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Baker Street had not changed. The curtains still hung crooked where Mrs. Hudson had once promised to mend them. The air smelled faintly of dust and old books, and the familiar creak of the floorboards greeted Sherlock as he stepped inside. It should have felt like home. Instead, it felt like a stage set waiting for actors that no longer belonged to the play.
John was waiting.
Sherlock had rehearsed this moment in his mind on the long walk from St. Bart’s. He had imagined John’s shock, his disbelief, the rush of relief that would soften into forgiveness. He had not, however, accounted for John’s fist.
The punch landed cleanly on Sherlock’s cheekbone, sharp and unceremonious.
“Two years!” John’s voice broke with rage. “Two bloody years, Sherlock. You let me bury you. You let me—” His voice cracked, the rest choked down.
Sherlock steadied himself against the doorframe, his cheek throbbing. He had expected tears, not violence. Though perhaps, if he had been more honest with himself, he might have realized John’s grief had always been wrapped in clenched fists.
“I had to,” Sherlock said softly. “It was the only way to dismantle Moriarty’s network—”
“You don’t get to say that. Not to me. Not now.”
The silence that followed was worse than the shouting. It pressed against Sherlock’s ribs, suffocating, because he could see it already: the fracture lines running between them, the trust that had once been instinctive now reduced to rubble.
The first weeks blurred into something raw and graceless.
John visited Baker Street reluctantly, sometimes out of habit, sometimes because he couldn’t stop himself. He never stayed long. Conversations veered between brittle small talk and bursts of anger.
“You don’t just waltz back into people’s lives, Sherlock. You don’t vanish and then expect the world to pause for you.”
Sherlock swallowed the instinct to fight back with logic. Instead, he listened. Therapy, already mandated by Mycroft and the British government for “reacclimation,” had begun to pry open the spaces he’d sealed shut years ago. His therapist’s voice echoed in his head: You cannot repair trust with cleverness. Only presence.
So Sherlock stayed.
He let John rant. He made tea without comment when John’s voice cracked. He took the blows of silence, the muttered curses, the stubborn refusals to look at him.
Some nights, when the flat was empty and the city outside hummed without him, Sherlock wondered if perhaps John was right. Perhaps he had expected too much. The John Watson he had left behind—loyal, forgiving, unwavering—was not the man who now carried grief like a shield.
Sherlock lay awake, staring at the ceiling, and whispered to himself:
“Ghosts don’t come home.”
But time, stubborn and grinding, worked on them both. By the end of the first month, the sharp edges dulled slightly. John stopped slamming doors. Sherlock stopped apologizing every third sentence. The silences still lingered, but they were not so jagged.
One evening, John sat opposite Sherlock at the kitchen table, arms crossed, eyes tired.
“I don’t know if I can ever forgive you,” he said.
Sherlock met his gaze, steady. “I don’t ask for forgiveness. Only the chance to prove I meant what I did.”
John looked away, but he didn’t leave.
It wasn’t reconciliation. Not yet. But it was the beginning of something less hopeless.