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HAPHEPHOBIA is the irrational fear of touching or being touched. At four years old, Remus Lupin’s home was invaded by a debt collector after his father, Lyall, fell into debt. The result was not just financial, but a traumatic invasion: Fenrir Greyback entered Remus's room and sexually assaulted him.
The family fell into crisis, and Hope and Lyall’s marriage nearly ended, but over time, their financial situation improved. However, Remus developed Haphephobia. His fear triggered severe anxiety attacks. Schooling was a constant struggle and, despite psychotherapy, his development remained difficult. The only people he could touch were his mother, Hope, and his sister, Millie. Overwhelmed by guilt, Lyall distanced himself from his children, focusing solely on work.
Remus believed he would never be with anyone; he saw the world with color and love, but nothing felt "normal" to him. That was until he met Sirius Black—the most beautiful boy he had ever seen, from his black curls and blue eyes to his French accent. Sirius transformed his life, and little by little, Remus realized his dream: to love and to be who he truly was, without the inexplicable fear of being happy.