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The guest room on the Thousand Sunny wasn’t used often.
It was too small for Luffy, too far from the cannon deck for Usopp, and too quiet for Brook. Franky had his workshop, Robin had her chair in the library, and Nami liked her space neat and undisturbed. No one ever really claimed it.
Sanji had taken to using it after midnight, when the ship was still and the others were sleeping.
He always locked the door. Not because he thought anyone would barge in, but because that small click of the latch made it feel real—like he was allowed this, if only for a little while.
The room had an old mirror leaning against the wall, slightly warped along one edge. Nami had once made a comment about tossing it, but Sanji had quietly fixed the frame instead and left it there. Just in case.
Now, the soft swish of fabric broke the silence as he smoothed a hand down the skirt. Not flashy—simple. Black, soft at the edges. The kind of thing that wouldn’t draw attention if he were walking in a crowd, but would still make him look twice if he passed himself.
His fingers adjusted the collar of the blouse, tucking a strand of hair behind his ear. His eyeliner wasn’t perfect tonight—his hands had been shaking slightly—but he didn’t redo it. It felt honest, in its own way.
He stared at his reflection. Long enough that it stopped looking like him.
He didn’t know exactly when it started. The pleasure of it. The ache of it. The want.
He remembered hating it at first—hating the memory of Kamabakka Kingdom and everything they had forced on him. Hating that it lingered even after he'd left. That the fabric didn’t feel wrong. That some part of him missed the way it caught the wind, the way it moved when he did. The quiet dignity it carried when no one was looking.
No, he didn’t want to be like them.
He just wanted to be... like this.
Sometimes.
He didn’t have the words for it. He didn’t need them. He wasn’t planning on telling anyone.
The ship groaned faintly with the tide, wood settling in the water. Sanji stepped back from the mirror, heels clicking gently on the floor. He tried a turn—light, easy. The skirt flared just a little. He smiled before he could stop himself.
There was no one here to see him.
And that was the point.
In this room, at this hour, he didn’t have to cook, or smoke, or flirt, or fight, or smile, or snap. He didn’t have to be the Black Leg, the gentleman.
He could just be.
Just for now.
There was a knock on the door. Not loud. A familiar rhythm—three short, one long.
Zoro.
Sanji froze.
He looked at the mirror again. The skirt, the blouse, the makeup.
His hand hovered near the lock. He didn’t move.
“Food’s still on the stove,” Zoro’s voice said through the door, low and gruff. “Thought you’d want to know.”
A pause.
Then footsteps. Fading away.
Sanji stood there long after the quiet returned. He exhaled slowly, the tightness in his chest slowly loosening.
He didn’t unlock the door.
But he didn’t change yet, either.