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CHAPTER 1- KAGAMINE LEN

"Yo Fuckass! How you doin' bro?"

"Hey, Len, listen- there's something very important I gotta tell you-"

"Uh... okay? What-"

"Just meet me at lunch, okay? Our usual spot."

"Okay..."

Len blinked down at his phone as his best friend hung up. His twin sister raised an eyebrow at him.

"What was that about?" Rin scoffed.

Len shrugged and pocketed his phone, continuing his walk to English class. "I don't know. Fukase's probably being dramatic again."

Rin rolled her eyes. "I never understood why you liked him. He's so weird."

"Yeah, but I don't mind. And we've been best friends since, like, the dawn of time." Len ran a hand through his yellow hair. Len and Fukase had been friends since kindergarten, mainly because they both liked to prank the other kids. Now they were freshmen in high school, and Fukase's 15 and Len's 14.

"What did he want?" Rin asked, pulling out her earbuds as they near their locker.

Len opened his own locker and made an "I dunno" sound. He pulled out a notebook and his sketchbook then closed the locker. "He told me to meet him at lunch."

"Don't you have band practice at lunch?"

"Yeah, but I can miss it today. He sounded serious..."

Rin snickered. "That sounds nothing like him~"

Len noticed someone with long light blue pigtails enter the English classroom, and he nudged Rin playfully. "Hey, there's your girlfriend~"

Rin squeaked and hit him back. "She's not my girlfriend! Shut up! I'm not even gay!"

Len put a hand on his hip and raised an eyebrow. He knew for a fact Rin was gay- once he caught Rin making out with one of her best friends when she came over for a sleepover summer of grade 8.

He hasn't let go of that since.

Rin sighed at the expression on Len's face. "Okay, shut up. Maybe I am a lesbian- but that doesn't mean you can say anything! We all know about your crush on Fukase!"

Len stopped and blinked in surprise at her. "What?"

Rin rolled her eyes. "Oh, come on! I've seen the look on your face when he talks to you. And you never shut up about him."

"What- but- o-okay but that doesn't mean I like him!" Len stuttered out, mainly from surprise and confusion. He didn't like his best friend! What an odd thing to say...

Rin shrugged and entered the English classroom. "I'm just saying~"

A mystified Len sat down at his desk next to Utatane Piko- another member of his friend group. The silver-haired boy smiled at him then went back to his work.

Len put down his pencil after a few moments and covered his face, annoyed at the fact that his thoughts were all about what Rin had said... and Fukase.

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CHAPTER 2- SATOSHI FUKASE

“You gotta tell him.”

“I can’t tell him!”

“You have to.”

“What if he flips out?”

“You’ll never know until you try. Just call him!”

“Okay, okay fine.”

Fukase dialed the number of his best friend, flipping off his older sister, vFlower, at the same time. He bit his lip as Len picked up.

“Yo Fuckass! How you doin’ bro?”

Fukase rubbed his eye, his heart fluttering at the familiar sound of Len’s voice. What was WRONG with him…

“Hey Len, listen- there’s something very important I gotta tell you.”

“Uh… okay? What-“

Silence. Fukase ran a hand through his bright red, wavy hair. He’s so close to telling him- yet so far…

He can’t do this. He can’t just tell him the truth on a random phone call-! He looked over at vFlower and shook his head, eyes wide. vFlower threw up their hands and flopped on the couch.

“Just meet me at lunch, okay? Our usual spot.”

Yes, lunch. That was a good plan. He could tell him everything then, with a mental script and-

“Okay…”

Fukase hung up, then stared at his phone screen. vFlower rolled her eyes at Fukase.

“You’re hopeless, Fuka…” they muttered.

“Shut up. I’ll talk to him at lunch.”

“No you won’t.”

“Yes I will.”

“You’re not even at school.”

“DAD!” Fukase called. “Can you drive me to school?”

vFlower sighed as their father poked his head into the living room.

“Are you sure, Fukase?” He asked.

“Yeah, I’m feeling better now,” Fukase lied, stretching his arms above his head.

“Well, if you’re sure…” his father shrugged. “All right, get in the car-“

Fukase stuck his tongue out at vFlower and she scowled. Fukase gathered his stuff then hopped in the car. His dad looked over at him. “What’s with the sudden change of plans?”

“Mn, nothing…” Fukase mumbled, though his thoughts were filled with Len and what lunch was about to bring…

“Uh huh…” his dad murmured, but kept his eyes on the road. The rest of the drive was almost silent, Fukase turned on some of Len’s music and closed his eyes, just listening to the sound of his voice. God he was so down bad for him, wasn’t he…

Twenty minutes later, Fukase was stepping into his second period class. He nodded to the teacher and took his seat- it was a couple minutes before he remembered his seat was next to-

“Hey Fuckass~!” A familiar voice exclaimed. Fukase smiled, trying way too hard to seem nonchalant.

“Hey bro.”

“How come you weren’t here for period A?”

“I, uh, wasn’t feeling great. I’m better now, don’t worry.”

Len tilted his head. “About the thing you wanted to talk to me about-“

Fukase’s eyes widened and he cut Len off. “Ah- not now, it’s about-“

He glanced over to Piko on the other side of Len. They all know Piko had a habit of telling Oliver everything, and Oliver couldn’t keep a secret for the life of him.

“…Never mind. I’ll tell you at lunch.”

“Fukase! Len! Pay attention!” The teacher snapped. Len rolled his eyes and turned back to his paper.

Fukase was just waiting for the bell to ring…

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CHAPTER 3- FUKASE

"So you said you wanted to tell me something?" Len said, leaning against the wall of the larger stall in the boys' bathroom (it's the one for disabled people idk what it's called). Len and Fukase often hung out in there, since the cafeteria is 'overrated' apparently. It was also private, which was perfect for what Fukase wanted to tell him...

"Uh, yeah... hey why don't we talk about you first? What'd you do this weekend?" Fukase stalled nervously, playing with a curl in his hair.

Len raised an eyebrow. "Fortnite. What did you want to talk to me about?"

"Really? Nothing else?"

"Nope. What did you want to talk to me about?"

"What did you have for dinner?"

"Pizza on Saturday and I didn't eat anything on Sunday. What did you want to talk to me about?"

"Really, nothing? Aren't you hungry? You should really eat more."

"Fukase."

Fukase blinked up at Len, who had his arms crossed. He knew he should tell him the truth, but what if Len flips out and never wants to talk to him again? What if he just laughs at him? What if-

"Hey." Len pushed off the wall and put his hands on Fukase's shoulders, then looked him dead in the eyes. "Don't worry. You can tell me anything, bro."

"I know," Fukase sighed. "But it's been four years- after all this time, it's just so hard to..."

Len blinked. "Four years?"

Fukase nodded.

"Damn... that's a long time-" Len bit his lip and looked away. Fukase could tell he was feeling a bit betrayed that Fukase hadn't told him whatever it was sooner... but no matter. Fukase's telling him NOW.

No... not now. Okay, for real, now.

...Maybe in a couple minutes.

He's saved by his phone ringing.

"Oh, one sec-" he said to Len, secretly grateful for vFlower calling him at that time.

"Hey V-" he started, but is cut off by vFlower's "hey Fuka~! How's it going, did you tell Len you're gay yet?"

Fukase's eyes widened, as did Len's. There is a long silence, until finally-

"N-no, I haven't..."

"Why did you g- oh..." vFlower stopped as they realized- "You were just about to do it, weren't you?"

"...V, you're on speaker..." Fukase muttered.

Another pause.

"Shit... Well. Hi, Len! My brother has a massive crush on you by the way. Just telling you, cause I know he won't do it himself! Okay love you Fukase bye I just ruined your life didn't I~!"

She hung up.

Fukase facepalmed and sank to the floor, his face bright red. "Oh, fuck you, Flower...!"

Let stared at Fukase, eyes still wide. "...You're gay? And you- you like me...?"

He remembered something Fukase had just said- "You've liked me for four years?!"

Fukase just rubbed the back of his neck. "I thought you wouldn't like me back if I told you..."

Len is just silent. Worried that he had messed it all up, Fukase stood up, then cleared his throat and unlocked the stall door.

"I should- I should go..." he mumbled.

"Fukase wait-!" Len called out, but Fukase's already gone...

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Yeah so uh sorry I didn’t post yesterday lol I have no motivation to write this anymore I might still post sometimes but mmmmidk

So uh yeah

I have no idea where this will go so yeah lol

Srry y’all :c