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„You can be glad you’re still allowed to live under this roof!“, his father screams at him and Till just slams the door after him shut and locking it up from inside.
He slowly sinks to the ground against it and lets out a deep breath. His arms and legs are still trembling, and he just can’t get up right now.
Loud footsteps become quiter as his father goes away from his room, knowing it has no use.
How much longer does he have to endure this..?
Or rather how much longer is he able to endure this.
Ever since he got diagnosed as an omega his dad went on a rampage and is screaming daily at him, for being a disgrace to the family.
Ever since his mother died, no one stood up for him anymore, and he can’t help, but feel incredibly defenseless.
It’s like he hasn’t been one to him before, but he is much more vocal about it now.
An old photograph falls from a shelf, and he hurries over only to find out it was his dead mothers photo that fell down.
A tear lands on the now unprotected photo, and he quickly cleans up the mess of glass, not caring about his fingers getting bloody due to it.
He gently places it on his nightstand beside the photo of him and Ivan, at their middle school graduation.
As if the devil summoned him, a message from Ivan popped up on his phone.
„You up to watching a movie tonight?“
It does sound like the distraction he needs right now, so he quickly replies with a „Yes“ and packed some stuff into his backpack, not really seeing what exactly.
Ivan has been bugging him about meeting up again for a week now and just doesn’t seem to give up anyway, so he might as well just go.
Right now he needs to get away and it really doesn’t matter where.
Without thinking about it, he opens his bedroom window and climbs out.
His father usually doesn’t check on him when they have another argument, so he won’t notice anyway.
The cold night air hit him immediately and he breathed it in with a deep slow breath.
There aren’t many people outside and he is glad that‘s the case, because he must look like a mess right now.
On his way to Ivan, he lights up a cigarette to calm himself a bit, even though he knows that Ivan will most likely get mad and tell him once again how bad it is for him and stuff.
Still he needs something to calm him down just a bit at the moment.
He just hopes that Ivan doesn’t question his appearance.
Maybe meeting up with him right now is a bad idea..
Ivan doesn’t need to have such a messed up friend like him, that only disturbs his studies and activities.
Till knows how much grades and his future job mean to Ivan and his self-esteem system. They are both messed up, but Ivan is still messed up in a positive way somewhat.
At least he still cares about grades..
Till has long given up on achieving anything big, being an omega just made things more difficult too and besides Ivan a straight A student and alpha, he just looks ridiculous.
He knows that the alpha doesn’t think that way of course, but everyone else does, when they are seen hanging out together.
So Till decided they only meet in the evening in private, to make sure that Ivan’s image isn’t ruined, because of him.
After Ivan presented he also stopped his usual flirting and through that they had also grown a bit distant too. Ivan probably realized that they just don’t make sense together.
Slowly but surely, he sees Ivan‘s house in the distance and throws away his cigarette into the nearest trash can.
Ivan dislikes the scent of cigarettes on him and he respects that.
After a while he arrives at his house and climbs up to his window with practiced ease, taking a look inside.
In just a second he spots Ivan looking for movies in his TV and he can’t help but smile at that, knocking lightly at the window, to get the other to notice him.
Ivan immediately got up from his bed, opening the window for Till.
„You know that you can ring the doorbell-“, the alpha halted in his sentence and just let him inside, as he took a closer look at Till.
Of course, he would notice right away… What did he expect.
Time for another lecture.
The lecture didn’t come in fact and Ivan just lightly took his arm leading him to the bathroom and… aiding the wounds on his fingers..?
As if he does it everyday Ivan carefully disinfects the cuts and wraps bandages around his fingers, with a somber expression.
It leaves him quiet. He has never seen Ivan like this, almost sad…
„You don’t need to do this you know..“, he mumbled, trying to ease the mood a bit, but Ivan just gives, him a worried look, that shuts him up.
Oh
He really cares, doesn’t he?
It began to rain outside, while Ivan took care of the cuts, on his other hands and Till silently watching him.
When he was done the atmosphere was very uncomfortable and Till thought very hard, about how he could lighten the mood again.
But nothing came to him.
So all he can do is wait, for Ivan to do anything.
Ivan meanwhile is caressing the bandages he just applied to Till‘s wounds lightly and seems to be thinking deeply.
He can’t exactly blame him, he looks like a beaten up mess and probably shouldn’t have gone to his house.
„Let’s go watch the movie.“, the alpha suddenly said, helping him get up and settling down with him on his bed and selecting a random movie.
Huh?
For the first time in months, his mind just went blank and he for once didn’t think of anything in particular, just the warmth of Ivan next to him and now he is placing a blanket on him now.
The movie becomes a comforting background noise, accompanied by the rain drops that are hitting against the window. His eyes now and then drift to Ivan and his body in general stops trembling.
His heart beat also goes back to normal and he doesn’t feel so overwhelmed anymore.
This in fact feels nice.
They usually talk a lot when he stays over or play video games together, Till screaming at Ivan when he is losing and cheering loudly, when he is winning.
So this is something new..
Without meaning to, he scoots closer to him and leans against his shoulder. He could feel Ivan laying an arm around him and holding him close.
Neither of them is watching the movie properly anymore and he can feel the alpha‘s worried gaze on him from time to time.
He just hopes the movie never ends, even though he is not even really watching it. The fear of Ivan asking him why he looks like this is still there after all and he can’t blame the other wanting to ask what’s up with him.
Till knows for a fact that he probably smells very distressed right now, because he didn’t bother thinking about putting on a scent blocker.
Maybe he wanted Ivan to notice after all…
Does that make him a bad person..?
The movie eventually ended and the silence returned.
A look at Ivan told him, that he seems to be in thought, about what he should do now.
Suddenly he heard the sound of tape being removed, which caused him to look at Ivan again.
The other had just removed his scent blocker.
Till‘s eyes widened as his nose took in an earthy smell coming from the alpha, that he hasn’t smelled in a while.
To be honest he only smelled it once, when Ivan presented in the middle of class and had rushed to the nurse office in the same heart beat.
He remembers being upset about it, for whatever reason and now he knows why he felt upset.
Ivan smells incredible…
He feels arms wrapping around him and he presses his nose into Ivan‘s scent gland, inhaling more of the intoxicating scent.
A purr escapes him, as Ivan begins to gently rub his back.
Till doesn’t even know when the last time he purred was and he can’t help, but feel a little embarrassed about it.
„You wanna talk about it?“, Ivan suddenly asked him and he sighed a bit „Well it’s not like you’re gonna leave me alone..“
„No I don’t think so..“, the other replied, which made Till chuckle lightly.
„Figures..“
He slowly retracts himself a bit from Ivan and takes a deep breath „It‘s just my dad going crazy again, nothing much…“, he then added „I just needed a break from him, so i came here..“
Ivan just nodded, letting him continue in peace.
„It’s just.. ever since mom died, he just yells every day and I am sick and tired of it..“, he tries to explain his situation poorly to Ivan „But you don’t do anything..?“, Ivan replied confused, which made him shrug.
„Well it’s enough that I fail at everything for him..“, he mumbled looking at the blanket, while fiddling around with a piece of it in his hands.
He didn’t even notice that Ivan stood up and grabbed a flyer, the one that Till hung up at school once, because he was playing as an opener for a band.
„Remember that?“, the other urged him and he only sighed „It was nothing big, the band isn’t even that well known and everyone laughed at me..“, he replied wanting to destroy it, but Ivan just held it higher than he could reach.
„It was stupid, just throw it away you idiot.“, he eventually gives up and just settles down onto the bed in a sitting position, tired of trying to reach it.
„You were awesome that night Till.“, Ivan suddenly countered him and laid it onto his nightstand.
Wait, how long did he keep that flyer?
It was roughly three years ago and everyone removed the posters and threw away the flyers that Till gave around in school and hung up.
Everyone laughed at him and he was sure that no one, will come to the concert. That’s when he spotted Ivan in the crowd that night, whose eyes were glued on him, his entire bass solo.
At that time they weren’t that close, knowing each other from the hallway.
After his performance he immediately ran after Ivan and asked him how his performance was.
As if it was yesterday, Ivan now rephrased his sentence in the same tone „You were shining brighter than anyone on that stage.“
His vision slowly became blurry and he could feel tears leaving his eyes, landing on the blanket underneath him.
„Stupid…“, he mumbled „You’re so stupid..“, he repeated, trying to wipe away his tears, with little to no effort.
Ivan wraps his arms around him and he buries his face into his chest, trying to hide himself a bit.
Once again he breathes in the earthy smell that is coming from the alpha and feels it wrapping around him, like a second skin.
He felt safe
„He just can’t see that you’re succeeding in the areas that matter..“, he took a little breath before continuing „Playing the bass and singing is what makes you happy and you’re so good at it..“, he finishes.
Till feels the other‘s hand combing through his hair carefully.
He buries his head more into his chest sniffing lightly, he hates being so vulnerable, but right now he needs every bit of comfort that Ivan can offer him.
Right now he just wants to stay like this forever and never return home again.
„And you know what? One day you’re gonna be so famous, that he will be just a nobody next to you.“, the alpha tries to cheer him up further.
„You’re impossible…“, he chuckles, wiping his tears away one last time „And what if i fail..? At being famous..?“, he quietly asks him.
„You won’t.“, Ivan stopped him in a heartbeat, tightly holding his hands with his own, as they loosened the hug.
„What makes you so sure..?“, he whispered and suddenly he was dragged to the window, Ivan opening it and climbing outside with him.
The rain has stopped and a clear night sky greets Till, as he looks up to the sky.
A shooting star was visible in the skies and many more following, leaving Till awestruck at the sight of them.
A real meteor shower… Was that even announced for tonight?
„Because i wished for it.“, Ivan said with a childish naivety causing Till to laugh out loud, holding his stomach meanwhile.
„That’s stupid and you know it..“, he replied, catching his breath from laughing so much.
„We will see if it becomes true or not then.“, the other just shrugged and Till chuckled again lightly, feeling much more at ease now.
„Alright then… I guess , I will trust the shooting stars.“, he sighs, smiling at Ivan a bit, who has a smile on his face too.
Only now he notices how close they are to each other and Till‘s cheeks warm up slightly, as Ivan’s thumb ghosts over his cheek.
His breath hitches slightly and Ivan leans in closer now and caresses a bit bolder now, with his thumb over his bottom lip, making the omega slightly shiver.
Their lips finally meet after a long time of looking up and down to the others lips and god.
It feels amazing
They find an intoxicating rhythm after some time and Till wishes, that his lips never need to leave Ivan’s.
But something in him tells him he shouldn’t let this happen so he pushes Ivan away a bit.
„We shouldn‘t…“, he mumbles, trying to keep his already crumbling walls up. „Why?“, Ivan asks him that makes Till halt in his motions.
Yeah, why?
I mean Ivan clearly likes him, so why is he hesitating…?
Right.. A broken omega like him shouldn’t have such an incredible alpha…
„I-I.. We are just too different..“, he mumbled not looking into Ivan’s face and taking some steps back. „Well I don’t care about that..?“, Ivan responded and Till only shook his head.
„No.. you don’t get it..“, he tried to brush him off, but Ivan grabbed both of his arms, hindering him from trying to flee.
„What don’t I get?“, Ivan asked him and he felt tears forming in his eyes.
„That, this doesn’t make sense..“, Till mumbled, still trying to keep Ivan distant from himself, with his arms.
„Did your father tell you nonsense again?“, Ivan suddenly responded, making Till freeze a bit, not knowing how to answer, to that.
„You don’t have to listen to that asshole you know that right?“, Ivan added, taking Till‘s hands into his own.
„You are perfect just the way you are Till.“, Ivan whispered, wrapping his arms around him tightly, so that he can’t run away.
Till‘s eyes wander to the meteor shower above them and lets out a deep breath, wrapping his arms around Ivan now too.
„Then why.. why did you stop flirting with me after you presented…“, Till asks him without thinking about it at all, his eyes shifting to Ivan’s confused expression now.
„I thought you hated it when I flirted with you..“, Ivan replied, clearly not expecting that at all.
„Just answer the damn question..“, Till quickly brushed him off.
„I didn’t want to hurt you or make you uncomfortable… My first rut was hell and all I could think about was mating with you… I was afraid that I would force myself onto you “, Ivan explained slowly, which makes sense, but that idiot is self destroying again!
Since Till has more than enough of both of their nonsenses, he clashes their lips in a hot fiery kiss together and holds tightly onto Ivan, not giving him a chance to back away.
„Is that enough as an answer..?“, he asks Ivan, out of breath from the kiss and his cheeks tinted red, a bit embarrassed from his sudden decision.
Ivan blinked and then he tightly wraps, his arms around him, nuzzling into his neck, as if he just got cute aggressions or something like that.
„Hey! Answer me already?!“, Till protested, trying to break free from Ivan’s insane grip.
„Can I..?“, Ivan suddenly asks and Till lets out a loud sigh.
„Do it then or I am gonna change my mind..“, he mumbled, offering his neck a bit more to the alpha.
It didn’t take long for Ivan to bite down, apparently no hesitation at all this time. Till felt his knees slightly give up, but Ivan‘s tight grip keeps him standing.
Eventually Ivan stopped biting his scent gland and licked the blood away with his tongue, Till feeling a bit dizzy and numb, but he feels more connected to the other than ever.
Maybe that’s what he has been missing.
Not an alpha, in the traditional sense, but the feeling of being loved.
He looks up to Ivan, who is giving him a gentle smile, which he can’t help but return.
„Took you long enough..“, he whispered and felt himself going slack against Ivan, breathing in his earthy smell, as he nuzzled his nose against his scent gland.
It really is addicting.
He felt Ivan pick him up and bring him inside the house through the front door now, seeing Unsha shake his head in disbelief through the corner of his eye, having probably smelled what just happened.
Though Till can’t help, but purr at the thought of things finally getting better a bit and being able to feel loved once again.
Ivan aided him in the bathroom and at the half of the process he felt himself blacking out a bit, since bounds can be very tough on the omega nature and take away a lot of energy.
Now he got put onto the bed, being tucked in by his now alpha. Ivan joins him in bed and wraps his arms securely around him once again.
Seems like clingy Ivan is finally back…
Till fully closed his eyes now to rest a bit and enjoy the warmth of Ivan’s body next to his own.
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After highschool Till moved out and moved in with Ivan into a cozy little apartment.
Till got into a music school, through a recommendation from one teacher, who always saw him play the bass in breaks and recognised his talent.
Ivan continued to support him through thick and thin, even if he is busy with his own company, Till doesn’t mind and appreciates all of his support.
Many producers are already interested in his music and things couldn’t be better, he thinks looking down on the city from their balcony.
They haven’t exactly discussed topics like marriage, but Till unexpectedly found a ring in their bathroom once, only shaking his head in amusement and disbelief.
Though his answer is already very clear to himself.
And he couldn’t be happier.