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I am Osamu Dazai.
And this is my suicide note.
I am aware that... its basic. Plain, pathetic... but I couldn't be bothered.
I plan to write here all I want those in my miserable fucking life to know.
I dont feel a need to explain my life story, nor my reason for finally managing to kill myself.
Instead, this is what you get.
Hello, Kunikida, I wish for you to know that I apologize you ever lived to know my insufferable being. I made your every living day hell simply for my own amusement, and I dont regret it. You were... dare I say, a good friend. One I never deserved. I hope that this news sees you well, and you move on to find someone who is truly worthy of your time.
Hello, Ranpo, I wish for you to know that I never quite understood you, but you never failed to amaze me. I might even admit that I am jealous of your deduction skills, and your ability to so easily transcribe things. You were a good friend, one of the few I may call as someone who... in a way, understood the difficulties that come with intelligence. I hope you do not mourn me.
Hello, Yosano, I wish for you to know that.. despite how similar we are, you should never have to compare yourself to such a miserable, insufferable, insignificant, forgettable thing as I. So do not ever try to do so.
Hello, Atsushi, though we have yet to known eachother for long, you have become... important to me. I see myself in you... in ways that... I shouldn't. I apologize, Atsushi. For you were nothing more than a desperate attempt on my end to heal, to close a wound that never sealed to me. You should never have had to take that role upon yourself, but as many others I have forced that role upon you.
Forgive me.
Hello, Kenji, I understand we have not spoken much, but I admire your ability to breeze over everything. To not see the true cruelties of this world. Never... ever, loose that.
Hello Tanizaki, You are a good detective. Your relationship with your sister is questionable at best, but I am glad you have someone to care and love nevertheless. Forget about me.
Hello, President. I bid farewell to the agency, and to all of you I know. I apologize for ever inconveniencing you, and it will forever be my greatest regret that you humans came to know of my existence.
Do not mourn me. Do not try to save me. Do not try to remember me. Do not give me a funeral, for I dont deserve even that.
I hope you all can come to forgive me, forgive that... I existed in the first place, as the gods above have shown me that is where my mistakes first started.
Farewell,
Dazai Osamu.