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-You’re never here for me! Never! When I ask you to do something, you’ll ever reject me…-
A boy grumbled to the person standing in front of him. His eyes were filled with disappointment and sadness.
-Is because… Are you… are you cheating on me?- He asked hesitantly.
-I-I’m sorry Jeongguk- The words were rough.
-That’s all you have to say?! Tell me, why I can’t feel your love? Where have you been? You're turning away as possible from me…-
A knot started stuck in his throat. Jimin grabbed Jeongguk’s hand, intertwined his fingers to the other’s.
-No, is not like that. Listen, I… I had been busy lately, I have so much stress and…-
The taller boy removed harshly Jimin’s hand.
-Lies. You’re a fucking liar. You always make these stupid excuses! Why are you like this? Is because you don’t love me anymore?!-
Too many promises unfulfilled. The sound of heavy breathing mixed with the sobs that came from Jungkook began to be heard throughout the room. The awkward silence between them was threatening. The distance that was formed among the lovers was notorious. Dreams, memories of being together fade away behind the scars that had been made to the other.
Jimin looks deep inside Jeongguk’s eyes. He sunk in the bitterness that emanates the boy’s sight.
-Of course not! I love you! I loved you, still love you and always will…-
-I don’t believe you anymore- It hurts pretend to be strong.
-My heart hurts and I can’t get rid of it. There are only lies, all you say are lies. So, please, get the fuck out of here-
-Kookie-ah…- The hurt boy besought.
-Don’t call me like that again. Don’t dare to come again, I don’t want to see you, I can’t. No if we continue like these, no if you don’t stop ruining everything-
Painful tears drop to the ground. The faint sound of the rain starts to sound, mixing with the surrounding thickly aura that filled the room. Heartbeat pallid with broken hearts. Their bleeding souls can’t be healed.
-No, please don’t do this, not now. I’m sorry Jeongguk, sorry for everything. J-just let me fix the things between you and me. Please. I swear I won’t make excuses anymore-
Jimin’s voice was cloaked in sadness yet authority. It sounded more like an order than plead. It was irritating how the two fell silent, felt as if they escaped.
-Bullshit! Now go away, leave me alone…- Jeongguk says under his breath.
Jimin got closer to Jeongguk. He want to feel again the well-toned body in his hands, caress every part of the beautiful face in front of him, embracing themselves until they melt together, smell the sweet scent that remains on the bodyof his handsome boyfriend. Jeongguk hit Jimin severely from the chest, bursting in angry. The boy fells down to the cold floor beneath him, hitting it hard. The sound smote Jeongguk’s ears.
Pain, loneliness.
Sadness, confusion.
Why is so hard to be together? They are losing everything. Unforgettable days abandoned behind the emptiness. They remember how they were, so close to each other. The extent moments of joy seems over now. Everything haschanged. Like lost children, they were no longer before they knew it.
-It's time for you to realize you're drowning in your pride. You still can't see the truth?- You’re hurting me. Can you see my pain?
Jimin left the place with an aching Jungkook. The sore on his heart still hurts. The tears that fell from his weeping eyes to his red cheeks now scattered in the dark. Those days he got tired of waiting and in which there was no answer passthrough his mind. The lies and broken bonds have replaced hope and love. The smiles has been stolen from his pale face. The future will be forever craved as a desire. Jeongguk sank into a melancholy thought. The pictures of Jiminand he will be reflected in his mind, like a dream of last night. He laid down on his bed, hearing the sound of the sadly rain. He felt a strong tightness in his chest, as if something were crushing it. Trying to relieve some pain, hescreamed as loud as he could.
Night falls, crushing with his darkness Jimin’s hope. The sky dropped tears in rain form, desperately wetting the shaky body of the boy, crying for a love that has been crushed. Walking nonsense, Jimin is carried away by the light of the moon through the broken road.
Strides are heard behind him. Jimin looks around but can’t distinguish the direction of the steps. He got deeper into the street, but he turned back toward the house Jungkook. This time he was in a place swamped in darkness.
The steps were heard coming closer. Fear ran through his body from head to toe. He began to accelerate increasingly his steps, up to run. Without realizing it, Jimin had become the prey of a predator that hunts at night.
Steps finally ceased. The night had turned colder than normal. The rain was still falling softly on the street. Trying to catch his breath, Jimin leaned on a wall.
The countdown has begun.
Jimin can feel a cold object in his temple, leaving him frozen in the middle of the place. Anxiety, fear, panic went through his body. He tried to turn his head to differentiate something.
-If ... if you move I-I kill you- The shape behind him spoke hesitantly.
-It's ... okay. I'll give you what you want ...- Jimin said shakily. Trying to get his wallet, he reached into his pocket.
-I told you NOT to move! - The man shouted desperately, shaking tightly the cold gun to the head of Jimin.
Jimin obeyed, but it seemed that the world was against him.
It happened too fast, there was nothing he could have done. All his life flashed before his eyes. The dry sound filled the quiet night. The sound of a gun fired wrapped the gloomy atmosphere, throwing his delicate and fragile body to the cold ground. The man behind him quickly run. He run far away, forsaking an injured Jimin.
The lying boy felt a strange heat on his stomach. It burns like hell. He looked down and saw the blood on his jacket. He puts his trembling hand on it. Jimin began to break down. All his world is crashing now.
Jeongguk was lost in his bed. Suddenly, a loud sound was heard through the street. The obnoxious sound jolts his body. Coming closer to the window, he looked out.
The scene was shady. Blood on the pavement with a body lying on it. His swelled eyes were widely open. The reality struck so bad. The dream is over. The stung on his heart was thrusting so hard into Jeongguk’s chest.
He ran. He ran so fast. The raindrop wet his distressed body. His fears were showered in the pouring moonlight.
-J-Jimin!-
He flung his body in the ground. He approached the wounded body. His eyes were losing the light of life, his face was so pale because of bleeding. Then Jeongguk notice the bloody stomach.
-Jimin, Everything will be fine - His voice was full of frustration, frustration of not being able to do anything else. Anxiety ran through his head. He placed his hand on the hand of Jimin, lacing their fingers together. He grabbed Jimin’shead with the other hand, putting it on his lap. It was so cold that frightened.
-Jeongguk, I-I’m freezing-
It was a cold that soaked to the bone. His mouth began to dry, the tears came out of his eyes, losing with the wet from the rain.
-Hold me. D-Don’t go- Jimin pleaded while clinging to him.
Coughing, some blood came out of the corner of his mouth. That shook the broken heart of Jeongguk.
-It's okay. Here I am, Jimin. I won’t leave you- Believing that his tears would keep him alive.
Hopes were lost in the hazy way. The wings were torn off leaving free a body without light.
-Sorry... - Jimin muttered. Breathing was becoming more difficult. Keep his eyes open was impossible.
-What? -
-Sorry. I’m sorry, I did not ... - He hunched in pain. His body shook, his voice was low by weakness. The forces were leaving him.
-I forgive you. Forget it, everything will be fine. Please stay with me, don’t go, don’t leave me. Without you ... without you I don’t know what to do-
The drizzle became a storm. A storm that lashed so hard that it felt like knives in the skin. Loneliness heavily hit the door. Jimin struggled with all his might. Jeongguk cried with all his heart.
-Jeongguk ... I... I love you, never forget it- Jimin cried out
-Also I love you, Jimin-
Jeongguk hold tight the weak Jimin. He caress softly the gloomy face.
Jimin’s breathing stopped. His heart stopped beating. The world is falling apart. The wall that had formed between them was shot down. The sacrifice of a child has been consummated. The pain was so immense that words could not describe it. Suffering absorbed Jeongguk in a storm of disease and despair.
His screams were full of anguish. The sky crushes with his most mournful despair.
Jeongguk put his head in front of the other. His lips touched last the cold mouth of his love. His tears were deposited in the delicate fissure lips. In desperation, he strongly shook the lifeless body.
-Please listen to me.... I beg you. Jimin, Jimin! Don’t go, no ... - His crying was heard everywhere. The agony was palpable. In the distance it could be hear the cries of birds. As the sun sets, the end becomes dark. We always wishtonight could last forever, I can be by your side.
Ambulances and police got in the street. In the cold air were murmurs of many people, which are unaware of the young boy. But they were too late. He’s gone so far away, that they’ll never able to reach him. There’s nothing left than dead soul and broke heart.
The wind hits strongly the subtle face of Jeongguk. It felt so cold. The place was filled with a thickly aura. There were many people, but the emptiness isn't gone. He held the tears on the corner of his eyes.
A tall man got closer, approaching the shoulder of Jungkook.
-I'm sorry- The man said with all honestly.
Jeongguk doesn't say anything. He only let out a huge sigh. He can't hide his feelings anymore. He wept on the embrace of Namjoon. The sobs that come out from the crying boy were filled with pain.
-Why hyung, why?- A rhetorical question came out of his intrigues.
Namjoon started to break down. His eyes were swollen and red. A knot sunk in his throat and tears dropped for the corner of his eyes, wetting the coat of the younger.
-I don't know...-
The hug got tighter. An endless mystery. Questions without answers. Everything looked gray. His heart broke into a million pieces, and there is no way re-unite it.
-There's something that I want you tell you. You're not alone, you know? When things go bad or wrong, I'll be always here. When you need someone to cry on his shoulder, I'll be there. I love you, Jeongguk. I always loved you, and Idon’t want to see you suffering. Everything will be fine. Time can heal the scars, and will take the pain away-
The words dug into Jeongguk's heart. He never guessed that Namjoon was in love with him. The elder tore off the tears of Jeongguk's face, picked up his bangs back and kissed him on the forehead. Jeongguk only was stunned by the situation. He didn't know what to say or do. Without another word, Namjoon turned and left, leaving a confused Jeongguk.
Like a house of cards, it only takes one blow for everything to go wrong.
The sweet melody of the moonlight shades on the head of Jeongguk.
He looked up to the sky. Although it might reach a star, the dark sky absorbed in his tide of loneliness, like a sea where memories have been hurt. From reality to the confusion, Jungkook was thinking about his imaginary ideals, looking at the sky where he used to be.
-Jimin … I’ve been miss you so much. You don’t know how much-
The voice disappear in the foggy memory. The faint sound of wings flapping fades away into the deep fog.
The love that remains is screaming fiercely. A one-winged angel has been buried forever.
So they say that time, takes away the pain but I’m still the same
And they said that I will found another you, that can’t be true
Turnin’ back the time, back when you were mine.
I gathered all that I’ve regretted, and they turned into my tears
You were the only thing in my heart, but you left
You were the only one who touched my heart with things you did
You weren’t there anymore, and nothing was there too
It’s so hard to forget
My weakness strongly pushed me to my limits