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There was a void.
I have filled it.
The gaping maw of
The universe snatched me up,
Jaws of death with
No acid on its tongue
Nor saliva in its stomach.
There is nothing here to rot me,
So I am alive.
But I do not live.
Living is waking up
On the right side of my brain, and the
Center of my bed.
Blankets could never replace the
Warmth of a lazy arm. The
Dark side of the pillow can’t mimic the
Chill of fresh hands.
I stand alone, in clear skies of
Icy blue, crackling with
Lightning, in fields of
Roses and wheat,
Surrounded by forests I can never reach.
I can’t run fast enough to get to them in
Time.
Time is all I have, and
Yet
There is no sun.
The sky is bright.
Night never comes.
If I squint, there is
Dusky darkness.
If I close my eyes, the
Insomniac’s gamble begins.
I always end up awake.
There are strange things to be
Miss here. Eating is a necessary luxury,
It seems. You don’t realize water has
Taste until you grieve the feeling of
Ice on your tongue.
Next time we meet,
Get me a hot dog from
Fourth street, and make sure you
Remember my coffee order.
I’ll need my energy, just as you need to
Rest.
Don’t stress over me.
I know it’s hard for the
Both of you, but
I assure you, I am content.
(Pay no attention to my flawless skin,
My manicured hair,
My balanced smile,
My steady heartbeat.)
I’m not running anymore.
Not from anything, not from
Anyone.
(Pretend you don’t know I miss
The thrill of the chase,
The story behind every bruise,
Even the lies sewn with
Sparks of gold.)
I am in stasis, but
Life moves very fast, so
Wait for me, my
Moon and Star. Easy stargazing is
Coming your way.
Don’t worry,
I’ll be home in a flash.