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1. when the war ends by rivalcycles

   Fandoms: Captain America - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   18 Sep 2025

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Steve Rogers
   • Bucky Barnes's Family Members
   • Howling Commandos Members (Marvel)
   • Original Characters
   • post the winter soldier
   • pre civil war
   • Flashbacks
   • Semi-Epistolary
   • Heavy Angst
   • semi happy ending
   • Aftermath of Torture
   • Torture
   • Suicidal Ideation
   • Guilt
   • slightly canon divergent
   • Graphic Violence
   • Diary/Journal
   • Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug
   • Pining
   • so much pining
   • Canon Related
   • terrible with tags i apologize

   Summary

   The Winter Soldier inexplicably pulls Captain America out of the water of the Potomac and leaves him there. Suddenly he isn't just the Winter Soldier anymore, but is someone that the Captain had called James Buchanan Barnes. With a tenuous grasp on freedom he disappears and tries to answer the question burning at the center of him: Who am I?

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   Set in the two years between the end of Captain America: The Winter Soldier and Captain America: Civil War, Bucky, newly freed from HYDRA conditioning, sets his sights on getting lost and gets lost in the constant stream of memories instead.

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   English

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