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1. if you see me smiling, it’s forceful and violent. by ukulelehaters

   Fandoms: Men's Football RPF  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   25 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Jordan Pickford/Nick Pope
   • Nick Pope/Kieran Trippier
   • Nick Pope & Callum Wilson
   • Kieran Trippier & John Stones
   • Kieran Trippier & Kyle Walker
   • John Stones/Kyle Walker
   • Nick Pope
   • Kieran Trippier
   • Jordan Pickford
   • Callum Wilson
   • Aaron Ramsdale
   • John Stones
   • Kyle Walker (Men's Football RPF)
   • Gareth Southgate
   • Jude Bellingham
   • Jordan Henderson
   • Bukayo Saka
   • Trent Alexander-Arnold
   • Declan Rice
   • Mason Mount
   • Harry Kane (Men's Football RPF)
   • Abuse
   • Trauma
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Scars
   • Depression
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Rape/Non-con Elements
   • Hurt
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Trauma Recovery
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Eventual Smut
   • Slow Burn

   Summary

   Nick has never known anything different than Jordan. Kieran changes that. During the 2022 World Cup, Kieran begins to realise something isn’t right with Jordan and Nick - he tries to intervene. He helps Nick recover from everything Jordan did to him, with many ups and downs. Nick struggles to trust Kieran, and Kieran is struggling not to just hold him in his arms forever. By the start of the new season, when they’re playing at the same club, can Kieran make Nick feel at least somewhat safe with him?

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