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1. do you know i could break beneath the weight of the goodness, love, i still carry for you? by sandywitch

   Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   03 Dec 2025

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Sirius Black/Remus Lupin
   • Remus Lupin & Peter Pettigrew
   • Remus Lupin
   • Sirius Black
   • Peter Pettigrew
   • James Potter
   • Severus Snape
   • Marauders Era (Harry Potter)
   • Post-Sirius Black's Prank on Severus Snape
   • Angst
   • Post Prank angst
   • Platonic Moontail
   • Sirius Black Has Issues
   • Drink Spiking
   • Amortentia Potion (Harry Potter)
   • OR IS IT
   • Veritaserum Potion (Harry Potter)
   • Pining
   • Mutual Pining
   • Betrayal
   • ego death
   • Truth Serum
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Love Confessions
   • Sirius Black's Prank on Severus Snape
   • Not Actually Unrequited Love
   • author does not support jkr
   • possible sexual content in later chapters
   • I haven’t decided yet
   • The Mortifying Ordeal of Being Known
   • peter is sirius’ #1 hater

   Summary

   "Right then," James says, looking between them nervously. "I guess there's only one way to find out..." A pause. "Remus, how do you feel about Sirius?"

   Sirius takes a fortifying breath in preparation. He knows that whatever Remus' answer is, this is probably going to hurt either way.

   "I'm in love with him."

   And—fuck.

   Just—

   Fuck.

   ~~~

   Remus is struggling to balance the agony of Sirius’ betrayal with the love that he just cannot seem to let go of.

   Sirius is falling apart under the weight of his guilt as he grapples with his newly-broken sense of identity.

   Just as it starts to seem like this fracture through their friend group is completely irreparable, Remus’ drink is spiked with Amortentia.

   Or is it?

    

   **not abandoned i promise i’m just a slow writer 💔

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