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If I had known then what I know now, I never would have let him go to the Starlight Tower that day. I would have spirited him somewhere far away where we could not be reached by Beryl, by anyone. Anything to keep him by my side forever. I always took this for granted, assuming we would be together forever, and therefore he would always be by my side. I was a fool.
The day started as it usually did. Our alarm went off at a ridiculous hour in the morning. Zoisite was snuggled up to me, appreciating my warmth, and wanted to be as close to me as possible. Simply trying to get 5 more minutes of his beauty sleep. Had I known it was his last day alive, I would have suggested we linger in bed until we felt like getting up. Beryl be damned! Unfortunately I do not have the ability to predict the future.
“Zoisite, it’s time to get up. You need to report to Beryl and then we have to finalise our plans. We need those rainbow crystals.” I coaxed gently.
He sighed from his comfortable spot burrowed into my chest. “You’re right, Kunzite-sama.”
He forced himself out of bed, heading to the shower. “Care to join me? We are on a time crunch after all.” He gave me his beautiful, perfect smile. In what universe would I ever say no to this request? “Of course.” I left the warm bed to join him.
We made love for the last time under the spray of the warm shower. Unfortunately it was way too quick as we had a lot to do. That last time now means everything to me.
We got ready for the day and reported to the Queen who wanted to hear our full plans. After our previous disastrous mission where I didn’t leave any room for error; I didn’t think Sailor Venus would show up saving the day, having not knowing of her existence.
The fake Sailor Moon was a good plan, a great plan. Fake Sailor Moon injured Tuxedo Mask, a fact Queen Beryl was most displeased with as she wants him as an ally in the Dark Kingdom. What she wants Tuxedo Mask for, I don’t even want to think about even now. The man is no Shitennou. He doesn’t have the same abilities as us. Zoisite was in trouble though for injuring Tuxedo Mask. His saving grace was that he revealed his identity. So now we needed to prove ourselves to her again. To get things back on track and get back into Beryl’s good graces.
The plan that day was simple. Lure out Tuxedo Mask and steal his crystals and then kidnap him and bring him to the Dark Kingdom. Simple. Straight to the point. Nothing my beautiful lover couldn’t handle on his own.
We parted ways when the 5 pm deadline approached. My task was to hang back and watch events play out until the moment I could swoop in and steal the crystals for the Dark Kingdom.
Before he left, I gave him a quick kiss, forgetting we were still in front of Beryl, wishing him good luck on his mission. The look on his face that day was amazing and one I’ll never forget. He was in awe and he was in love. It was written all over his face.
He blew me a final kiss before teleporting away in a swirl of cherry blossoms. I sighed praying he will be successful.
Beryl watched our unprofessional display warily. She had always tolerated our relationship but I can’t say she was jumping for joy when she found out. As long as we both remained loyal to her, she did not care what we did behind closed doors.
The day our relationship was revealed, she called me for an audience alone and asked me to explain my relationship with Zoisite and how far we had gone. It was one of the most awkward conversations I’ve ever had. I got her approval in that meeting with a promise that we will both be loyal to her.
I had a very bad feeling today might be different though. She saw the look in Zoisite’s eyes when we parted ways. Perhaps she suspected Zoisite’s motives were not entirely in her favour. He was completely and utterly loyal to me and me alone. I thought he might be in danger and decided I needed to talk with him later about being a bit more discreet. As you can probably imagine, I never got the chance.
Before I left to meet up with Zoisite, Beryl said to me. “Try to keep it professional while on the job, Kunzite. I can easily order the two of you to separate.”
“Yes, my Queen.” I replied automatically with a deep bow. My head was spinning. We messed up. She’s not going to be forgiving this time around. We had to succeed. He had to succeed.
I watched in the shadows as Zoisite put our crystals down on the ground. As Tuxedo Mask put his down on the ground, Zoisite’s face lit up and he let out his cute laugh. This was my cue. I teleported in and grabbed the crystals.”I’ll leave him up to you, Zoisite.” I said gently as I teleport back to the Dark Kingdom. I hung onto our prize while my beautiful lover secured Tuxedo Mask for us. I had the upmost faith he would succeed.
At this point the plan was for Zoisite to capture Tuxedo Mask and bring him to the Dark Kingdom. However, Tux did something that set him off and cut my beautiful vain lovers face. I knew he would want his revenge. Yet, my mistake was not calming him down.
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We had a brief rendezvous where we could cuddle close on the rooftop while we waited for Tuxedo Mask to show up for the battle. I was worried Zoisite would get carried away. He had quite the temper and I was hoping to calm him down with my soothing actions. He might do something stupid filled with so much rage and we were so close to victory.
However I made the mistake of encouraging him to get revenge for cutting his face. I still regret these words to this day. Stupid. So stupid. I knew his temper and yet I was riding high off of our victory and decided there was no harm in letting Zoisite vent his anger a little. Blow off some steam. Again with the miscalculations.
I’m not sure what happened after this. I went back to the Dark Kingdom to wait for my love while he finished off Tuxedo Mask.
…..
Suddenly while admiring the crystals, they flew out of my grasp and straight to the Moon Princess who had now awakened. I teleported to the scene to a wounded Zoisite falling into my arms. “…”
I held him close to me. I knew he was injured. Badly too. There were voices swirling all around me. My thoughts were in chaos. I couldn’t concentrate on anything else except for my badly injured love in my arms. I think the Sailor Senshi were there but I can’t remember clearly if I said anything to them. They were not important. We teleported back to the Dark Kingdom, and delivered an injured, possibly dead Tuxedo Mask to Beryl. Zoisite’s orders were to bring him back alive.
She should just be happy we got him.
I coaxed my love awake and he leaned against me for support. I knew he must be in a lot of pain as he half-heartedly tried to ask for another chance. Beryl wasn’t having it. “I will take responsibility for that..” I tried to persuade her. Try to get her to see reason and give him another chance. It was no use. She blasted him with a strong bolt of energy. This blast combined with the wounds he already had from his fight was fatal.
”Kunzite-sama!!!!!” He screamed as he was blasted. That scream still haunts me. Plagues my dreams.
What an utter disgrace I am.
“Kunzite take out that trash,” was all she said.
I teleported him to one of his favourite places in the Dark Kingdom. He lay there saying how happy he was to die in my arms. How much he loved me.
Here was my chance. All I needed to do was say, “I love you too Zoisite.” I was holding back my emotions. My grief and anger were causing my mind to go blank. My mind was racing.
No, you can’t die.
No it’s not possible.
Don’t leave me.
My throat felt like it was closing as I begged, “forgive me Zoisite.” Not the response I wanted to give him.
Good going, Kunzite. The last words he heard were not what he wanted to hear or what I wanted to say. I was too consumed with grief.
He faded away and I was alone.
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Now I lie here alone in our once shared bed letting the tears fall down my cheeks.
I failed another mission again today. Beryl is most displeased with me, but I don’t care. I don’t care about her, the Dark Kingdom, or anything really anymore. I haven’t been sleeping and I have been walking around in a fog. He was my whole world and I failed him. I’m a failure.
I loved him. He was my entire world.
I loved him.
I try to give in to sleep knowing I will see him again in my dreams. It’s enough for now.