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"Did we really need to come here just for a piercing?"
I say as we are about to approach hyung's house, the route on maps announcing the last turnabout.
My mouth has gone dry already, I don't know from what point, but I can feel it burn as if it's full of sand.
Jeongin turns around, giving me a confused look, as Felix just glances at me through the central mirror.
"You suggested we go there, Minnie. Didn't you say she's just too good at piercing ears?"
Felix might be right, that's something I might've said, even if I don't remember when, just like I don't remember why I brought both of these idiots with me.
I mean, Felix can pass, he's just too nice for his own good sometimes. But it's almost crazy how I made Jeongin agree to tag along.
"Yeah, hyung, you almost made me think of getting one too."
Jeongin says as he turns around to face the road, the phone announcing to turn left.
I don't have the time to reply as I see hyung's house in front of me, once again.
I have few memories here, because we didn't date long, but I'm fond of all of those moments, even if they hurt now that it's over.
I force myself to swallow, as I look out the window while Felix parks his car.
I'm so afraid of this, my anxiety level rises as we hop down the car and we make our way to the front door.
We knock and we are greeted by hyung's sister. She's smiling, beautiful as ever, as she lets us in saying she was getting everything ready and we have to wait for just a bit.
We wait standing almost right after the entrance, in front of the big staircase leading to the second floor. I look around as if I'm never been inside this mansion of a house.
As I'm looking at hyung's sister setting up, I hear footsteps and when I turn around he's there. We lock eyes, but I cannot hold the eye contact.
As I look away, a thought crosses my mind: I didn't think I'd see him so soon. I broke up with him two weeks ago and it wasn't easy.
Let's say the break up per se wasn't that bad, he was nice, almost too nice with someone who was breaking his heart without a warning. I had my reasons of course, but they weren't as legit as "he cheated on me".
It was a beautiful relationship, he was so nice and sweet with me, but it all felt like too much at some point. We didn't even date that long, just three months, but we started seeing each other long before then, maybe five months.
I was scared of breaking up with him because he's such a perfect match for my attitude and my roughness. At the same time I couldn't help but think we couldn't make it work and further, that's why I broke up with him.
But here I am at his house to get a piercing, which almost feels like an excuse to see him again.
Is it an excuse? I don't know. I don't remember why I suggested this in the first place.
As my thoughts try to start a race, his voice puts a stop.
"Hi, guys."
He greets us with a gentle smile looking at each of us. Felix and Jeongin smile and they greet with a brief hello.
"Oh, we've never seen each other. I'm Changbin, it's a pleasure."
"Oh, yeah, I'm Jeongin, nice to meet you."
"We know each other, right?"
"Yeah, how are you doing?"
Changbin takes the initiative and greets my friends with a shake of hands. He looks so peaceful as he smiles at them.
I feel almost suffocated as I'm the only one who wasn't greeted. I feel pressured to do something as I look at him and our eyes meet.
There's a beat of silence and then I think of taking the initiative, just like I did during our relationship.
"Hi, there."
I say with a low voice as I step up and put my hand upfront for a handshake. He looks at it and then looks up at my eyes as he comes a step closer.
He takes my hand and my anxiety seems to vanish, until he uses the handshake to pull me in for a hug.
"Why so formal now?"
He whispers right into my ear as our chests press together.
The softness of his whisper makes me freeze in place as a chill runs down my spine at the feeling of his breath on my neck.
My eyes are wide open, my mouth's gaping for air as I feel the warmth of his body mixing with mine. My head's blank or maybe it's filled to the brim with the thought of him.
He's here hugging me so tight and my knees almost feel like they're giving up on me.
Since the break up was through a phone call, given the distance of our work spaces, I can't recall the last time he hugged me this tight.
I almost feel like tearing up as I hold him with the last drop of love I couldn't express throught the phone call.
As he starts to detatch from me, I feel like a rock was put in my chest and when I'm faced with his tender stare, I know I could start crying almost instantly.
The whole thing is interrupted by a smile from him, followed by some words I didn't expect from his mouth.
"Will you let me have this one last kiss?"
He doesn't even give me time to reply that his lips are pressed on mine and it feels just like the first time.
He's rough, almost forceful, but so stupidly clumsy and awkward. It really feels like the first kiss we shared, his first kiss ever too.
I'm so taken aback from it. I surely wasn't expecting this, his lack of patience is foreign to me.
I think that maybe my eyes gave me up this time and that maybe I wanted that last kiss from the moment I said those words, but then I look up, our lips still touching, and I see the light flickering strangely.
With a gasp I wake up.
The wooden ceiling of Han's house greeting me in the dark room. I stare at it as the dream sits still vivid in my mind.
I can't move, I lay still in the bed, Han lightly snoring next to me unaware of what is going on.
I breath slowly and steadly as the warmth I was feeling coming from hyung in the dream becomes the one from the heavy blanket sitting on me.
As I come to the realisation that I saw him again in my dreams two weeks from the break up, I recall the whole dream, from start to finish, or at least what I can master.
It was so vivid, so short and yet so intense. Seeing him again, it felt like I regretted my choices, even if I know that was the right thing to do.
But even so, the dream felt so real.
And then it hits me and a smile of disbelief spreads on my lips as a heaviness takes over my chest.
How could I be so stupid not to realise from the start that it was a meaningless dream all along?
His sister has never done piercings.