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‘’Joonghyuk’’ I recognized the voice that called out to me but before I could even turn around, he put his hand over my shoulder. I sighed before saying ‘’Kim dokja, didn’t I tell you stop doing that’’ I push his arm off but he just laughs before saying, ‘’Stop calling me by my full name, it makes it seem like we're not close’’
‘’But were not’’ I declared, he held his chest jokingly before saying in a pained voice ‘’Joonghyuk, you’ve hurt me with your cold words. Must you be so mean to your childhood friend’’ I sighed and walked ahead. He screamed for me to wait up as he jogged up to me. Like he said, we are childhood friends. We met when we were five as neighbours and classmates, and we have been close since then ‘’Listen, since you're free this weekend, why don’t you come over to my university event’’ he said as continuously poked me, I grabbed his hand and turned to him.
‘’Who told you I was free this weekend?’’
‘’Your calender?’’
‘’Didn’t I tell you not to enter my room without my permission?’’
‘’So your gonna come?’’
‘’No, why would I’’
‘’If I give you three good reasons, will you come then’’
‘’Sure’’
‘’One, you need a break. You’ve been gaming all month because of the upcoming tournament, so this could be a way for you to relax’’ well, he isn’t wrong, I really do need to unwind before the tournament ‘’Two, you need to socialize more. Didn’t we make an agreement in the beginning of the year that you would make more friends outside of gaming?’’ When did I agree to that? ‘’And three, it’s because I asked you to come’’ I stared at him after he gave his third reason, he really knows me so well. He knows that even if I complain, I’ll always listen to what he has to say and do what he wants. The real idiot here isn’t him but actually me, why? It's because I am so in love with him that I’ll do anything he wants.
‘’You were actually starting to convince me, until your third reason’’ I turned away from him so he wouldn’t see my face, ‘’Aww, come on. I gave you three good reasons’’ He said, ‘’Your being unfair now, your the one who agreed to this deal and everything I said was valid’’ he stopped me from walking and turned me towards him, he looked annoyed, which I found funny, ‘’did you just laugh, wow your taking this as a joke’’ he said as he pointed his finger at me ‘’No I’m not, I’m just laughing cause I remembered something funny’’ ‘’What is it then?’’
Instead of answering him, I shoved his face away with my hand and continued walking. He complained the whole way home about how unfair I am and that I am acting like a sore loser but all I could think was how cute he was acting, even if it was unintentional. ‘’Okay that means it’s a yes, no take backs’’ ‘’Wait, what are you talking about?’’ I asked as I opened the door to our shared apartment. I still remember the day he asked to share apartments, even if he saw it as two friends sharing a house to save on rent, I saw it as hope that he might actually like me too.
‘’You just agreed to be a server for my departments restaurant’’
‘’When did I agree to that’’ he looked at me like I was crazy, ‘’Just now, I said if you remained silent for the next five seconds its a yes, and you remained silent’’
‘’That’s the most dumbest thing I have ever heard’’
‘’It’s not dumb if you agreed to it, listen you could have just responded but instead you kept quiet. I fail to see how this is my fault’’
‘’You obviously knew I wasn’t listening, that's why you brought up a dumb condition like that’’
‘’How was I to know you weren't listening, I took your long silence for you being excited to be a server’’ and with that he entered his room without letting me speak, he always has to get the last word, huh? I went to my room as well and fell onto my bed. He was probably mad that I was basically ignoring him the whole way here hence that stupid condition that he made, but it’s not like I could explain to him that I was ignoring him because I was thinking about him, If that even makes sense at all. I rub my face and sigh at the thought of what dokja roped me into. Me, a server. I have never imagined myself as a server.
Well it’s a win for me, by doing this I guess I can spend more time with him. I smiled at the thought of spending time with him but I came to regret how enthusiastic I was at that moment because I was totally wrong.
I’m currently serving at their so-called restaurant and I haven’t even been able to get a glimpse of Dokja. This didn’t go the way I thought it would. In my head, I thought it would be him and I cracking jokes, having fun as we serve or something but instead I’m stuck with the person I hate the most, ‘’I’m still so shocked you actually came to be our server, maybe hell is freezing over as we speak. But I guess it shouldn’t come as a shock, considering how you’re so in love with him. You'll literally do anything he asks of you, I bet you will even eat dirty if he told you too‘’
‘’Shut up, han sooyoung’’
‘’And who would have guessed that the amazing pro gamer, Yoo Joonghyuk was too much of a pussy to admit his feelings to the love of his life’’ she made a heart shape before breaking it and then laughed as she looked at me. In my whole life, no one was able to guess my feelings for him, except her. She was able to guess it right away. It was six months into his first year that he met her and he wanted us to meet. It was going well until he got up and said he was going to the washroom and the minute he was out of hearing shot, she turned to me and asked ‘’Hey, pro gamer, are you in love with kim dokja’’ I had been so shocked that she found out from one meeting that I just kept quiet. I also had to take into account that if she found out about this so quickly, God knows how much she’ll find out if I let something slip. It’s been three years since then and she does this almost every time we meet.
‘’I don’t even know where he found someone like you’’
‘’Oh, your jealous?’’
I simply rolled my eyes at her comment, ‘’Can you just drop it’’
‘’No’’
‘’Your being really annoying, you know that?’’
‘’Are you cranky because you haven’t seen kim Dokja since you came?’’
‘’...’’
‘’Omg, you're like a kid with a crush, how cute’’ I honestly don’t think it's that funny to the point where she's literally on the floor. I should have made sure they never became friends to begin with. After her little performance, she finally got up and dusted off the dust from her clothes
‘’Anyways, when are you going to step up and tell him?’’
‘’I know, I’ll tell him one day’’
‘’You’ve been saying that for the last three years, you know. I bet you’ve been telling that to yourself even way before we met’’ she's another person that knows me a little too well.
‘’It’s not exactly easy to tell your childhood best friend you're in love with them. Knowing him, he would feel burdened by my feelings and blame himself for not being able to reciprocate them’’
‘’By the way, why do you always assume that he doesn’t like you?’’ I turned and looked at her. She is right though, even if I wished and dreamed I always come back to my reality. I know he doesn’t like me and just sees me as a friend. I know the type of look that he has when he likes someone, that’s a look he has never given me.
‘’I don’t know. I just have a strong feeling’’
‘’I also have a strong feeling that you should stop trusting your gut. Whenever you do, it seems like bad things follow’’
‘’Get over it, It only happened once’’ It seems like she’s still angry that I got us lost in the woods for three hours at night. That night I had wanted to show dokja the stars from a view I found online. He had agreed to come with me but he all of a sudden showed up with Han Sooyoung. I should have taken that as a sign of our future bad luck. Anyways, ignoring the fact that there was a third wheel ruining the whole thing, everything started going bad when we strayed off the walking path.
We were starting to get lost and instead of listening to han sooyoung suggestions, I insisted that we listened to my gut and I ended up leading us in the wrong direction making us get lost. At the end of the day we didn’t even get to see the stars cause it was cloudy and not to mention how exhausted we all were. Out of anger, Han Sooyoung forced me to carry her down the hill or she would scream. Top ten most annoying things she's ever done by the way.
‘’I'm never getting over that. But I’m serious when I say don’t listen to your gut this time’’
‘’Why?’’ I asked as I passed a drink to a customer. ‘’Because he's going to be taken right from you’’ She then proceeded to point her hand in a direction and once I looked up, I finally got what she was talking about. Kim Dokja was standing there talking to this girl. From the way I saw it, it looked like she liked him. Dokja hasn’t dated that many people, and I would say it's because of his personality.
There was this one time in high school when his girlfriend had asked to hang out, he told her he couldn’t because his mom wanted him to run an errand for her. She found him in the comic book shop on her way home. I remembered him coming over to my house with his hair disheveled and his clothes messed up. He said that she jumped him the minute she saw him and hit him with the nearest object.
‘’Who’s that?’’ I asked, ‘’Lily, she's an exchange student from Thailand’’ We watched their interaction and how she giggled at everything he said. Please he is not even that funny, why is she laughing so much? I clicked my tongue unknowingly just to receive a laugh from Han Sooyoung. ‘’I believe this should give you enough motivation. She is very pretty, I doubt he would just let her go’’ Even if I don’t like agreeing with her, she isn’t wrong. She is very pretty and is exactly his type.
I was about to walk over to them when I was stopped by Sooyoung, ‘’And, where do you think you're going. You can’t just interrupt their conversation like that’’ she pulled me back and looked at me. ‘’Don’t you think he will be mad if you just come guns blazing acting all jealous?’’
‘’I wasn’t going to come guns blazing’’
‘’Oh yeah, you're telling me you weren’t going to go over there and pull Dokja while showing her a mean face’’ she should have become a detective instead of a writer. ‘’Okay maybe I was going to do that. I don’t see the problem with it’’ she sighed as she held her head. She held my shoulder and faced me in the direction of Dokja and that girl.
‘’You can clearly see him having a good time, right? You're going to ruin things. How about this I’ll help you’’
‘’How’’ she simply smiled when I asked, ‘’I’ll tell you how to get his attention, and you have to trust me. I know what I'm saying, okay?’’ after she finished talking she pulled me down along with her into a squatting position and started to tell me ways to get him.
“That's all?”
“Yes, don't do anything more”
‘’Umm, what are you guys doing on the floor?’’ We both turned around and looked up in shock to find Dokja standing there looking at us confused.