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What would you choose, Yuusaku?

Summary:

If Yuusaku survived the Port Arthur siege

Notes:

Hello! I will just say that this chapter has been edited. It wasn't really done well since I really wanted to post something on ao3 by the time the year ended, causing me to leave some plot points hanging. Apologies for that!

It will also be likely I will edit this chapter again since I want to add some things that would further characterize Sugimoto or Yuusaku.

PS - Please read up to chapter 279 of Golden Kamuy (or else you will understand nothing). Thanks!

- Lunista

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Chapter 1: To See You Again

Chapter Text

The medical tent reeked of iron and chemicals as lanterns emitted a soft, fragile light that could disappear in an instant. Sugimoto loitered around the area as medics filed into tents with injured soldiers.

Before he could turn around, shouts erupted in the distance. Footsteps rushed towards the sound as Sugimoto peered out the tent slit. There, medical staff crowded around the person. Then he noticed it. The rising sun flag. Yuusaku? Sugimoto was pulled over as the medical staff rushed Yuusaku into the tent.

It wasn’t surprising. He was the flag bearer after all. To give up one’s own life so readily for the sake of others, Sugimoto never understood why someone would become a flag bearer. Did he even want to become a flag bearer in the first place?

Soldiers rushed towards Yuusaku. Some begged for him to wake up. Some screamed to the gods about why they’d let someone so noble die in battle. Some clasped their hands together and prayed for his safe return. It all seemed so futile.

Yuusaku’s chest contorted from sharp, abrupt breaths to long, drawn out heaves. A part of him wanted to approach him, to feel his pulsing body, to make sure he was still alive. He knew he shouldn’t care for the man. He was meant to let go of him by now. Yet, his lingering curiosity compelled him to stay by his side. He wanted to know what he truly felt about his role as a flag bearer.

The loud shouts suddenly dropped into whispers as the soldiers who crowded around Yuusaku halted their movements. Sugimoto could only question what the sudden silence was all about.

It was until Yuusaku’s weak, but alive voice resounded through the tent. Sugimoto felt his mouth go agape. It was sure that he’d die. Glancing at Yuusaku once more, eyes seemed so dim of the light that inspired hope in others. It almost reached out to him as a plea.

Sugimoto wanted to go to Yuusaku, but stopped himself. He was supposed to forget him. He glimpsed at Yuusaku once more. His eyes were now shut and his breathing stabilized into a lull. He dreaded watching him continue to fight for his life—but at this moment, it simply wasn’t possible for anyone to determine whether or not he would see the next day.

As turned to leave, he noticed a man in the distance. His cape was as white as snow and it flowed gently through the winter air. He stared at the horizon with a shot gun in hand. But before he could get a closer look, the man disappeared as if he was never there, leaving Sugimoto by himself once again.

Notes:

Hello! Thank you for reading this! I never made fan-fiction before this fic but I got desperate; (THERE IS BARELY ANY SUGIMOTO x YUUSAKU CONTENT)

I hope to continue this fic but perfectionism and responsibilities exist so no promises!

Also if you have any Sugiyuu content hidden somewhere please notify me.

Edit: I would like to say that if any other chapters are posted, when either Sugimoto or Yuusaku refer back to the scene where Sugimoto meets Yuusaku in hopes of figuring out what he wanted to do in life, it will be referring back to the online version not the volume version. The reason for this is because that panel with the fried shrimp (online version) is what made me love sugiyuu as a ship. The idea that Sugimoto would be the first to confront Yuusaku about his beliefs that he's brainwashed into is so powerful. The character development that Yuusaku could've undergone in that moment... Also I think the online version is just more realistic for that specific situation because the subtly is what makes that scene so impactful (at least to my sugiyuu shipping heart)

(If you want to know the difference, the online version is where Sugimoto contemplates about what Yuusaku knows about his choices in life while the volume version is where Sugimoto slaps Yuusaku and chokes him while screaming about the fried shrimp and Yuusaku needing to choose his own path)