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1. When did I forget love? by BlueJay2500

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • F/M, Gen, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   13 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Hayden Pike/Jackie Pike
   • Shane Hollander & Hayden Pike
   • Shane Hollander & Rose Landry
   • Wyatt Hayes & Ilya Rozanov
   • Lisa Hayes/Wyatt Hayes
   • Troy Barrett/Harris Drover
   • Troy Barrett & Ilya Rozanov
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Hayden Pike
   • Cliff Marlow
   • Yuna Hollander
   • David Hollander
   • Galina Molchalina
   • Svetlana Vetrova
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • set in between Heated Rivalry and The Long Game
   • It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Mentions of Suicide
   • Depression
   • Angst
   • heavily detailed thoughts of suicide
   • author aims for accurate and respectful representation
   • Bad Parent Grigori Rozanov
   • The Author Regrets Nothing
   • POV Outsider
   • no beta we die like ilya's dad

   Summary

   Ilya Rozanov should be the happiest man on Earth right now. He should be floating on clouds, but why does it feel like he's on a free fall to the ground?

   He's got everything he's ever dreamed of: his handsome, polite, sexy, hockey's golden boy boyfriend, future in-laws who love him like their own, and a team who desperately want to be his friends. He can't wait to play great hockey, retire with his boyfriend, and marry him. Maybe they'll even have kids of their own. Spend their days at the cottage wrapped in love and sunshine for the rest of their lives.

   Yet, the only dream that he remembers, the one that haunts him daily, is the one of his mother. His mother's pale arms reach out to him. Her embrace was colder than any lonely night. One day, maybe he'll just hug her back.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

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   Chapters:

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