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grief comes in waves.
grief is eating at you every night before sleep.
the clock shows 4AM, yet yoshiki is wide awake. overflowing memories of the past won't let him fall asleep. he's reminiscing of that one day at the beach with hikaru, his laugh echoed in yoshiki's head. smile so wide he could see all his teeth. one would think it's silly, but yoshiki's heart swelled with so much love looking at that bright smile of his. his hikaru. but now he's gone. all that remains is a monster that took over his best friend's dead body.
now the scene shifts to the night when hikaru disappeared. this night will be carved into his memory. the running, the fading voices, the frost.
"no, no, no" he thought as he ran and cried for hikaru. he was panting, darting around and checking every tree, every bush, every corner with his flashlight, but it was useless, everything was useless. "he's gone" . a few tears rolled down yoshiki's cheeks as he slowly drifted off.
the morning came quickly, yoshiki woke up with a throbbing headache after rewinding all those memories of that night. he rubbed his eyebrows together hoping the headache magically goes away on its own. the early sunlight was streaming through his window, yoshiki frowns.
suddenly he heard his mother calling for him: "yoshiki, hikaru is here!". his heart ached at the name. he slowly got up and changed into his school uniform, not rushing, taking his own time, despite hikaru waiting for him outside.
as soon as yoshiki was done with changing, he finally came outside to be greeted with a toothy wide smile, the same smile he saw that day at the beach. his heart skipped a beat.
"mornin' yoshiki! ive been waitin' for ya for about 15 minutes" complained the boy. the early, cool breeze was playing with hikaru's hair. and something about that made yoshiki smiled.
"sorry for keeping you waiting" he said.
he lost his best friend but he came back as an inexplicable entity in hikaru's body, but yoshiki didn't mind. as long as he's here, he will be fine. everything's gonna be fine as long as hikaru is by his side.
"let's get going or else we'll be late"
the frost didn't torture him when hikaru was around, even if it meant to face the grief and anguish each night when he's not.
but for now it's gone and this will do.