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Oh, my dearest Lewis,
If only I could tell you how much I love you... how much I miss you... How much I need you with me, my love... Do you remember that day? Even when we fought for the title, and I lost, you won of course... You still held me so tenderly, and looked at me the same, like I hung the moon and stars... You did, for me, you're my hero and the one I want.
Then came 2016... I remember Friday, I kept saying to myself "It's all going to be fine, Nico, you're going to win your title and get the hell out of here", then of course came Saturday, when I choked on my Frosties as I spilled them out in the sink and thought only of you...
Then it was Sunday, and I was lost, Lew, so fucking lost, it was all such a mess in my head and before I knew it I was climbing out of the car as a world champion, then I saw you, with your open arms and the grin on your face I could never tell if it was fake or not... I could always read you, Lew, it was so fucking easy before it all ended... Your arms felt like heaven, my love, for the first time in years, I felt truly home...
And oh, it's hard to look at you, but I wish you were with me... It's hard to let go when all I see is you... I need you with me, my love...
Signed, N