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1. Going as far as he could until he dies by thiswasallforyou

   Fandoms: Daredevil (TV), Spider-Man - All Media Types  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Gen
   • Work in Progress

   17 Nov 2025

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Matt Murdock & Franklin "Foggy" Nelson
   • Matt Murdock & Karen Page
   • Matt Murdock & Claire Temple
   • Matt Murdock
   • Franklin "Foggy" Nelson
   • Karen Page
   • Claire Temple
   • Peter Parker
   • Angst
   • Song fic
   • Inspired by an Ethel Cain Song
   • Song: Etienne (Ethel Cain)
   • Human Disaster Matt Murdock
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
   • in the past he's fine now guys trust
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • matt using daredevil as a form of self harm
   • he will deny it though
   • Abandonment Issues
   • Matt Murdock Needs a Hug
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
   • Autistic Matt Murdock
   • Autistic Peter Parker
   • ignore what i said earlier about him being fine now
   • he apparently isn't

   Summary

   Matt knew that he was probably suicidal. He had thought about ending it many times before, mainly as a teenager in the orphanage, but he told himself that he would never go through with it. He didn’t want to repeat a mistake of his dad’s that he wished never happened. And he never did. He still tells himself that he would never go through with it. He couldn’t. But he was just so tired of everything. It seemed that lately, the thought of death had become more and more comforting to him. But he would never kill himself. He couldn’t do that to Foggy and Karen and even Maggie.

   So, he had to make it seem accidental.

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   Fic inspired by the spoken word sermon at the end of Etienne by Ethel Cain. Each chapter is a different line from the sermon

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   English

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   Chapters:

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