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I once had a family. I had a father, mother, a brother and a sister. My father hated me. Because of my disease. He hated me so much that he tried to killed me. But he failed. I'm the one end up killing the man. I murdered my own father. Yet, I doesn't regretted. I was happy that he was gone forever.
And now, I will lived with my family that truly loved me.
Years past. I'm still a child. I never grown up. And never will be one. This is my disease. I cannot grow up. I'm unold. Ha. New word. Unold. Just like the word undead.
"Hey… Bro?" I called my brother, as we both sit on the couch.
"What is it? You're hungry? Or you just want to call me? Hmm?" My big brother Acter said. He's the sweetest brother I had.
"No… I just want to ask you. When would you marry her? Elisa. My future sister-in-law?" I finally got the question out my mouth.
"Wait… What?!" Acter seemed shocked about my question. His eyes wide open and so as his mouth. His like " Who told you that?!" kind of expression.
Now I'm confused.
He's not going to marry Elisa?
"You're not going to marry Elisa?" I asked again. Wondering what will the answer be at the same time.
"What? No… I mean yes. Yes, I'm going to marry her! It's just… I haven't ask her yet… Well, I already bought the rings but…... I kinda lost my courage. You know…" Acter blushed when he answer my question. Those red and pink colours on his cheek are so cute! And handsome of course.
Ha. My brother is so cute!
"Acter, bro. Just ask. Go. Right now." I patted his shoulder and said with a threatening tone. I really wanted that sister-in-law. Elisa is my friend. I'm glad that she will became my sister-in-law.
"Okay…okay… Just please stop making that creepy face." Acter said and then stand up from the couch. He ran to his room and ran out of it. Before he went out the house, I saw something in his hand. It's a small black box. That's definitely the rings.
Acter and Elisa got married after 2 months since the conversation I had with Acter. And my kinda mean but just a tsundere elder sister, Friya also got married. Because my big brother and sister are twin and they are so close, so they got married at the same day,same church,same time. Everything is the same.
3 years past since their wedding. We all had a wonderful time and happy memories. But things don't last long. Especially happy things.
Our mother died in illness. She had a lung cancer. It's been some years. But too early. She haven't see her grandchildren born yet. And then every thing is just messed up. Friya divorced with her husband. I asked her once why. But she never answered. She just cried all the day, locked her self in her room. I tried everything to make her feel better. But none of it worked. 4 months later, I noticed Friya's stomach had got bigger. When I saw her tummy is bigger and bigger each days and weeks, I knew she was pregnant.
"Friya. You're pregnant. It's his… right?" I sat on her king size bed besides her. Laying my head on her shoulder, whispered to her softly.
"Yes, I. It's his. You know… I, I never answer the question you all once asked me. I know you all are worried of me. But… I just don't want to answer that question. I'm sorry, I…" Friya hold my shoulder, hugged me. She is her again. The sister that always liked to called me "I". My name is Isevy. So, for short is I. Just I. Sometimes it's a bit confused. But now I already used to that nickname of mine.
"Okay… But you have to promise me. Promise that no matter what happens, you will take care of yourself and that kid inside you! I'm serious!" I pushed Friya away a bit to look at her face. Staring into her red eyes. I can see myself in her crimson red eyes. A girl with long and wavy brown hair, white skin like snow at winter day and brown bright eyes. The 12 year old liked girl in her eyes was staring her with a serious face that looks kinda funny.
As so. She laughed.
"Ahahaha… Oh my god, I. You look funny with your so called serious face. It's a dumb face you know? I like your creepy face more than it." Friya laughed and complaining my face.
"Friya! Just fucking promise me okay?!" I yelled at her. Dissatisfied.
"Alright, alright. Although I hate making promises… but I'll made it for you. I promise… I promise I will take care of myself…and my baby too." Friya said and rubbed her belly.
When she looked at her belly, her eyes was so soft and caring. Although she didn't notice, she loved her child.
"Good. Now come on! Let's get some food." I smiled satisfied and grabbed Friya's hand.
"Okay, okay. Lil' sis." She laughed and followed.
Another year past. Friya had gave birth for my little nephew. We named her Chara. Because of our big brother name is Acter. Which combined into CharActer.
She's a sweet girl. Cute and pure. Well… was one. But they changed. Either Friya, Acter or Chara. But not me. I'm the one that hadn't change. Still the old me.
Friya broke our promises. She started hurting Chara when that poor little girl was still 3 years old. I tried to help. But nobody listen to me. Acter started cheating on Elisa with a young sexy woman. She's a completely mean bitch. And of course, I hate her. I don't even know why Acter cheated on Elisa for that bitch!
Elisa was very upset. She kept locking her self in her room. Not theirs anymore.
Chara was a sweet girl once. But Friya broke her heart so hard. Now she is full of hatred. She is a very bad and evil girl now. But I still don't want to gave up! I wanted to save my family!
"Chara… may I speak with you, sweetheart?" I walk into Chara's room and sat beside her on her bed. I speak very careful and soft tone.
"Yes, you may, Aunt Isevy. What is it?" Chara looked at me and turn her head away. She is not quite in the mood.
"I'm getting you out of here. Don't tell anyone, okay?" I said and brushed her messy brown hair.
"Where can I go? Orphanage? Well, I won't go if you send me to an stupid orphanage." She stared at me dangerously. Trying to threat me with her creepy face.
But they never work.
"No. Not an orphanage. It's a home. Your father's. Your own father's. Your going to stay with him instead of us. Please Chara. Leave this home. I promise you I'll fix everything. When it's done. You can come back if you want." I said. Blushing her hair again.
"I don't like this... You sounded like you will be gone... Like you're the one that will leave. I actually loved this home, Aunt Isevy. Because I had my family beside me." Chara grabbed my hands and squeezed them.
Well, she does cares about me.
"Heh. Go Chara. Now. I already packed your stuffs. NOW." I already couldn't control myself. I used that creepy face on her. I knew what I am.
A god damn psycho path.
Chara was shocked. Then she nod and grabbed the bag. She looked at me when she leaves. I can saw her crying.
"You already know where it is, honey. Go find him!" That's the last word I said to her.
She left.
A month later, I left my home. I knew it was me who broke my family the whole time. It wasn't just my body. My mental was also had issues. I just ignored them.
I got my brother stop cheating and the couples do forgave each other. Friya was sent to an asylum but she was okay now. She heal up her mental very good.
Soon after I fix all the problems I caused, I left. Forever perhaps. Well, we still contact each other on phones. But I never go back.
They was worried for me but I convinced them that I can live by myself. They trusted me.
Someone asked me a question once. "What does family means to me?"
I will smiled at them and said" Family means Love. Family means we helped each other and nobody is going to left behind. Family is Family. But… family also means Hate."