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1. “so heavy from the start” by evelyn189

   Fandoms: Shadow and Bone (TV), The Grisha Trilogy - Leigh Bardugo, Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo, Nikolai Series - Leigh Bardugo  

   • Not Rated
   • Major Character Death
   • F/F, F/M
   • Work in Progress

   29 Dec 2025

   Tags

   • Major Character Death
   • Genya Safin/Alina Starkov
   • Mal Oretsev/Alina Starkov
   • Nikolai Lantsov/Zoya Nazyalensky
   • Genya Safin
   • Alina Starkov
   • Misha (The Grisha Trilogy)
   • Mal Oretsev
   • Tamar Kir-Bataar
   • Tolya Yul-Bataar
   • Zoya Nazyalensky
   • Nikolai Lantsov
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Author Is Sleep Deprived
   • Genya Safin Deserves Better
   • Mal Oretsev Dies
   • Past Mal Oretsev/Alina Starkov
   • Grief/Mourning
   • I Wrote This While Listening to Lizzy McAlpine's Music
   • Post-Canon
   • Book 2: Rule of Wolves Spoilers
   • Post-Book 2: Rule of Wolves
   • Multi POV
   • alina and nikolai are such good friends
   • genyalina is peak
   • author is a mal hater (sorry)
   • Angst
   • genya and alina are great parents
   • POV Alina Starkov
   • POV Genya Safin
   • occasional zoya pov
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • genya is clueless about her own feelings
   • Useless Lesbians

   Summary

   Alina and Mal have been living peacefully together at Keramzin, until Mal falls ill. Alina takes him to the Little Palace, hoping someone there can help. Genya notices something off about Mal, this illness is killing him, and she realizes he may not make it much longer. When Mal dies, Alina grieves her lost love, thinking she will never recover. Later, she realizes she may have feelings for Genya.

    

   essentially: Mal dies, Alina grieves, Genya comforts her, Genya and Alina kiss, also Zoya and Nikolai get married.

   title is lyrics from “March” by Lizzy Mcalpins

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   10,272

   Chapters:

   9/?

   Comments:

   1

   Kudos:

   11

   Hits:

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