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Life in Plastic
The door opened partway, then stopped. A hand gripped the handle for a moment before it turned fully and the door swung wider. She stepped inside, the hem of her white gown shifting just above the carpet. The fabric hung loose on her frame, draping over the sharp line of her collarbone, the slope of her narrow, gaunt shoulders.
I gestured toward the chair across from my desk. The clock ticked softly, each sound marking the space between us as she made up her mind.
She crossed the room without looking around and sat down.
“I’m not crazy,” she said.
“I know you’re not,” I replied, straightening the papers on my desk, “I just want to understand.”
Her hands rested in her lap, fingers laced, knuckles pale. She kept them there while her eyes moved past me to the window.
“Could you go over what happened that day?” I asked.
She glanced down, rubbed her thumb against the edge of her forefinger, then looked up briefly as though to speak before lowering her gaze again. Her shoulders rose and fell in a shallow breath. The faint creak of the chair marked the small shift of her weight from one side to the other.
“It was Saturday evening,” she said. “My husband, Satoru, had just gone to the store. We were out of bread again - white bread, the kind in the blue bag, not the wheat he always tries to buy. And milk. He always forgets the whole milk and gets two percent, so I wrote it on the list in big letters this time. And the eggs. The store had been running out by mid-afternoon lately, so he went earlier. I think he also said something about getting a lightbulb for the lamp in the basement bedroom.”
Her gaze flicked to her hands as she adjusted her fingers, pressing her thumbs together.
“I’d just finished scrubbing the kitchen counters and was sorting the week’s bills at the dining table. Gas, water, electricity - I keep them in separate piles until I’ve written the checks. The return receipts were there too, folded under the coaster so it wouldn’t blow off when the back door was open. I’d already rinsed the sink, run the disposal, and set out the meat to thaw for dinner. The afternoon light was starting to come in, and I could see the dust on the glass sugar jar. I wiped it away with my sleeve.”
She shifted her foot slightly under the chair.
“Megumi was in her room. She’d been playing with that doll again - the blonde one with the pink dress and the glitter shoes that don’t fit right unless you push hard. I had to glue one of the legs back on last week after it came loose. She’d been carrying it around everywhere. Even brought it into the bathroom while I was brushing my teeth that morning.”
A faint crease formed between her brows, then smoothed.
“She was talking to it. I could hear her from the dining room, just little pieces here and there. She makes up conversations - does the doll’s voice all high and then her own, then back again. I think she had her tea set out, because I heard the sound of those little plastic cups knocking together. I didn’t mind. It kept her busy while I started to fold the bills into envelopes.”
Her voice remained steady.
“Then I heard her scream. I was writing something down and the pen rolled off the desk when I stood up. I left it there. My foot got caught in the rug - it always does when it isn’t lined up straight.
“She was on the floor when I got there,” Mrs. Gojo said. “Against the far wall, near the window. It was open just a crack, though I’d told her not to, because she’s been leaving fingerprints on the glass and I can never get them completely off. I wiped them last week with vinegar and water - paper towel first, then a microfiber cloth - but the smudges still show if the light hits just right.”
Her thumbs worked against each other once, then stopped.
“She had her leg pulled in and her hands around her foot. She wasn’t wearing socks, which I’d told her to earlier, because the floor in her room gets cold. It’s over the garage. I’ve said that before, many times. I told my husband that if we’d just put down a thicker rug, she wouldn’t get so chilled, but he says she needs to learn to keep her socks on. I bought a new pack of them last week - pastel colors, no characters, just simple. She likes the yellow ones.”
Her voice hadn’t changed, but her fingers tightened together as she spoke.
“The toys were everywhere. I couldn’t even step into the room without moving some out of the way. There was the stuffed bear with the loose button eye, the green puzzle pieces from the animal set, the little frying pan from the play kitchen - metal, not plastic, so it makes that noise when it drops onto the floor. I picked that one up first so I wouldn’t kneel on it. There was also the blue plastic hairbrush. She uses it on her dolls, but it pulls her own hair too much so I told her to use the other one. And those cups - pink with white polka dots. She had them lined up by the bed earlier in the day. One of them was upside down now.”
Her hands made a small motion, as though lining them up again in her mind.
“I pushed enough aside to sit next to her. The rug was irritating my knees. It needs vacuuming more often than the rest of the house because the fibers hold onto lint, and she plays there almost every day. I asked her what happened. She didn’t answer, just held her foot tighter. I told her to let me see. She refused though, saying it looked ‘ugly as fuck”.
Her mouth pressed together for a moment.
“I don’t know where she got that word. We don’t use it. She’s heard it from school, I suppose. I asked again, gently. She still wouldn’t. So I reached over and moved her hands.”
There was a slight pause here, as though she was checking her own memory for the sequence.
“She started crying, but I saw it. Her skin… it wasn’t skin. It was plastic. Hard, smooth, with that faint seam running around it like the ones on her dolls if you look close enough. Her knee didn’t bend anymore - it was a perfect round cap, the kind that snaps into the hollow of the leg. No blood. No bone. Just a shine, almost like plastic.”
She stopped speaking for a beat, then adjusted the hem of her gown over her knees.
“I thought it must be something temporary, something we could fix. Like when you spill nail polish on your skin and it dries - smooth and shiny - but you can peel it away. I told her it was fine. I told her not to move it while I figured something out.”
She glanced toward the window again, though her voice stayed steady.
“I went to the bathroom to get a towel. The one with the blue stripe. It was clean, folded on the second shelf. I don’t like using the patterned ones for anything medical; the solid colors are easier to bleach if needed. I brought it back and laid it beside her. She was still crying. I told her to keep still.”
She lifted one hand from her lap, fingers curling slightly before folding back in.
“I don’t remember if I touched it again right away. I think I just sat there for a while. She had stopped looking at me. She was looking at the doll on the floor. Its hair was tangled, and one shoe was missing, open mouth facing the doorway. I thought about finding the shoe. I think I even reached for it. But I didn’t.
I just… didn’t know what it was. I’d never seen anything like it. There’s always a right way to handle things - a splinter, a burn, a cut. You wash it, you put on ointment, you wrap it. But this - plastic - there was nothing in my kitchen drawer for that. I kept thinking of Satoru. Satoru would know. He always knows. He could walk into a room and the noise would thin out, as if even the air knew to give him space. I’ve seen him glance once at a stranger and have them smiling like they’ve known him for years.
The neighbors sometimes murmured about his lingering glances, but none of that changes the fact that when something truly matters, Satoru is the one who makes it right. If I could just tell him exactly what it looked like, he’d have an answer. He’d tell me what to do, and then it wouldn’t feel so… wrong.”
“I called my husband, Satoru,” she went on. “The phone started to ring on the kitchen counter next to the fruit bowl. There were two bananas, one starting to brown, and three apples. The green one had a bruise near the stem. A few seconds later, Satoru picked up. I told him something was wrong with Megumi’s leg. He laughed at first. I could hear the beep of the checkout scanner in the background, so he must have been paying for something. I told him to come home. He said it was probably nothing, and he still had to get the lightbulb.”
Her fingers tightened in her lap, then relaxed.
“I asked again. He still said no. So I reminded him of the other thing - the thing we’ve… talked about before. Not argued, not really. I’d brought it up once or twice, years apart of course, like how you bring up a leaky faucet you never quite get around to fixing. He always brushed it off, laughed, told me I’d gotten the wrong idea. And I let him. Every time. Because it didn’t matter enough then.
But this was different. This was Megumi.
I told him I still had proof. That I could show him if I had to. He went quiet. I’ve been saving it for months. I don’t know why. I just did. He doesn’t know how much I know, or how easy it is to read a phone bill if you try. I sent him one of the videos while I was still on the call. He hung up.”
She wet her lips, a quick, habitual motion.
“He came home twenty minutes later. I heard the garage door. I told Megumi to stay put. I was in the hallway when he came in. He still had the grocery bag in his hand - milk, bread, eggs, and lightbulb in a cardboard sleeve. The milk was two percent. I told him I’d written ‘whole’ in big letters. He just shrugged. I told him to check Megumi’s leg. He didn’t want to. I insisted.”
Her eyes narrowed slightly, not in anger, but as if watching a memory like a film.
“He said there was nothing wrong. Just some skin rash. I told him it wasn’t a rash. I told him it was plastic. He looked at me the way people look at telemarketers when they call during dinner. I told him to look again. He didn’t. He went upstairs to take a shower.”
Her hands parted for a moment, fingertips brushing the fabric of her gown before she re-folded them.
“I sat in the hallway for a while. The bag from the store was still on the counter. I thought about putting the bread away. It goes stale if you leave it out. I thought about putting the milk in the fridge, but I didn’t. I stayed there until I heard the water running upstairs. Then I went back into Megumi’s room.”
She adjusted her seat slightly, the chair legs groaning against the carpet.
“She was quieter. Holding the doll again with her left hand and her leg with her right. The towel with the blue stripe was still folded on the floor where I’d left it. I told her to uncover her leg so I could see again. She didn’t want to. I told her I needed proof. If I had proof, we could help her.”
She smoothed her gown flat over her knees.
“All the dolls have a ball-and-socket joint. It’s how the leg comes off. You can press and twist and it pops right out. It’s very simple. I told her I could even do it if she was nervous.”
Her voice thinned slightly here, but she didn’t stop.
“I told her to close her eyes. She’s a sensitive thing you know, cries when she gets her shots. I pressed and turned, the way you do with a doll. It came free, smooth in my hands - plastic - I had proof enough now. Daddy would believe me this time, and maybe I could see my sisters. Riko had a baby, you know.”
She paused, but only for a breath.
“She started screaming. Loud. Louder than before. Fretful thing, she used to drive me mad with her cries as a child. The towel was still there. I thought I could wrap the leg so it wouldn’t get damaged. I bent down to get it.”
Her thumbs began moving again, slow and rhythmic.
“The front door was unlocked. It usually is. I think that’s how the neighbor got in, but I don’t quite remember. I heard the sound of shoes on the tile before I saw him. He came straight into the room. I told him to stop, that I was helping her. He pulled me back and I fell against the bedframe. My hand hit the edge.” She lifted her right hand slightly, the bruises deep against her skin. “I must have passed out, because I don’t remember much after that.”
“When I woke up,” she said, “it was quieter. Not silent, but quieter. There was a hum - maybe the refrigerator, maybe the neighbor’s air conditioner. The floor felt cold under my arm. I was lying on my side. My dress was dirty, and the towel with the blue stripe wasn’t there anymore.”
She brushed her fingers against the arm of the chair.
“I sat up slowly because my head hurt. The bedspread was hanging over the edge, and one of the corners had come loose from where I’d tucked it that morning. I always tuck the corners. If you don’t, the blanket slips in the night. I thought about fixing it right then, but my arm was stiff, and I wanted to see where Megumi was.”
Her eyes flicked once toward the floor between us, as though she could still see something there.
“She wasn’t in the room. The doll was lying on the rug, face down. Its hair had a knot near the crown. I thought about getting the comb..”
Her voice didn’t waver, but her hands curled slightly in her lap.
“I went into the hallway. The neighbor wasn’t there. I didn’t see Megumi. The bathroom door was open - the towel rack was empty. The sink had water spots. I’ve told my husband not to splash when he shaves, but he does. I wished I still had the towel to dry it”
Her gaze shifted past me toward the wall.
“The front door was closed, but the lock was turned. I didn’t lock it. I never do unless we’re all home for the night. The grocery bag was still on the counter. The bread was on top, still in its bag. The milk was left out. It felt wrong to leave it out, but honestly I was getting a bit tired.”
Her breath slowed before she continued.
“I called Satoru again. He didn’t answer. I think he left, but I never know. I left a message about dinner - told him the chicken would need another hour to thaw, that I’d set the table if he could be home by seven, so there was no need to hurry. Said Megumi was fine, that everything was fine, and I’d taken care of it. I didn’t mention what happened before - no point in disappointing him by bringing up my antics again. I reminded him to bring in the mail from the porch, because the wind had been strong that afternoon and the flyers tended to scatter.”
She smoothed the hem of her gown as the sound of the clock marred the shared silence.
“I tried the neighbor’s house next. Knocked twice. No answer. I figured he’d gone back to whatever he was doing now that everything was under control. His driveway was empty, so I walked back inside.
The blue towel was in the living room, folded, sitting in the middle of the floor. I must have done it earlier without thinking. It looked neat, but not in the right place, so I picked it up and put it over the back of the couch. I thought about washing it, but the plastic smell was still faint in the fibers, and I didn’t want to lose it in case it was important later.
I sat in the kitchen after that. The chair by the window - the one with the cushion that sinks in a little. You can see the backyard from there. The grass was getting long. There were leaves piled against the fence again. I thought about trimming the hedge, too. I even got up to check if the clippers were still in the shed. They were. I decided I’d do it later, once Satoru got home.
I knew I’d done my part. All that was left was to show someone, to prove it had been real. That’s all I’ve ever wanted - someone to see it with their own eyes. But Megumi wasn’t in the house anymore, so I waited.”
“Mrs. Gojo,” I said quietly, “I believe you’re telling me what you remember.”
She nodded, almost relieved, her fingers easing in her lap.
“But your daughter isn’t alright.”
She didn’t speak. I opened the bottom drawer of my desk and took out a folder, its edges worn from being handled more than once. The paper inside had that faint curl at the corners from humidity. I set it in front of me and began to slide the photographs across the desk one by one, the clock keeping time for each one I placed down.
The first showed Megumi in her room, sitting cross-legged on the carpet. Bare legs. Skin unbroken with toys littered around.
“Saturday evening,” I said. “You and Megumi were alone at home. She was playing while you were sorting through the bills.”
Next - the kitchen counter. Bread, milk, and eggs still untouched in the cardboard bag.
“Your husband was at the store when you called him, telling him there was a problem with Megumi. He rushed back home, and went back out when he saw she was fine, thinking you were having a fit again.”
Then - the hallway floor, blurred with motion. A pale hand gripping the handle of something heavy.
“You went to the garage,” I said. “And you came back with this.”
I set the last photograph down. The frame caught her mid-motion, hand pressing into the child’s leg. Not plastic. Blood - thick against the towel with the blue stripe.
“You told her to close her eyes,” I continued, tapping the photograph nearest her. “You cut her leg. We found the joint, not ball and socket, but bone and tendon. The neighbor heard her scream, came inside, called the police while you were unconscious.”
The clock ticked once.
Her expression shifted slowly, the edges of her irises beginning to lose their milky quality.
“I told you,” she said, her voice rising, “I told you I’m not crazy. I told you ! I know what I saw. She was turning into a plastic doll—”
She gripped the arms of her chair, leaning forward now. “You weren’t there! You didn’t see it. You sit here with your papers and clocks and you think you know—”
Her words broke into sharp fragments.
I pressed the intercom. “Guards, please come in.”
The door opened and two men entered, their uniforms dark against the pale carpet. One took each of her arms. She jerked against them, still speaking, though the words had tangled into something less coherent.
A third man followed, holding a syringe. The liquid inside caught the light for an instant before the needle slid into the side of her neck.
Her eyes stayed locked on mine until they began to close.
As they lifted her from the chair, one of her slippers fell off. It landed on its side, open mouth pointing toward the door.