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The safehouse is quiet in that too-quiet way—like the walls are listening, like the whole building is holding its breath. Noah sits on a dusty couch that’s seen better decades, elbows on his knees, staring at his hands like they’ll explain why they won’t stop shaking.
Across the room, Mirage paces. Not the full dramatic, swaggering strut he does when he’s showing off—this is different. This is tight movements and clipped turns, the kind of pacing that says he’s counting exits and worst-case scenarios, over and over.
Noah tries to joke, because that’s what you do when your heart is still sprinting. “You’re gonna wear a groove in the floor.” Mirage stops like he hit an invisible wall. His optics flick to Noah, bright and sharp.
“Yeah,” Mirage says, voice too controlled. “Better the floor than you.”
Noah’s smile fades. He leans back, swallowing. “I’m fine.”
Mirage’s laugh is one short burst that has no humor in it. “No, you’re not.” Noah starts to argue, but Mirage speaks first—faster now, like the words are trying to outrun something inside him.
“That thing tonight—when it targeted you—when it looked at you like you were leverage—” Mirage’s hands flex, metal fingers curling and uncurling, like he’s fighting the memory of ripping something apart. “I told myself I wouldn’t let anyone make you collateral. I told myself—”
He cuts off. Noah’s throat tightens. “Mirage,” Mirage turns away for half a second, like he can’t stand the sight of Noah being whole and still almost lost.
“I’m supposed to be better at this,” Mirage mutters. “I’m supposed to be the guy who jokes and dodges and makes it look easy. I’m supposed to—” His voice cracks, and he hates it, you can hear how much he hates it. “I almost didn’t get you out in time.”
Noah stands up before he thinks about it. The couch springs back with a squeak that feels too loud. “Hey.” Noah steps closer. “You did.”
Mirage’s optics snap to him. “Barely.”
Noah shakes his head. “But you did. I’m here.” Mirage’s expression—hard to read, because he’s metal and light and intention—but Noah is starting to learn the language anyway. The way Mirage holds still when he’s trying not to feel. The way his shoulders rise when he’s afraid. The way his hands hover, always careful around Noah, like Noah is breakable glass.
Noah stops at arm’s length. “You’re not failing me, okay?”
Mirage’s voice goes quiet. “You don’t know that.”
Noah’s chest aches. “I do. Because you’re the reason I’m still breathing.” Mirage flinches like Noah just fired a shot. Noah exhales. “You keep acting like you’re supposed to be this invincible hero, like you can take everything and never crack. But you’re allowed to be scared.”
Mirage’s optics dim a fraction. “I’m not scared.” Noah raises an eyebrow. Mirage exhales through his vents. “Okay. Fine. I’m scared.”
There it is. Honest and raw, hanging in the air like a confession. Noah’s hands curl at his sides, fighting the instinct to reach out too fast. “Scared of what?”
Mirage’s voice drops so low it’s almost a whisper for something that can shake buildings. “Scared that I care,” he says. “Because caring means I’ve got something to lose.”
Noah’s heart thumps once, heavy. Mirage looks at him like Noah is the sun and also the cliff edge. “And you—” He swallows, like it’s hard for him too, like he can’t believe he’s saying it out loud. “You’ve got a habit of running toward danger like you’re trying to prove you belong in it.”
Noah’s mouth opens. Closes. “Don’t,” Mirage says, sharper now. “Don’t tell me you don’t. I saw you. I see you every time.”
Noah’s voice comes out small. “I just don’t want to be useless.” Mirage goes still. Then he takes one careful step forward.
“You think you’re useless?” Mirage asks, and there’s disbelief threaded through the anger, like the idea offends him. “Noah, you’re the bravest human I’ve ever met. You stood in front of a Cybertronian with a piece of street sign like you thought it would work.”
Noah huffs despite himself. “It did work.” Mirage’s mouth twitches, almost a smile. Almost.
“Yeah,” Mirage admits. “It did.” A beat. Then Mirage’s shoulders drop, the fight draining out of him like he’s finally letting himself be tired.
“You scare me,” he says, quieter. “Because I can’t— I can’t afford to lose you.” Noah’s breath catches. The room feels smaller, like the air is thicker. Like everything in the universe has narrowed down to this distance between them.
Noah lifts his chin. “Then don’t lose me.”
Mirage laughs, strained. “Wow. Great plan. Why didn’t I think of that?”
Noah steps closer. “I’m serious.” Mirage’s optics search his face like he’s looking for the punchline and finding none. Noah swallows hard. “I’m not asking you to be invincible. I’m asking you to let me be here. With you.”
Mirage’s hand lifts, hesitates mid-air—hovering near Noah’s shoulder, like he’s afraid to touch without permission. Noah makes the choice for him.
He reaches up, taking Mirage’s fingers—careful, like he’s holding something living. Because he is. Mirage goes rigid for half a second, like he doesn’t know what to do with gentleness.
Then he relaxes—slowly, like unclenching after holding his breath for too long. Noah’s thumb brushes the seam between two plates. “See? Still here.”
Mirage’s voice turns into something vulnerable. “You shouldn’t have been in that street.”
Noah’s gaze doesn’t waver. “And you shouldn’t have been alone before we met.” Mirage’s optics flare brighter. Noah keeps going, because his chest is full and he’s tired of being careful with truths that keep trying to spill.
“You keep saying I’m ‘yours’ like it’s a warning,” Noah says. “But when you said it, it didn’t feel like being owned.”
Mirage’s hand tightens just slightly. “Noah.”
“It felt like being wanted,” Noah finishes. “Like being chosen.” Mirage’s mouth opens, then closes. He looks stunned. Noah’s voice drops. “So if you meant it—if you really meant it—then say it right.”
Mirage’s vents hiss softly. “Say what?”
Noah’s heart hammers. “Say what I am to you.” For a second, Mirage looks like he might bolt—like he’d rather fight a Decepticon battalion than handle feelings this direct.
But then Mirage leans down, closer, until his face is level with Noah’s. Close enough that Noah can see the fine scuffs on Mirage’s plating, the tiny marks that say he’s been through hell and came back anyway.
Mirage’s voice is rough. “You’re my person.” Noah’s breath catches. Mirage swallows. “You’re the one who looks at me like I’m more than a weapon. Like I’m not just—” His voice breaks, and he forces it steady again. “You make me want to be better.”
Noah’s eyes burn. Mirage lifts Noah’s hand—so carefully, like it’s sacred—and presses it against the center of his chest plating, where his spark would be.
“You feel that?” Mirage asks quietly.
Noah nods. “Yeah.”
“That’s not fear,” Mirage says. “That’s you.”
Noah’s throat goes tight. “Mirage.”
Mirage’s optics soften. “So yeah. I meant it. You’re mine.”
Noah whispers, “And you’re mine.” Mirage freezes. Noah holds his gaze like a challenge, like a promise. “Fair’s fair.” For a second, Mirage looks like he’s short-circuiting—like all his usual jokes got knocked out of his system by a single sentence.
Then he laughs, breathy and stunned and almost happy. “Oh,” Mirage says softly. “Oh, wow. That—that is unfairly cute.”
Noah smiles through the tightness in his chest. “You’re welcome.” Mirage’s forehead—his helm, really—tilts forward until it rests lightly against Noah’s. Metal to skin. Warm. Gentle.
“I’m gonna do something really stupid,” Mirage murmurs.
Noah’s pulse spikes. “Stupid how?”
“Like emotional,” Mirage says, as if it’s the worst crime imaginable.
Noah’s smile turns soft. “Do it.” Mirage hesitates one last time. Then he shifts, plates moving with a quiet whir, and his holo-tech flickers—just for a moment—projecting a human-sized version of himself. Same smug mouth, same expressive eyes, same impossible confidence—but now he’s right there at Noah’s height, close enough that Noah can feel heat from him like a living presence.
Noah’s breath stutters. “Mirage.”
Mirage’s grin trembles at the edges. “Don’t freak out. I’m still me. Just making it easier.”
Noah lifts a hand, touching Mirage’s cheek—hologram-solid under his fingers, almost real. “I’m not freaking out.”
“Liar,” Mirage says, but his voice is fond. Noah laughs softly, then sobers, because his heart is beating too loud for jokes to cover it.
“Can I—?” Noah starts, and stops, suddenly shy.
Mirage’s gaze softens. “Can you what?”
Noah’s voice drops. “Can I kiss you?” Mirage blinks—actually blinks—and his usual swagger fails him completely.
“You’re asking?” He mutters. “That’s very respectful. Very—” He clears his throat, trying to recover. “Yeah. Yes. Please. Obviously.”
Noah’s smile is shaky. He leans in slowly, giving Mirage every chance to pull away. Mirage doesn’t. Noah presses his lips to Mirage’s—warm, electric, like kissing the edge of a storm. Mirage makes a quiet sound, surprised and soft, and Noah feels Mirage’s hands hover at his waist like he’s afraid to hold too tight—
Then Mirage settles them there, careful and certain. The kiss isn’t fireworks. It’s relief. It’s home. When Noah pulls back, they stay close, foreheads almost touching.
Mirage exhales. “Okay.”
Noah smiles. “Okay?”
Mirage’s grin returns—small, sincere. “Okay. So. I’m definitely emotionally compromised now.”
Noah’s laugh comes out breathy. “You’ve been emotionally compromised.”
Mirage scoffs. “Rude. Also accurate.”
Noah’s expression softens. “We’ll be careful.”
Mirage’s eyes search his face. “You promise?”
Noah nods. “I promise.” Mirage’s shoulders finally relax like he believes it. Like he can.
He bumps his forehead gently against Noah’s. “Cool. Great. Awesome. Now, can we please never do the whole ‘almost dying’ thing again?”
Noah raises an eyebrow. “That depends. Are you going to stop throwing yourself in front of laser blasts for me?” Mirage pauses.
Then, very quietly, “No.”
Noah laughs. “Thought so.”
Mirage points at him. “But I can do this instead.” He pulls Noah closer—not hard, just snug, protective. Like he’s building a shelter out of himself.
Noah lets out a slow breath and rests his head against Mirage’s shoulder. Outside, the city’s rhythm keeps going. Sirens fade. Wind rattles the old windows.
But inside the safehouse, for the first time all night, Noah’s hands stop shaking. Mirage’s voice is soft, right above him. “Get some sleep, my person,” Mirage murmurs. “I’ve got you.”
Noah closes his eyes. “Yeah,” he whispers. “I know.”