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gluttony
noun \ˈglət-nē, ˈglə-tə-nē\
plural gluttonies
Definition of GLUTTONY
1 : excess in eating or drinking
2 : greedy or excessive indulgence
The sin of gluttony is not something that angels indulge in. This has little to do with angels being too pure and too virtuous to commit sin and far more to do with the lack of temptation in Heaven. There is nothing which they crave enough to fall into the trap of immoderation. All that the angels crave is their Father’s love. It is the source and the reason for their existence. In a manner of speaking, it is what nourishes them. However, this does not make them gluttonous for His love. The Father’s love is infinite, but given only to those worthy of it and it is never given in excess. As He is infallible, so is His love and the angels need never worry that it will lead them into sin. The sin of gluttony is a human weakness, a condition to which only creatures of pleasure and selfishness are liable. At least this used to be Castiel’s belief. He is no longer so sure.
Castiel has come to feel grateful that the Horsemen’s powers only affected his human vessel and left his angelic essence untouched. When Pestilence incapacitated Sam and Dean with his disease and tried to do the same to Castiel, the angelic part of his being, though diminished almost to the point of non-existence, still remained strong enough to give him some powers of resistance that allowed him to save them all. Similarly, when Famine came into their presence, bringing with him a hunger that felt like starvation, it had been Jimmy’s body that been affected. Castiel is glad for this. He fears what would have been revealed, had it been his soul whose hunger had been transformed into such an undeniable craving. Jimmy’s love for red meat was fairly easily satisfied and did no lasting harm. Castiel’s own longing could have caused far greater trouble.
What Castiel craves is really a whom. Lately, he has found himself seeking Dean’s company more and more frequently. He basks in his presence, revels in his attention and rejoices in the value that Dean seems to place in his opinions. Whenever he is away from Dean, he finds that his thoughts stray in whichever direction that the man is currently in and he has caught himself inventing excuses to return to him more quickly. When he is with Dean, he makes up reasons to remain a while longer - always a while longer - and to linger even after he has fulfilled whatever task Dean called on him to perform. Only the fear of imposing on the Winchesters and thereby making Dean weary of him, has kept him away at times.
To indulge in something needlessly and excessively, simply for the pleasure of it, is to commit the sin of gluttony. Castiel takes pleasure in Dean’s company and therefore indulges in it as often as he can. This is the first sin that Castiel commits for Dean.