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“Leave... and never return”
Those words rung though Dark Choco’s head over and over like a metronome as he trudged forward though the pure white snow he was polluting with hot Jam as it dripped from his eye.
His body was weak. His knees trembled and threatened to buckle any moment now, white noise pounded in his head and his breath was hoarse. Everything felt so heavy. Everything fucking hurt.
“Leave and never return”
ah right, that why he’s running like a coward. A filthy coward. Just keep trudging. Dark Choco walked- or maybe he was limping, he didn’t know or care. The prince’s hands sway limply at his side, he’d stop clutching his wounded eye? He hadn’t noticed.
“Leave and never return”
Yes, that's right, never return. He's homeless now.
Dark Choco is pretty sure his eye’s are wide like a pathetic child, He felt like a kid anyway. Everything looks fuzzy. the kind of fuzzy you see when your in a dream, or when your hyperventilating which is strange because the prince can't even feel if he's breathing or not. his lungs feel cold, like icy is piecing them from the inside.
“Leave and never return”
oh, Hes on the ground now. The snow hurts, when did he fall over? The snow hurts, though everything hurts.
there was snow falling, had he wandered into a snowstorm? Maybe that's why everything was loud, though he couldn’t hear a thing. It was almost comforting that the forest was the only thing to witness his pathetic ass laying in the snow.
“Leave and never return”
The snow covered him like a blanket, he wished he had a blanket right now. Like when his father would tuck him in. Why was he even out here? What the hell is he doing he, he doesn’t belong here
“Leave and never return”
oh, thats right, the fight. He swung at his father, he defied the ruler, He tried to kill the king.
“Leave and never return”
The kingdom, the warriors, Watchers, caramel arrow, Dark Choco can still recall their reactions as he ran though the citadel like a fucking child. Guards and maids giving shocked or horrified looks first. They had every right to be horrified at him. He was horrified of himself.
“Leave and never return”
yeah, that's right, then he ran though the training ground. Its the fastest route to the gates from the castle. The cream wolves must’ve smelt blood, they barked and chased him for a little. He could see some warriors yelling in his blur, but he couldn’t hear a thing. Then he got to the streets and the citizens-
Oh, he wishes he could apologize to the poor cookies that had to see him as he fled. It would’ve looked poorly on the kingdom. They probably all hate him now. They probably all know what happened by now.
They’re probably glad he’s finally gone.
“Leave and never return”
Finally, when he got to the gates, The prince can vaguely recall shoving a worried Watcher out the way and onto their ass. Like a monster, like an asshole. Then sprinting right past all the watchers calls and shouts.
“Leave and never return”
The snow doesn’t hurt anymore, but Dark Choco can still feel his body shaking so he know's the snows still there. He knows his eye is dripping red jam and poisoning the white sorbet snow red. he knows its probably doing damage to his dough by now. he knows he should get up.
But dark Choco just can't find the strength to move.
“Leave and never return”
what? Kill his father? Why would he do that? How could he do that? He was a loyal son, loved by the kingdom, by the warriors, by caramel Arrow, by-
“Leave and never return”
Because he's filthy, he's disgusting, he's ugly. Thats why. Theres nothing good about him. If he just vanished, could his father manage? Or even care? Or would he disappear right beside his son.
“Leave and never return”
God he’s pathetic. Didn't even finish the fight he started, didn’t even manage to kill his father. Witches, he deserves this. He deserves to bleed. The prince wants to go home, he wants to tell his father that his actions were an accident, that they weren’t only motivated by envy.
he'd beg whatever god there is for the chance.
“Leave and never return”
But dark Choco knows that’s not true, he knows what he did and why he did. He remembers every emotion that went though his mind so clearly. Remember Dark Choco? Remember that you did that. Remember that your father fucking hate you now, if he didn’t already hate you so.
“Leave and never return”
Remember that you just fucked up everything your father did for you? Dark Choco, i hope you know it's your fault.
And your fault alone, Dark Choco cookie.
“Leave and never ret-
Dark Choco wakes up. When did he pass out? He’s breathing heavily and sounds as hoarse as his voice. His bodies trembling more violently than he remembers but his head is still fucking pounding. His cheeks are wet and puffy, though not from snow.
There’s a bitter taste in the air, smells like bile. Throw up, its throw up, oh he’s throwing up. Hes throwing up a lot. His stomach hurts now, his head hurts, everything fucking hurts
His eye is stinging, shit, why didn’t he treat it? Disinfect or wrap it? Was he that dumb to just let himself pass out? The bleeding stopped but he still can’t open it. Theres no way its fixable now, if there even is an eye still left at all.
bile dribbled down his chin as he coughs and chokes up whatever's left in his mouth. Its not a pretty site, god he must look like a fucking mess right now. Blood, tears, snot and throw up all dribbling down his face.
if dark Choco could squeeze his eye closed hard enough the young prince could he hoe his father would shush and him and wipe his face clean gently whenever he was ill.
“Leave and never return”