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An autumn has passed since your death. Kate has been well… she says she’s fine or “coping” but it’s obvious she’s still struggling. So is everyone else. Natasha doesn’t know it was her, nobody does. Everyone thinks it was a widow that got away before Kate arrived. Which is true but nobody thought it could be Natasha.
About a week after your funeral Kate had to clear out your room. She gave up halfway through and curled into herself on the floor when her foot brushed against something. It was a stack of letters. With a note saying ”these are for when I die, no matter when or how”. Kate picks them up. There’s one for each important person from your life and one for the team.
Kate hands them out but keeps hers for later when she’s alone.
Letter one - the team
Dear avengers.
If this letter is being read then I’m not here anymore. I thank you all for everything. You gave me family, one I never thought existed let alone have. I’ve always dreamed of being needed and that’s exactly how you made me feel. I’d like to say. I love you all.
From Yn.
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Letter two- Tony
Dear Tony
You’re not like everyone says you are. You’re not some rich man who doesn’t care. You care even if nobody sees that. You’re the father I never had. Thank you for letting me join the team, thank you for adding an extra shot of alcohol in all my drinks. Thank you for laughing at my jokes and saying equally terrible ones back. Thanks dad.
Love form your honorary daughter, Yn.
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Letter three - Clint
Dear Clint
I think you deserve a letter because not only are you like a dad to me you’re like a dad to Kate. Before we met I thought you’d hate me but turns out you didn’t hate me maybe “unsure” of me at first. But you warmed up to me, you made sure that I was good for Kate, for your daughter. (Ps: if your also like a dad to me does that make you and Tony my dads?)
Love Yn
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Letter four - Wanda
Dear Wanda
I’ve never had a friend before let alone one like you. A friend like you isn’t something that is easily found but I did it didn’t I? Nobody else would make pancakes for my girlfriend and tease me the whole time. And you kept me and Kate a secret like we asked. I could always trust you. You’re the best friend I could have asked for.
Lots of love Yn
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Letter five - Yelena
Dear Lena
We haven’t always been the closest hell we spent 12 years apart from each other. But we also spent our childhood together in Ohio with Mama and Dad. We watched Natasha cut and dye her hair blue and then regret it a day later. We used to watch the “lamp bugs” in the garden and play on the swings. I’d give you my portion of mac and cheese because I hate cheese. And the moment we saw each other again what did we do? We tackled each other to the ground and fought, which we also did as kids. I love you sister.
Love your little sister Yn
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Letter six
Dear Nat
Hi, it’s me Yn, I don’t know if you’re reading this right now. You’re still missing… I don’t know if we’ll find you or if you’ll be alive when we do. If you are reading this then it means you’re safe and I’m gone. I don’t know if I got to say goodbye or not, but I hope I did. If not then by Nat your an amazing sister thanks. And don’t dye your hair blue again or I’ll haunt you.
Love from Yn
She goes up to her room and opens her letter.
The final letter - Kate
My dearest Kate:
I hope that you’ll never have to receive this letter because if you have then I know that you’re probably mad at me. I know that I’ll be dead when you read this. I hope I died in a cool way like a dragon or saving the world or even you. You know on our 17th date, the one on the rooftop I told you I had the best view. I wasn’t looking at the skyline, I was looking at you. You’re everything to me Kate. I love you more than anyone or anything. You’ve helped me out of dark places and into the happy ones. If you hadn’t spilt coffee on me I would have been dead long before I could write this letter. You’ve saved me in many ways. And I’d like to say that I’ve saved you to. But I think you’re always perfect, when you’re sick, on your period, when you’re mad, sleepy, scary and especially when you’re happy because then I’m happy. And you know what we say “I love every version of you” and it’s true i love EVERY version of you.
Love your girlfriend Yn.