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I don't know if I love you anymore.
I still get the butterflies and still get flustered,
But it's not like before.
Something severed the connection that my heart had with you.
Don't get me wrong I still want you,
You still bring light to my bad days,
But something has happened.
I don't know if it means that I getting over you,
Or if it means that I still want you.
You have shaped me,
Through dreams, experiences, and love.
You may never see the love I want to give to you,
Because of my fears or the feelings have parted.
Feeling can never go away for me,
I will always have a special place in my heart,
For all the ones I’ve loved before.
Even though I don't want these feelings to go away,
They are moving away faster than I can gain them back.
If we could go back to,
The shoulders that we shared,
The loads of laughter,
To make an adventure that we learned so well.
I would take that back in a heartbeat,
I would take any chance to just be able to see,
The world in all its colors with you by my side,
The passion of happy characters that never could have been us.
Mourning the loss of you feels weird,
You are still alive,
You still have that passion that burns bright,
And your weirdness is still strong.
Now that were not as close, I'm wondering,
Where did I go wrong?
Is there something that could bring us together?
Is there a way for us to be more than friends,
If I would have just lost those fears back, then?
I always am afraid to mess things up,
But you allow me to get a better look on
Me, my view, and my love.
So, this might not be the end of my love,
I can tell you that much.
But is the start of the confusion,
overthinking, lessen feelings, and wanting more.
I hope one day my cg I can get you,
No matter how much I put into it.
Forever with love,
Mack