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He noticed her on the first day of term.
Not because she spoke. Not because she smiled. She didn’t.
But because she moved like she didn’t need anyone. And he… had always needed everyone.
She sat alone. Always the same chair, back straight, eyes steady. As if time bent around her. As if she wasn’t a student like the rest of them, but something older - something built from sharpness and silence.
He watched her in the library first. She read as if the world annoyed her, as if books were the only things worth enduring. She never looked up. Never noticed when his shoulder passed inches from hers. Never blinked when he lingered behind the bookshelves, listening to the way she turned pages like cutting through flesh.
She never smiled. Not once.
He thought that made her honest.
She became his gravity.
He started sitting in the back row of every class she was in. Never close enough to be obvious. Always just near enough to see the way her fingers drummed when the lesson bored her. He timed the rhythm. Memorized it.
She never noticed him.
That was the beginning of his undoing.
Because as the weeks passed, he convinced himself it meant something.
That her not noticing him was a test. That she wanted someone worthy. Someone who understood her enough to find her without being called. He began following her after class - once to the cemetery, once to the fencing hall, twice into the woods when she thought she was alone.
She never turned around.
Never sensed him.
That stung more than he admitted.
He began writing things in his journal - not poetry, not quite. Just fragments:
“She doesn’t flinch. She doesn’t blink. She’s never looked at me, but that’s not her fault.”
“Maybe she’s afraid to look. Afraid I’ll see her too clearly.”
“She wants someone to see her.”
And he did. God, he did.
When she smirked during an autopsy demo, he remembered the view for weeks.
When she brushed snow off a gravestone with a tenderness he’d never seen, it twisted something deep in him.
Finian began collecting her.
Not objects. Not things. Just moments.
The torn page from her journal when she left it unattended.
The trail of bootprints she left after a rainstorm.
A strand of black hair caught in his notebook after she passed by.
She was a god, and he was the one who noticed the way her shadow stretched when she was angry. He saw her.
But gods don’t give gifts.
They just watch you bleed.
By winter, something in him had cracked. He started having dreams - her voice calling his name, finally seeing him, reaching for him through snow. He woke breathless, smiling. He thought it was fate.
But she never spoke.
She never looked.
And when he finally tried - when he stood in the clearing, holding the knife he didn’t want to use - she still looked at him like he was nothing.
It broke something final.
The knife was supposed to scare her. Force her into clarity. Make her see him.
Instead, she stabbed him.
—-----
Back then, Finian had been just another shadow in the library.
A second-year, quiet, unremarkable. The kind of boy who sat three tables away and pretended to read while watching her fingers glide across pages. He didn’t ask questions in class. He didn’t have friends. He never raised his voice.
Wednesday didn’t know his name until she read it on the library sign-in log - Teller, Finian.
Enid had mentioned him once. “That guy with the weird eyes? He stares at you like you’re something he wants to eat.”
She'd shrugged it off. People stared. People obsessed. It was a fact of her existence. Some feared her. Others idolized her. A few misunderstood her intensity and silence as an invitation. It had never mattered.
But Finian had been different in one quiet, important way:
He never spoke to her.
Not once. Not a word.
Just watched.
Until he disappeared.
Three months ago. No announcement, no search party. One day he was there in the back row of Herbology, and the next his room was empty. The school murmured rumors - family emergency, expulsion, secret transfer. Weems had deflected. No answers. Just silence.
Wednesday hadn’t cared.
Or at least… she thought she hadn’t.
But she noticed the way Enid had gotten nervous when walking back from whatever outing she had late at night. She noticed the fresh marks on the bark outside in the woods. She noticed the paper once tucked into her locker - blank, but torn from her own journal, missing for weeks.
Small things.
Things she’d catalogued and stored.
Things she hadn’t tied to him.
Not until she saw his eyes in the clearing. Wild. Bright. Fixated.
“You never saw me,” he’d said, voice trembling with hurt, with something deeper and far more dangerous than hatred. “But I saw you. I understood you. All of you. The way no one else ever will.”
Obsession turned him inside out. Warped admiration into a belief: that he deserved to own a piece of her. Her attention. Her blood. Her fear.
“I waited. I waited for months for you to look at me,” he spat. “To see me. Even once. Even as a threat.”
Wednesday’s hand had been on her blade even then.
“But that’s the thing about shadows,” she whispered, “they’re only dangerous when they move.”
His hand had trembled. The knife had flashed.
And now here she was.
Alone in the snow.
Bleeding out in a forest older than time.
Stalked for months by a boy who thought her silence was a contract. Who believed that watching her meant he knew her. That he deserved something from her - acknowledgment, recognition, meaning.
Instead, he got her blade in his thigh and her silence in the end.
But it cost her, too.
And now, lying beneath the falling snow, her memories spun like ghosts above her - Finian’s face, hollow and shaking. Enid’s worried smile the night before. Her mother’s distant, probing glances during their last dinner together.
All of it now out of reach.
Unless someone finds her.
Unless she survives long enough to make sure Finian doesn’t try again.
Unless this time, she finally sees it coming.
—-----
It started with a letter.
Just a folded piece of parchment slipped under her dorm door - no name, no signature, only a single line written in clean, slanted ink:
“Meet me where the snow eats sound.”
She should’ve ignored it.
But Wednesday Addams had never been one to walk away from a riddle. Especially one that felt like a threat disguised as poetry.
She left just before dusk. Told no one. Left her phone behind. She didn’t want Enid to track her. She needed to handle this alone.
The forest behind Nevermore stretched wide and deep, ancient and half-forgotten, the kind of place that swallowed things - memories, time, people. And tonight, it was deathly quiet. Even the birds refused to sing.
She followed the prints through the snow. Deliberate, small, like someone trying not to leave a trail - but not well enough.
She found the clearing just as the last of the sun dipped behind the trees.
The figure was waiting for her.
They wore black. Hooded. Standing completely still at the edge of the treeline. Something about them itched at her instincts - not unfamiliar, but wrong.
Wednesday reached for the blade at her belt, fingers curling around the handle.
“You’ve been following me,” she said.
The figure didn’t respond.
“Or maybe watching,” she continued, voice low and calm. “Didn’t think I noticed?”
Still no reply.
Her heart didn’t race. It never did. But her grip on the dagger tightened.
“You knew I’d come alone.”
Finally, a voice.
“I hoped you would.”
Masculine. Rough. Not old, but not young either. Familiar.
He stepped forward, lowering the hood.
Her eyes narrowed.
Finian Teller.
He looked... frayed. Gaunt. His lips cracked. His eyes, wide and too bright.
“What happened to you?” she asked.
He smiled. It didn’t reach his eyes.
“You happened to me.”
And then the blade came out.
Quick. Crude. Like he’d practiced, but not well.
She dodged the first swipe.
The second caught her coat.
The third-
The third went in.
Just beneath her ribs. Clean. Fast.
And cold.
She gasped. She didn’t mean to - it gave him too much satisfaction. But it tore its way out anyway.
“I wanted to talk,” he said, breathless, holding the knife with two shaking hands. “To show you. To make you understand. But you never looked at me. Not once.”
She staggered back, blood already soaking into her blouse, hot and pulsing.
“This isn’t understanding,” she hissed, pulling the blade out herself. It came free with a wet sound, and her knees buckled. “This is cowardice.”
Finian stepped toward her, stunned. Like he hadn’t expected her to still be standing.
Like he hadn’t expected her to pull the knife out and keep it.
She drove it into his thigh.
Not enough to kill. Just enough to ruin his day.
He screamed and stumbled.
She turned and ran.
She didn’t make it far.
The forest blurred. The snow blurred. Her heartbeat became a thunderous, slowing drumbeat in her ears.
And then-
She fell.
Face-first into the untouched snow.
Alone.
Bleeding.
And then the cold began to whisper.
And then the hallucinations began.
—-----
The snowflakes danced lazily through the air, landing like whispers on Wednesday's lashes. She lay motionless, her blood a deep red bloom in the untouched snow. Each minute passed like a cruel countdown. Her black coat was barely distinguishable from the gathering darkness, but the red... the red was vivid. Shamefully vivid.
A dull, pulsing heat radiated from her side. The knife had gone deep. She’d pulled it out - foolishly, instinctively - and now it was just her, the cold, and the slow leak of life whispering away beneath her ribs.
For a moment, she thought she heard footsteps again.
No. Just the wind. Again.
Until - soft giggling.
She blinked through the blur, her vision haloed and stinging.
There she was again. She was. The younger version. Pale, pristine, and dry. Not a speck of blood on her. The Wednesday from years ago. From a time of piranhas and guillotines, not betrayal and heartbreak.
"You’re crying,” the girl said, almost cheerfully.
“No,” Wednesday rasped.
But she was. A single tear had fallen. She didn’t feel it at first - it was warm against her freezing cheek, utterly alien.
Her younger self crouched down, her black braids swinging slightly. “You haven’t cried since you were six.”
“I don’t cry,” Wednesday said, her voice breaking on the final word.
“You do now.” The little girl tilted her head. “Because you realize you’re not going to see them again.”
More tears. She tried to stop them, but her body betrayed her in every way. Her chest heaved. Her throat clenched.
“You’re weak,” her younger self said, not cruelly - just as a fact, the way one might note the weather or the time. “You used to be so sure. So sharp. So... untouchable.”
Wednesday curled her fingers slightly in the snow. They moved with great effort, trembling, stiff. Her blood painted lines on the white ground like calligraphy from a dying hand.
“I was sharp,” she whispered. “Until Enid.”
The girl smiled, as if she had just won a riddle. “Ah. The wolf. I liked her, once. You let her get close.”
“Too close.”
“She made you soft.”
“No,” Wednesday hissed, though the denial lacked force. Her limbs were lead. Her body was ice and fire, a contrast too sharp to make sense. “She made me feel. There's a difference.”
“Does it matter now?” the girl asked. “You’re dying in the woods like a wounded rabbit. Alone. Crying. Weak.”
Silence stretched, broken only by the sigh of the wind. Somewhere far away, something cracked. A tree limb maybe. Or bone.
Wednesday’s lips twitched upward. “You always were a little bitch.”
The girl smiled wider. “And you always needed someone to blame. But it’s not my fault you stayed. That you let them in. That you loved them.”
The word rang out like a curse. Loved.
Pugsley’s laugh echoed somewhere in the cold, high and boyish. Wednesday winced. A vision flickered in front of her eyes - her brother at twelve, proudly showing her the frog he’d pickled in formaldehyde. Another - him, younger, curled in her bed after a nightmare, trusting she’d chase the monsters away.
“I won’t see him again,” she choked.
“No,” the little girl agreed, calmly. “Or Mother. Or Pubert. Or Enid.”
Wednesday turned her head, a movement that took everything. The snow soaked into her collar now, numbing her neck. Her heartbeats felt like whispers - small, soft, and farther apart.
Enid. Enid, who had held her when she refused to ask. Enid, who had once waited in the rain outside fencing practice, drenched and smiling. Enid, whose scent lingered in their dorm room long after she left.
“Does she know?” Wednesday asked, her voice so soft it was nearly gone. “That I-”
“That you love her?” the child finished.
Wednesday didn’t answer. She didn’t need to.
The little girl stood, brushing her dress clean of imaginary dust. “Then you should’ve told her.”
A new sob broke loose - raw, aching. It tore from Wednesday’s chest, a final rebellion of emotion. Her vision swam again.
The child stepped closer, leaned down, her face inches from Wednesday’s. Her eyes, so dark and bottomless, reflected Wednesday’s own.
“You forgot the most important Addams rule,” she whispered. “We do die for love.”
Wednesday’s lips trembled. “I didn’t mean to.”
“But you did.”
The white silence threatened to swallow her whole.
But she breathed. Barely. A ragged drag through her teeth, as if each breath had to claw its way up from the wound in her side.
The little girl sat cross-legged beside her now, hands folded primly in her lap like a ghostly porcelain doll. Waiting.
“You’re not real,” Wednesday muttered.
“I am you,” the girl replied. “Just the part you buried.”
“I didn’t bury anything. I evolved.”
“No,” the girl said simply, “you pretended. That’s different.”
Wednesday coughed, the taste of metal sharp on her tongue. She swallowed it down like poison and shame. “I had to pretend. Pretending let me survive Nevermore. Let me survive... her.”
The girl tilted her head. “So this is survival?”
A pause.
Wednesday closed her eyes just long enough to gather the last scraps of her strength. “Enid wasn’t supposed to matter.”
“But she did.”
“She smiled at me like I was worth saving,” Wednesday whispered, teeth chattering now. “Like I wasn’t something broken, like I wasn’t born in a mausoleum. I hated it.”
The child watched her, unmoved.
“I hated how warm she was. How much I needed her warmth.”
“You’re freezing now,” the girl offered, softly.
The words stung more than the wound.
“She’ll be angry,” Wednesday said suddenly, voice raw. “If she finds me. She’ll cry. She’ll scream. She’ll say it’s my fault. She’ll be right.”
“Do you want her to find you?” the girl asked.
Wednesday swallowed. Her hands had stopped shaking only because they’d stopped moving entirely. “I think... I just want her to know. I didn’t run because I was afraid of her. I ran because I was afraid of me.”
The girl stared.
“I thought I could protect her by disappearing.”
The wind shifted.
Wednesday’s head lolled slightly, her cheek sinking into snow that burned like fire. Her lashes fluttered as the child’s face swam in and out of focus.
“I used to wish for silence,” Wednesday whispered. “Now all I hear is her voice.”
“Then hold onto it,” the girl said, crawling closer until their foreheads nearly touched. “You’re not done yet. There’s still blood in you.”
“Not enough,” Wednesday rasped.
“You’re an Addams,” the girl said, and this time her voice was cruel. “You’ve survived poison, fire, being buried alive - and now you’re going to die over a feeling and one wound?”
Wednesday’s lip curled. It was barely a sneer, but it was hers.
“Get up,” the girl whispered. “Crawl. Scream. Drag yourself with your teeth if you have to. But don’t you dare die before telling her.”
Wednesday’s fingers twitched in the snow.
“She deserves to know.”
She coughed again, violently. Her body screamed at her. But slowly, agonizingly, she turned onto her stomach, her hand clawing forward.
The little girl stood and watched, proud and pitying all at once.
“You never did cry like a normal child,” she murmured.
Wednesday groaned, one arm reaching forward, nails scraping against ice. “I’ll tell her.”
“You’d better,” the girl said, her voice already fading. “Because this? This is your only chance.”
And then, as the last bit of strength gathered in her bruised lungs-
Wednesday screamed. A sound full of blood and fury and desperation, echoing out across the trees like a war cry from the grave.
Somewhere - far off - a pair of boots crunched into snow, and turned.
She was not dead yet.