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The last three Octobers Ryan Ross has experienced have been the worst months of his life. This isn’t a teenage dramatization or an exaggeration he tells others for attention. This is a fact. October has been continuously proven to be the worst month of Ryan Ross’s short life.
October 2009: Ryan’s father passes. He feels so much yet so little, and Ryan isn’t sure which way he wishes it to be. The funeral is held on the 8th, and the next 5 days are filled with mourning and silence. That is until his mother forces him to return to school and somehow everyone he knows found out what happened. He doesn’t know how they did, but he wishes they didn’t.
October 2010: Ryan becomes a missing person for about four hours. His mother decided something in the night’s air made her want to scream at Ryan again for the third time that week. So, when his mother was finished and went out for a smoke, Ryan ran. He ran for 32 blocks until he had a stitch in his side and he couldn’t feel his face. He kept walking until a police officer found him down by the woods at midnight.
October 2011: Ryan tells his mother he wants to kill himself. She tells him she had the feeling he wanted to for a while. Ryan asks why she didn’t do anything. The worst fight of his life ensues. Words, as vulgar as they can be, are exchanged, and while Ryan continues to live in his home with his mother, it seems as if for the two weeks following he becomes a ghost. His mother refuses to acknowledge him, and he decides the silent treatment hurts more than the argument.
And finally, that brings us to October 2012. Ryan is a junior in high school, along with his best friend, Brendon Urie. Their lives aren’t exactly looking up, but they have each other, and that’s all that matters, right?