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Giyuu pov:

Ever since Shinazugawa and I met he's hated me, I've acted cold, but I act cold to everyone, I think that just pisses him off more.. Is it wrong I find him kind of admirable, I mean sure he's angry constantly and he’s not very nice to everyone but, he’s confident and bold, brave, strong, smart- I just find him admirable. Not in a weird way, I don’t think.. I mean I wouldn't mind befriending me but, I’m not exactly good at friends, and I feel like id just bring bad luck to our friendship..

“Tomioka-San!!”

I’m suddenly pulled out of my thoughts by an sickeningly sweet voice and a finger jabbing my side, I sigh before looking down at the insect hashira, she seems to take enjoyment on tormenting me..

“Yes kocho..?”

I say with a monotone voice, my expression dead and cold as usual, but I feel exhausted behind my expression.

“Why are you staring off into space, Tomioka-sannn~” she said with that dumb fake smile on her face, it looks so forced it makes me uncomfortable sometimes. “It’s kind of weird, though i guess thats kind of normal for you, considering the loner you aree~”

I just hum in response back not feeling like Answering. Feeling a bit annoyed but i don't show it, she continues too jab me in the side continuing to speak, “are you thinking about something?~ ooo~ or someoneee~ ara ara~ does Tomioka-San have a little crush?”

I just sigh, before I reply with a simple “no” thats it, short and sweet before I leave the butterfly estate and walking off to my estate. The only reason I was in her estate was Because I was looking for Tanjiro and Muichiro, they’ve just Got Back from a mission apparently they encountered 2 uppermoons.. I swear Tanjiro is a magnet for trouble.. he worries me some times.

As I was walking on the path to my estate I spot Shinazugawa and Iguro talking, when I walked past they immediately quiet down and when I was far enough they started rambling again. I think they were talking bad about me, I know Iguro isn’t fond of me either but he's more polite about it.. I guess.. but it does make me wonder what they were saying about me, I know it was probably just shit talk and gossip, but they usually have the guts to say it in front of my face, maybe I'm just reading too far into it.. maybe I didn’t want it to be shit talk this time, I don’t know..

When I got to my estate I saw Tanjiro and Muichiro standing out side of My estate, Muichiro seemed more animated with Tanjiro, I'm kinda Of proud, I’m glad the kid is doing better, I approach them

“Giyuu-San!! How are you! Anything interesting happen?” Tanjiro exclaimed in his usual optimistic and happy tone. Muichiro just looks. At me silently

“Hello Tanjiro and Totiko, I’m fine, how what’s your guys mission..?” I ask Softly, after I said those words Tanjiro immediately lit up and started talking about his mission, Muichiro adding his own pointers at times, I give a slight smile at the too, as they were rambling on about their mission I feel an intense stare from at the back of my head, it almost made my shiver, I try to ignore it and continued To listen to the two in front of me, I soon felt the stare easy, that was weird..

After listening to the two talk about there mission they when to go train and i went into My estate and sat on My engawa. Looking up at the sky silently, just thinking before my crow landed next On me on the wood, he informed me about a hashira meeting happening tomorrow morning, I’m not very enthusiastic about it.. I feel like I don't belong there, I shouldn’t be there, the other pillars are so much more talented than me, I mean, they actually pasted final selection, I just feel like I cheated my way in.

As my crow left I just sat there listening to the out side and nature, continuing to think silently as the sun set.

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Giyuu pov

The next morning got up and got ready for the hashira meeting, my crow already yelling at me from outside, telling me to hurry up. I soon leave my estate and head down to where the meeting is being held. The stone, insect and love pillar are already there

They greeted me As i walked to the back of the room to sit in my place, as i sat down kocho turned her attention to to me before talking in that fake soft tone “Ah, hello Tomioka-San! You walked away from our chat yesterday, it was quite rude!~” i can tell shes angry she has that small vein throbbing out of her forehead, shes always angry i find..

I just nod and ignore her. There was silences before the love hashira spoke up “hii Tomioka-San! How was your morning?” She says, Mitsuri is always so optimistic, she reminds me of my sister.. always kind, optimistic, loves helping others.. and so much other things, even just mitsuri’s face makes me think of her..

my eye soften just slightly before i reply “it was fine..” Mitsuri nodding enthusiastically was a small smile on her face, kocho seemed even more pissed off than before, but i dont care, i couldn’t care less.

There was silence the only sound was of the stone Hashira muttering prayers under his breath, its kind of comforting it a way I continue waiting silently for the others and the master to arrive, Mitsuri and kocho have started a conversation, soon later, the mist, serpent and wind pillar arrive.

When i saw shinazugawa i swear my heart just straight up stopped before picking up rapidly. Why am i feeling like this!? I don’t like him in that way.. I dont think anyway.. I fell shinazugawa glance at me i was internally freaking out, i just look back at him my expression still blank but I swear my face is burning hot.. god i hope it isn’t noticeable..

i only felt my heart pick up more as he sat next to me, i feel like im going to die.. his knees were Inches away from mine I was so nervous..im also never nervous, why am i feeling like this i don’t understand.. i just stay silent and waited for the master to arrive patiently, i felt his eyes lingering on me.. it was almost to long to be friendly, i almost shivered but i stayed neutral, after waiting a few minutes, too my surprise the master didn’t show up, but his wife did, she looked tired and stressed.. I couldn’t help but feel bad for the woman.. she quickly bowed down and started explaining that the masters condition has gotten worse and that he wouldnt be able to see us any more until he's better.

The room was dead silent. I felt shinazugawa tense up beside me, i glance at him before looking away, i felt the same way i just.. My body didn’t know how to express it. Gyomei spoke up first “we understand, lady amane, we hope he’ll het better, I’ll pray for his quick recovery.” Lady amane bowed deeper into the floor and expressed her gratitude before explaining and talking about demon slayer marks

all the Hashira agreed on training the lower ranked slayers to hopefully get there marks and the other slayers to get theirs so that we have stronger people in battle. I couldn’t bear to sit in this fucking room anymore, i don’t belong, im not a hashira. I stood up and started making my way to the door before i heard shinazugawa stand up and he spoke to me “where the hell do you think your going huh Tomioka, sit back down.were still discussing.” He said, his voice aggressive and rough.

i gulp silently, god.. i almost wanted to listen and sit my ass back down, but I can’t sit in this room anymore before i could think my mouth opened and blurted out “i cant do the training..” shit.. why did i say that.. 

“ehh?? And why is that? Huh?” he said, he getting more pissed off.. i reply with something stupid.. of course i did.. “I'm not like the rest of you..” here he goes he’s going to blow up on me again.

he stepped closer, i could hear my heart beating in my ears, he grabbed my shoulder and lean close to my ears, i felt his breath on my neck.. i shivered slightly “lets talk outSide shall we?” That tone was softer than i expected. I just nod quietly and followed him outside of the room.

when we got outside and the door shut he immediately pinned me to a wall, “what the fuck was that!?” He growled out “do you think you’re better than us!? That’s why you’re not doing the training!? Eh?!” My eyes widen thats what he thought?! I feel the complete opposite.. how do i even explain myself!? He seems so angry..

i look at him in his light purple eyes. Jesus.. why is he this beautiful, i spoke up quietly “i never said i felt like that..” i saw his eye twitch, his grip on my shoulders tight.

”well. Explain to me how you feel then. Because with the way you were acting it made it seem like you thought you were better than us. So go on. Im listening” his vice still aggressively but not as much as before

I my eyes widen more, None has care about what i feel in a while.. I open my mouth and spoke up “i don’t deserve my place as a Hashira. All of you are better than me, i feel like I'm slowing you all down.”

His gaze softened ”well with that attitude you are. Why the hell do you even think that?” He said a little softer now, “god Tomioka, you're literally one of the most talented people here. Why cant you see that.” I look away, because I probably looked flushed as hell. I let out a shaky breath before speaking again “I didn’t pass final selection. I got injured the first demon i encountered and i passed out for the rest. My best friend saved every demon slayer there except for himself. I don’t feel like I belong” 

Sanemi looked at me like im stupid which is understandable “Tch, idiot, your here now aren’t you? You’ve train yourself up to being a Hashira you’re one of the strongest. You belong. Dumbass.” I look up at him when he said that, he really thought that..? I felt happy that he did.. “now get your ass back in that meeting and sit down and listen.” I just nod and we back in everyone already chatting as we sat in our original places.

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Me and Tomioka sat back. Down at the meeting after our talk. I still can’t understand why he’d think like that, he’s one of the most talented people out in the corps! Now that i know he thinks like that it bothers me.. he’s a fucking idiot i swear. The meeting went on for what felt like forever.

I continue to glance at Giyuu, i have a mix of emotions I’m feeling, i feel. Angry that he feels that way, and sad? Im not even sure why I’m feeling like this, Tomioka isn’t participating in the training which i understand, I’m only doing this so the corps can get stronger, But I’m not looking forward to training a bunch of brats.. that just also means ill see my brother again. Not looking forward to that. I also can't imagine Tomioka teaching.

After a while the meeting ended, i left with iguro, we hang out a lot, sometimes we train, sometimes we just talk, we walk outside just talking while were walking to our hang out spot, talking about the training and shit. What we’re going to be teaching the brats.

We walk to a tree, i sit under and it he sit on a branch, he Ike’s to sit up high to be taller, i don’t blame him he is kind of short, we start talking well, mostly him, he’s talking abut mitsuri again, he’s obsessed with that chick i swear. “Hey sanemi” obanai said suddenly. “Hm? Yes?” I reply, “wwhat did you and Tomioka taalk about when you guys left the meeting?” He asked, i should of know he was going to ask that

I sigh “i just asked why he thinks hes better that us..” i say in a annoyed tone, Obanai looked at me with a curious expression before speaking, “jeez Sanemi, thats a bit straight forward.. though i am curious.. what did he say?” I finally look at him with a deadpanned face “we were so fucking wrong about him obanai, it’s kind of funny. Turns out he feels the exact opposite of what we thought!” Obanai looks at Mr with a shocked expression”

“What-“ i cut obanai off “he feels like he, he doesnt belong as a hashira, he feels like. He’s too weak to be one! Who could have. Thought?” I blurt out obanai looks at me with a stunned expression before replying “well shit, guess we were wrong” he said with a slight snicker in his voice, i spoke up again “i just dont understand it..”

“Hm?” Obanai hummed in a question “like, hes one of the most talented slayers out there hes perfected water breathing!! He’s not only a talented slayers but hes also like one of the best water breathers too! And thats not even mentioning the fact hes one of the strongest out of the Hashira, i know he doesnt look like it but still!” Obanai looks at me with wide eyes, i don’t notice I just continue rambling, “and he acts so incredibly insecure! I also dont umderstand that like, hes The most gorgeous man ive ever seen! Him and his stupidly perfect face and his stupidly beautiful eyes.. and..”

I cut my self off, god my face was probably so red.. it was silent for a moment before obanai spoke up, “wow man.. where did that come from?” I pause for a second “i dont know.. I wasn’t thinking i was just speaking..” obanai gave me A knowing look, one of his eyebrows raised “ooo does the grumpy wind hashira have a crush on the Giyuu Tomioka??” He said teasingly “what!?! No- i mean- SHUT UP!!” I yelled “whatever you say~”. Obanai said, i could feel his stupid smirk under his face “yeah, whatever..” i say dismissively.

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Sanemi POV

The next day i was sitting in my estate, my. Conversation with Obanai was replaying over and over again.. ‘do i really like Tomioka..? No I can’t he’s a guy. Im not gay.. right?’ I thought to myself before i shake my. Head as if to get the thoughts out of my head, i start thinking about what im going to do today, this week we have off before the training starts on Monday, so i have some free time..

Hmm.. i mean i could train with Obanai.. or- I’m suddenly pulled out of my thoughts from a knock on the door, i look over at the door before shouting “Who is it!?” It might just be Obanai or kocho coming to nag me again about something.. the person answer in a familiar soft and emotionless voice, “it’s Tomioka..” my heart skipped a beat i stand up and walk toward the door a little to eagerly.. i pause for a minute telling myself to calm the fuck down its just Tomioka, Sanemi.

My heart was beating rapidly as i opened the door leaning against the frame as i looked at him before speaking “do you need something Tomioka?” I ask trying to sound calm and cool, but i was definitely not calm and cool.. the exact fucking obviously.. and its his and his stupidly cute faces fault.. he spoke up, “I apologize for intruding, but the master sent me to come spar with you” he said calmly, i look at his hand, hes holding a letter

I sigh in annoyance, “if its masters orders..” i grumble in annoyance. “He also told me to give this to you” Tomioka handed over the letter shyly, an expression id never Thought id see him make, he looked so cute.. i take the letter my hand brushed against his “uh thanks. Cmon, I’ll show you where we’re sparing.” I say with annoyed tone as I place the letter on a table, he just. Nodded in response and followed me.

I lead him to my training area before i grab a wooden sword and tossed it to him, he catches it with ease, i grab a wooden sword for my self, “i hope you know im not going easy one you.” I say with a smirk on my face, I’ve honestly wanted to spar with Tomioka for a while, to see how strong he actually him, he spoke up softly “neither am i” he replied in his monotone voice, that response made me smirk wider before i lunge at him planning to attack him.

He blocks the attack with is sword and pushed me back and used a water breathing technique to try and land a hit on me, i almost get distracted by his face, he looks so focused, I’ve never seen that many expressions on his face so im kinda of surprised, i snap out of my trance and i jump back to dodge, the spar went on for surprisedly long time, Tomioka really knows how too hold his own.. and his fighting style do get me started.. he fights so gracefully, it feels and looks like he’s moving like actual water, thats how you know hes a good water breather.. god..

After sparing we sat on my engawa, in silence, the silence isn’t uncomfortable though, id thought it would be with him.. I don’t like silence, so I spoke up.. “do you really think you’re weak and slowing us down..?” I suddenly ask, i don’t want to pry but im curious.. how can someone as talented as him feel like that.. he tensed up and than relaxed again before slowly nodding

“Can i ask.. why..?” I asked quietly very intrigued now, he sighs “i just.. I didn’t pass final selection..” i look at him like he's stupid, the fuck does that mean? If you don’t pass final selection your fucking dead.. “elaborate” i say, listening closely to what Tomioka’s reasonings are. “I had this friend.. that i went. To final selection with” thats was a shock.. Tomioka having a friend? No offense but I thought Tomioka was alway a loner.. I look at him silently telling him to continue, he glanced at me before speaking.

“He was very talented. And during final selection, i got injured by the first demon that i encountered, he saved me but i was still severely injured“ he sighed before continuing “the last thing i remember is him running away to save others, before i passed out due to blood loss, i never saw him again. I was unconscious for the rest of final selection” he clenched his fist in his lap a rare show of emotion from him.

I look at his eyes i could see and feel the anger, frustration and sadness in his eyes. I was about to say something, anything to respond to him, maybe something to comfort him, before i was cut off when i opened my mouth, “i should’ve died on that mountain instead of him..” he said with out even looking at me or stuttering.. that means he meant it, he actually felt like that. I was shocked, this isn’t to Tomioka i thought he was, damn, me and iguro were really wrong huh?

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Giyuu POV

After those words came out of my mouth, the room settled into a dead uncomfortable silence.. I was full on expecting him to to agree with me, he hates me after all.. even if i don't want him to, I’m just here on masters orders.. nothing else.. Shinazugawa suddenly spoke up “thats not true.” He said sternly “far from the goddamn truth!” He raised his voice slightly.

Shinazugawa had a tendency to get angry often.. even Iguro would admit it.. my eyes were wide from shock, he turned and looked into my eyes, i felt like he was burning holes in them, my heart picked up when he lean closer to me, my eyes couldn’t help but wonder his face slightly, he suddenly spoke up “Giyuu.”

My eyes widen even more, we’ve never called each other by i first names.. so why was he now..”y-yeah..?” I respond nervously, he was so close, my heart kept on picking up faster and faster, he spoke again in a soft tone “you’re not weak. You’re the exact fucking opposite, why would you even think like that!?” He shouted, clearly frustrated with me but his eyes have more concern in them.

My mouth opened before i could even process what just happened “I-I- didn’t thin-“ i was cut off by him, he lean slightly closer as if trying to get in my head, “don't ever wish you died instead of your stupid ass friend! You’re still alive for a goddamn reason Tomioka!” He takes a breath, i felt it on my face.

He continues speaking “you’re smart, you’re talented, strong, brave and. There are definitely other things! I never want to hear you say something like that ever again! You understand!?” I tense up before i speak up quietly “shinazugawa i-“ i was cut off Again, with him glaring at me “you understand..?” He said his voice low and Dangerous. “Y-yeah.. i understand” i say quietly with a nod, he speaks again “good.” He backs away sitting a back so. He wasn’t so close anymore.

I pause before speaking up again “Shinazugawa..?” He hums in response i pause again before speaking again “why are you being nice to Me..? I thought you hated me..” i say hesitantly, he glances at me and sighed in annoyance “god.. i never hated you..” I almost laughed “what? You’re joking right?” I was stunned, Sanemi Shinazugawa, the guy I thought hated me when we first met doesn’t actually hate me? he groans “you and you’re stupid face make it hard to even Think about hating you!” He blurted out, my face goes bright red “you don’t hate me..?”

He speaks up i could hear the truthfulness in his voice “god no.. far from it at this point..” i saw his face head up into a bright red.. he kinda looked like his brother like that, it was kinda adorable, but i couldn’t be talking though i think my face was a brighter red than his, i didn't even know what to say

“U-uhm.. i should get going.. make sure you read that letter.. its from the master” i say while standing up, i was so nervous and sweaty and embarrassed.. “uh thanks for sparing with me..” i say quietly, he looks up at me from where he was sitting, his face still bright red “ill read it later.. and no problem… cya..” he said his voice not as rough from when he was yelling at me before, “yeah cya..” i say be for leaving.

I start walking to my estate, couldn’t stop replaying the whole interaction in my head.. i was so distracted that i didn’t even notice I bumped into someone “oh I'm sorry” i mumble before looking down to see who i bumped into it was Iguro and Mitsuri was next to him, she waved kindly, my eyes soften slightly “Mitsuri you go ahead.. ill meet you there..” Obanai say calmly “oh! Okay!! Bye obi, bye Tomioka-San!!” She said while walking and waving.

When she was out of ear shot Obanai looked at me with a glare “why do you look at her like that!? Fo you like her or something!?” He said suddenly “what? No..” i say quietly i was kinda shocked how quickly he was to react “then why do you look at her like that!? Hmm!?” He asked suspicious of my true intentions “Iguro- she just reminds me of someone i used to know..” i say calmly

“Did you like this person you used to know?” He eyed me suspiciously “what!? No! Not in that way.. like a sibling way..” i say.. I didn’t wanna out right say ‘oh yeah she reminds me of my dead big sister’ Obanai seemed to calm down after i said that but his suspicions didn’t end there “why are you leaving Sanemi’s estate..? Hmm?” He eyed me down AGAIN. “The master requested me to spar with him and deliver a letter i was simply following orders.” I say with a monotone voice.

Obanai rolled his eyes still suspicious of me “yeah following orders sounds a lot like you.” He said clearly referencing the Tanjiro and Nezuko thing.. I thought we were all over that now, considering we’ve all seen her help humans and kill demons.. whatever. I just sigh “i should be going down, good bye Iguro.”I mumble and i start walking to my estate. “Yeah whatever” i hear him mumble before i seen him run off in the direction Mitsuri went in.

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Sanemi Pov

I sit in silence for a while just think about the conversation I had with tomioka, why would I say stuff like that! He probably thinks I'm some sort of freak now! I don't even know why I'm acting like this I'm not even gay! Right..?

My face was still bright red I look over at the table I put the letter on, I reach over and grab it, opening it to read it, tomioka said it was from the master.. but I knew it was from my little brother. I could tell by the sloppy hand writing

I sigh "he just doesn't know when to quit.. why can't he understand I'm trying to protect him!" I mumble in annoyance the letter just said how genya wanted to talk when he makes it to my training..

Like hell his going to make it to mine! He's too weak, the kid doesn't even have breathing style. I sigh again and put the letter down and put it away.. I miss genya.. even if I wouldn't admit to him.. I just don't want him to end up dead. I told him to quit the corps he hasn't yet!

Whatever.. I'll do whatever I can to protect genya. Whatever it takes even if it means being a dick to him.

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Sanemi POV

The next day I'm up early due to my crow screeching at me and banging on my window. I groan and get up before opening my window, my crow drops a letter onto my hand “what is with everyone and giving me letters..” I grumble quietly before i open the letter, this time it’s actually from the master.

I get ready and start walking to the place I’m supposed to be meeting the master, some where down the path as I’m walking i see Tomioka walling too, i walk faster to catch up to him “hey! Tomioka.” I say trying to get his attention, he looked back with his usual dead looking face “yes shinazugawa?” He said calmly.

Why does his voice have to sound like that. It pisses me off how gentle it sounds. “Where are you going this early huh?” I ask, my voice was still rough from how early in the morning it is, I’m walking beside him now, he glances at me before speaking “i could ask the same thing… the master asked me met him for a mission he has for me.. what about you..?”

“Odd, I have the same reason..” I say, my voice not matching what’s going on in my head, is the master making me go on a mission with Tomioka? What kind of mission? God.. I hope it’s a quick one.. this is going to be so awkward if it’s a long one, even this whole conversation is awkward.

I would make small talk normally, but how do I make small talk with a guy that doesn’t even talk most the time, he probably respond with one word responses.. I keep glancing at him, he also seems as tired as me, I wonder if his crow woke him up early too, it’s none of my business. We continue walking in silence we kept glancing at each other, sometimes we make eye contact but we quickly look away.

We make it to the meeting area, we both sat down next to each other in front of the masters wife, I speak up first “you called us Lady Amane?” I say in a surprising calm voice, I’m different around the master, because I respect him well and of course his wife too.. the most. “Yes I did, the master needs both of you to go on a mission.” she said softly

Great. So I was right.. I just nod, Tomioka did too. Lady amane started talking about the details of the mission. After a few minutes the master dismissed us and we start running to the location of the mission. I glanced at Tomioka admiring how he looks for a bit before going back to focusing.

We show up to this abandoned looking house, we walk in and see about 20 demons currently in the middle of devouring humans, Tomioka lunges forward using a breathing technique that cuts off a few demons heads in one flowing motion, as that is happening I use a wind breath technique to knock the rest of the demons back, cutting off their heads in the process.

Tomioka kills the last one, we look at the deceased humans on the floor. Tomioka and I spend a few minutes burying them near by, I watch Tomioka curiously as he sat on his knee and put his hands together sitting in silence. It looks like he’s praying.. I never thought to do that.. when I finish a mission i just bury the body’s… well if there is any.. and leave.

I watch Tomioka silently, he stands up after a while, the sky started to get covered in clouds, “let’s go” he said quietly, I nod and walked beside him, the sky gets darker and darker as we walk, I felt a drop on my head, I just shake it off not thinking much of it, i look over and see Tomioka wiping his forehead from a drop of water.

Soon it started to lightly rain, we just continued walking, it’s just spitting. no point in trying to take cover, the rain starts to pick up more.. Tomioka speaks up suddenly “we should find an inn” he says calm, I nod in response we start running to find an inn, as we were it started to pour, yeah I can’t shake this off.

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Giyuu POV

We finally make it to a small inn, we enter it soaking wet, I’m freezing.. I could feel my self shivering slightly, when we enter I’m it with a big wave of warmth, an older woman approaches us bowing slightly, before standing up fully with a concern look on her face, she spoke up in a soft and kind voice “my.. you 2 must be freezing.. come in come in I’ll get a room ready for you too..” she said with a soft look in her eyes

We walk farther in and she started to lead us forward to, what I assume our room for the night.. “this is your room for the night you too, we’ll bring futons momentarily, please make yourselves comfortable” she said with a warm smile before bowing again and leaving. I glance around the room. It’s not very spacious but it will do for the night.. there’s a small bathroom with a shower and a few yutatas on a bench near the bathroom door. Shinazugawa sits down on the ground, running a hand through his white wet hair, I admire him for a minute before I speak up “I’m going to have a shower..” I say quietly, grabbing one of the yutatas and making my way to the bathroom.

“Alright I’ll have one after.” Shinazugawa responds gruffly, I nod in response closing the bathroom door behind me. I let out a sigh.. ‘this is so awkward.. there’s so much tension between us for some reason’ I shake my head and took out my hair from its usual ponytail and started getting ready for my shower, when I step in a let out a slight sigh in relief at the warmth, I was fucking cold in my soaking uniform and hoari. After a few minutes I hear som shuffling in the room and Sanemi saying something along the lines of ‘thank you’ I think he was talking to a worker.

After a few minutes I get out of the shower and put on the yutata, as I’m doing that I notice a gash on my arm i didn’t notice before “huh, why didn’t I notice that” I mumble, one of the demons must have cut me while I was slaying it, I decided to leave my hair down, I’m to lazy to put it up again and i gotta patch this gash up anyway, I leave the bathroom and i look down, the futon are here and set up, i could only assume shinazugawa set them up, it was surprisingly nice of him to set up mine i could've done it myself.

“The bathroom is yours” I say in a monotone voice, shinazugawa glances at me then the cut on my arm. “When the fuck did you get cut?” He asked sternly, not making any move to get up and go to the bathroom, “I’m not sure must have happened when we were fighting though demons..” I say in my usual quiet voice, “how the hell did you manage to not notice it until now?” He asked sternly curiously, i pause for a second “must have been because my body was focused on being cold because of the rain..” I respond.

I look at shinazugawa as he grumbled and grabbed a first aid kit, I look at him confused “what are you waiting for? Sit your ass down so I can bandage you” my eyes widen and I hesitantly sit down, he grabs my arm and pressed gauze on my wound holding it there for a minute before he grabs a roll of bandages and wraps it around my arm. He looks at me directly in my eyes “there.” He said coldly but I saw the subtle red hue on his face, I felt the same heat on my face as well, he looks away from me and and stands up “I’m having a shower” he said calmly, I just nod.

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Giyuu POV

I watch shinazugawa head to the bathroom silently, after he closes the door I lay back on the futon, sighing.. I stare up at the ceiling in silence, listening to the rain and the shower turning on. I look at my bandage arm, then glance at the door, wondering why he helped me in the first place.. i could’ve done it my self.

I laid there thinking, I was so distracted I didn’t even hear the shower until shinazugawa walked out, look over at him, his hair was still wet and her was pushing it out of his face, “I’m surprised you’re not asleep.” He said gruffly, I just hum in response, I don’t know how to respond to something like that. There’s a moment of uncomfortable silence as shinazugawa sat down on his futon.

I glance over at him before hesitantly speaking, “why’d you help me.. Y’know.. with the cut.. i couldve done it myself..” I say softly looking at him full making eye contact with him, leaned back on his hands before responding, “the cut was on your right arm, I know it’s difficult to bandage with your non dominant hand. So I’d thought I’d help.” He said trying to sound annoyed, but it was more soft.

My eyes widen slightly, I’m surprised.. that he’d think something like that, ‘the fact he knows I’m right handed says something too right? I mean, sure a lot of people are right handed but still.. has he been watching my swordsmanship or something..?’ I sit up and look down at my lap.. “I mean.. I thought you hated me..” I say softly before looking back at shinazugawa

He looked angry.. he seems to look at me that way a lot, he suddenly stood up, towering over me, he leaned over and grabbed the neckline of my yutata and pulled me closer to him, our faces inches apart “why can’t you take the hint huh? I’ve already told you that i don’t hate you. Why can’t you understand that?!” He raised his voice slightly, he had a frown on his face, he looked so angry and frustrated..

I get slightly nervous about how close I am to him, I roll my eyes and spoke up again “well, I’m not exactly likable.. I’m an anti-social and i don’t talk, how am I supposed to be li-“ I was cut off mid rant when shinazugawa suddenly kissed me, pushing his face against mine, my eyes widen slightly, I froze.. I didn’t expect this, I easy up slightly and kiss back, shinazugawa than grabbed my waist and pulled me closer.

He looked me dead in the eyes again. His light violet eyes boring into mine, my head was slightly tilted upwards, “do you think I hate you now?” He said gripping my waist tighter as he waited for my answer, I felt his breath on my face still, my face was burning hot and red, I hesitated before I speak up quietly “n-no I guess not..” I say while shaking my head.

“Good” he responded, he shoved me back on the futon before standing up again “now go to sleep dipshit, it’s late.” He said stern before laying back down on his futon, I just nod and get settled, my face was still burning ‘shinazugawa just kissed me. I didn’t know he- why would- ugh, I can’t even think straight right now..’ I close my eyes just intending to rest them but I fall asleep almost few minutes after.

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Sanemi POV

The next morning i wake up first, i sit up and reply the events of last night in my head, my face flushes a bright red. I shake it off and get up and started getting dressed, after i was dressed Tomioka woke up. His spiky black hair was mess, and he had dark circles under his eyes, ‘did he not sleep last night or does he just look like that in the mornings?’. He pushes his hair out of his face before getting up and grabbing his now dry uniform and heading into the bathroom.

I lean against the wall waiting for him to get out, none of us spoke at all, completely silence. It was kind of unnerving, after a few minutes he walks out wearing his uniform and ponytail, and of course his usual dead look on his face, but. His face was slightly pink if you look hard enough, maybe hes still embarrassed about last night, he was so red after i kissed him it was kind of cute..

“Cmon lets head back to headquarters..” i say quietly while walking expecting him to follow, which he does, the whole walk back was silent and awkward, i wanted to talk but every time i tried to my mouth wouldn’t open, honestly I think its best if i keep my mouth shut for now, i don’t want to say anything I’ll regret.. for once..

We make it back to headquarters and walked to the master’s garden and kneeled before the masters wife, telling her how the mission went, Tomioka surprisingly spoke up and gave some pointers, he was quiet most of the time, but it’s an improvement, he’s actually talking. After that lady amane dismissed us, Tomioka and i went separate ways, i went to Obanai’s estate, im gojnna probably train with him or hang out.

I feel like talking my ass of, ive barely talked at all this morning. I just need to talk to someone, and I can’t talk to Tomioka because things are still awkward between us, and i also want to train, maybe it’ll help with my embarrassment or something? I don’t know. I as im walking there i see Kanroji walking, leaving the direction of obanai’s estate, of course that idiot was hanging out with that chick, what a fucking simp. Kanroji waves at me “hi shinazugawa-San!!” She says before continuing to walk, i just not at her, i find her wayy to happy, like jeez girl, you can be sad at times, you don’t need to be so happy and loud.. she reminds me of genya, from when we were younger.. I wonder if he’s changed.. whatever its not my business.

I finally make it to obanai’s estate, i knock. On the door “Oi, snake brain! You busy?!” I yell while knocking on the door, he opens the door and looks up at me “I thought i told you to stop calling me that.” He said sharply “yeah yeah whatever answer the question.” I say in a Dismissive tone, clearly not fazed by his sharpe tone, “no, I’m not, why? Want to hang out or something” he asked curiously, “fuck yes, ive barely talked at all today!” I said. he lets me in and we sit down a cross from each other, i Glance over at the pile of dishes on his dining table, i raise an ‘eyebrow’ and look at him “did you have lunch with pinky again or something?’ I ask, “yes- wait wha- how did you-“ i interrupt him, “you’re a dumbass, for one, I know for a fact you don’t eat that much, in fact you barely eat. And second, none of the other eat that much, expect of maybe gyomei, and third i saw pinky leaving your estate, and forth, you’re a goddamn simp for her.” I say in an annoyed tone but my voice has no bite to it, more teasing if anything

i see hhis face flush brightly “hey! Cmon! Kanroji-San, is really nice and cool! Im sorry i Like Hanging out with her more than you!” He says defensively “what ever you say lover boy.” I say while rolling My eyes before speaking again “why was She here anyway?” I ask curiously “she just got back from a mission and she wanted to have lunch with me while she talk about how her mission went..” he said still slightly embarrassed, but he suddenly perked up and spoke up Again “speaking of missions” he said slyly, I could feel. That stupid smirk from under his damn mask. “How was your mission with the nobody?”

I roll my eyes and sigh expecting this question “it was good..” obanai’s eyes widen before raising an eyebrow “good huh? When ever you’re on a mission with him you immediately start complaining.. what’s different huh?” He asked slyly again, god, this is pissing me off butt i keep. My cold cause its Obanai, hes my friend or whatever. “Nothing, Im just starting too tolerate him i guess.. hes not that bad..” i say in. A slightly annoyed tone.

Obanai looks shocked For a minute. “Sanemi..tell me what happened!” He asked eagerly, i roll my eyes again, “finee.. after we slayed the demons it Started to pour and we went to an inn to take Cover for the night..” i say, “go onn” he said clearly invested, “he had a Shower and when he came out he had a cut on his arm i Just patched him up. That’s it..”. I. Say dismissing the conversation, “Sanemi,i know thats not all that happened, I’m not dumb, what did you do.” He said with a knowing expression on his face. I groan and Sigh “finee! I had a shower blah blah, when i came out he asked why i helped him, and i said ‘because the cut was on his dominant hand so it is hard too bandage on your dominant hand” i pause for a moment, hesitating slightly “and he said ‘I though you hated me’ and i asked him Why he thought that then he started talking down to him self and that pissed me off so i-“

I suddenly stoped talking my face went Red, Obanai looked even more intrigued, ‘Sanemi. Cmonnn!!’ He said, he’s getting annoyed that i keep stoping., I hesitated again. “I-i kissed him, to shut him up.. i was. Angry he kept talking bad about his self it. Was pissing me off..” I finish talking. Obanai looked at me shocked, “what did you do after!?” He asked slightly yelling, “I just, pushed him back on his futon and told him to go back To sleep..” i muttered, obanai looks at me Disappointed “you cant do that man! He’s probably so confused what you guys are to each other!” He said irritatedly, i groan “i know! I just…i..”

“I was really embarrassed okay! Ive never been into a guy before! And ive never kissed one so i Didn’t know What else to say!” I say, i Was an embarrassed mess, god, my face was so hoy, i think my nose was steaming from how red i was., obanai rolls His eyes, “next time you see him talk to him about it. Trust me”. I roll my eyes “yeah yeah..” i cant believe im taking advice from a guy who simps for a chick he can’t even ask out.

Obanai looks at me With a smug expression “so did he kiss back? Was he good at all?” He say teasingly “OBANAI!!” I yell still embarrassed and flushed, “cmon! answer the question, I’m curious!” I huff annoyed but i Was more Nervous and embarrassed than anything, i grumble. Slightly before speaking up again “yes.. he did kiss back.. and he is a good kisser, there you happy..” i mutter, obanai snickers “extremely.. though i am surprised, Tomioka DOESNT seem like the time to be. Good at kissing” he said nonchalantly, i nod in agreement hes not wrong actually Tomioka does have that vibe.

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Sanemi POV

The next morning, i got up and got ready like usual.. but i find my self walking to Tomioka’s estate, I’m thinking maybe Obanai is right. Tomioka is probably confused and it was shitty of me to just pretend like it happened, though he didn’t even seem to care that much. Im thinking i can talk to him over a friendly spar maybe? I definitely do not just want to see him fight again.

I make it to his estate, i knock on the door, “hey Tomioka? You awake?” I ask quieter than normal, if he’s still asleep i don’t want to wake him up, I’m not heartless. There was no answer, completely silence before the door in front of me opened, and Tomioka stood in he door way, he looked like he did yesterday morning, just his hair is more messy.

“Do you need something shinazugawa..?” He ask, his voice a little raspy from sleep, “uh yeah, you busy?” I ask, I’m so fucking nervous it’s not even funny my hands are shaking slightly too. Tomioka shakes his head no, i speak again “ do you uh.. want to spar or whatever again?” I ask, i prepared myself for rejection, i mean, he looks like he just woke up, he probably doesn’t even want to train just after waking up, and, oh, yeah he’s still in a yutata.. of course

He paused for a second before speaking “uh, sure, just go to my yard ill bee out in a second..” he says quietly, my eyes widen slightly but i nod, he closes the door and i start making my way over and i waited for him. He came out a few minutes later in his uniform abd his hair up, like usual, he walks over to me and grabs a wooden sword, i grab one too of course.

“I might be a bit lazy, I apologize in advance..” he still looked exhausted. God, he couldve just said no! He’s going to over work him self at this rate.. “it’s fine. Don’t over work yourself dumbass..” I say in a half hearted tone, there’s not bite to it because I actually mean it. He just nodded in response and we started lunged forward and started sparring, I finally decided to talk about what happened, “so uh.. Tomioka..” I say while swinging my sword at him be blocks and pushes me back “mhm?” He hummed softly.. Jesus, I can’t even look at him with out feeling some kind of way..

“About our mission.” I say while dodging an attack from him, I saw his eyes widen he practically froze and tensed. I take my chances and hit him down on the ground before pinning him, my sword stabbed on left near his head. He looks up at me, his face was bright red and he had a shocked look in his eyes, “u-uh what about it..?” He ask, he was so embarrassed. “The hell you mean what about it.” I roll my eyes and leaned closer. “I very clearly remember me kissing you.” I say like it was the most normal thing in the world.

My stomach did that thing.. and my insides felt hot and mushy, he’s still under me he looked like he was trying to pieces words together but it wasn’t working. You know what..? Fuck it.. I lean closer and pushed my lips into his, my hands pinning his shoulders down, I felt him gasp at the suddenness but his hands slowly came up and tangled in my hair pulling my head closer.

I held the kiss for a few more seconds before breaking it, “Giyuu.” I look down at him “yeah..?” He responded softly, I sigh and push my hair out of my face, “I want.. I want to be something more than what we are..” I paused before speaking again “uh…Can you be my boyfriend..?” He looks at me shocked, and i don’t blame him honestly.. “I um.. I.. y-yeah.. but.. um.. can we keep it to ourselves for now..? I don’t know if I’m-“ I cut him off “yeah, I understand don’t even worry about it.. I’m not ready to come out either.”

Giyuu looks relieved, it’s a nice expression on him.. seeing him all relaxed is nice.. “okay.. thanks.. but uh I’m not good at the whole dating thing if that’s okay..” he said nervously “that’s fine.. we’ll make it work. I’ll help you out. But uh, one condition.” I say, I loosen my grip on his shoulders down ”hm? What is it?” He asked curiously, he seemed a bit more comfortable with me now, that’s an improvement.. I’ve only had girlfriends so uh this is new.. “when we’re alone, call me Sanemi or Nemi, I’ll let you choose” I say softly, Giyuu smiles softly “sure..” fuck.. he looks so cute with that adorable smile on his face!

I smile back, I ruffle his hair and get off of him and laid next to him on the ground, we start talking about random things, I ask his opinions on the other Hashira, and stuff like that, while we’re talking I hear football steps running in the opposite direction. Someone was listening to our conversation.. i don’t want to tell Giyuu about it, because he looked a lot more at ease and i didn’t want to ruin it. I’ll find out who it is. No matter what.

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sanemi POV

The next day another hashira meeting was called, about the training and what were all going to train the low ranks, the training starts tomorrow, obviously. Giyuu and kocho are a no show to this meeting because they aren’t participating, im planing to meet up with Giyuu later.. i like seeing him smile around me.. it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

“Shinazugawa, what are you Planing to train the slayers on?” Himejima Asked kindly, i snap out of my thoughts and looked up, “oh, uh, infinite striking.” I say quietly, fuck. That sounded nothing like me, i need to stay focused.. “interesting, that seems crucial for the slayers in the war. Good idea shinazugawa.” Himejima Smiled softly, his tone was praising, it made me feel warm in a way, i just shake it off “yeah yeah..” my voice rough and dismissive, “what about you, kanroji?” Himejima Asked kanroji softly.

“Oh! Oh! Of course!! Im planing to do flexibility!!” She said eagerly, Himejima nodded, I internally grimace, those slayers are going to die.. shes more flexible than a fucking pretzel. Himejima Went on asking everyone what there training is going to be. Tokitos is doing speed and reflexes, Obanai is doing sword skills and Himejimas is muscle amplification.. wait, uzui is doing the training too, i forget what he’s doing, i kind of forgot about him after he retired, meh whatever.

After a few minutes of what felt like forever, we were finally dismissed, i stood up first and made my way to the door, Obanai looked at me confused, i usually stay to talk with him. I see him shrug and start talking with Kanroji. I leave i say kocho walking to where i was just leaving, she smirked at me “hello shinazugawa-San.” She said kindly, but this time it sounded more fact than usual. “Hello, kocho.” I say dryly.

I start walking away. From the meeting area, i see Giyuu talking to kamado, it looks like kamado was just leaving anyway, after he leaves i walk up behind Giyuu and put my chin on hi shoulder. “What are you doing?” I ask curiously, Giyuu turns around “oh, hey nemi, how was the meeting..? Anything interesting..?” He asked quietly, his expression softening slightly. “No, no really.” I roll my eyes and wrap an am around him. He nods “i was talking to Tanjiro, he's recovering well.. he’s extremely ecstatic about the training..” i paused before speaking again “he keeps asking if i could train him.. its getting quite annoying” he expressed. My eyes light up slightly, he actually expressing himself around me.. again! Progress! Even if its just around me, progress is progress

“Yeah, i could see how it’d be annoying, you kept your cool though, something i cant do.” I smirk at him jokingly. Giyuu smiles slightly, “mhm.. i guess so, maybe i should give you some tips” he teased back, i love this side of Giyuu, hell, i just love him but still.. i sigh and my expression softens “want to go for a walk” i ask “sure” he said and we started just walking around and talking, i heard Giyuu laugh for the first time in this walk, it made my heart warm and beat so fast i though it was Going to explode..

[time skip: next day, the training starts. POV: Giyuu]

Giyuu POV

The next morning is the final hashira meeting before training starts, so i have to go.. im making my way the masters garden, as im walking i see uzui, hm. He must be here just for the training i guess, thats good, the trainees need all they can get, i make it to the masters garden, lady amane isn’t there yet, i just sat across from Sanemi, he looked at me but didn't do anything, I'm glad we’re keeping. It a secret.. i mean, I’ve been gay for quite a while, but i haven’t told anyone.. I'm just worried everyone will dislike me more or think I’m disgusting..

I glance around and i see everyone sending glances at me and sanemi’s direction.. thats weird im not exactly the one everyone is glancing at, i can feel doubt in my stomach.. do they know or something, i have this nagging feeling they know, i see Muichiro staring at me blankly before he walks over and sits next to me and leaned on me.

I pat his hair gently, “Giyuu.” He spoke up, quietly only for me to hear “hm?” I hum in question “is it true you’re dating Shinazugawa..?” He’s still quiet. My heart felt like it was going to wither away, my eyes widen. How does he know? Does everyone know? Did Sanemi tell everyone? No.. no.. he said he wasn’t ready to come out either.. i trust him.. he wouldn’t do that.. right..?? I don’t answer Muichiro and I glance over at Sanemi my eyes still widen, he looks at me concerned until iguro whisper something in his ear.

His eyes widen and he looked at Iguro pissed, before he suddenly Stood up and grabbed my arm and pulled me into the hall, when we were in the hall he immediately calmed down. “Fuck..” he mutter “Sanemi- i don’t know whats going on-“ i say quietly trying to stay as calm as possible “calm down. I know you didn’t say shit.” He said trying to comfort me. “ what do we do..?” I ask.

He looked at me dead in the eye “okay, Giyuu think, who do you think would have something seriously against you?” He skied seriously “what about you?” I ask before answering the question “because im basically fine with everyone.” He said getting slightly impatient bore he’s more concerned “shit uhh okay..” i pause and think for a minute, Sanemi looked at me shocked for a second, he’s probably never heard me swear.. “oh,!” I say, he nods “yes, that would make sense.” I said in an annoyed tone, i think hes annoyed at kocho.

As we were talking Kocho was walking down the hall with a stupid fucking smirk on her face. That’s evidence that she did something.. fuck Kocho why do you always have to ruin everything, she walked int to the meeting room closing the door behind her. “It’s definitely her.” Sanemi said.. “I'm not ready for this.. I don’t know-“ i say nervously.. i was scared, what if some of the Hashira are homphobic.. and think we’re disgusting and i don't know! Im not ready for this!! “Calm down, Giyuu, we’ll figure it out,” he grabbed my hands “together alright?” He said softly, i nod “okay” I can tell Sanemi is nervous too.. i hope we can figure it out..

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Giyuu POV

We walk back into the meeting and everyone is looking at sanemi and I.. ‘that’s not nerve raking at all..’ Kocho still has that dumb smirk on her face. Sanemi and I sat down again next to each other, and Kocho looks at us and smiled fakely. “Sooo Tomioka-San and shinazugawa-sannnn do you have something to tell us??~” she said slyly, I saw sanemi roll his eyes, “i don’t understand why it's any of your business kocho.” Sanemi said dismissively.

kanroji suddenly spoke up “uh kocho-San, how did you find this out in the first place?” Kocho ignores her question, “oh don’t worry about it, so you two, were waiting for your answer.” I look at her annoyed “why does it matter..” I mumble, Kocho just laughs in a fake tone, and I see her eye twitch slightly.

Sanemi looked at her like he was piecing something together in his mind. “So you were the one that was listening to our conversation.” He said suddenly. My eyes widened “wait hold on back track what do you mean.” Iguro said, butting into the conversation, I just stay quiet, I don't want to say anything that’ll make the conversation worse..

“When I was uh, confessing or whatever. I felt like someone watching us.” Sanemi said, his voice getting slightly frustrated, I glanced at him trying to get him to calm down, I saw kochos face fall for a split second, “kocho-San! You said they told you!” Kanroji said she spoke again ”you lied, why would you do that??” Kanroji seems disappointed in Kocho “cmon, it's not like it did anything? See they’re fine!” Kocho said defensively.

Himejima suddenly spoke up, his voice soft and he had tears streaming down his face like usual, “kocho, that does not give you the right to out the two, you should feel ashamed. You have no idea how they are feeling at the moment” he said calmly but still very stern. I decided to speak up "we've only been together for a few days, we weren’t ready to come out yet. And you told everyone anyway kocho.. it makes me upset that you’d do something like that.." I said softly, sanemi turned his head to me and his eyes softened.

”I agree, it pissed me off. How’d you feel if I told everyone you had a secret partner, if you did?” Sanemi spoke up roughly, his arms crossed. Kocho looked away slightly, “well i just don't understand shinazugawa-san. Why would someone like you choose Tomioka! I mean he's a loner why would yo-“ she said with a passive aggressive tone before Sanemi cut her off.

”Why does it matter to you? Who I like and date! It’s not your life, it's mine. So fuck off kocho, don’t talk to me or my boyfriend unless you’re ready to apologize.” He yelled before he grabbed my hand and dragged me out of the meeting. As we were leaving I saw kochos face turn red with anger. I also see iguro and Kanroji eyes widen but I see Kanroji immediately start gushing about how cute we are right after.

sanmei took me to his estate “sorry.. she was getting on my fucking nerves” he said in a concerned tone “its finee. I wanted to leave anyway..” I respond “hey im proud of you giyuu, you actually spoke up for yourself” he said proudly, i smile and blush slightly “oh yeah i guess i did” i say quietly “but uh.. thanks for defending me..” i say, im very thankful about it.. “I'll defend you 100 times if i have too” he grumbled softly with a soft smile on his face as we both sat down on his engawa, i looked at him softly “im happy you would..” i say while leaning my head on his shoulder and he wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me closer as we watched the sky in a comfortable silence.

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Sanemi POV

The next day training started first thing in the morning, I had to wake up really early. The trainees got here and I gave them instructions, they were pretty simple, ‘land a hit on me and you pass.’ That’s practically it honestly.. well obviously i taught them the technique first, but either than that, that’s pretty much it. 

These trainees are weak. So fucking weak, i don’t even know how they survived for this long.. I didn’t give the trainees breaks, I’ll only give it to them if the fucking listen and earn it. I was in a even worse mode than usual, what kocho did still pissed me off honestly.. but I was kind of surprised when the other Hashira defended and supported us..

That’s reliving.. I’m sure Giyuu is relieved too.. I wonder how he’s doing, he’s probably relaxing or on a mission while I’m dealing with these stupid brats.. and they complain too! Like they aren’t even grateful I’m even training them at all! It pisses me off. This was the worst like 5 hours of my life! I watch as the trainees leave, they look beat up and in pain, it’s honestly deserved for how weak they are, I hope they do some extra training without my help to improve.

As I’m watching them leave as I’m sitting on my engawa, Giyuu appears behind me and sits next to me “boo.” He said jokingly, I chuckled slightly “real scary Giyuu” I say slyly as look at him, he’s smiling softly before he becomes serious “Sanemi..?” He asked seriously “hm? Yes Giyuu..?” I replied “do you think.. we could talk to kocho.. it’s okay if you don’t want to, I just can’t get it off my mind, I just want to understand why she’d do that..” he said in a slightly nervous tone.

My eyes soften slightly “sure, we can.” I say while standing up, I put out a hand offering to help him up, he takes it and I pull him up. I wrap my arm around his shoulders and we start walking towards the butterfly estate, as we were walking we were talking about things we could talk to kocho about and ask her. I understand why Giyuu feels like this, I feel like that too, I was waiting for him to be ready though, but he was ready rather quickly.

We finally made it and went to Kocho’s office which the door was open, she was doing some sort of lab experiment, probably important, I let go of Giyuu’s shoulders and knocked on the frame “Oi, Kocho, can we talk for a second?” It wasn’t really question, I was going to force her to anyway, she turned her head and her eyes widened slightly before she put her mask back up.

“I.. yes of course come in.” She said as she nodded, she was trying to stay calm but she was clearly nervous, “kocho, we want an explanation..” I said sternly “i don’t understand why it affects you guys so much..” she said snobby tone “it’s because we weren’t ready to come out, I wasn’t ready to come out.” Giyuu said, i could see the sadness in his eyes, i could see kochos eyes soften slightly.

”Can I just talk to Shinazugawa-San alone for a minute Tomioka-San..?” She asked suddenly, Giyuus eyes widened slightly but he slowly nodded and left the room “Kocho, what’s going on…? Why would you out us like that!? Why were you even at giyuus estate in the first place, I thought you hated him, is that why you outed us because you hat-“ I start rambling on, I was angry, I mean why wouldn’t I be, I feel like I had a pretty good fucking reason too!

Kocho looks at me with a pained look in her eyes “can I be honest..?” she interrupted softly, I look at her calmly down only a little bit, I just nod in response.. “I’m a bit.. no.. uh.. i was really jealous..” she paused before speaking again “I-I kind of liked Tomioka-San.. in that way and i didn’t know how to express it.. so I was an absolute bitch to him, and I understand that.. I can’t like him anymore because.. well he likes you and you like him… and.. I’m too young for him.. i didn’t know how to express it..” she said her voice cracking slightly.

i immediately calm down, that makes a lot more sense actually.. “you couldn’t have dated him from the beginning.. you’re like what, 18? He’s 21.. he would of definitely turned you down..” she just nodded at my comment, “I know.. that’s why i did it.. I’m embarrassed about it, I apologize..” she said bowing slightly “don’t apologize to me apologize to Giyuu.” I say sternly “I’ll do that.. i don’t think I can at the moment though.. I-I’m not ready”

I just nod understanding, “just do it at some point..” she nodded again “I will.. I promise” I nod and stand up and leave the room, I see Giyuu leaning against the wall waiting, I walk over to him and grab his hand. “Cmon, let’s go get something to eat.” I say softly leading him away from the butterfly estate, his eyes practically sparkle completely forgetting why we were here “ can we get simmered salmon with daikon?” He asked softly but with slight excitement in his voice, i laugh and smile softly “yeah of course” I say leading as I continued leading him.

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Giyuu POV

Sanemi was leading me somewhere, I thought we were just going to head back to his estate to eat but I guess not, I also can’t help but wonder what kocho told him, maybe he’ll tell me while were eating, or maybe I’ll find out later. While we were walking, Sanemi was talking about the training again, he was complaining a little, and from what I’m hearing I sort of get what he was saying.

I like listening to him, he tries to get my input on something, but I think he pieced together that I like listening more. I’m glad he doesn’t try to force me to talk like a lot of people do.. like Tanjiro.. he’s very pushy, but he’s a good kid. And kocho would too, I still don’t know how to feel about her.. I mean, she hasn’t given an explanation to me.. maybe she did to Sanemi when they were alone?

Who knows.. we finally make it to a restaurant, i look at Sanemi, “you didn’t tell me we were going to a restaurant” I say quietly to him, “hm? Oh yeah we’re going to a restaurant.” He said slyly, he had a smirk on his face, I hit his shoulder lightly “well it’s too late now!” I say with a slight frown on my face, he laughed slightly “yeah yeah” he said before a waiter walked up to us and lead us to a table.

The waiter looked nervous, I think they were scared of Sanemi, which is understandable.. he can be quite scary.. we sit down next to each other, and we got menus before Sanemi suddenly spoke up “how was your day today..?” I look at him “um.. it was fine” I say quietly, he nudged me with his elbow gently “cmon you have to give me more than that, I’ve only talked about my day, I want to hear about yours”

I smile slightly at that response, “uh well.. I did some training of my own and went for a mission..” I say quietly, Sanemi looked at me listening intently, “how was your mission, any trouble?” He asked again, I shake my head “no it was just a short mission, nothing hard..” he replied quietly “that’s good” he said shortly “Has that kamado kid been bothering you still?” He asked suddenly

“Yes. He has, he really wants me to do training, I’ve said no multiple times. He’s just pushy though..” I say kind of annoyed but I stay calm, “if I were you, i would’ve gone crazy already” he said with a slight laugh, I laugh a little “I’m not surprised, you don’t have much patience from what I can tell” I say teasing “I can be patient.. when I want too..” he said with a faux defensive tone, I raise an eyebrow “so never?” I say with a slight grin

Sanemi smiles at me, we continue to talk and tease, at some point we order our food, I obviously got the salmon daikon, “you seriously have an addiction to that” Sanemi commented “I can say the same about you and your ohagi“ I say slyly “fair enough” he said with a shrug, after a few minutes we get our food and start eating, Sanemi is an.. aggressive eater.. he eats like it his last meal, it’s quite impressive to me.. eating is kind of hard for me sometimes, but I feel like when I’m around him I can’t eat normally for some reason.

After a few minutes we finished eating and we pay.. well Sanemi pays.. because i didn’t even know we were going to a restaurant in the first place.. “I can pay you back afte-“ he cuts me off “don’t even worry about it, my treat” he said with a small smile, I just nod. He offered to walk me back to my estate, I say yes, I’d like to spend more time with him anyway.. as we start walking back to my estate I see a familiar silhouette on my roof, Sanemi notices to and rolls his eyes.

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Sanemi POV

I noticed Giyuu looking at his roof, so I look too, I sigh when I see the familiar silhouette.. of course Obanai is here. Giyuu looks at me curiously, probably wondering why he’s on his roof, I shake my head and just got Giyuu inside his house before i jump up onto his roof, and walked up to Obanai.

“What the hell are you doing here..” I asked in an annoyed tone “I wanted to talk to you.” He said with a monotone voice, I roll my eyes “you couldn’t have waited at my estate?” I say while crossing my arms “no, i didn’t want to wait.” He responded, my eye twitched “Y’know, Kanroji-San hasn’t shut up about you two.” He said suddenly, I grunt and roll my eyes again “so? It’s not my problem that pinky is obsessed with us.” I grumbled

“Whatever. I’m very pissed that you didn’t tell me right away.” He said annoyed and frustrated, I looked at him with a slight glare “we weren’t ready to come out Obanai. Some people have a problem with homosexual relationships so we weren’t ready for the reactions.”he shot a glare right back at me, “so? You couldve told me! I’m like your best friends Sanemi! And you didn’t even tell me you were dating Tomioka!” He yelled slightly

I grid my teeth slightly “Can you be quiet? You’re going to wake others up..” I say looking at the sky, it was dark out already.. I must of lost track of time.. “why? Worried I’m going to wake up you’re ‘boyfriend’?” He said mockingly “yes, he is my boyfriend, i don’t know why you put in quotes.” I snapped back at him “well I’m just upset you didn’t tell me! I thought we told each other everything!” He yelled again.

I glanced at giyuus estate and saw the lights turn off, I clench my fists “okay for one, me and Giyuu have only been dating like a week, not even and second, i told you to keep your fucking voice down!!” I whisper yelled, obanai looked at me slightly shocked but was more annoyed than anything, I speak again “I get you’re upset, I understand why and you have every right too! But that doesn’t mean you have to sit and wait on my boyfriend’s roof and wait for our date to be over so you can just yell at me!” I say my voice more softly and quiet but i was still very irritated

Obanai huffs and sighs, that’s a sign he’s calming down “fine.. I’m sorry, I should’ve waited.. it’s just.. we tell each other everything, at least I do..” he said pouting slightly, I shove his shoulder jokingly “come on man, your acting like a child.” He sighed again “yeah, yeah, so, are you going to tell me how you confessed or are you going to just gate keep?” He asked suddenly with a sly tone

I groan “of course, of course.. you just want gossip.. you’re probably going to tell pinky too huh?” I say with fake annoyance “what can I say, me and Kanroji-San like gossip, and plus she’s been begging me to ask.” He said nonchalantly, I shake my head before finally telling him “well, I went to his estate to train and I had plans to explain what the mission was like you said.” I say

Obanai gasp dramatically “Sanemi shinazugawa? Taking MY advice? Dream come true!” He says, i ignore him and continue “uh while we were training we were talking while sparing, at one point I said something about the mission that made him freeze up-“ Obanai’s cuts me off “the kiss?” He said slyly, I sigh at the interruption, I nod “yes. I took advantage of the situation and I um.. pinned him down..” I say, this is embarrassing…

“Ooo go on continue..” Obanai said, clearly invested, I glare at him before continuing “he said something stupid I think and I got annoyed and kissed him to shut him up” I say trying to hide my embarrassment “Jesus Sanemi! That’s 2 for 2!” Obanai said suddenly “okay okay! Shut up and let me finish. After that I told him that i didn’t like what we were and i wanted to be more and he said yeah..” I say dismissively “quite the eventful confession, Sanemi..” he said shaking his head at my boldness during the situation.

“Though I am very excited to tell Kanroji-San” he said slyly, I could practically feel his smirk from behind his mask, I roll my eyes “of course you are… anyway.. I’m going back to my estate, I’m tired.” I say dismissively again “same here.” He said as we were about to part ways “you still good for sparring tomorrow night..?” He asked suddenly “maybe.. I don’t know..” I say unsure. “Okay.” He said shortly before he disappeared, I run off to my estate too.

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Obanai POV

The next day I show up to me and Kanrojis lunch met up like usual, I sit in our usual stop waiting for her to arrive, to my surprise she shows up with kocho, “oh! Hii obi!” Kanroji exclaims happily before running towards me and sat down next to me excitedly, kocho trials quietly behind her, her usual smile gone, she’s also holding a piece of paper and a pen in her hand.

I look at kocho suspiciously “Hi Kanroji.. is there a reason why kocho is here?” I ask curiously, “oh! Yeah! Kocho-San needed my help with an apology letter and she wanted to hang out too!” She said, her eyes practically sparkling before she suddenly blushed and got embarrassed, “ah! Sorry, I know the lunches are a us thing i should’ve asked first before-“

My eyes soften, I interrupt her “it’s okay Kanroji, i don’t mind” I watch as kocho sat across from us, Kanroji sighed in slight relief “Kyaaa! You’re so sweet obiii!” She said suddenly, I blush from behind my mask and immediately turn my head away. Kocho looked at me knowingly before looking down at her paper.

Kanroji turned her attention back to kocho, that gives me a few minutes to calm down “right! So kocho-San, you wanted to write an apology to Tomioka-San right?” Kocho just nodded in response, I guess she was embarrassed and felt guilty that she outed him and Sanemi.. which if I was her I would too honestly. 

Which reminds me.. “Kanroji-San, I got answers from Sanemi last night” I say snickering slightly, her face immediately light up “well!? What are you waiting for! Spill obi!” She said excitedly, “okay okay, so basically-“ I go on to explain how Sanemi confessed and Kanrojis face was red and she was practically crying from how cute and sweet it was, or something like that..

“That’s sniff so sweet and cute!!! Sniff im so happy for them!!” She said she was crying, I snicker slightly “it’s okay Kanroji-San- don’t cry..” she’s so sweet and adorable.. it’s hard to act normal around her sometimes but, I manage some how.. she sniffs again and nods, I hear kocho laugh slightly at her reaction while writing “well you certainly explained it exactly how it was iguro-San.” She said suddenly.

my eyes widen slightly before calm down “oh yeah, I forgot you were spying on them that day.” I say slyly, kocho chuckles nervously, “not my finest.. moment..” she said smiling awkwardly “it’s okay kocho-San! I’m sure they’ll forgive you!” Kanroji said cheerfully, kocho nods “I hope so..” she said quietly, my eyes soften again “im sure they’ll will.. I don’t like or care for Tomioka.. but he doesn’t like the type of guy to hold grudges..” I say reassuringly, kocho finally looks up from her page and flashed a smile soft smile “thank you.. that makes me feel a little better”

I just nod, Kanroji smiles determinedly “I just know they will!” Kochos smile widens and she finally finished writing. She handed it to Kanroji to read and check over, Kanroji gladly takes it to read, she reads it and smiles “this is great! You didn’t even need my help! It’s very sweet and very honest!” Kanroji said optimistically, i glance over her shoulder to read it, after a few minutes I finish reading and I nod in agreement with Kanroji.

”you can tell it’s very sincere and that you feel guilty, I’m sure Tomioka will forgive, and Sanemi of course.” I say calmly, kocho nods, “I’ll probably give it to Tomioka-San tomorrow.. he’s hanging out with shinazugawa-San all day today” Kocho said before I hear Kanroji sequel “ahh! They’re so cute I can’t!!!” Kocho and I laugh at her reaction and she gets embarrassed again and flushes red “ack! Sorry I didn’t mean to yell! I must of gotten over excited!” She explains “it’s okay Kanroji-San no need to apologize, we all get overly excited about things sometimes!” Kocho comforted, I nod in agreement.

for the rest of the lunch meeting we talked and gossiped, it’s what me and Kanroji usually do, but with kocho I find it even better, she practically knows.. everything about everyone!! She told us that Gyomei, chants his prayers in his sleep sometimes, which is quite funny.. 

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Giyuu pov

[next morning]
I’m sitting on my engawa early this morning, Tanjiro has apparently already passed Uzui-sans training, I can help but feel happy for him, I’m glad he’s back on his feet and is a lot stronger than before.. I’m proud, honestly, he’s also come by and gave me update on Nezukos conditions, which is nice of him.. I’m also worried about her, and it’s incredible that she was able to conquer the sun.

He’s been sending me mountains of letters too, his crow is starting to give me a headache because of how mu he writes to me.. I’ve gotten some letters from Sanemi too, just somethings here and there.. he’s been busy training his own trainees. He complains the trainees a lot- I’m suddenly pulled out of my thoughts as someone enters my garden

I glance over, “kocho..? What are you doing here..?” I ask softly, I watch her shift nervously and awkwardly before handing me a letter before jumping away from me without an answer to my question.. “huh, weird…” I look at the letter, I open the envelope and took out the letter.

[letter]:
‘Dear Tomioka,
I am writing this to you to apologize for my actions against you and shinazugawa, I’ve come to realize my actions weren’t appropriate. I feel extremely ashamed and guilty, you’ve probably been asking yourself why I did the things I did, and I’m going to be honest, I liked you more than a friendly way, and I’m aware that I’m significantly younger than you and you’d turn me down if I confessed. I had a hard time accepting that fact so I tried to cover it up by being rude to you which some how evolved and turned into me outing you, I sincerely apologize for my actions, and I hope you can forgive me, if you can’t, I completely understand why, please take your time responding to this apology and don’t feel pressured to respond right away or at all, thank you for even reading this.
From
Shinobu kocho’

My eyes softened as I read the letter, I thought about writing back right now but I thought it’d be best if I showed the letter to Sanemi and the pan talk to kocho in person, I’m slightly shocked at how sincere the letter was, most of the time she’d give a half assed apologize.. but in the letter she did say she tried to cover up her emotions by being rude to me..

I mean, I’m pretty sure that’s what Sanemi did to me too, but he wasn’t harassing me everyday, he was just cold every time I saw him.. well of course that’s not the case now.. but anyway, I’m glad she even had the courage to give me the letter in person even if she ran away right after, that still takes a lot of guts to do.

I’ll probably just wait for Sanemis training to be done then talk to him, he’ll probably know what to do in this situation.. I’m not exactly good at the social part of these things, even apologizing is hard for me.. i don’t know why, I guess it’s just in my nature..I continue to sit on my engawa when I see aoi and nezuko walk into my garden

“Hey Tomioka-San.. can you watch nezuko for a bit? We’re having a bit of a problem at the butterfly estate” Aoi said, I nod “sure” I say quietly, nezuko runs over to me “thanks” Aoi said before running off “h..hello!” Nezuko said enthusiastically, she speaking has seemed to improved, I’m glad.. I pat her head gently

“Hello nezuko, how are you?” I ask with a soft smile on my face, “I..I’m good! You..?” She said returning the question “I’m good, your brother has said your condition as gotten better, is that true..?” I ask and she nod excitedly “uh huh! Is.. Is big brother good?” She asked, her voice was a little loud, but i can’t blame her, I mean she hasn’t talked in a long time.. so I’m not going to jab her on it “yes, he’s good” I respond softly

The rest of the afternoon went on with me taking care of nezuko Tanjiro stopped during his breaks to see how were doing, some times he brought along Genya.. I think Genya was silently hoping Sanemi was here so he could talk to him.. I’ll tell Sanemi about it when he comes over tonight..

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Giyuu POV

After a while Aoi comes and picks up nezuko, “thank you Tomioka-San, it helps a lot” she said while bowing in respect and thanks, “of course anytime” I say calmly as I wave to nezuko, she waves back before running over to Aoi excitedly.. they leave after a few minutes, i look at the sky silently, it’s the evening now.. I must have lost track of time. I look down into my lap just thinking quietly.

Suddenly a shadow loomed over me, I look up and see Sanemi, flinch slightly “jeez.. you scared me..” I say quietly as he sat next to me “really? I’d thought you had better senses than that..” he said teasingly “hey that’s not fair! I’m just distracted with thinking..” I say with a slight pout in my tone. “About what? Hmmm?” He asked slyly, I sigh and handed the letter that kocho gave to me “Kocho came by and gave me this letter” I say while watching Sanemi open the letter intently before thoroughly reading the letter.

I watch as his expression softens as he reads “she feels really guilty huh?” He said quietly, I nod.. “I don’t know what to say to that.. like what do I write back, or do I talk to her in person-“ i suddenly start rambling, I was cut off by Sanemi putting a hand on my shoulder, “don’t worry about it for now, the right words will come to you at the right time” he said in a comforting tone. I nod slightly before looking at him again “that’s not the only thing weird that happened today” I say while thinking about Tanjiro and Genya visiting me.

“Hm? What happened?” Sanemi asked curiously, “well Aoi came by and dropped off nezuko for me to watch her..” I say, I saw Sanemi roll his eyes but continued to look at me with a soft expression in his eye, “and um.. during Tanjiro’s breaks he came by to check on us”
Sanemi nodded silently telling me to continue “and some times he brought Genya with him and he looked like he was looking for you..” I blurted out quietly.

Sanemi’s expression darkened at the mention of genya’s name and it darkened farther when he heard the rest of my sentence, “was he bothering you?” He asked coldly, “wha-? No, look what I’m trying to get at here is I think you should let him talk to you when he gets to your training” I say, kind of nervous. I could practically feel his irritation at my words, he looks at me in the eyes, and I give him a slightly pleading look, he sighs dramatically “fine.. but I’m not happy about it.. and if he says something stupid I’m punching him!” He said with annoyed tone

“That won’t be necessary Nemi. I’m sure he misses you and just wants to talk.. you have been shutting him out..” I say calmly, I feel his gaze soften at my words, “i don’t know if I’m ready.. i don’t want to get to attached if I do I’ll just lose him..” he said, his tone had a lot of vulnerability and his expression looked worried, I put my hands on his hand “you know demon slaying isn’t an easy job.. he’s probably worried about losing you to.. that’s why he wants to make up and talk.. to have more time with you..” I pause “and yes.. losing people is hard, but that should mean you shut everyone out.. especially your little brother” I say softly squeezing his hand gently.

Sanemi looks down at his lap before looking at me again, “I guess you’re right..” he pauses before speaking again a slightly tease in his tone “when did you get all emotional intelligent?” He said with a sly grin on his face, I laugh slightly before I lay my head on his shoulder “not sure.. I guess the words came to me at the right time” I say with a slight smile, Sanemi hums “I guess they did..” he said quietly.

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Giyuu POV

The next day me and Sanemi meet up and we started walking to the butterfly estate, I’m going to try to talk to her about the letter today, we had to hold it off for a few hours because of Sanemis training, Sanemi told me that Genya apparently is on iguro’s training and is coming to his next, “I’m nervous.. and worried.. I mean I’ve been pushing him away and ignoring him for so long how do i even approach this??” He asked he looked a little stressed about it.. and if I was in his point of view I would to.

“I’m sure Genya would give you a chance.. I mean he really misses you Nemi..” I say softly, “I know.. but what if I say something that makes him hate me..” he asked quietly, “Nemi, i don’t think Genya could ever hate you, I mean, I’ve seen him punch and beat other kids asses for bad mouthing you..” I say with a slight laugh in my voice, recalling all the times Genya got in trouble for that, I look at Sanemi, his eyes were wide, he looked shocked and touched

“Does he really..?” He said with a lot of vulnerability in his voice, my eyes soften at his reaction before I nod “mhm, he clearly cares about you and misses you Nemi.. just try your best okay?” I say calmly and I place my hand on his arm as we’re walking. I watch him nod and his expression soften at my touch and words “yeah.. I guess you’re right..” he said softly.

I lean my head on his shoulder and smile slightly, i felt him move his arm to around my waist and pulled me closer, we continued to walk in comfortable silence, “Giyuu..?” He asked suddenly, I glance up at him “mhm?” He sighed softly “when.. when I talk to my brother and if he forgives me.. I can I probably introduce you too..?” He asked nervously, I smile softly “of course..” I felt Sanemi smile softly. Soon the butterfly estate came into view, I take a shaky breath trying to calm my nerves, Sanemi looked at me “relax.. I believe in you, and plus I’ll be right there next to you” I smile at his response “thank you” I muttered.

We entered the estate and were immediately greeted by Aoi and the other butterfly girls, Aoi bows in respect at seeing us, I also noticed her eyes widening in shock at me and Sanemi being close “Tomioka-San, shinazugawa-San, can I help you both..?” She asked softly but also nervously. I nod slightly before I speak “yes, Aoi, have you seen kocho? Is she here at the moment?” I ask watching her as she nods and started leading us to kocho.

We were lead into kochos office, Aoi then runs off to continue her chores, Sanemi knocked on the door frame, kocho glanced up from her desk and looked at us in surprise before putting up her kind facade. She smiled slightly “Tomioka-San! Shinazugawa-San! Pleasure to see you, how may I help you both!” She asked kindly. Sanemi spoke up before I could “Giyuu wanted to talk to you..” he said roughly so that Kocho actually paid attention, I look up at him and nod in thanks, he just smile silently back.

I saw her expression falter slightly before she speaks “I’m listening Tomioka-San” she said smiling kindly. “Uh.. about your letter..” I say quietly, I watched her expression carefully, her eyes softened and she listened intently, i could sense her nervousness as well, “I’m touched you took the time and effort to right it.. I really appreciate you apologizing kocho.. and taking responsibility for your actions.. so.. I think I’m willing to forgive you.. and thanks for being honest with me and sharing how you felt..” I say quietly, but the room was so silent that it was loud enough to be heard, I felt Sanemi squeeze my hand in reassurance.

Kocho cracked a genuine smile and her expression looked more relieved and relaxed “thank you for accept my apology Tomioka-San.. it means a lot to me.. and thanks for understanding” she said softly, I nodded quietly, I see Sanemi nod at Kocho silently thanking her before he started guiding me away, we started walking down the path we were just on, I was thinking quietly as we were walking in silence. “I just realized something…” I say quietly Sanemi looks at me curiously, “hmm? What is Giyuu?” He asked, “I have told Tanjiro about me an you yet..” I felt Sanemi roll his eyes at the mention of Tanjiro.

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Sanemi POV

The next morning, I had morning training. I saw the group of trainees walk in, slouched and groaning, I saw my little brother walk in with them, along with Kamado.. and they yellowed haired brat, he was balling his eyes out, which seems normal for him.. god that kid is so fucking annoying! And of course that kamado kid is smiling wide, it’s almost annoying how positive he his, I don’t think I’ll ever see that kid furious..

I really want to punch kamado, but, I’ll play nice for now, just for Giyuu’s sake.. I made eye contact with Genya accidentally, i quickly look away, I’ll talk to him later, I’m not ready yet.. I can’t right now, I just can’t.. I saw Genya frown, god he’s making it hard. I quickly shake it off and started the training, I see some progress in some of the slayers, shockingly, kamado kept up with me surprisingly well, the kid has talent, I’ll give him that,

Genya also came at me a few time along with a bunch of no name slayers, his swordsman ship isn’t great.. but I heard himejima talking about him using a different weapon on time, I have no idea what weapon but I guess that’s why his swordsman ship isn’t that great, he came at me with a sort of strong approach, I could tell he was nervous about hurting me, which he shouldn’t be.. I also noticed.. did he get taller? Holy shit he did. That little twerp is taller than me! That pisses me off, I try not to let it get to me..

Anyway, training was the same. As always. I made them do independent training with the others while I took break, I can not deal with these brats for any longer I swear to fucking God. I walk around my estate for a little bit just think, my brother saw me and walked on engawa, and reached out his hand slightly, "w-wait, Aniki-! Hold on for a second-" he said nervously I look back at him.

"Eh?" I try my best to show I'm not nervous, I'm calm. I'm the older brother, I'm supposed to be good in these situations right? "Aniki- c-can we talk? Please?" He asked, I nod at him silently telling him to continue, he looks surprised for a minute and his expression soften, that look almost fucking broke me I swear. I can't even remember the last time my little brother looked at me like that.. "i-i wanted to apologize for.. the things I said about you that day.. I just didn't know what was going on.. and.. I'm.. sorry." He looked like he's was going to break down into tears at this point, I think from how nervous he was to talk to me and the memory of what happened that night.

I was shocked, he was apologizing about that? That wasn't his fucking fault! I would've said and acted the same if I was in his shoes. I just.. reacted terribly and have been a terrible big brother. "Do apologize for something you couldn't control.. it wasn't your fault.. I would've done the same." I say, he looked relieved "um.. aniki there's another thing I want to tell you about.."

Now that got my attention, he seemed more scared when he said that. I wonder what he need a to tell me.. "u-um.. when I fight.. uh to get strength.. i-i eat demons.." I freeze up. He eats demons. That means he also turns it one right? But he's fighting too. But a demon is still a demon.. but that kamado kids sister.. she's a good demon I guess? And he's doing so he can fight.. I huff slightly, "though I don't approve of your way and I still think you should quit the corps because I want you to live on... I guess I can accept it.. just be careful okay.." I say sounding way more concerned then I wanted it to sound, eh whatever it gets my point across. And I do mean it anyway.

"R-really??" He asked a little stund, "yeah sure.. I don't care. As long as you don't get your self killed. But uh.. maybe we can improve your strength so you don't have to eat demons.." I say, he looked at me with a hopeful look before responding, "are you asking me to spar with you??" He asked suddenly, I didn't even realize what I was saying before he said that "yeah. I guess that what I'm saying." I say, I'm embarrassed.. I suddenly feel is arms around me. I slowly hug him back with a slight smile, before I see kamado peaking at us in the background, I roll my eyes, "can you see were having a moment? Get lost kamado." I say with a death glare on my face, he quicky left.

Genya let go of me after a few minutes, he was smiling, widely. I missed seeing him smiling, but also see the scar on his face made a pain in my heart, I wish I could've protected everyone better, they'd all be alive.. genya suddenly looked at me slyly "so uh I heard something is happening between you and tomioka-" he said, I huff and smile, letting him walk around with me as we talked.

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Giyuu POV:

I was sitting on my engawa just thinking, I did my own training 10 minutes ago, it’s kind of boring doing it alone.. but sanemi promised he’d spar with me after is training and stuff, it makes me happy that he actually makes time with me, i havent been in many relationships, well romantic ones, I guess I’m just not used to it.. he also doesn’t force me to go anywhere, I guess he put together that I hate large crowds.. which is nice that he took that into consideration..

I was stopped mid thought when i heard a very enthusiastic voice and 2 sets of foot steps running towards me “Giyuu-sannnn!!” Tanjiro yelled enthusiastically, dragging muichiro along with him by his sleeve, muichiro looked exhausted but he looked happier than usual, that’s a relief, kids deserve to be happy. No matter the past.. I just wish I realized that sooner.. “Giyuu-San, giyuu-San!” Tanjiro yelled again.

I shake out of my thoughts “yes yes, I hear you, hi Tanjiro and muichiro, do you both need something?” I asked quietly “Toktio-San and I are going out for lunch! We want you to come with us!” He said enthusiastically, muichiro nodded quietly beside him, “ah- but- sorry Tanjiro, I’m kind of busy.. maybe some other time okay?” I say and I ruffle his hair gently as an apology, he smiled brightly, before asking “hmm? Busy with what? You don’t have training do you? Unless you started som secret one with out telling me!” He said

“No, no, no secret training.. I’m just busy this afternoon and night” I say calmly and I see muichiro flash me a knowing look, I glance away from him, Tanjiro put a hand to his chin confused and curious “if not training, what are you busy with giyuu-San?” He asked, I clear my throat “I have a sparing session with Sanemi-“ I say quietly, “shinazugawa-San? Oo! I’m so glad you too are getting along now!!” He exclaims “just a sparing session?” Muichiro said that same knowing look on his face and one eyebrow raised, “shut up..” I say quietly and glancing down at the floor.

“Hmm? What do you mean tokito-San? The way you said it sounded ominous, and-“ he pauses, and sniffs “I smell some tension..” muichiro suddenly smirk, that’s a new expression on him, i don’t like it.. it feels weird to see him like that.. “ohhhh? So the decorative object hasn’t told you yet has he Tanjiro?”
(Ending it here might finish this chapter tomorrow!)