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I don’t deserve to live….
I was never meant to see the light….
You should have let me go back then.
You should have let me blow myself up.
I did terrible things. I’ve killed 35 people and I also hurt you….
You save me that day and show me the light. You show me a place where I could belong too… A place where I wouldn’t bask in darkness! A place of light! A place where I didn’t have to kill anyone to be useful!
You were the first person to show me kindness in a very long time….
Even though I did terrible things, you still took me around the city. You bought me tofu at my favourite place and also treat me crepes which were delicious. You still did all these things with me even after being told to take me straight to the station in which I deserve.
You show me so much kindness but all I ever cause you was harm.
Every time you are with me or try to even help me in some way or another, you always end up getting hurt! It did not matter if you were trying to save or I try save you! You were either getting kidnap or getting hurt! It was always my fault then and still is now….
If I was never meant to be in this light, then why show me this beautiful illusion of it?! Why show me kindness at all?! Why did fate bring me to you so it can take you away from me again and again?! Why did you have to be so kind to me?! Because maybe then, I wouldn’t want you….
I wouldn’t want to see you again or be with to with you! I wouldn’t want this life you show me! A life where I didn’t have to kill to be useful! But you did…..
Why couldn’t I save you from them?!
I want you so bad…. I want to be with you!
But I don’t deserve you or this light you show me....