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You failed.
Now sat beside Ghost, the man looked defeated. You were too. A failed mission, now your waiting for the bomb to go off.
There is nothing you could do.
Price was killed with a shot to the head, Soap was stabbed and Gaz went missing. Possible dead too.
You felt dread, terror and anger. Dread that your not living anymore after the bomb goes off, terror at not knowing what comes in the after life.
Anger because you could've stopped this.
Ghost glanced down at you. His mask was off. You could see his eyes, devoid of life. He swallowed heavily and nudged ya. "We going to the shop down town after this?" He muttered
You stared at him.
A frown carved into your face as you teared up. "Y-yeah. Wanna tag along?" You asked trying to huff out a laugh, a way to keep from crying.
"Don't have a choice eh?" He said dryly as he pulled you closer to your side. He hated touch, you knew it.But you loved it. You craved affection, physical affection after all your trauma.
You leaned into the warmth. "No, no you dont." You mumbled back. Hands trembling, clinging onto Ghosts gear to calm your tremors.
You stayed quiet, you could hear the countdown in the background.
A minute and 40 seconds left.
39... 38...37-
"You reckon we will have a beach day with the others?
Mactavish would be crazy" he said trying to distract you in your last moments. You chuckled.
"Ill be sure to tell him next time i see him." There is no next time however, you both knew it.
"Ya know i always wanted to do so much, never thought i would be here." You told Ghost, he glanced down at you.
"Like what?" He asked indulging your thoughts.
"I dont know... ive always wanted to do so much. I wished to be multiple people at one to experience everything, being a artist, baker, fighter, dancer, ballet dancer... i always wanted so much as a kid." You rambled, Ghost stayed stayed quiet listening to you.
"I wanted to be someone. Who impacts the world, i wanted praise to be known for all the great things ive done." You continued, tracing circles into Ghost's hand.
"You are someone." He replied calmly
"Not someone people will remember..."
"I will." His hand intertwined with yours. You smiled briefly.
"One minute remaining" the machine started to count out louder.
"Are you scared? I am" You told the man
"A little bit."
"What do you think happens after?" You asked again, he shrugged. "I dont want to be alone."
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"You wont, im right here Wings." He said your code name.
"...sorry for not trying harder."
"You tried, that's enough." His hold tighten on you. You wish you could zone out the world and stay in his hold."...so tomorrow, your going to wake me up right?" You asked, your throat started to ache. Tears in the corner of your eyes.
"I will.' He said his own voice growing shaky.
"And we will bother everyone else together?" Your sniffle no longer able to hold back tears. A quiet whimper left your throat, you would be ashamed if it was any other moment.
But right now?
Your scared.
"We will wake up soap with a bucket of ice." Ghost tried to humor you.
20 seconds remaining
You clung onto Ghost harder, you wanted to hide. It was so stupid. You cant hide from death itself.
"I'm scared."
"I know. It'll pass."
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"You wont let go right?" You practically pleaded
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"I wont."
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"Thank you."
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"Thank you too. For everything."
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Just close your eyes. Ill wake you up." He mumbled as he held you close, your face buried in his neck. You felt your lungs stutter as you tried to not cry more.
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""Goodnight Simon" you whispered, he faltered.
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"Goodnight wings." He mumbled, his body tensing up.
Cradling you close.
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He took a deep breath, ash and blood. You hang onto his scent trying to remember it.
He pressed a kiss to your forehead.
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A loud ring filled your ears.