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When Jude loved, he did with everything he had, which is why he knew when Sharpness stopped loving him. That is if he ever loved him to begin with.
He knew who Sharpness was a person, that he always got revenge on those that wronged him. That’s just who he was, he didn’t blame him for his behavior, he would do the same in his situation. Sharpness hadn’t done anything against him yet, but he knew, he knew that it was coming. So he set up a trap, a test of sorts. A test to see if he really cared about him, if this alliance ever meant anything to him.
It was no surprise when Sharpness pressed the button, he should’ve seen it coming earlier. Yet as he fell into the trap he felt hollow, but there was no time for that, he had to finish the job.
He was now trapped, “Why? Why would you do this, Sharpness?!” He yelled, as the swordmaster critted him. He knew this was coming but come on he couldn’t believe he was THIS predictable.
“WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS? WHY WOULD YOU THINK I’M THAT STUPID?” He swapped his chest plate, the skulk sensor activating and with it and Sharpness falling into the trap.
For now it didn’t matter that he was betrayed, that the moments they shared were nothing but fake memories. He didn’t think of that, not as Sharpness yelled, confusion and anger mixed in his voice. Jude always enjoyed trapping others, it was like crack even now the high of trapping Sharpness overwhelmed everything else.
Instead he decided to focus on that, his final screams before the potions took effect. It was a different type of high, hearing how Sharpness struggled. The fact that the roles were switched around, the bitch really did think he could trap the trapper. Pathetic.
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After Jude freed himself and he was sure that Sharpness wouldn’t return, he headed down to the trap to retrieve the stuff that Sharpness had dropped. He was still riding that high of trapping him, it felt amazing, but as he finished collecting his stuff, he couldn’t feel anything. He wasn’t happy that the trap had work, if anything he was disappointed.
Yes the trap was meant to be a test, and he expected for Sharpness to pull, but a part of him, a small part of him wanted for him to not do it. A part of him hoped that he could still be teammates with Sharpness. Hoped that he had a friend by his side, a lover perhaps. Jude did love Sharpness, but he knew that they would be destined to never be together. He was disappointed because his love wasn’t enough to convince Sharpness to stay.
He still remembered the first time they kissed, it was a couple weeks ago. Jude was planning some new traps, going over plans and resources, when Sharpness came into the room. They then talked for hours, about traps, the server, and who to trap. Then, when Jude said he was going to look for good trapping places, Sharpness approached him. Their lips met, the kiss was nothing like Jude had experienced before. Maybe because they used to be enemies, it felt even sweeter to be kissing Sharpness.
At the time, Sharpness had looked at him like he was the only person in the world. Jude should’ve known better, that all those moments were only to distract him from the swordmaster’s real goal. Sharpness held more pieces of him than Jude cared to admit and yet Jude held no part of Sharpness, it didn’t matter how long they were together, because Sharpness always had his whole soul. Even now as he cried his eyes out, every single piece of him belonged to the swordmaster. It didn’t matter, he could beg, forgive him, but he wouldn’t. The betrayal was enough to show that Jude held no importance in Sharpness’ heart. To betray him, to forget everything they could’ve had and what they could’ve been.
Jude didn’t realize when he started crying, not until it was too late to stop the tears. “Fuck,” he sobbed, leaning against a wall and falling to his feet. “Fuck. FUCK YOU SHARPNESS!” He cried for what felt like hours, he knew he cared about Sharpness, that he loved him. He just didn’t expect to care so deeply about him. He knew that this was going to happen and yet the tears kept flowing.
He felt his body go weak, he couldn’t move, couldn’t move his legs. He somehow ended up on the floor, crying for Sharpness, the only person that didn’t deserve his tears. But the tears wouldn’t stop, memories replayed on the back of his mind. When they first trapped someone, the first time they fell asleep together after a long day of trapping, when Sharpness had made him breakfast after they woke up. He had fallen in love too easily, and for that he was suffering the consequences.
Just when Jude thought the tears would stop, they continued, not because of the betrayal, but because he was sure that all those moments were nothing but lies. Sharpness wasn’t the smartest, but when it came to fighting and body language it was almost like he had a sixth sense. He knew that Jude liked him and he took advantage of that. He knew and he didn’t care. He didn’t hesitate to use it to his advantage.
Jude was supposed to be the smartest person on strength, but he couldn’t see the lies. Fuck was he an idiot for believing that anybody could love him. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. But above all, fuck Sharpness.
That is when his tears turned into laughter. At the end of the day he had won. Jude had reversed the roles, taken Sharpness’ betrayal and trapped him instead. In the end he had won, it didn’t matter that Sharpness had betrayed him because Jude had killed him. All Sharpness had done was for nothing, and that pleased Jude. He would make sure that everyone knew not to mess with him.
Jude laughed, he laughed and laughed until the tears returned. This time he wasn’t crying because of Sharpness. No. He was crying for the person he used to be, because starting from today he wouldn’t be vulnerable, he wouldn’t be someone who could be taken advantage of. Instead he would be cold, manipulative even or more than before. He would be someone to fear. Sharpness wanted to betray him? Fine, now he would learn why he should’ve never done so.
However as the trapper emerged from the trapper stray tears still adorned his pink eyes. Tears that mourned the love he once had, because now all he had was hatred. Hatred that seeped deep into his soul, hatred that wouldn’t only come for Sharpness, but the whole server.