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It was too quiet.
The kind of quiet that didn’t feel peaceful, it felt sharp. Like something was waiting. Like the air itself was holding its breath, bracing for the crack of something breaking.
You sat on the edge of your bed, knees pulled up to your chest, fingers twisting the frayed end of your sleeve until it started to unravel. The house was dim, golden light filtering through your door from the hallway, but it felt cold. Like no amount of warmth could reach you here anymore.
You’d rehearsed what you were going to say too many times. Whispered versions into your pillow, in the shower, on the walk home from school, in your head while you stood in the kitchen helping with dinner like nothing was wrong. Like you weren’t about to take a match to the paper-thin structure holding everything together.
“I need to talk to you about something.”
“There’s something I’ve been meaning to say.”
“I’m a lesbian.”
Even now, saying it silently made your stomach twist. Not because you were ashamed; God, you were so tired of feeling ashamed, but because you knew what was waiting for you on the other side of those words.
Still, you had to say them. Because pretending was starting to rot you from the inside. Because it hurt, every day, to shrink yourself down to something palatable. Because no matter how scared you were, you wanted to be known.
You stood slowly, your legs stiff and uncertain beneath you. Your fingers trembled as you reached for the doorknob.
The hallway felt longer than usual. Every step was a weight. The floor creaked beneath your socks, a traitor’s sound in the silence. From the living room, you could hear the faint drone of the news and the occasional clink of a spoon against a mug.
Your parents were sitting at the kitchen table, your mom scrolling on her phone, eyes lit by the screen’s glow, and your dad sipping tea, his jaw tight, unreadable as always. Just an ordinary evening. And yet, you were about to break it wide open.
You stood awkwardly in the doorway for a second too long before speaking.
“Um… can I talk to you both for a second?”
They looked up, eyebrows raised in unison. Not concerned, just… mildly inconvenienced. Your mother set her phone down, crossing her arms. Your dad gestured vaguely at the chair across from him, his expression unreadable.
You sat down. The chair was cold. Your hands wouldn’t stop fidgeting in your lap.
“I’ve… I’ve been meaning to tell you something,” you began, the words catching in your throat. “It’s.. um.. It’s important.”
Your parents exchanged a glance. That glance alone made you want to disappear.
“I’m…” Your breath hitched. “I’m attracted to girls. I'm lesbian”
There was a pause. Not the pause you hoped for. The oh sweetheart, we love you no matter what pause. This one was jagged and full of unspoken things.
Your mother blinked once. Then again. Like she hadn’t heard you correctly. Or like she wished she hadn’t.
“Excuse me?” she said.
Your father’s face didn’t change. He just sat back slowly, eyes narrowing.
“I’m not… confused,” you said quickly. “I just, I needed to tell you. I didn’t want to keep lying about who I am.”
Your mother’s lips curled, the way they did when someone said something she found embarrassing in public. “You don’t know what you are. You’re too young for this.”
“I do know,” you whispered. “I’ve known for years.”
“What, is this some trend now?” your father said. “Something your friends are doing? Jesus.”
“It’s not a trend,” you said, voice cracking. “I’m just... this is who I am. I'm still the same daughter you've always known.”
“Not in this house, it’s not.” your mother said, suddenly standing. Her voice was quiet, but final. Like a gavel coming down.
You blinked at her. “What?”
“You heard me,” she said. “You want to live like that? Then you can do it somewhere else.”
Your stomach dropped. The world tilted, just a little.
“You’re seriously telling me to leave?” you asked, barely recognizing your own voice.
“We didn’t raise you to be like this." your father muttered, rising to his feet too. “If this is the life you want, then don’t expect to live under our roof.”
It didn’t feel real.
Your mother turned away like she couldn’t even look at you anymore. Your father’s face had gone blank. There wasn’t even anger in it. Just… disgust. Disappointment.
It would have been easier if they’d screamed. At least then it would’ve felt like they cared.
You stood up slowly, every part of you numb. Your mouth opened, maybe to beg, maybe to argue, but no words came. Because what was the point?
You turned and walked out of the room.
In your bedroom, you moved like a ghost. Pulled an old backpack from your closet. Stuffed it with the first hoodie you saw, your toothbrush, your phone charger, a few crumpled bills from your drawer. You stared at the framed photo on your nightstand, your family smiling on a beach you barely remembered, and turned it face-down.
You didn’t cry. Not yet.
Your phone was heavy in your hand as you stood outside your front door. The porch light buzzed overhead. The sky was a bruise-colored gray. Your breath fogged in the air, and you didn’t know where else to go.
Your thumb hovered over your contacts. One name stood out, warm and steady.
Chan.
You hesitated.
Then you pressed call.
One ring, Then two.
“Hey, everything okay?” His voice was sleepy, rough. But immediately alert.
And that, that was when your voice broke.
“Can I come over?” you whispered. “Please?”
You didn’t even have to explain.
“Yeah,” he said without missing a beat. “Yeah, of course. I’ll unlock the door now. Just come straight in, yeah?”
You nodded, even though he couldn’t see.
“Okay,” you said. And then, quieter, “Thank you.”
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The walk to Chan’s place wasn’t long, but it felt like crossing miles.
The cold clung to your skin like regret, seeping through your jacket, past your hoodie, into your bones. You didn’t cry. You weren’t even sure you could. Everything inside you had gone numb.
By the time his apartment building came into view, your legs ached and your hands had gone stiff in your sleeves. The only thing that kept you moving was the echo of Chan’s voice in your head.
The lights in his unit were on. Warm. Familiar.
You didn’t even knock. You pushed the door open slowly, like you were afraid it might vanish if you touched it too fast.
Inside, it smelled like cinnamon and dryer sheets. Safe.
“Hey,” Chan called gently from the kitchen. “Come in! Shoes off, you know the rules.” His voice was light, teasing. But then he turned the corner and saw you.
His whole face changed.
His eyebrows drew together, and in two long steps he was in front of you, scanning you for injuries like something visible could explain the way you looked.
You couldn’t meet his eyes. You stared down at your shoes, breath shallow.
“Did something happen?” he asked, quietly now.
You nodded.
He waited.
You swallowed hard. “My parents… they-” Your throat closed. “I told them something, and they didn’t take it well.”
Chan didn’t ask for details. Not yet.
“Okay,” he said softly. “Let’s sit. You’re freezing.”
He took your bag without asking and set it gently by the couch. Then he motioned for you to sit, grabbing the fuzzy throw blanket from the armrest and draping it over your shoulders like muscle memory.
You curled up slowly, pulling your knees close.
Chan settled next to you with a cushion of space between you, giving you room to breathe but still there. Always there.
You stared at your hands. You wanted to say it. You knew you needed to say it. But your tongue felt thick in your mouth.
“You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to,” Chan said after a few minutes passed in silence. “Just… stay as long as you need, okay? You can sleep here. Stay the week. Or longer. I don’t care.”
The words hit you like a breath you hadn’t realized you were holding. Something uncoiled in your chest, but it wasn’t relief. Not yet. Because he still didn’t know.
And you didn’t know how he’d react when he did.
You shifted under the blanket, fingers tightening around the edge.
“There’s something else,” you said, voice thin.
Chan’s head tilted, just slightly. “You can tell me anything. I would never judge you.”
“I didn’t tell you before,” you murmured. “I wanted to. But I was scared.”
He didn’t move. Didn’t interrupt.
You stared down at the ridges in the fabric clutched in your hands. “My parents didn’t just… get mad. They kicked me out because of what I told them.”
Chan’s mouth opened slightly. He started to say something, but paused. Waited instead.
“I came out to them,” you said.
A pause.
“I’m lesbian.”
Your voice cracked on the last word.
There. You said it. Out loud. Again. And this time it hurt even worse because you wanted, needed, the person sitting beside you to still look at you the same way after.
The silence that followed was awful.
You didn’t dare look up. Your stomach twisted violently.
But then he spoke up.
“Okay,” Chan said. Just that one simple word. “Thank you for telling me.”
You blinked. “You’re not… weirded out?”
“What? No. Why would I be?” He turned fully toward you now, his expression soft, steady. “I care about you. This doesn’t change that.”
You finally looked up at him. “Really?”
He gave you a gentle smile, one hand hovering in the space between you like he wanted to reach out, but wouldn’t unless you let him. “Really.”
Your lip trembled. “They told me to leave. Just like that. Like it erased everything else. Like I'm not the same person I always have been.”
His jaw tensed, but not at you. “Then they don’t deserve to have you back.”
That broke something. Tears finally started to fall, slow and hot down your cheeks.
Chan didn’t rush you. He just shifted closer, carefully, and held out his arms.
You leaned into him and he held you like he meant it.