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Night had fallen over Yokohama like a damp blanket, smelling of rusted iron and old salt. The port seemed like a wounded, weary monster, breathing with each wave that crashed against the docks. The heavy air seeped under his fedora, bringing with it the dull echo of distant sirens and the incessant murmur of a city that never slept. Chuuya Nakahara made his way through narrow alleys, his boots echoing with a steady cadence on the wet asphalt. His hands were buried in his coat pockets; the fabric was soggy and heavy against his knuckles. His hat was drenched by the persistent drizzle, but at least it wasn't soaking his eyelids. The rain wasn't heavy, just a constant, annoying veil that clung to everything, making the neon lights of distant districts seem to bleed into the darkness.
The streetlights appeared as tiny artificial auroras in the darkness, casting pools of yellow light on the asphalt. Each reflection twisted the world a little more, as if someone had bent reality with impatient fingers, leaving behind a subtle distortion that irritated Chuuya's senses. It was the kind of night he didn't like, one that foreshadowed trouble. He felt it was a prelude to something unpleasant and sticky. His usual irritation, a constant spark in his chest, flared with every step.
He hated being summoned like this.
He hated the rush, the lack of detailed information, and the aura of secrecy surrounding every mission of this kind. He hated feeling like a pawn in a game whose rules he didn't fully understand. But more than anything, a dense, familiar shadow loomed over him, an omen of disaster that always accompanied a certain presence.
Above all, he detested whom they had summoned him to meet.
The thought of that damned scum made his hair stand on end and turned his stomach. A wave of acid bile rose in his throat. The order had arrived with the shared seal of the Armed Detective Agency and the Port Mafia, announcing a temporary cooperation during the truce. It was like a bad joke that no one dared to laugh out loud at, but which echoed through the corridors of both organizations with an air of doom. It was one of those forced alliances that only brought headaches and the need to shower with bleach afterward.
The preliminary report was brief yet disturbing. It mentioned an unidentified ability user, extreme danger, and a moving target. The corpses had no apparent marks, blood, or signs of a struggle. However, their eyes were open and staring at nothing. It was as if they had seen something that shouldn't exist in this world, an invisible horror that took their breath away without leaving a physical trace. The image of those empty eyes made the hairs on the back of his neck stand on end—a chill unrelated to the rain. The report mentioned "ability interference," "perception distortion," and an unusual pattern: wherever the man appeared, other people's abilities seemed to turn against their owners.
A chill ran down his spine, colder than the drizzle seeping down his neck. Ability interference. The very thought made his nerves tingle. What kind of monster could do that? How was he, a master of gravity, supposed to face someone who could use his own ability against him? Rage and frustration bubbled inside him. Of course, someone in an office with a mind as twisted as the scum waiting for him had decided that only one combination was foolish—or perfect, unfortunately for him—enough to face him. A muffled groan of resignation escaped him, mingling with the sound of distant traffic.
If the moon was somewhere behind the gray clouds, it must have been laughing out loud.
Chuuya didn't need to look at his watch to know he was on time. He knew it the same way he felt gravity pulling at his blood. The chosen location, an abandoned warehouse next to a dead-end railway track, was the kind of decadent, pretentious setting a certain person loved. There was enough drama in the ruins for chance encounters and enough darkness for him to pretend the whole world was a play written with macabre irony just for him. Even before he saw him, the air inside already smelled of him, a mixture of staleness, mold, and the vague sweetness of something dangerously rotten.
The corroded metal door creaked open with a prolonged wail, breaking the silence like a bone. Inside, the smell of dust and wet wood mingled with the melancholy echo of drops falling from an invisible crack in the ceiling. They marked a mournful rhythm on the concrete floor. There, projected like an unshakable silhouette, like an unbreakable habit, was Osamu Dazai.
His figure, wrapped in familiar bandages, stood backlit and leaning with offensive indolence against a rusty iron column. His expression, a blend of beatific calm and existential weariness, did not belong to someone who had survived multiple suicide attempts. Rather, it belonged to a being alien to the miseries of mortality. It was the gaze of a weary god or a bored demon, and it irritated Chuuya to the core.
"You're early," said Dazai. His voice was a soft, mocking melody that echoed in the vast, empty space as if he were the one waiting with infinite patience, not the one dragged there by an "institutional agreement" he hadn't asked for.
Chuuya felt his jaw tense until it hurt. It wasn't just rage running through his veins; it was something worse. It was something more insidious and ingrained. It was something that had been embedded in him for years and refused to be torn out. It was that exasperating feeling that Dazai could say anything—the greatest of stupidities or the deepest of truths—and somehow, the world had to adapt to his tone and his damn whim.
"Don't start," Chuuya blurted out. His voice sounded lower and hoarser than he expected, as if the thick, heavy air itself, filled with Dazai's presence, had absorbed it before it could gain strength. He took a couple of steps, his boots echoing with deliberate determination. The sound was the only tolerable distance between them at that moment. “Tell me what we know. And quickly.”
After everything that happened with Fyodor, they didn't speak again. They didn't even try. There were no calls, no messages, and no encounters of any kind. The Agency and the Port Mafia continued to maintain a truce—more out of convenience than trust—as fragile as a stretched-to-its-limit silk thread, yet strong enough to prevent the world from exploding. Still, Chuuya had learned to live as if Dazai were a functional ghost, a useful presence in the shared reports of both organizations, an absence with a name of its own. So having him in front of him again, so real that he could hear his breathing, seemed almost impossible. It was as if the past had ceased to be a mere shadow and stood solidly in front of him, looking him in the eyes again.
Dazai tilted his head, a barely perceptible movement, yet laden with calculated amusement and childishness that Chuuya found endearing. That slight gesture—that tilt of the neck—pricked Chuuya's memory like a sharp needle: a flash so old that it smelled of mud and dried blood; an image that should have been forgotten, buried under years of resentment.
Fifteen years ago.
It was a different alleyway in the gray suburbs under a stormy sky. Another encounter, equally predestined. A boy with suicidal eyes and a poisonous smile that promised chaos emerged from the shadows. The quick, chaotic confrontation led him to Mori and ended with his entry into the Port Mafia.
When Chuuya first saw Dazai, he didn't think "enemy." Nor did he think "companion." With uncomfortable and disturbing clarity, he thought that this boy was an anomaly: too intelligent for his age, too calm for someone who carried death with him like an invisible coat, and something else entirely.
After that first encounter, working with Dazai was exasperating and irritating, yet fascinating. He saw Dazai move with innate naturalness and without remorse, as if he had long ago decided that other people's lives were just another variable in his calculations. That day, the crack of gunshots cut through the air with insulting clarity. Two, three, four... Chuuya lost count of the detonations. The GSS man slumped to the ground, never to rise again. Chuuya stopped Dazai, kicking his revolver away.
Chuuya remembered the brief flash of the gun and the acrid smell of gunpowder mingling with the humid air. Most of all, he remembered Dazai's expression: not anger or fear, but rather a slight, distracted smile and a crazed look that made his blood run cold. Chuuya felt a mixture of alarm and fascination stir in his stomach because he suddenly understood that this boy was not just an anomaly; he was a disaster with a will of his own.
Without preamble, as if he wanted to throw a stone into calm water just to see how many ripples it could create and how far they would reach, Dazai said something to Chuuya that stuck under his tongue for years, like a splinter that refuses to come out no matter how hard you try. It wasn't romantic or solemn, nor was it a traditional threat. It was simply pure Dazai—a phrase that could be a trap, mockery, or the most sincere confession—and it gave Chuuya a dull, frustrating rage because, for one damn second, he wanted to believe it.
"It must be because I love you."
The echo of that old phrase still rang in his ears at present. Unfazed, as if there were no shared past or invisible scars between them and as if they had not been apart for over a year, Dazai took a folded dossier from the inside pocket of his coat.
He held it with his fingertips as if the whole world could fit in a handful of paper and held it out to Chuuya. "Our man calls himself Kagami Shiro," Dazai explained. His voice took on an analytical tone that made Chuuya's nerves jangle because it meant the demon was operating at full capacity. "Kagami" means mirror.
Isn't that charming? A touch of cheap irony for our villain." However, his ability is much more problematic than his taste for evocative names. As you can see, it's called Black Mirror.”
Chuuya opened the dossier with a sharp cracking sound. The smell of fresh ink mingled with the musty aroma of the warehouse. His eyes scanned the pages, absorbing every detail of the report. The further he read, the more he felt something cold and heavy settle behind his eyes—an uncomfortable pressure that foreshadowed an impending headache. These were not simple murders with a peculiar pattern. They were a macabre choreography, a grotesque display of power. There were places where gravity failed for seconds, leaving objects and bodies in implausible falls. There were walls with marks as if struck from the other side of the air by an invisible force that left its mark without breaking the surface. There were witnesses who, when they managed to stammer something coherent, described seeing their own lives through dirty glass: distorted and alien, with growing despair. The image of those lifeless eyes he had seen in the previous report now took on a new, chilling meaning.
"It reflects abilities" Chuuya murmured, his words barely audible as he chewed on the description in the text. "But not as a duplicate. It doesn't create exact copies. It returns them... distorted. Inverted."
"Exactly, my little thinking slug," Dazai confirmed, the nickname slipping out with that irritating ease he used to use to unsettle Chuuya. Now, however, it had a tone closer to approval than mockery. Chuuya gritted his teeth and ignored him. “It ‘reverses’ them, to put it simply. If someone generates fire, the fire turns inward and incinerates the user. If someone hardens their skin like a shield, it becomes fragile and vulnerable right where it hurts the most. If someone accelerates, their body is left behind and disintegrates from the inertia of their own speed. It's a horrible sight, don't you think? A true work of art of despair."
Chuuya looked up from the dossier. His gaze was filled with a mixture of disbelief and growing concern. His piercing blue eyes sought out Dazai's, demanding answers that the paper could not provide.
"What are we supposed to do? If your nullification doesn't affect him and his ability activates by intention or proximity to us, how can we get close to him without pulverizing ourselves?"
"That's where you come in," Dazai interrupted. For once, his voice sounded serious, with cold, calculated determination, like a sentence handed down long ago, without a trace of mockery or his usual lightheartedness. "He trusts that the enemy's ability will devour itself. It's his trick and his weakness. If you don't cast your ability directly on him, he has nothing to throw back at you, nothing to invest. If I manage to touch him, however, we'll strip him of his trick without the 'Black Mirror' working. Then, you break him. You pulverize him without mercy or thought."
Chuuya clenched the dossier until one of the corners bent and the paper crinkled under the pressure of his gloved fingers. The plan was too simple and direct, yet elegant in its brutality. It was the kind of simplicity that only works when the pieces fit together with disturbing precision, as if designed by a fated entity with a bad temper. Something didn't quite fit—a tiny piece of the puzzle his instincts refused to ignore.
Destiny.
What a pathetic word.
So pompous, so full of cheap excuses. Chuuya growled internally, he didn't believe in destiny. He believed in effort, brute force, and the ability to forge one's own path.
And yet, whenever he was with Dazai and their strategies intertwined with lethal efficiency, Chuuya felt an unbearable truth gnawing inside him: together, they were effective in a way that made him hate himself for admitting it. They formed a strange harmony that turned them into an unstoppable machine of destruction. It was a synchronicity that reminded him too much of times past when that efficiency was the only way to survive.
"Where is he?" Chuuya asked, his voice cutting through the humid air of the warehouse with barely contained impatience. It wasn't a question about his location; it was a demand to start moving in an attempt to free himself from Dazai's suffocating presence.
With that enigmatic smile, a mixture of mockery and absolute knowledge, Dazai leaned back further against the rusty column. The dim light filtering through a broken window played with the shadows on his face, making his normally unreadable eyes seem darker and deeper.
"Constantly on the move, my little hat rack. He's an elusive target. But he leaves crumbs, like a particularly macabre Hansel and Gretel. We've been after him for weeks. I've been tipped off that he's been seen lurking near the old Motomachi theater tonight. If he follows the pattern we've detected, his next move will be to find a place with a large audience, plenty of surveillance to feed his ego, and a lot of despair disguised as entertainment."
"A stage," Chuuya spat, sarcasm spilling from his lips like an involuntary reflex.
Dazai's irony was so contagious that it stuck to his tongue like tar. He hated to admit the truth in his words.
"Exactly! He likes to be looked at. He wants his ‘work’ to be appreciated for all its macabre glory," Dazai added. There was a note of fascination in his voice that Chuuya found particularly repulsive.
The rain, which had been a constant murmur, suddenly hit the roof harder, as if the sky wanted to participate in the drama about to unfold—or perhaps warn them of its proximity. The dull, rhythmic sound filled the brief silence between them, a somber soundtrack to their impending hunt. With a sharp gesture, Chuuya closed the dossier and tucked it under his coat. He felt the weight of the paper against his side, adding to the responsibility he had just accepted.
"Then let's go," he said. The order sounded more definitive than he felt. He didn't allow himself to look too long at Dazai's expression as he turned away.
For a fleeting moment, caught in the gloom and ghostly light of the warehouse, he thought he saw something beneath Dazai's usual mask: an ancient weariness that seemed to weigh down Dazai's shoulders, and a sharp, silent attention in his eyes. It was as if Dazai was no longer joking but measuring the exact distance he would have to throw himself to grab him when, inevitably, everything went to hell.
As always.
That last thought resonated in Chuuya's chest, evoking a familiar bitterness—a blend of resentment and tacit dependence that he loathed admitting.
The road to Motomachi was a parade of shadows, punctuated by the irregular flickering of streetlights and the distorted reflections of puddles on the sidewalks. Chuuya walked a step ahead with his hands clenched in his pockets out of pure habit, pride, and a visceral need to control his surroundings and not give Dazai any space. Dazai walked behind him like a constant presence—a shadow that never quite became a threat or refuge.
Sometimes he spoke, dropping insidious comments or light jokes that made Chuuya growl under his breath. Sometimes he didn't. The silence was worse because in it, Chuuya heard his own mind. His head was a place where Dazai had left too many traces; his past words and actions repeated themselves like an annoying echo, impossible to erase. The silence between them was a minefield of shared memories and unresolved grudges—an inaudible melody only they could hear.
Seventeen years.
The Arahabaki file was on the table. It weighed as much as a tombstone, not just a few pieces of paper. It contained faded photographs of a smoking crater, reports full of scientific jargon that Chuuya barely understood, and official lies with the unmistakable stench of a cover-up. Chuuya remembered reading his anticipated autopsy report: his existence reduced to an experiment, a weapon, a name that wasn't his own—an imposed label that felt like a brand burned into his skin. He remembered the harsh sound of paper under his fingers and the boiling heat rising up his neck. He felt a volcanic rage that wanted to break not only walls but also the entire world around him.
He also remembered Dazai sitting across from him in his usual swivel chair, too calm. His gaze was fixed on Chuuya with a seriousness that was more penetrating than he wanted to admit. It promised understanding but also a veiled threat.
Dazai never consoled him; his methods were always more surgical.
But this time, when the monster inside Chuuya came too close to the surface, threatening to tear the world—and Chuuya—apart, Dazai approached flawlessly. It was as if he knew the exact mechanism of a bomb and how to disarm it. If that failed, he knew how to contain the explosion. His steps were slow and deliberate, like the ticking of a clock before detonation.
"If you lose control, I can stop it."
It wasn't a pretty promise. Nor was it an oath of loyalty or a salve for the soul. It was an unbreakable chain; a sentence that said, "You're bound to me, whether you like it or not." Yet, despite the cold authority of those words, something loosened in Chuuya's chest. It was something he hadn't known he'd been holding in his teeth for as long as he could remember: a primal tension that, for the first time, found possible relief.
It was the recognition of a limit, a perverse certainty.
In the present moment, the sound of his boots on the wet asphalt ceased suddenly. They had reached the perimeter of the old theater. Old police tape, faded by the elements, fluttered languidly in the icy breeze. The lights on the exterior were off; only shadows danced across a row of broken windows, resembling rotten teeth in a dark mouth. At that late hour, the city was a huge, noisy, tired animal trying to fall asleep with its insides vibrating with a sinister energy.
Chuuya stopped dead in his tracks. His survival instinct screamed at him from the back of his neck—that unmistakable tingling sensation, an intuition that had saved his life more times than any formal training or supernatural ability ever had. It was a cold, biting certainty.
"We're not alone," he murmured, his blue eyes scanning every shadow and nook of the building and every whisper of the wind.
"Of course not," replied Dazai, his voice soft and almost like a breath on Chuuya's back. There was a nuance in his voice that Chuuya couldn't interpret. "We never are, with you around."
Chuuya shot him a sharp look laden with silent menace, but he didn't have time to reply or decipher the ambiguity of those words.
A sharp sound, like glass being sharpened to the point of breaking, pierced the air, making his stomach knot. It didn't come from above or below but from the side as if invisible walls were being scraped with a steel nail or an out-of-tune violin were beginning a hellish melody. The theater's massive wooden and metal front door opened without being touched, creating an eerie silence that was more disturbing than any squeak would have been. A black hole formed in the façade, as if it were a portal to darkness.
From that darkness, outlined by the distant city lights, a man emerged. He was tall and thin, and wore a gray haute couture coat that was far too elegant for such a decadent and forgotten place. His face was pale and sculpted with a disturbingly beautiful appearance. However, his eyes were truly terrifying. They did not resemble the eyes of someone alive with curiosity, emotion, or the spark of thought. Rather, they were like a mirror reflecting an image you do not want to recognize—an inanimate reflection laden with an unbearable truth that freezes the soul.
There was no soul in them, only the cold surface of the unreal.
"Chuuya Nakahara," the man said, his voice a caress of silk on stone. In the humid air, his utterance of Chuuya's name sounded like an invasion, an intimate desecration that made his skin crawl. " And Osamu Dazai. Half of Yokohama whispers about you: the rabid dog of the mafia and the bloodhound who changed owners. A legendary duo: Soukoku. "
It had been a long time since Chuuya had heard that name. He felt gravity respond to his irritation, a dull pulse beneath his palms. Small, loose pebbles on the ground trembled slightly, vibrating with his growing fury. The guy's insolence was unheard of.
"Kagami?" Chuuya asked in a low, cavernous growl. There was no doubt, but it was a way of confirming the obvious. It was a label he put on his enemy before destroying him.
The man smiled, an elegant, icy curve that didn't reach his gray eyes.
"Shiro, please! Kagami is for the rumors and the crowd's morbid curiosity. Have you come to kill me? What a disappointment. I was expecting something more substantial from the famous Soukoku. A more elaborate welcome, perhaps a few fireworks."
Dazai stepped forward slowly and casually, keeping his hands in his coat pockets as if he were in a café waiting for an order. His indifference was so obvious that Chuuya felt like pushing him.
"You always expect too much," Dazai replied, his voice honeyed but with a barely perceptible edge. "That explains your obvious problems staying alive, don't you think? Disappointment is your worst enemy.”
Shiro laughed, and the sound echoed and multiplied throughout the vast, empty theater, distorting the perception of distance. Then he raised a hand in a slow, graceful gesture.
Then the world bent.
It wasn't an earthquake or a physical explosion. It was a subtle inversion, an invisible stab at reality. For a second, Chuuya felt as if his body weight was escaping his being. It was a moment of vertigo, where his body didn't know where to put itself or how to anchor itself. Gravity, his most loyal ally, became capricious and treacherous. The ground seemed to push him up and swallow him down at the same time, creating a contradiction that twisted his stomach.
Chuuya reacted on pure instinct, driven by a fierce will to cling to the familiar. He extended his ability—a surge of crimson gravitational energy—to stabilize himself and anchor the reality that was fraying around him. But the instant he did, something dark coiled around his ankles like a liquid shadow—cold and sticky—an invisible trap closing in on him.
Black Mirror.
The force he had tried to use to assert himself and restore order turned against him suddenly and violently. It felt as if someone had grabbed his power and twisted it inward toward his bones. Chuuya growled, clenching his teeth in rage and pain. He felt a sharp, unfamiliar stabbing pain in his joints that reminded him this was no game.
Was this what his victims felt when he used gravity?
"Don't use your ability directly," Dazai warned. His voice was an offensive note of calm in the chaos, too calm. It was as if he were observing a fascinating chemical reaction rather than a mortal threat to his partner.
"Shut up!" Chuuya spat, the word torn from his lungs. He forced himself to move with brute force, with pure muscle and the human rage burning in his gut. He leapt to the side, defying capricious gravity as he dodged a second wave of distortion that tore splinters from the theater doorframe as if they were rice paper. The material pulverized with a dry, terrifying sound.
Shiro smiled so widely that it seemed to split his face in two. He took a step back, retreating into the darkness of the theater. He beckoned to them with a gesture that Chuuya thought looked identical to someone opening a trap cage.
"Come on, I want to see you in action. I want to see that bond everyone talks about so fervently, that intimate, almost symbiotic dependence. You're supposed to be the pinnacle of efficiency, right? Prove it to me."
Chuuya followed him without hesitation, the sound of his boots firm on the decrepit threshold, because he had no choice. His pride, forged through battles and survival, knew no such word as “back down.” Because his blood, when Dazai was dangerously close, became a revved-up engine that understood only the word “win,” a machine of pure will.
The interior of the theater was a monumental skeleton. The seats, covered in a blanket of dust and cobwebs, looked like ghosts of a forgotten audience. The velvet curtains, once sumptuous, now hung torn and faded like open wounds. The stage, the heart of the scene, was sunk in oppressive shadows. And yet, inside, Shiro's skill seemed to resonate with amplified force, the very air vibrating with a strange energy. Each breath had a distinct echo, as if the oxygen multiplied in layers, distorting sound and perception. The atmosphere was a disorienting trick of sound and mirrors.
Chuuya advanced down the central aisle, his senses on high alert. He felt as if the immense, empty space was watching him and as if every shadow could hide a threat. Dazai walked one step behind him to his left, his hands still in his pockets. He looked around with a lazy attentiveness that was, in reality, impeccable precision; his eyes scanned every detail with a speed that exasperated Chuuya.
"Remember," Dazai murmured, his voice barely audible above the mournful murmur of the wind seeping through the cracks, "I'll touch it first. Then you do your thing. Crush it."
Chuuya let out a dry, humorless laugh. The harsh sound in his own throat was an outlet for the built-up tension.
"What if you don't make it, bastard? What if it turns around before you can touch it? Then what? Do I just stand here and watch my ability blow up in my face?"
Dazai glanced at him sideways. Their eyes met for a brief moment in the dim light. In the smile that appeared on the Prodigy Demon's lips, there was something neither comical nor mocking, nor even the usual cynicism. Chuuya recognized it with a cold twinge in his chest—a familiarity that turned his stomach—pure, unbreakable determination.
"I'll be there."
That single word, spoken with absolute certainty, pierced his chest like an old bullet, reopening the wound. It reminded him of another farewell and another deep wound that had not yet healed completely.
When Dazai left.
Chuuya could still vividly recall that day, every detail burned into his memory like a personal betrayal: Mori's office, the unmistakable smell of tobacco and old papers, and the rumor spreading through the hallways like wildfire: "Dazai deserted." "Dazai took off." Yet, no one had said anything to him. No one gave him the chance to insult Dazai to his face, grab him by the lapel of his stupid trench coat, and demand answers he knew would never come.
They had stolen him away. The other half of Soukoku—the part that exasperated him and yet completed him in battle—was simply gone overnight. He left without saying goodbye or a word.
The worst part wasn't the anger. Anger suited him well; it was comfortable armor that he knew well. The worst part was the feeling of emptiness and abrupt tearing, as if a vital piece of his body had been ripped out. His body, stupid and stubborn, managed to walk on pure inertia and stubbornness, unable to recognize its own mutilation.
That night, Chuuya drank. With trembling hands and a silent rage consuming him, he uncorked a bottle that he had been saving for a momentous occasion—a celebration that would now never come. It was a 1964 Romanée-Conti, the finest red wine in the world. It was the most expensive and exclusive red wine, a nectar fit for kings, which he would normally only share with those he considered worthy or who did not deserve his wrath. Its earthy richness filled the room, deep and complex like his pain.
He drank alone, sip after sip, feeling the fiery liquid descend his throat. With each sip, he expressed the bitterness and pent-up rage at his former partner's departure, seeking to fill the void. It was a farewell ritual he had been unable to have: a solitary communion with betrayal. The empty bottle at dawn was a monument to their breakup, a silent testament to the glacial loneliness imposed on him within the organization. It was as if Dazai's departure had torn away not only a part of him but also his place in the world. Yet, in the midst of his deepest drunkenness, the only thing that hurt him was an unbearable, childish idea: an unanswered question that repeated itself endlessly.
Why didn't you tell me?
Kagami Shiro stood at the center of the sunken stage, extending both hands with chilling grace. He looked like a director about to raise the curtain on the main act of his macabre play.
"You want a show?" his voice echoed, amplified by the theater's strange acoustics. "I'll give you one. A ballet of despair, courtesy of your own virtues."
Suddenly, the air filled with myriad dark reflections, like fragments of polished glass suspended in space, spinning and multiplying in the gloom. They were not tangible objects, but rather, possibilities: ghostly images of movements that could occur and decisions that could be made. Chuuya saw his own body lunge forward with uncontrollable fury for a fleeting second. Then, he saw the same impulse recoil, an image of himself being repelled by an invisible force. It was as if the stage itself rejected and vomited him out. The ability didn't just reverse the force applied to it; it anticipated. It was a mirror that predicted the reflection—a tactical nightmare.
Chuuya felt a familiar heat rise in his stomach—a fire not just of anger, though rage bubbled up, intense and corrosive—but also of that dangerous energy living close to Arahabaki, like a wild animal eager to taste chaos and be unleashed. His knuckles stung and his muscles tensed, ready for the explosion.
"Chuuya," Dazai said in a firm, tense voice, yet with a supernatural calm that cut through Chuuya's mental noise. "No."
It wasn't an order in the usual sense but rather a reminder, an invisible string pulling him back with just enough force to keep him from rushing forward and letting the animal inside him run wild. Chuuya clenched his fists, his leather gloves creaking under the pressure. Adrenaline surged through him, but Dazai's voice, against all odds, kept him anchored to reality.
"Then move, bastard," he snapped. The growl in his voice was a mixture of rage and an implicit plea.
Dazai did.
With an agility that always seemed improvised, he lunged toward the stage like a puppet without strings. Yet he was never clumsy. Each movement was fluid and calculated, a poem of evasion. Shiro twisted his wrist, and the "mirrors" in the air closed in on Dazai like invisible blades or glass traps waiting to catch their prey. But Dazai didn't slow down. He dropped and rolled with the momentum of a cat, getting closer to Shiro, his clear, fixed target.
It was a hypnotic and dangerous dance.
Chuuya saw the precise moment when one of those liquid shadows grazed Dazai's body. It wasn't a visible wound or a cut. It was a strange sensation, like a loss. For a moment, Dazai's outline doubled and blurred as if reality itself didn't know which version to keep. It was as if Dazai had blinked out of existence for a moment. It was a chilling vision of vulnerability.
Without thinking or processing it, driven by something older and more visceral than reasoning, Chuuya took a step forward. Gravity yielded beneath his boots as his blood boiled.
Rage rose in him like fire, a scorching wave that consumed him completely. Not out of compassion or moralistic heroism. It was out of something much darker and more honest that struck his chest with the force of a punch. The world, Shiro, his ability—no one—had the right to touch Dazai like that. To blur his existence as if he were an ephemeral object that could be broken without consequence, without paying a brutal price.
"Dazai!" The cry burst from his lungs, torn and primal—more a threat than a warning; a declaration of personal war.
Dazai did not respond to Chuuya's bloodcurdling scream. Instead, his agile, cobra-like hand sought Shiro's coat, the fabric that would nullify the enemy's ability through physical contact. It was a desperate dance of evasion and pursuit.
Shiro smiled, his ebony and ivory face lit up with sadistic amusement, enjoying it.
"Ah, this. This is what I wanted. The climax of the play, isn't it?"
Shiro's voice was sweet poison. Without waiting any longer and regardless of the danger, Chuuya leaped toward the stage. His body moved by pure inertia and momentum. He didn't activate his ability. Every fiber of his being, every tense muscle, and every cell cried out to reach Shiro. He moved among the dark reflections remaining suspended in the air, ghostly images trying to predict his trajectory and movements wanting to be deflected. He succeeded, making his way through that minefield of possibilities because his hatred was faster than logic and more instinctive than any mental trap.
His visceral determination was an unstoppable weapon.
He reached Shiro in an instant and drove a brutal punch into his jaw. The blow was the raw manifestation of his pent-up rage, without elegance, just brute force unleashed on Shiro's pale face. The sound of the impact was sharp, like a mallet striking a log, and it reverberated through the empty theater. Shiro took a step back — barely a blink — absorbing the force. Then, his smile widened, filled with perverse satisfaction.
He had gotten exactly what he wanted.
"Good," he whispered, his breath smelling of victory. "Now..."
The world turned upside down again, but this time, it wasn't gravity that twisted, it was pain. Chuuya felt the force of his own blow return inside him as if every nerve, muscle, and bone in his arm had taken the impact from the opposite direction, from the inside out. It was a wrenching, visceral pain that spread throughout his body like an electric shock. His vision blurred with a crimson veil of agony, and his teeth ground together, making a guttural sound he could barely contain.
"Shit..." The word escaped his lips in an agonized whisper. It wasn't just a reflection of his abilities; they knew that now.
Impassive, Shiro raised his hand once more to finish him off. His gaze promised an even crueler, more painful reversal. Chuuya knew with icy clarity, piercing the fog of his pain, that they would lose if he continued like this, if he tried to use his ability in a conventional way. Despite all his agility, Dazai couldn't touch Shiro because he was using space — the very logic of distance — as an impenetrable shield. Any ability used against him would become a poisonous boomerang, ensuring self-destruction.
Then, in the darkest depths of his mind, something began to laugh. An ancient, powerful laugh, a promise of absolute power and madness.
Corruption.
That word wasn't a plan; it was a sentence. It was like opening a door that would not close on its own once opened. It was the monster that swallowed his name, his conscience, and his humanity. It turned him into an uncontrollable force, a weapon without equal. It was the last, most desperate, and most dangerous option. Chuuya pressed his lips together until he tasted blood, the metallic iron of despair mingling with adrenaline. The internal struggle was fierce.
"No..." he murmured, his voice raspy and barely audible, more of a moan than a word. It was a silent plea against the inevitable annihilation of his own being.
Twenty-two years.
The memory of Lovecraft rose in his mind like a monstrous wave, bringing with it the salty, metallic taste of despair. It was an abyss that rose like a colossal beast with enormous tentacles that tore trees apart like toys. It was a primal will that did not understand the word "death," a hair-raising horror that defied all logic. Chuuya had been at the epicenter of that chaos, fighting with everything he had. His gravitational power struggled against an entity that laughed at the laws of physics.
In the midst of the maelstrom, amid the thunder of blows and whistling wind, Dazai watched him. His clear, discordant laughter echoed above the monster-man's roar, as if life itself were a macabre joke written just for him. Dazai trusted that Chuuya would do the impossible. No matter how immense the threat, he trusted that Chuuya would find a way to push the limits because he always did. Chuuya hated the blind faith Dazai placed in him, the trust he gave without asking permission or recognizing the price.
And yet, he needed him. He needed him then, and he needed him now. Ironically, that unshakeable conviction of Dazai's was the only anchor that kept him sane in the abyss of his own power and the only reason he dared to go beyond what he thought was possible.
Another, more recent and vivid image overlapped in his mind: the confrontation with Shibusawa and the dragon, drenched in fog and poison. The suffocating mist that erased the world. This time, Chuuya threw himself in without hesitation, activating Corruption and feeling the world disintegrate under his unleashed power. Every cell in his body burned with the energy of the dark god. He had unleashed Arahabaki, knowing that if Dazai—his only security, his only chain, his only means of returning from that hell—died, he too would die, consumed by his own ability because no one else could extinguish it.
And yet, he threw himself into it.
There were things his pride could deny and his mouth could refute with insults and sarcasm, but his body could not. His blood, bones, and soul resonated with the undeniable truth: Dazai was his limit, his anchor, and his counterweight. The other half of an equation that, as much as he hated it, was the only thing that kept him whole and alive.
Kagami Shiro stood at the center of the stage, a cold smile twisted into a grimace of triumph as he approached Chuuya. His ability shimmered around him like a dark, threatening mirror; its limits were invisible yet palpable.
"What's up, Nakahara?" he whispered, his voice dripping with calculated contempt. "Weren't you the mafia's rabid dog? Weren't you the little god who crushes everything under his boots? Or is your partner the only leash that works for you?"
Chuuya heard Dazai say his name again, closer and more urgent this time. It was almost as if Dazai were beside him. His breathing was heavy from the effort of dodging Shiro's attacks.
"Chuuya."
This time, the word was more than just a name. It was a code, an order that only the two of them could decipher. It was a pact sealed in blood and battle. Chuuya understood the subtext burned into his soul:
If you do it, don't fail me.
If you do it, don't make me late.
If you do, make sure there's nothing left.
I trust you.
Chuuya looked up, his blue eyes now clouded with anger and pain, and met Dazai's gaze. He saw Dazai standing a few feet away, his chest heaving violently and his brown eyes fixed on Chuuya with a naked, raw intensity that was anything but mocking. It was a look full of absolute confidence and an implicit need that Chuuya recognized as his own.
Chuuya felt something break inside him: an ancient dam giving way to pressure; the chains binding him to sanity disintegrating. It was the price—the only currency with which he could pay for the power he was about to unleash.
"Tch..." he rasped. His voice trembled with volcanic rage seeking an outlet. It felt like he was tearing his skin off. "I hate you, bastard."
It wasn't true; he knew that. Surely Dazai knew it, too. But it was the only way his pride could express the gravity of what he was about to do. It was worse than a lie; it was a mask that had stuck to his skin for too long, a disguise incinerated by the fire of his decision. The power ignited in his stomach, not like a flame but like an eruption of a black sun, devouring everything in its path.
"O acquaintances, grantors of dark disgrace, do not wake me again."
The words did not come out as human sounds, but rather as an ancient roar—a primordial vibration that shook the theater's very foundation. The air turned crimson and became heavy and dense as if the entire world were bleeding through an invisible wound that only the transformed Chuuya could see and feel. Dust rose in a scarlet whirlwind from the floor, and shadows distorted in the darkness.
Arahabaki took control.
Chuuya ceased to be "Chuuya," the man, the yakuza, and the bearer of the ability. He became a gravitational force incarnate, pure annihilation in motion. The pressure in the air became unbearable, consuming the space around him. The stage creaked and groaned under the unleashed energy. The dust-covered seats rose into the air without being touched. They floated for a moment and then pulverized into a shower of splinters and dirt. The stone pillars of the theater cracked and the ceiling shook. Shiro's dark mirrors shook violently in an attempt to reverse a power that did not understand the word "reverse" because it was, by definition, a breach of all laws, a denial of reality.
Until then, Shiro had maintained his imperturbable smile. But now, he opened his eyes with genuine, overwhelming fear for the first time. The arrogant gleam disappeared, replaced by visceral terror.
"No..." he whispered, his voice barely audible, drowned out by the destructive force he had just unleashed. This was a force that, for the first time, he could neither control nor comprehend.
Arahabaki lunged forward.
It was not a movement, but rather the very embodiment of unleashed annihilation. Chuuya Nakahara had become a crimson whirlwind, a primal force devouring the space around it. The already cracked ground beneath its feet pulverized into fine dust and was swept away by an invisible wind. The theater, which had stood like a skeleton seconds before, shook to its foundations, groaning under the pressure of a power that defied matter itself.
The fight was brutal; there was no strategy or skillful fencing. It was a titanic clash, a collision of two fundamental laws of existence taken to the extreme. There was Shiro, who sought to bend reality with the malice of an illusionist and his subtle, omnipresent distortion. Then there was Chuuya's dark god, Arahabaki, who tore the hinges from that same reality with the fury of an uncontrolled titan. With every blow and movement, Chuuya deformed the space around him. The air contracted and expanded with visible pulses, screaming a sound not of this world, a lament from the very fabric of the universe. The ceiling broke off in pieces; entire seats were sucked into gravity points that formed and dissolved in the blink of an eye; and the walls turned into unstable putty. It was as if the entire theater were being chewed by an invisible beast.
Chuuya existed as a tiny speck within himself, a grain of dust trapped in an ocean of crimson fury. He felt power like liquid fire beneath his skin, beautiful in its magnitude and intoxicating in its omnipotence. A part of his mind—the part that still remembered his name and humanity—screamed, begged, and implored him to stop. There were people outside, innocent people who would be caught up in the cataclysm. The theater was collapsing, and so was he, Chuuya Nakahara, disintegrating with every second of this possession. His very essence was diluting, his memories blurring, and his bonds—even the hatred that defined him—fading into insignificance.
But Arahabaki did not stop. He did not listen to pleas.
Arahabaki only destroyed.
Shiro had tried to reflect the fury of corruption, but he encountered a force that was not a "power" as he knew it. It was a fundamental law. The mirror of his ability did not bend; it shattered. Chuuya's unstoppable power, without a point of origin to reflect, crushed Shiro against the stage with the force of a meteorite. Shiro felt like a puppet with broken strings or an insignificant insect under the weight of a god. The man coughed, his body convulsing obscenely, and blood stained his lips a color too vivid and real for his pale, ethereal face. The reflection of his own death was painted on his mouth.
"So...that's how it is," Shiro gasped, his voice barely audible above the roar of destruction. And yet, delirious and with glazed eyes from the impact, he smiled. "The other half..."
Unmoved by words or resistance, Arahabaki raised a hand, shrouded in the scarlet darkness of uncontrolled gravity, to deliver the final blow. It was not a fist, but the will to annihilate. All that remained of the theater and Shiro himself was about to be reduced to nothing.
Absolute destruction.
Chuuya's mind, identity, and consciousness faded into the red tide, another victim of his own weapon. The world was tinged with emptiness.
Then, as always, the unbreakable and inevitable occurred. What always rescued Chuuya when he fell too deep into the abyss of his own power, appeared: a touch.
A warm, firm hand on his skin. It was neither a rough grip nor an authoritative push. It was neither strong nor violent. It was simply...inevitable. As much as the cycle of the tides; as fundamental as the gravity that defined it. Dazai's fingertips rested on his wrist like a human anchor in the eye of a storm.
With an audible sigh, the ability faded, like a flame smothered by a gale. An eerie silence lingered in its wake. The red of the world—the bloody crimson that had stained every fiber of reality—was forcibly withdrawn. Fury and omnipotence were dragged with it, leaving behind a brutal void and a desolation that hurt more than power ever could.
Chuuya fell to his knees, powerless. The impact echoed on the concrete floor. He panted, breathing in gasps as if he had just returned from a place where air did not exist and oxygen was a distant memory. His throat burned, rough and torn, and his entire body shook uncontrollably from the hangover of power; every muscle vibrated with extreme exhaustion. The rain, now pouring more heavily through the theater's broken roof, hit his face—cold and real—a welcome shock that brought him back to consciousness.
Dazai crouched beside him, his slender figure contrasting with the colossus that Chuuya had just been. The prodigy demon's hand still held his wrist, a point of heat and pressure. There was no trace of his usual condescension; his expression was strangely serious. His eyes, usually veiled by amusement or boredom, stared at Chuuya with a fixity he had rarely witnessed before, completely disarming him.
Chuuya looked up with effort. His vision was blurred and the world was spinning slowly. Dazai's face, inches from his own, was the only clear thing in the surrounding chaos.
"Did you make it...?" he murmured. The question was barely more than a whisper, and the sound broke without permission. It was tinged with a vulnerability he would hate to remember.
Dazai looked at him, his dark eyes fixed on Chuuya's as if the obvious question were offensive. A hint of something—irritation, relief, concern?—flashed across his face in a small gesture.
"I told you," Dazai replied in a low voice, stripped of any irony and laden with an undeniable truth.
Chuuya swallowed painfully. His mind struggled to regain control and formulate a scathing retort. He wanted to pull Dazai's hand away, insult him with every epithet he could think of, and regain his mask of indifference and contempt. But the uncontrollable trembling of his hands betrayed him. Exhaustion overwhelmed him; every part of his body ached as if he had been thrown against the world over and over again until he was left breathless. The delayed fear that only appears after the danger has passed and life reasserts itself began to rise in his chest. It was the fear of what could have happened, the fear of what had almost happened.
The villain lay motionless on the rubble of the stage, a pathetic and defeated figure, his blood diluting in puddles of water and dust. Defeated. The theater, which, seconds before, had been an arena of destruction, had been transformed into silent ruins. It was all over. Yet Chuuya felt the worst was yet to come: the brutal silence after the storm would leave room for unspoken words, buried resentments, and deepest fears to stir and cry out to be heard.
Dazai shifted slightly without moving too far; his presence was a constant weight at his side. The relentless rain wet his dark fringe and fell over his eyes. His bandages were soaked and dirty, seeming more human and less theatrical, stripped of their usual neatness.
"You always jump in without thinking," Dazai said. His voice, though low, cut through the air with a hurtful familiarity. In his tone, Chuuya sensed something resembling concern, a note Dazai rarely showed. It was a crack in his wall, even when you know the price. Even when you let yourself be completely consumed.
Chuuya let out a hoarse, harsh laugh that hurt his throat.
"And you?" he replied, his voice weak and broken as if the Corruption was still taking its toll on him. He was a heartbeat away from fainting. “You always pretend that nothing matters to you. As if you could disappear whenever you wanted. As if your actions had no consequences for others."
Dazai's eyes narrowed. For the first time all night, his mask of indifference completely cracked, revealing the relentless hardness beneath. A chill ran down Chuuya's spine because that expression was more dangerous than any mockery.
"I already did," Dazai said slowly and quietly, his voice piercing Chuuya like an icy knife. "And I left you behind."
Chuuya stood motionless, time suspended in the humid air.
That confession was small and almost insignificant in words, but when uttered by Dazai with his icy frankness, it was an earthquake. Chuuya felt an ancient rage stir within him with renewed force. He had tried to bury it under years of contempt and denial, but now it desperately sought an outlet, seeking screams and revenge.
He then remembered the last time they had worked together. The simulation of death, the deception, the confrontation with Fyodor, the feeling of having Dazai's blood on his hands—even if it was a lie—the humiliation of being a pawn that Dazai always controlled with exasperating mastery. Yet, what rose to his throat, burning and tightening his chest, was not an insult. It was pain. A pain so pure and raw that it took his breath away.
"You have no right," Chuuya whispered, his voice breaking, fragile and almost inaudible above the dripping rain. "You have no right to make me feel this way. To leave me with half of something and expect me to shut up. To not care."
Dazai watched him motionlessly, his eyes fixed on Chuuya, as if each of his words were a tightening string, threatening to snap but also forming a stronger bond.
“What do you feel?” Dazai asked. His voice was too soft and curious for the context, a dangerous invitation to vulnerability.
Chuuya squeezed his eyes shut so tightly that he saw stars, as if he could erase the world—erase Dazai, erase all the pain. When he opened his eyes again, the rain had washed some of the blood from the corner of his mouth, leaving his skin exposed and vulnerable.
"I hate you," he repeated. But now it sounded like surrender, an acceptance of his bondage rather than a declaration of war. "Because you're an idiot. Because you're cruel. Because you always have a way out, a plan B, an escape. Ever since I was fifteen, you've looked at me as if you knew me better than I knew myself. As if you knew what I was before I did."
Dazai let out a slight, almost imperceptible sigh; the sound was lost in the echo of the rain. He leaned in close enough for Chuuya to feel his warmth through the wet coat. It was a proximity that felt like an invasion.
"Chuuya," he said. In that mouth, his name was no longer a mocking nickname, but rather spoken in a sweetly lethal way. It was something more intimate, like a confession in itself. "You saved me, even when it meant dying with me."
Chuuya swallowed, feeling a painful lump in his throat. His fingers trembled; the blood still buzzed in his veins.
"Don't say it like that," he murmured, his voice tense as he felt the immense weight of those words.
"It's the truth."
Dazai raised his hand slowly—so slowly that it seemed like an eternity to Chuuya—and brushed the brim of his hat, adjusting it with unexpected delicacy. It was as if that gesture could restore the dignity and stability that Corruption had taken from him. Chuuya froze, unable to move. He hated how easy it was for such a simple, fleeting touch to disarm him, stripping away his defenses as if they had never existed.
"Do you know what our problem is, Chuuya?" Dazai continued in a low, thoughtful voice, a slight smile reflecting a trace of melancholy that Chuuya found more disturbing than any mockery. "No one taught us how to exist without war, how to breathe without the tension of battle or constant threat. We have been tolos… and tools have no purpose without something to break."
Chuuya clenched his teeth as exhaustion and frustration battled the last sparks of his anger. The forced intimacy of the situation pushed him to his limit.
"Don't start with your cheap poetry, Dazai. I'm too tired for your existential metaphors."
"It's not poetry. It's..." Dazai paused. That pause was not silence. He perceived it as an abyss. It was a void laden with meaning, where only the harshest truth could fit. "It's fate, Chuuya."
Chuuya let out a bitter laugh, a hollow sound lost in the ruined theater. The insolence of the statement coming from Dazai infuriated him. His body was so sore and tired that he didn't have the strength to argue.
"Fate? You? The suicidal skeptic who defies death at every turn?" Although his voice was tinged with sharp sarcasm, inside he felt like he was breaking "Don't fuck with me, Dazai. What the hell does that mean?"
Dazai looked at him with a seriousness that hurt. His gaze was so penetrating that it pierced through Chuuya's layers of exhaustion and anger, reaching a place he rarely dared expose.
"Our destiny is not to separate, Chuuya. That's a mistake. Our destiny is to die together. To face the end of the world side by side."
The phrase should have sounded sickening and made him feel nauseous. It should have sounded like one of Dazai's suicidal jokes, meant to make people uncomfortable or hide his own fear. But this time, it wasn't. It was a straightforward statement of a raw and undeniable truth, terrible in its absolute and inescapable fatality. It was the confession of a connection transcending hatred, dependence, and life itself.
"I won't let anything happen to you," Dazai added. His voice was so low and stripped of all artifice that it seemed to belong only to the two of them, an oath whispered amid the devastation. "Not again. Not like... that time."
Chuuya felt his chest burn with a mix of emotions and the weight of those words, laden with their shared past. He wanted to respond with anger or sarcasm, anything to regain control of the situation and his emotions. He wanted to drown out the buzzing of "that time" in his head. But all that came out was a faint thread of honesty that he barely recognized as his own.
"What if you mock me?" Chuuya whispered. The question was an exposed vulnerability, a childish fear he refused to voice aloud or ask to be comforted about. "What if you laugh at me for believing you?"
Dazai blinked, genuine surprise crossing his face. It was a rare reaction, perhaps he not something he expected to hear from Chuuya. It was a glimpse of the insecurity the younger man hid under layers of arrogance. With Chuuya, fear was always disguised as anger or bravado. It was easy to ignore, easy to dismiss as usual irritation.
But Dazai saw it. He leaned in closer, reducing the distance between them to nothing. His face was inches from Chuuya's, his dark eyes probing his. The redhead felt Dazai's warm breath mingle with his own despite the cold, persistent rain that still fell on them. The smell of dampness and Shiro's blood mingled with the subtle scent of Dazai's bandages and the warmth of his skin.
"I won't," Dazai replied in a low murmur, the most sincere tone Chuuya had heard from him in years.
The closeness, the seriousness on his face, and the absence of mockery hit Chuuya with the force of a revelation. It was the end of an era of denial and the beginning of something new and terrifyingly real.
Without asking permission or saying another word, Dazai closed the last distance between them and kissed him.
It was not a gentle contact, but rather a collision, a head-on impact. It was the kind of kiss that didn't ask for permission because it didn't know how. Years of fierce rivalry, performative hatred, and undeniable complicity built up tension that exploded in their faces like a point-blank shot. Rivalry had turned into hunger, and rage had turned into a primal devouring need, obscene in its clarity. The worst part was that they both knew it at the same time: this was not a mistake. It was something they had pretended not to hear for too long.
Dazai's lips were warm against his, a stark contrast to the cold rain that drenched their faces. That warmth wasn't tenderness. It was a challenge that tasted like a trap and truth. Chuuya froze for a heartbeat, every muscle on high alert. His brain tried to process the invasion and audacity of that indecent intimacy while his senses clung to the contact as if they had been waiting for it for years. It was as if the whole world had betrayed him in the most intimate and personal way with the complicity of his own body. A flash of adrenaline buzzed in his veins, running from the back of his neck to the tips of his toes. He was left all too aware of Dazai's breath sticking to his, mixing and tangling like a secret shared in a whisper.
Chuuya tried to react as usual. Push him. Insult him. Do the right thing: smash his face in. But his mouth and body didn't obey. That was the greatest humiliation. He responded before deciding to, as if every nerve and cell had known the answer for too long, keeping it deep in his physical memory. His resistance crumbled as easily as the theater's ruins gave way under the rain, an old structure that seemed solid until you touched it. Chuuya felt pure hurtful anger at that, and it fueled the kiss, making it harder and more demanding as if he could punish Dazai by surrendering to him.
The kiss deepened. It became demanding and enveloping. Suddenly, it was no longer just mouth against mouth. It was pressure. It was breath caught between gasps. It was the way Dazai sought him out, as if he couldn't afford to let him go. Chuuya felt with unbearable clarity that Dazai wasn't kissing him on a whim or for fun, even though Dazai always played. There was a controlled urgency and an almost desperate insistence that didn't ask for forgiveness; it demanded it. It was as if he were saying, "Stop lying to yourself," without using a single word.
Then, as if it were a calculated provocation, Dazai's tongue brushed against his. First, it was a brief, almost mocking touch—a test—and then it was slower and more decisive, more intimate than any fight between them had ever been. Their tongues met and parted, seeking each other out again. They danced between the rain and their gasps. Chuuya felt the warm, shared moisture gathering between them as if the water of the world had been trapped right there and now belonged to them both. It was a sticky, vivid heat that disarmed him from within, tensing his abdomen and loosening his knees with silent violence.
Dazai's hands didn't hold him brutally; rather, they anchored him with chilling precision. One hand remained on his wrist, its heat seeping through the wet fabric. The other hand rested on the back of his neck, its long fingers tangling in his damp hair. His thumb caressed that sensitive skin as if he knew exactly where his control would break. Chuuya felt a chill run down his spine. He hated that the touch was firm and tender at the same time. He hated that it wasn't possessive yet still had the weight of something claimed. It was as if Dazai feared that he might escape on a surge of wounded pride, as if he knew him too well.
Chuuya tried to bite Dazai's lip—a minimal gesture, almost a punishment—but it turned into something else: a desperate attempt to hold on and not fall apart completely. He parted his mouth just enough to breathe, but the air got stuck halfway because Dazai pursued him even there. Dazai denied him distance, brushing the corner of Chuuya's mouth as if laughing at his attempt to compose himself. Chuuya felt the soft click of saliva when they broke contact. Rain slid down their faces. Dazai's breath pressed against the edge of Chuuya's lips. It stole his breath and gave it back to him. Breathing turned into an exchange of something more intimate. The addictive taste of rain, skin, and that incomprehensible "Dazai" scent ignited his throat and rose to his chest like a flame.
Then he felt what was truly unforgivable.
At last.
At last, he had him so close. There was no insult to mask and no fight to excuse. His body could finally admit what his mouth had denied for years. With his pride shattered and heart pounding against his ribs like a caged animal, he was ready. For a moment, everything else—the collapsed theater, the mission, and the anger of yesteryear—became a distant noise. Only the rain, the heat of Dazai's mouth against his, the shared moisture, and that desperate insistence disarming him right where he thought he was most invincible remained.
Chuuya, with fury trembling in his fingers, understood that this was the only thing more dangerous than hating him. He pushed Dazai away with a short shove, not hard enough to knock him down but hard enough to make him catch his breath and regain his dignity. Or at least try to.
They stood a few inches apart, breathing the same air and feeling the same rain. Chuuya's red, shiny lips were parted, and his chest rose and fell at a pace that betrayed him more than any confession ever could. Dazai, on the other hand, smiled slightly, that slight curve that always promised disaster. His fingers did not leave Chuuya's neck. They loosened just enough to appear innocent but remained there like a reminder.
"Ah..." Dazai murmured in a low, purring voice, sounding almost amused. "For a second there, I thought you were going to pretend this disgusts you again."
The phrase was poison and mockery. Yet, beneath it, there was something else: a possessive tension and a hidden "don't leave" behind the sarcasm, as if irony were the only way he could avoid begging. Chuuya held his gaze with burning eyes, furious at how quickly his pulse raced and how easily he stayed anchored to him.
"Shut up," he spat, but the word came out rough and broken by his breathing.
Dazai tilted his head and studied him as if he were a riddle whose answer he already knew. His fingers tightened a millimeter on the back of his neck, preventing him from escaping with insulting gentleness.
"If you pull away now," he whispered, his breath brushing his lips, "I swear I'll follow you until you look at me and stop lying."
Chuuya's jaw tightened. Anger rose in his throat like a hot blow: Dazai had the monstrous talent of putting his finger right where it hurt and calling it "truth."
"Possessive?" Chuuya blurted out with a brief, humorless laugh. "What a surprise. Was that part of the grand plan too?"
Dazai's smile narrowed dangerously. For a moment, he seemed about to say something worse, something that would destroy his pride completely. Instead, he leaned closer, as if the distance between them were intolerable.
"No," he said very softly. "You're the only thing I don't want to share with anyone."
Chuuya felt the words pierce his chest with cruel precision. It hurt. He liked it. It made him want to hit and kiss him again with the same intensity with which he defended himself against his feelings.
So he did.
He grabbed Dazai by his soaked lapel, pulling him close with a sharp tug. He demanded the kiss as if it were both punishment and confession. Their lips collided again, and this time, Chuuya didn't remain rigid. He opened up to Dazai with a rabid, wet need, pulling him in as if to make up for every year of silence. Their tongues met again, more confident and hungry, chasing each other between gasps and rain. Chuuya felt Dazai exhale against his mouth—a small, satisfied sound, as if he had won.
Chuuya hated him for it. Still, he didn't pull away.
"Don't get confused," Chuuya murmured against his lips, pulling away just enough for the words to stick wetly to the corner of his mouth. "This doesn't mean you have permission to do whatever you want."
Dazai's hand reasserted itself on the back of Chuuya's neck, steady and stubborn. His mouth sought Chuuya's out again with that controlled insistence that disarmed him.
"I never asked for permission, Chuuya," he whispered. He kissed Chuuya as if the rest of the world finally didn't matter anymore.
Chuuya felt the weight of those words, “I never asked for permission,” as if a blade had been run across his throat. He would have liked to respond with a punch, with something that would bring him back to familiar ground. But all he felt was Dazai's mouth seeking him out again: insistent and confident. It was as if Dazai knew that Chuuya had already crossed a line, and now the only thing left was to resist out of pride. So, Chuuya chose the only thing that still seemed to be his: control.
He returned the kiss with contained violence and rage, feeling a wave of heat spread throughout his body and grow uncontrollably in his belly. In the midst of the pressure, he bit Dazai briefly, hard enough to elicit a muffled sound and a brief pause. It was a reminder that he would not be dominated so easily. The metallic taste came immediately, mixed with the rain and the heat of their mouths. Chuuya felt the blood like a spark on the edge of his lips. For a moment, that sensation brought him back to a fierce lucidity. He pulled his face away slightly, breathing heavily, his eyes burning.
"Don't provoke me," he murmured. The threat broke in his breath, enraging him further.
Dazai watched him with a calmness that was an insult. His dark, dilated eyes looked at him hungrily. A barely sketched smile adorned his beautiful face, his lower lip marked and a red thread mixing with the water. Chuuya ran his thumb across the corner of Dazai's mouth, dragging blood and water and admiring his countenance.
"There you are," Dazai whispered, satisfied and possessive in a gentle way. "When you try to be cruel, that's when you're most honest."
Chuuya threw himself on top of Dazai in a fit of rage, grabbed his wet clothes, and pulled him down, crushing his mouth with his own again to silence him. He kissed him hungrily and furiously, his body tense as a spring. He pushed Dazai as if he wanted to force him back, mark his distance, and dominate the rhythm. For a couple of seconds, he succeeded. Dazai gave in a millimeter under the rain that slid down their faces. Their tongues collided and searched for each other between gasps. The kiss became wetter and deeper—almost too much to breathe.
But Dazai never backed down.
Chuuya felt the trap in the angle of their bodies. On his knees and unsupported, his back close to the column, he was still breathing heavily from the battle. Out of sheer pride, he tried to straighten up, but Dazai grabbed his wrist and turned him with ruthless precision. Using that short impulse—that feint of getting up—Dazai locked him in again, as if to remind Chuuya that balance did not belong to him in that state.
Chuuya's back hit the damp stone of the column with a dull thud; he didn't have time to cushion the blow. It didn't hurt as much as it enraged him. His world was reduced to that point of contact: cold stone, waterlogged clothes, knees on the ground, and Dazai's body blocking his exit. Dazai stood between Chuuya and the open space as if it were a door that had just closed.
Chuuya couldn't pull away, his body still reeling from the corruption, too exhausted to stop him. Dazai immobilized him with his presence alone. One forearm pressed against his side, trapping his knee at an uncomfortable angle, and one hand rested on the back of his neck, firm like an anchor. The other hand rested on the column next to his head, blocking his path with insulting ease. Chuuya felt the weight of that closeness—the warmth of a human body pressed against his torso and warm breath spilling into his mouth—and his body responded before his mind did, the traitor.
"Are you going to keep trying to escape just because of your pride?" Dazai murmured, brushing his bitten lip against his own without kissing him. "I like it when you convince yourself that you're in charge."
Chuuya clenched his jaw. He felt the beat in his throat, the blood mixed with the rain, and the adrenaline spinning in his chest like a burning wheel. Those words had fallen on his chest like a blow.
I'm not the one running away… he thought bitterly.
"I'm not… running away," he spat. The phrase came out shakily, like a challenge.
Dazai smiled and, without giving him any respite, kissed him again.
The kiss blossomed slowly; It no longer requiring violence to gain ground. Dazai gently bit Chuuya's lip in return, and Chuuya felt a twinge of pain and pleasure as if a thread of the control he still had left had been torn away. Their tongues met again, wetter and more insistent. They moved with a synchronicity that shouldn't exist between two people who claimed to hate each other. Chuuya noticed how Dazai kissed him as if he knew exactly how much pressure to apply to break him and how much to caress him to make him stay.
The cold column against his back forced him to feel every inch of Dazai's body pressed against his—the rubbing of their soaked fabrics, the heat that shouldn't exist in this downpour, and the pressure of Dazai's hips against his that sent a shiver down his neck. His crotch trembled at the contact, creating a burning whirlpool in his belly. Chuuya wanted to turn his flushed face away and catch his breath, but Dazai followed him, brushing his mouth and stealing the distance as if he needed their contact to survive.
Chuuya grabbed Dazai's shirt tightly and pulled him closer. He kissed him with a fury that was no longer just defense but a way of confessing without words, of showing him that he, too, could claim and sink there and make him burn. Their tongues sought each other out again, tangling and chasing each other with shared hunger. The kiss became a wet, desperate exchange full of broken breaths, saliva, rain, and that electricity that left them trembling even as they tried to hold each other.
At some point—an inevitable, tiny point—they both ran out of air.
They parted just enough to breathe, but not enough to ruin the moment. Dazai was still there, shutting him out the world; Chuuya was still with his back against the stone, his swollen lips burning and tingling. His heart pounded as if it wanted to burst out of his chest. An intoxicating heat crossed his stomach and traveled straight to his erection.
The air between them was charged with palpable electricity. The rain fell relentlessly, and the theater remained a pile of rubble. The world remained dirty, broken, and indifferent. But Chuuya—panting, with a pounding heart sparkling with pure adrenaline and the taste of Dazai still on his lips, mingling with the taste of rain and blood—knew he could no longer pretend that violence, hatred, and rivalry were the only things binding them together. It was something vaster, more complicated, and much more dangerous.
With his forehead pressed against Chuuya's and his warm breath against his cold skin, Dazai murmured:
"See? I didn't leave you alone."
Chuuya closed his eyes, trembling between the rage that still burned within him and something that finally had a name. It was as terrifying as Corruption itself and as old as the 1964 Romanée-Conti.
"You are..." Chuuya whispered, his voice hoarse with emotion. "A fucking disaster."
Dazai smiled—a small, genuine smile that, for the first time in Chuuya's existence, wasn't a blade, a mockery to hurt him, or a mask to hide the truth. It was the smile of a relieved man who had achieved the impossible.
"I know," Dazai replied softly, his voice laden with truth and the weight of that unrepeatable moment.
Chuuya opened his eyes and looked at Dazai. In his gaze, which had previously been a storm of rage and confusion, there was now something more than war. There was also weary acceptance and fierce surrender to the inevitable. He had been fighting against that inescapable truth since he was fifteen, since the day he met that disaster wrapped in bandages. Finally, he ran out of strength to deny the undeniable. The defenses he had built up for so long collapsed under deep exhaustion and an overwhelming truth.
"Then don't you dare," Chuuya said in a hoarse whisper. His throat still burned from the cry of corruption and the plea of vulnerability. "Don't you dare leave again. Don't leave me alone, Dazai."
Saying those words aloud, full of suffering and vulnerability, hurt his soul. Exposing that intimate and heartbreaking part of himself was something he had never done before. Never in his darkest dreams did he imagine saying them to Dazai.
Dazai held his gaze, his dark eyes fixed on Chuuya's, all his seriousness concentrated on that silent promise.
"I won't," he replied calmly, without the slightest trace of mockery. It was a statement, raw and firm, not an option.
Chuuya frowned; mistrust was so ingrained in him that it emerged even amidst that overwhelming vulnerability.
"How can I believe you?" he asked, the word laden with the weight of all the abandonments and betrayals that had accumulated between them over the years.
Dazai bowed his head slightly. It was a subtle gesture, as if the world were too big and complex, and, for once, he wanted to say something simple and direct, stripped of all its layers of deception and trickery.
"Because you're my other half, Chuuya."
In that absurd, corny, and incredibly true sentence from a man like Dazai, Chuuya felt that, if fate really existed and wasn't just a poetic invention, it had always had his face. The face of a sarcastic idiot who was cruel to the core and brilliant to the point of exasperation. Despite all his demons and twisted games, he was a man who had put his hand on Chuuya's skin every time the monster Arahabaki, or chaos itself, wanted to swallow him whole. The connection was so deep that it hurt and so necessary that it was frightening.
Chuuya let out a shaky breath, somewhere between a bitter laugh and an old rage still struggling to come out. He didn't know if he wanted to hit Dazai or drag him to a dark place where he couldn't disappear again.
"I swear, if you do that again, I'll kill you, you bastard."
Dazai brushed his cheek with his thumb, a light, intimate caress. He wiped him away a drop of blood mixed with rain that had remained there, a remnant of the battle and of his own regained humanity.
"You already tried. Several times, in fact. And look where we are."
Chuuya growled, a low, guttural sound, a final protest. But this time, he didn't pull away. He stayed there under Dazai's warm hand in the rain amid the ruins. The world was finally moving forward. Although Chuuya didn't know what to do with this new truth revealed amid rubble and kisses, he discovered that if his destiny was to die with Dazai, he was going to force him to live first.
To live every damn day by his side.
Together.
Even if it hurt their souls and every step toward each other meant renouncing the mask that had kept them standing for so many years. Even if they continued to scratch each other with sarcasm and clash with pride. Even if they bit their tongues so as not to admit the obvious, as if acknowledging it meant losing a battle neither of them knew how to win. Their relationship had never been clean or simple. It was violence turned into language, rage used as a bridge, and danger as a shared home. Perhaps they would continue to kiss with that fierce desperation as if the sky could fall at any moment because, with them, with Soukoku, the end of the world was always just a heartbeat away.
But now, for the first time, Chuuya not only accepted it, he chose it. He wanted it with a mixture of bitter lucidity and inevitable acceptance. He was aware that love could also be a battle worth fighting. He finally admitted that what started as a war between two people was actually love. He could no longer deny it.
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