously good, accurate lines, good shadow work and all those things Evan looks out for when choosing someone who draws something in his skin.
Evan just didn't know what motive he wanted to get, guess that was something he would do spontaneously, something you definitely shouldn't do when getting a tattoo.
Who was gonna stop him ?
While looking out the window and being met with just the dark, black usual wall that appears when looking out of the tube.
Music was blasting through his headphones, while he got into a deeper thought about what he should get tattooed today.
He could get something easy like just something small to match the other tattoos he had on his left arm, or he could do something along his rips like he always had wanted to do.
Can't catch Me Now by Olivia made him snap out of his thoughts, normally this wasn't his kind of music. But well this song was something else and had quickly become one of his favorites.
I’m higher than the hopes that you brought down.
This line applied to so many aspects of his life and how he had handled them.
Ink on his skin could surely replicate that and show it.
Was Evan really thinking about getting lyric tattooed ?
Oh, he was and he would, because he was pretty sure that wasn't something he would regret, because now matter how his style would change, the experiences in his life would stay the same.
He realized it was his stop when the doors had already opened and let him read the tube sign that said ‘Marble Arch’.
Evan quickly stood up and made his way to the surface where he was met with the typical London weather. Rain.
Just great.
It was only drizzling, but the wind made it extremely cold. He was shivering in a matter of minutes.
So he quickly turned the walk that google maps had said to be eighteen minutes into ten.
In moments like those Evan was extremely grateful for his long legs.
When he arrived at the studio he did not had any time to even get an impression of the outside, because he immediately rushed inside being met with warm air, black and gold exterior and the smoke of cigarettes.
He relaxed under the warm air that was flowing through the studio.
Not feeling as cold anymore and way more relaxed he looked around the studio, until his eyes found something that stopped them from looking anywhere else.
Behind the counter stood a guy, who couldn't have been much older than Evan, but looked way cooler then he did.
The guy wore a black T-shirt which had cuts all over it, showing off skin that was partially very pale and partially covered in ink.
His hair was one of the blackest things Evan had ever seen,reminding him of ravens.
Only his end sticking out died in the exact same color as the guy's eyes.
One of his arms leaned on the counter while his other hand was hanging loosely beside him, he didn't have many extraordinary face piercings, but his ears were decorated with countless silver pieces.
Evan hadn't even noticed that the guy was looking at him, until he looked him straight in his eyes and then at his mouth which grinned at him.
Beautiful.
Breathtakingly beautiful.
Evan couldn’t have said it otherwise, because it was the truth.
Get it together and don’t stand around like a fucking idiot.
So Evan got it together more or less, and he walked up to the counter.
He said something that he had only thought for a few seconds before and now sadly left his mouth.
‘’You dont look like a guy, who would tattoo me an Olivia Rodrigo lyrics, would you’’
Evan cringed in embarrassment because he didn't just seriously said that.
Pandora and Emmeline would surely have their laughs over this later.
The guy just looked at him weirdly and Evan could slap himself.
He was really close to just storming out of the studio, into the cold and hopefully forgot soon that this happened.
The guy now seemed to have switched to his normal expression again.
‘’Nah usually not, but I also don’t like stereotypes so fuck it.’’
Oh.
Evans just stared at the guy, not being able to say anything.
Had he just found his soulmate ?
He couldn't do anything but muster the guy everything about him, taking everything about him in.
The other guy didn’t say anything, just mustering Evan.
He looked the guy in his eyes and he saw something behind the guy's eyes click.
‘’Fuck me, I said your words didnt I ?’’ The guy looked thrilled, like really thrilled about this information. While Evan couldn’t stop staring, just nodding slightly at the question.
‘’I found you.’’ The black haired said out of breath. That snapped Evan out of it.
‘’More like i found you, but still.’’ A small smile creeps up his face and he can see a similar smile spreading across his soulmates face.
‘’Nah uh, it is me who has this studio. So I can tell everyone I found you.’’ The guy seemed really confident about his logic and Evan didn't want to shatter the guy's dreams so he just laughed with him.
He walked up to Evan and stopped a few centimeters before him. ‘’I’m Barty.’’
Barty.
Barty.
Barty.
Barty.
Barty.
Barty.
Evans lets his name sink in.
‘’Well Barty, I’m Evan. I’m sorry for staring but I’m literally still trying to grasp how beautiful you are.’’
Now Barty blushes, he made Barty blush.
Oh that is going to be Evans new favorite activity, coming even before ,mocking Pandora and Emmeline.
Evan's mind can't really comprehend everything that is happening right now, he tries but he can't. He just stares at Barty at those piercing green eyes that stare right back into his own.
Bartys eyes can't compare to anything Evan has ever seen.
No words could possibly describe what he sees in them.
Evan wants to carve the sight of those eyes behind his own eyelids, seeing them every time he closes his eyes.
Staring into them personally every time his eyes are open.
He felt this emptiness he had always felt slowly, but surely vanishing.
This emptiness now filled by the love he could finally give someone.
Barty now came Evan even closer, taking his cold hands being met with Barty warm ones, it was a feeling that electrified Evan.
Evan could only look down at their hands being interlinked and feeling something that came the closest of peace he had ever felt.
Bartys thumb brushed carefully over Evans hand. ‘’I don't really know what to say right now, if I’m being honest.’’ Evan whispers softly more than really saying the words.
Because he really doesn’t know what to do next, since he was never taught what romantic love looked like. The only thing he knew is that his parents for sure weren’t in love.
Green eyes find his.
He has to look down a bit to find those eyes, since Barty misses about ten centimeters to match Evans height.
Barty musters Evan, he can feel Bartys eyes gliding over his face. Then chuckles to himself again. ‘’That's okay i talk enough for a whole football team, or that's what my best friend always say at least, annoying prick.’’
Barty smiles brightly at Evan. ‘’Oh, I so have to introduce you to all of them.’’
Suddenly Barty walks away from Evan and Evan would really like to scream at that moment.
because why ?
Barty walks to the exit and now Evan really feels the need to scream.
He surely wouldn’t leave just like that, would he ?
Well maybe he had a second thought about all of this and wasn’t ready for someone like Evan in his life yet.
Or maybe just didn’t want Evan in his life at all.
He thinks he does let out a quiet sound when Barty opens the door.
Evan just stares again.
When he sees what Barty is doing his shoulders relax, the green eyed man is just turning the sign on the door signaling that the studio is closed for the day.
He walks up to Evan again, his eyes glistening with mischief. Evan locks eyes with Barty and just like that his lips end up on Bartys.
Evan feels like he died and has reached heaven, because the way Bartys soft lips kiss his lips is something Evan would die for.
No matter if he ends up in heaven or hell.
He would do it all just to have Barty kiss him again.
He wraps his arms around Bartys waist, drawing him closer wanting to have him as close as possible.
Barty lets out a quiet groan, which makes Evan chuckle, which Barty definitely felt and ends up in him breaking the kiss.
Just to tell Evan to shut up, immediately kissing him again after.
Bartys tongue presses against Evans lips and Evan opens his mouth immediately.
It's not like he never kissed people with tongue before, but most of the time it had left him with an icky feeling, not this time though.
They break apart after a while, leaving Evan out of breath and Barty looking at him with wide blown eyes.
Evan must've really lost his mind, because he immediately has the urge to kiss Barty again.
And again.
And again.
Not feeling he could ever get sick of this feeling.
He rested his forehead against Bartys head, he would like to reach the other guy's forehead, but for that he'd have to bend his knees in an unnatural position.
Barty breaks the contact, just holding Evans right hand, while walking to the back of the studio. Evan just follows him.
‘’Wanna go upstairs to my flat ? If that's okay with you.’’ Barty turns around mustering Evan and his reaction. Evan said yes, of course.
After recent developments he had noticed that he would go anywhere with or for Barty.
He guesses that this is what this whole soulmate thing was about.
The moment that they are in front of Bartys door, he stands still abruptly and turns around to Evan, looking up at him in embarrassment.
‘’I haven't really cleaned my apartment, because well i didn't really expect you to walk in here.’’
The boy looks at him apologetically, Evan just smiles softly. ‘’As long as you're not hiding dead bodies, it's fine.’’ Barty seems to relax, which strangely immediately results in Evan feeling a wave of relief wash over him too.
Like he would care if Bartys flat is perfectly tidy.
Barty opens the door and Evan immediately smells some mix of cologne, cigarette smoke and something close to the smell of a library.
Evan takes off his shoes while mustering everything his eyes can catch, the pictures that hang on Bartys wall, most of them show three boys and a girl. Sometimes a few other people show up, but those four including Barty seem to be his closest circle.
It just blurts out of Evan when he asks who those people are. Bartys head turns around and he smiles, seeming nostalgic.
‘’This is Regulus.’’ He points to a boy with piercing silver eyes, black curly hair and several silver ear piercings, who seems slightly annoyed at every photo taken. ‘’He's pretty much my best friend, even if he would never admit that.But that's just Regulus for you, you'll see when you meet him.’’ Barty smiles and Evan loves listening to him and could kiss him again right at this spot.
‘’That's Dorcas.’’ He now points to a woman with eyes so dark that they seem to pull Evan into a trance, she's wearing multiple gold accessories pretty much everywhere even in her hair, which reminds him a lot of Pandora.
‘’I think without her we other three would need more therapy, then we already do. She is the only one who actually goes to therapy so that qualifies her to therapy us. That's our logic at least.’’
Evan chuckles at the thought of those four friends sitting together having therapy sessions.
‘’That's Remus.’’ Barty points at a man with gold-brown eyes, brown soft looking curls and some scars that trace his face. He seems a bit more content than Regulus in the photos, but not by much. ‘’ Let's just say Remus and Regulus like to bicker Dorcas and me when we want to do something fun.’’
Evan musters the friend group. ‘’Can't wait to meet them i just now Dorcas and my sister will get along.’’ Barty slowly walks to something that seems like the living room era.
‘’You have a sister.’’He asked, seeming genuinely curious.
Evan nods smiling. ‘’ She's my twin sister actually, wouldn't know what id do without her.’’ Barty smiles at that. ‘’ That seems sooo cool, I've always wanted a sibling, even though Regulus say im stupid for wanting that.’’
Evan chuckles and seats himself next to Barty on the couch. ‘’ We can share her, she has enough sisterly love to give trust me.’’ Barty smiles at him, locking eyes.
They sit closer together Bartys hand lightly resting on Evans' knee.
Then Barty does something that could possibly lead to Evan exploding, he shuffles himself even closer to Evan and rests his head on Evan's shoulder.
Evan has to chuckle slightly, not knowing what to do with all the happiness that bubbles up inside of him.
He can feel Bartys head moving on his shoulder, adjusting.
‘’What ?’’ The black haired boy asks him, Evan can practically hear the smile that Barty seems to have on his lips. ‘’Nothing.’’
Bartys head is now gone from Evan's shoulder and the black haired boy looks at him.
Evan can't help but to put his hand on the cheeks of the other boy and kiss him, smiling slightly while he does so.
Barty is also noticeably smiling while kissing Evan, which leads to Evan just feeling indescribably happy.
Now when sitting down Evan can properly rest his forehead on Bartys.
Barty pulls back not much, just enough that Evan now can see his complete face.
‘’Sooo what song from Olivia Rodriguez did you want to get tattooed ?’’
He asks and Evan breaks out laughing.
‘’Her name is Olivia Rodrigo, Barty before you now that I won't tell you anything about that tattoo.’’ Barty looks at him with a raised eyebrow.
‘’I’m sorry, but it sounds similar you have to admit that.’’
Even though Barty looks at him with the face of an angel, Evan won't admit that.
‘’Do you know the song Can't Catch Me Now by her ?’’ Expecting Barty to raise another wondering eyebrow at him, the boy does the exact opposite.
He nods in recognition.
‘’Yesss I know it, I actually know someone who played a background role in the movie, it’s in.’’
At that Evan eyes pop and he stares at Barty.
‘’You know someone who what ?’’ Evan can't believe it.
The whole Hunger games franchise was a masterpiece in his opinion, which he wouldn’t ever say out loud, but still he could think it.
Barty smirks at him. ‘’Yeah, you remember Regulus ? The one who doesn’t like siblings ?’’
Evan nods eagerly, waiting for Barty to continue.
‘’Even though Regulus has little to no contact to him, he still dragged all of us into the cinema to watch his brother.’’
Evans' mind is working overtime, thinking about Regulus' face and then thinking about a similar face he saw in the movie.
In more than multiple movies actually.
Then the realisation sets in, Barty sees it too and starts grinning.
‘’Don’t tell me his brother is Sirius Black.’’ The look on Bartys face tells Evan enough.
Evan was honestly stunned.
‘’Don’t get your hopes up though Regulus and Sirius, well let's just say their history put both off them through a lot.’’ Evan nods, dropping the topic immediately.
If Pandora and he would ever fight and break contact, he wouldn't want others to ask about his sister, so he doesn't ask anymore questions.
Besides, Barty already has a different question. ‘’ So what quote would it have been ?’’
Evan just pulls out his phone, opening spotify and putting the song on.
Both of them listen to the song, while Bartys head somehow finds his way into Evans lap.
Now Evan really needs Olivia to release a new love song, because he knows that he found someone he could relate to all of it too.