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1. Doubt by CosmosPandemonium

   Fandoms: Men's Hockey RPF  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   14 Nov 2025

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Kristoff Kontos/Terry Trafford
   • Kristoff Kontos
   • Terry Trafford (mentioned)
   • Eric Locke (mentioned)
   • Justin Kea (mentioned)
   • Justin Sefton (mentioned)
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms
   • Out of Body Experiences
   • Disassociation
   • Loss
   • Seeing the dead
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Angst
   • I am so sorry
   • maaaaybe
   • Saginaw Spirit OHL Team
   • Saginaw Spirit
   • OHL
   • CHL
   • 2013-2014 Saginaw Spirit
   • old roster
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide

   Summary

   It's just another game. The lines are ready, everyone is ready, everyone is on the ice. The coaches are out there, the Captain is out there, the Alternates are out there.
   But one.
   Where the fuck is Kontos?

   Series

   • Part 1 of The Smile That You Gave Me Even When You Felt Like Dying.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   867

   Chapters:

   1/1

   Kudos:

   3

   Hits:

   35