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1. ‘til our fingers decompose (keep my hand in yours) by fourstars (monzas)

   Fandoms: Men's Football RPF  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   28 Sep 2025

   Tags

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   • Julian Brandt/Kai Havertz
   • Julian Brandt
   • Kai Havertz
   • Established Relationship
   • References to Depression
   • Anxiety
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Hand Jobs
   • Angst
   • author is massively projecting but it's fine bc jule got two assists yesterday and everything's going to be okay (i'm lying)

   Summary

   Julian doesn’t know what turns off the filter inside of him.

   “Do you ever just want to… give up?” He asks, swallowing down and feeling Kai’s hand still on his waist, leaving indents in his hip.

   “Give up?” Kai breathes out against his shoulder, his mouth leaving a featherlight touch there.

   “Yeah, like,” Julian’s mouth twists into a frown. “Quitting, disappearing. Like you don’t want to exist anymore.”

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