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    Finally committed to each other, Shane and Ilya ring in a new year with some brave choices.

     

    Even from here in the city, the sky is brilliantly clear and leaning back against the brick and looking up, I can see stars glittering. I pull out a cigarette and light it, taking a long first drag and letting it out with a sigh. “Goodbye, old friend,” I tell it in Russian, holding it up between thumb and forefinger. “You’ve been a great comfort, but it’s time to part ways.” I smoke in silence after that, hearing a few smaller fireworks already going off somewhere a few streets over, the whistle of a bottle rocket and the double pop. The passing of years is, to a point, quite arbitrary, but there is something about these cold, long, dark nights when the air is polished clear and clean and the stars shimmer a little brighter that draws me into reflection every year. Sometimes it’s good, reminding me of all the highlights and successes. Sometimes it reminds me how little I’ve done, how much my life is a blur of hockey and hockey-adjacent activities, but not a whole lot else.

    Except of course for Shane. There is always Shane.

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